#let boys wear pretty pastel colours and sing about summer fun ???

[shawoluvs]

are Omega X actually having a fun, summer-vibes comeback cause imma have to cry about it, finally boy groups are giving me what I need this summer ;~;

[readysetgaikokujin]

I was tagged many a moon ago by the beautiful @bonesmakenoise and I didn’t reblog because I think I was knee deep in fic writing. BUT I’m taking a breather! And I’m alone in the staff room while they have Wednesday Meeting Time. Let’s do it.

1: Are you named after someone? No, but my first name is the only non-biblical one out of my siblings. Parents said they chose it “cuz it’s pretty” 2: When was the last time you cried? Listening to Hamilton in the car like a day ago. For the fourth time. Still lost my shit. 3: Do you like your handwriting? It can be pretty when I have the right pen/pencil. And when I relax my grip. 4: What is your favourite lunch meat? Dude, salami. Or just straight up slice me prosciutto. 5: Do you have kids? My students feel too old sometimes to call kids, but I feel like my pets would be if I had any. 6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Mmmmmm DEPENDS. Could I just meet her this year? Because I like myself best this way and kinda think I was mean/anxious to the point of being not-fun anytime before 2014. 7: Do you use sarcasm? Sometimes but less often since living in Japan for some reason. 8: Do you still have your tonsils? I do! But I would cut them out if need be. 9: Would you bungee jump? I would rather have to dig a parasite out of my own skin. 10: What is your favourite kind of cereal? Special K!!! Also I really like honey anything!! I am a simple woman. 11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Running shoes before a race yes. Otherwise never. 12: Do you think you’re a strong person? Physically no, I would be bested by a fucking difficult pet bottle. Emotionally, I think so, but I also need to try to be better about what I view as “strength”. 13: What is your favourite ice cream flavour? Pistachio! Or Moose Tracks! 14: What is the first thing you notice about people? Their hands. Do they talk with them? Fiddle with things? Dangle them by their side as they wait for an opportunity to talk instead of listening to others? 15: Red or pink? Wait, let me ask you a question: “Color, or slightly lighter version of that color?” Sounds dumb, doesn’t it? (This was @platypusinplaid‘s answer, and you know what, I’m just keeping it.) (Agreed, Katie, I keep too) 16: What is the least favourite physical thing you like about yourself? Ehhhmmmm my cuticles. They crack and bleed and I then bite at them because I am weak. Besides that, I guess my teeth. Too much coffee over time and they aren’t as white as I want. 17: What colour pants and shoes are you wearing now? Charcoal fitted trousers, black flats (indoor school shoes) 18: What was the last thing you ate? I just drank a little Yakult thing 19: What are you listening to right now? “She-Wolf” by David Guetta and Sia. 20: If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Teal! 21: Favourite smell? That smell some people get in the summer where you know they worked out but don’t stink but you can almost smell sunshine on their skin. Also apple pie. 22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? Um, a redelivery service line for a package. 23: Favourite sport to watch? If I’m around someone who’s passionate about the sport and can get loud, I will fall in love with literally any live event. On TV I will switch the channel. [where the fuck is 24 tho] 25: Eye colour? Blue. 26: Do you wear contacts? Most days, but in winter with the dry air from heaters they hurt. So not lately. 27: Favourite food to eat? I could eat dried cranberries with cashews and almonds until forever. 28: Scary movies or comedy? Scary movie most of the time. 29: Last movie you watched? Grandma’s Boy 30: What colour of shirt are you wearing? Pink! Pastel like sakura, knit and loose. 31: Summer or winter? Summer, because of crop tops and jorts. 32: Hugs or kisses? Both!! I wish kissing cheeks was more mainstream tho as hello and goodbye. 33: What book are you currently reading? No books lately, just longfic. 34: Who do you miss right now? My brother 35: What is on your mouse pad? gray slate pattern. I have a wireless mouse to use with my school computer. 36: What is the last TV program you watched?  Mystery Science Theater 3000 this morning while getting ready for work! 37: What is the best sound? Wind chimes. (ooh Katie that’s a good one) I’ll also add that the pop of a good fire is nice. 38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? I don’t care for either. 39: What is the furthest you have ever travelled? Japan haha. I’m literally as far from NC as I think I can feasibly be without doubling back. 40: Do you have a special talent? I can wake up an hour early and still manage to be late for work. I can also sing pretty okay, and I can make really good cocktails. 41: Where were you born? Maryland. But I moved south almost immediately as a wee toddler, so my yank blood is slim to none. 42: People you expect to participate in this survey? Oh ho ho I am in charge yooooo~

If you want, please @gaijinnomonogatari @sun-kissedwinter @harrumphandhuzzah @moshetei @thecatsmeo @kawaiilo-ren @reachinggiants @hinats do the thing. I won’t actually order you.

[postcards-from-absurdland]

aesthetic themed ask list

Blame this lovely person: http://postcards-from-absurdland.tumblr.com/post/162331593464/ehehehehe-kto%C5%9B-si%C4%99-skar%C5%BCy%C5%82-na-to-%C5%BCe-nikt-go-nie

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?

Right now. I am singing and humming all the time, always.

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

If a friend of mine feels deep down hurt by my reaction to a certain, suicide-attempt-involving situation from some years ago. Also something connected to my currently going relationshi probably ;)

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

Well, NOT DYING OF SUICIDE  is high on the list.

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

First real kiss :)

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

Less stress, more worshiping God.

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

No bucket lists for this girl.

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

My friend M. is a petite blonde girl with hazel eyes and the loveliest upturned nose. She is my age and studies herbology. She loves heather. She has two cats. She is a devout Catholic, sets an example of faith for me and I sincerely hope an believe her to be a saint. She wears beautiful clothes and has a great singing soprano voice. And plays the guitar and ukulele. Her family is a big and loving one. She has a fiance whom we all find weird, but he loves her so much we don’t really care. She seems to be a cinnamon roll but is actually full of sass and self-causciousness. (And also cries upon seeing beautiful animals.)

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?

I had a very bumpy childhood and I was rarely happy, but when I was it was intense, like a lightning.

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?

Three weeks ago, actually. I cry a lot.

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.

An university friend W. because of both her enthusiasm and her inclination towards poetry.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

Total stranger? Nope. My conversations with strangers end up as showering them with trivia, and I want it to stay so.

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

A week ago, with a highschool friend and former roommate.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?

Since telling my parent that I love them would involve more than one person - I don’t know really.

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

They’re cool. But I find all eye colours cool. Better eyes than no eyes, right?

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.

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oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

The most attended to Catholic in the world - I live thanks to God and so do you! 

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?

Short scale billion USD equals 3,741,352,800 PLN so without even mentioning long scale billion I’d buy a new, fully furnished 3-bedroom apartment in Cracow for rent until I’d need one, a new laptop, a trip to New Zeland and back for me and my bf... and I have no idea what I’d do with the remaining 3,739,950,000 but I’d never want to actually have such a sum of money. It would literally burn my fingers. I’d probably give it all out to charities, maybe some to my family.

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

I am a forgiving person to those further from me, but not for those closest. I want to be more forgiving, as a general principle.

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.

Dear Catherine! You are a brave and open-minded person – good. Things are about to go temporarily downhill pretty soon. Be prepared, but not afraid. Stay thoughtful and merciful. Reach for people more - they are not as scary as they seem. Appreciate your self-consciousness, but do not let it drive you. Cry. Rebel. Run. Have more fun. You will not permanently damage anyone and you will not regret it. But please - stop making up stories for people to notice you. Do not be ashamed of who you are and what you feel. You are worthy of love. Stay safe.

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

Certainly not punk...

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.

I have had physical problems with piercings so far (I suspect allegries), and generally am not visually pleased with them. I love the concept of tatooing your body though, it’s so primaeval. I want to have tatoos someday, but I wait until somethng really meaningful will need visual perpetuation. Also, my Church’s thoughts on tatoos seem quite ambiguous, so the whole idea will require a lot of consideration.

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

Nope - I have no skin problems, eye dryness issues, no money for good cosmetics, no patience for maintaining a routine and therefore no time to learn how to do it properly. And I have recently smashed a full bottle of foundation on the floor. Just lipstick for me, thanks.

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.

Scarborough Fair (sung by Martin Carthy) has lead me, among other things, to: buying new clothing items, changing hairstyle, starting Irish dances, Led Zeppelin music, best HP and Tolkien fanfics ever, staying at the music school, meeting three most important people in my life to this day, and countless mountain hiking expeditions. I even buy perfume based on it (let me be bathed in thyme oil!). And I don’t even like it that much anymore.

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.

*insert a Bible quote about the unconditional love of God here*

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

I have been to countless classical and folk music concerts, but as for any other sort, this summer I attended a concert of Pidżama Porno, a Polish rock band I adore. I remember that it was a relief to finally not feel overhelmed with loneliness I have had been feeling for weeks on end. Also, they performed almost all of my fave songs!

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?

I’m waiting for a letter from a befriended English literature professor, and as much as I wish it to contain only good news, the most important factor is for it to be long - I simply adore his writing style!

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?

I have a small desk and it’s mostly organised (pile of books in one corner, pile of Weird Shit in another, papers underneath, medications in the drawer).

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?

At any time between 11 pm and 2 am - taking  a shower, using a mosturizing cream, praying, setting an alarm clock, opening the window (from April to September), putting on some music/YouTube videos and drifting away :)

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?

That time when I made up a story involving someone’s tragic death - I consider it the worst, most harming thing I have ever done, one of two major life regrets.

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

A bit darker than they are in summer, more brown than blonde - my tan and my (sun-lightened in colour) hair weirdly match so I feel I look awfully fawn all summer long.

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

I’d take M. from the “important person description”, her boyfriend, sister, brother and father on a sightseeing trip around Rome (we’d visit all the churches, probably, and have the most delicious food)

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

I wish to finally meet my future husband, because how long am I supposed to wait, damnit!

I wish to get a PhD because academia is insanely fun.

I wish to be able to go to the Bieszczady mountains alone this year because I need to sort out some emotional issues, and also I miss the sight of sky there.

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.

When I was 9 I dressed up as air. It wasn’t the best costume technicality-wise, but I am still amazed at my creativity as a child.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

Never ever been drunk or high seriously enaugh to do something I’d consider utterly bad, or even mildly stupid. I only laugh too loud.

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

Dapends on how badly I’d need the money. But “killing a man” is always on the “never” list.

storms: you only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?

Song. This one. No issues, it’s great. And as much as I love music, I’d go insane seeing only one person probably after a month.

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.

It’s a moment of great excitement, but also great anxiety, as you are momentarily aware of the endlessness of your vulnerability. 

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

My hair is my precious, I would never want to bid them farewell.

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

Venti soy latte? Or venti soy matcha frappuccino? It’s not complicated, anyone could order this, I’d even go with normal milk if they forgot to ask for soy... What’s up with this question anyway???

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

Doing good at work and the university. Staying sane and healthy. Maintaining the faintest traces of social life. Getting better and better at love and mercy every single day.

fin.