#like idk nvr been a thing i considered like being a thing in my future if tht makes sense

[shadowbannedthehedgehog]

um actually i dont need anti depressants i just need to do laundry hehe

[liu-lang]

tagged by @laskyjedneplavovlasky 

nicknames : i’m not big on nicknames either … i have this thing where bc we usually get our first nicknames from our parents / relatives, nicknames read as really infantilising coming from anyone else. my real name is based off of katyusha which is impossible for anyone to say. both sides of my extended family call me sha (the last character of my chinese name is 莎) current boyfriend calls me chipmunk ; ex boyfriend used to call me strawberries / 草莓

star sign : aquarius sun, gemini moon, aries rising, capricorn midheaven (i did one of those online natal chart calculators – someone else who knows what this means explain what this all means)

height : 1.60 m

time rn : 19h23

last thing i googled : the eternal husband & other stories

favourite music artist : my favourite composer to play is vivaldi. in high school i discovered the song “thursday” by asobi seksu – i never listened to anything else by them. at the time i didn’t particularly enjoy their music, i just really like tt one song. now i really like them. partially bc asobi seksu to me is like deerhoof to my boyfriend (or at least this equivalency / analogy makes sense in my head). whenever i put it on in the car, he turns the music up a little bit. i wish i had appreciated them more back then bc i would have loved to see them live now. they have since disbanded / indefinite hiatus.

song stuck in my head : i like to listen to a particular kind of music when i’m reading but need to concentrate. most of the time i put on classical music i’m familiar enough w/ to “ignore” in the background but still keeps me awake / alert. other times i like yann tiersen or nils frahm or sylvain chauveau. but rn, i’ve been listening to a lot of oskar schuster – so i guess any of his stuff atm. last movie i watched : can’t rmbr but i just watched the trailer for ma vie de courgette 

last tv show i watched : dix pour cent

what i’m wearing rn : grey turtleneck dress with slightly fluted sleeves, black thermal tights, scarf 

when i created my blog : august 2011

what kind of stuff i post : more recently, cooking and baking with my cat and for my boyfriend (documented change of cats + boyfriends). everyday life stuff. going to therapy from having an absent father & narcissistic mum. music + fashion i like. left wing / anarchism. linguistics, french / chinese language things.  hogwarts house: n/a ; never read the series (i tried to and i lost the book, my sister nvr let me touch the books agn / i nvr gained an interest)

pokemon team : mystic (i play it casually … ?)

favourite colour : heather grey, #FFCC33 average hours of sleep : 4 to 5 

lucky number : idk

favourite characters : i haven’t read fiction in a terribly long time. phoebe waller-bridge’s character in fleabag (she’s nvr given a name). i like characters who have been artificially created & grapple w/ the concept of humanity / their humanity. my mum tells ppl i was “made in the lab” (IVF) all the time & i was involved in longitudinal twin studies growing up. this has given me an interesting (if not sometimes tortured) self concept. i don’t think my twin thinks of herself in the same way. sometimes i think abt finding other individuals (the other sets of twins involved in these studies perhaps ?) just to see if i am alone in my thinking or not.  dream job : i currently hold 3 jobs in very different industries / work environments. i don’t like 2 of my 3 jobs. i don’t subscribe to the “do what you love” philosophy, the more i work @ my social media management / communications office job, the more i’ve distanced myself and my sense of identity from my occupation. so the idea of a dream job is just not … worth thinking abt bc i don’t see it as attainable or worth attaining ? my “dream whatever” / “ideal situation” is divorced from my career. i consider myself a linguist more so due to my field of study / interests rather than career-wise, if tt makes sense. one thing abt working in 2 jobs i hate is tt i love the 1 job i love a lot. i’m really grateful for the opportunity to be under this professor’s mentorship and guidance and to work on this project. i wouldn’t have ever seen myself studying the institutional production of diversity in higher education but it’s really aligned to my political beliefs. my office job actually embodies all the bad things abt the neoliberal view of diversity (casting all possible aspects of social being in entrepreneurial terms, one’s social identity is a marketable asset), viewing diversity through the management paradigm (diversity & migration as a “social problem” instead of naturally occurring out of economic necessity / as une condition humaine). the stuff i do now is in pragmatics & semiotics. i would like my end goal career to have a research component, bits of comp ling / AI but my current research assistantship has some future implications on what i originally planned to do / saw myself doing in grad school.  i tag @printzcharming @radio-charlie @skydyed @tracybaconnnn @danedear @blanked