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marsandchariot · 4 years

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Mars and the Tower in Gemini

(image from The Hermetic Tarot)

Because Mars, like Saturn, is a malefic (as opposed to the benefic planets of Jupiter and Venus), we might consider the onset of its influence in Gemini (beginning on March 3rd) through qualities of challenge or disruption, with factors of positive growth or change becoming more accessible or recognizable as the transit continues.

We might recognize Mars in the impulses we wish later we hadn’t acted on, despite feeling a surge of emotion at the time that told us what we were about to express was true or right. Mars’s Tarot equivalent, the Tower, speaks to radical, difficult, or painful change, change that can feel like a destructive force if we are unwilling to work with it. The image of the Tower doesn’t necessarily describe change itself, but our fearful attitude towards it, or the way we experience it as a kind of utter loss. We might feel tempted to place blame somewhere in the face of jolting or difficult experiences. Whether or not we saw it coming or even knowingly took steps to aggravate its progress, change in accordance with the Tower feels like a loss of control, a traumatic dislocation or dissociation of the self. This may describe many different forms of becoming un-stuck, or falling out of joint. Lynn Bell has described Mars as where we have impact; maybe it can also describe where we feel impact, and how we react to it.

If you’re looking at the card from the Rider-Waite-Smith deck, the Tower looks pretty precarious to begin with--old, most likely already long in the process of deterioration, i.e. in need of some renovation. Tragic or scary as it may look, the destructive change underway in the image of the Tower can lead to positive change, or changes necessary to building the next phase of stability.

(image from the Smith-Waite Borderless Edition)

With Mars leaving Taurus and entering Gemini, we might bring a bit more of a spark or apply a radical angle to the things we do and the way we work in order to frame our contributions as offerings to others. With Mars in Gemini, it’s a great time to be a novice, to surprise yourself. In Gemini terms, the Tower might describe the productive instability incurred by new and even contradictory ideas. It might refer to necessary alterations to the ivory tower of elite intellectualism, inviting us to imagine how we might rebuild the tower, or if we’d rebuild academic and “high” cultural spaces as a kind of tower at all. Instead of rebuilding, we may benefit from observing the rubble for a while.

A tower looms over all, claiming an ability to see all, know all, consider all. How can we divert our active, propulsive, Martian energy to experience movement in multiple directions? How can multidirectionality (or intersectionality) serve as a baseline for cultivating focused and empathic understanding of multiple perspectives?

It might be helpful to think of Mars in Gemini setting up for the planet’s entrance into Cancer by late April. If Gemini operates in the technology of ideas, and Cancer builds from the material of emotion, what is it that feels important to launch into the air, even briefly, so that when it falls downward, or when you no longer see it anymore, you can trust that it has sunk itself into a structure of deep feeling?

The twins are non-hierarchical. They are not, for example, a parent and a child, a performer and an audience member, nor a teacher and a student; they are two entities that share a secret, or are embarking together on a journey into a mysterious place. They are not competing with one another; they prefer one another’s company above all else. They speak in a shared language that they didn’t mean to invent; coded descriptions simply emerge between them, and help them to identify what’s hidden and invisible in the surrounding world. In short, they share for the joy of sharing, because they know that collaboration is how knowledge takes shape.

For the following considerations of Mars in Gemini, we will look at the topics of the houses as impacted by this Mars transit, drawing also upon Mars's Tarot equivalent of the Tower. With Mars cutting its way through the twins, it is worth it to ask: what is separating or crumbling? What is coming together, or fusing, via the alchemical power of lighting and fire? Where Mars splits something open, when lightning strikes the Tower (so similar in appearance to the word “I”), what is it that comes out? Susan Harding describes “apertures in the ordinary” as disruptions that provide opportunities to speak. In other words, when something ruptures, it provides an opportunity to tell a generative story, which, as M+C, is at the heart of what we hope to offer.

(image from Small Spells Tarot)

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 1ST HOUSE

You may be doubting yourself in terms of intellectual abilities. This has little to do with how you yourself experience your internal world, where thoughts are quick, agile, and interesting, leading you to investigate unfamiliar fields or topic areas. But you may feel a stagnancy when it comes to expression. Understand that that stagnancy or feeling of being unable to communicate your knowledge is not a deficiency but an unfair pressure you put on yourself to usefully demonstrate or disseminate your knowledge in legible or impressive ways.

Instead of attempting to share everything with the most people, individuate what you’ve learned; consider who in your social world would be most interested in what you have to say. If what you want is to connect, you can; you just might have to be more mindful and do so on a 1:1 basis, tailoring what you share to each individual based on who they are, not how interesting you personally find the information.

In this case, the jolt of Mars, the bolt of lightning, is a gift you give to others. In your own experience, when lightning strikes the tower, it probably thrills you. Consider the difference between concentrated electricity versus electricity in the atmosphere. What are the situations where you’re creating static versus the ones where you’re being clear? Are you more interested in a heightened, invisible tension or a single, visible impact? For these next few weeks, be mindful of the results you want, and be careful about your aim. You have the power to communicate more than your own intelligence.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 2ND HOUSE

You may be experiencing an anxiety over what you can claim as your own. The force of Mars might make you feel separated from your usual topics of interest. You may be worried that your focus or interests are mimetic of others’, or of something that already exists; you may be feeling defeated by an inability to see your work or your insights as “original.” This may cause you to want to tear down or blow up this work you have been constructing. But what if instead you gave your work the permission and the time and space to develop its own mouth, its own projection of speech? Allow your work to breathe and fully realize the thing it wants to be--existing beyond, or outside of, the compulsion to compare. When we call something derivative, we are reaffirming capitalist mythologies of material fetishism, intellectual ownership, and a lack of alternatives except the one dominant mode experience.

Gemini in the 2nd house is about entering communities by sharing a response to what is already there, not by pressuring oneself to generate a new topic; by adding layers of connection rather than a shock of distinction or separation. Instead of possessing a field, or an atmosphere, or an audience, Gemini in 2nd, by practicing self-possession and being honest about how one perceives or experiences something, exudes their own alluring atmosphere, which comes from a direct translation of how they think about things. You may not experience your own aura as striking, but your honest transmission of your experience, more with the excitement of a phone conversation than the gravity of prophecy, imparts to others an originality of relation that arises from the sense that you learn about topics by becoming friends with them, by earning their trust. When ideas or things we learn about are our friends, they don’t just reveal information, but they can provide us with actual advice. We don’t need our ideas to be strikingly original; we need to build relationships with them, so that, as in any relationship, we can experience the gift of their difference and transformation over time.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 3RD HOUSE

Busy bee. A lot may have been added to your plate, or a change in schedule has left you in a pinch in terms of getting everything done. Don’t try to do it all, but don’t think of yourself as “dropping” something in order to make room. Figure out, instead, what you can put aside, or approach in a partial or modified way until you can resume the energy to address it again. Instead of seeing your fatigue as a failure to meet demands, try and incorporate this Mars transit as an indication that you are entering a new phase of juggling multiple expectations and routines. Mars is not pointing to a weakness or depletion, but of a need to make room in the existing order.

When we look at the Tower we might think of the Tower of Babel, a symbol of the human desire to encounter God. Seeking to maintain his omnipotence and singularity, God punished the Babylonians by destroying the tower and separating the people via language, preventing their coordination in the future. The story attributes a lack of universal and mutual understanding between people to punitive divine will.

What is it that we expect from the divine? We may call it many things--God, or luck or circumstance--but when we assign an entity the role of determining situations outside of our control, it can in some cases prevent us from locating aspects of those situations within ourselves. When we feel stalled or punished by some force (whether seen or unseen), it’s important to take the time to ask ourselves what we are working toward and why, and what, as a reflection of the answers, might need restructuring, or what might not need to be built at all.

If we feel the approach of a breaking point, we’d do much better to focus our energy on bending. Work with your parameters in a way that honors the element of air and the m.o. of the twins--change directions, and delegate. What trajectory are you on that no one is insisting you remain on, except yourself? What are you trying to sort through on your own that you could talk through with someone else? It’s not a character flaw to change your approach to your schedule so that you are allowing yourself, at least once a day, to prioritize your own restoration.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 4TH HOUSE

You could be feeling some discomfort in your home life, whether that’s reaching a point of tension or conflict with a roommate, or having conversations with family members that seem to go nowhere. Instead of a burst of movement or change, Mars might have introduced a sudden awareness of the stale areas of your life. Mars in the 4th house is asking us to reconsider our routines, especially the aspects of them we practice unconsciously. Some of our habits are so deeply held that we may not understand they can be changed. We may replicate traditions of our childhood--ones that aren’t necessarily negative, but ones that simply no longer serve our happiness. We may set arbitrary rules about what we should eat, or when we should do things, like watch TV, read, or do nothing. We may be so desperate to be physically and psychologically healthy during a time defined by illness that we have become our own nagging, overbearing parent, exacerbating our own boredom and self-resentment.

Let Mars kick those real or imagined eyes of surveillance out of your head. If you have a Tarot deck, we recommend you look at the Tower card and let it act as a representation for the mental exercise of clearing your mind (or you could even use the images of the Tower included in this post). You might meditate on the image and close your eyes; imagine yourself sending a bolt of lightning into that point in your psyche where you envision these controlling voices live and tell them to get lost. You deserve to be liberated from their control.

4th house Geminis: you can live however you want. No one is watching you. You don’t need to coordinate with anyone. You don’t need to wait and see what others are doing. You don’t even need to plan ahead. Try acting first and apologizing later; don’t resent the lack of clarity or permission as a way to prevent yourself from being a bit more spontaneous within your own sphere of experience.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 5TH HOUSE

Hit send! Submit your work, your proposals, your effusive text messages. Find opportunities to pursue, even if it’s just entering a raffle, or bidding on something in an auction. Whatever you’ve been working on, or whatever desire you’ve been half-nursing, get it out there, or begin shaping it so you can let go of at least this iteration of it. Provisional conclusions are your friend right now. Trust that you can say what you need to say in this moment, with the resources and feelings available to you. Even a prayer is something that you give over to an invisible network or channel outside of your immediate control, and in this way the idea of sending something into the world is also an exercise of letting something go, a leap or an act of faith.

Even though the fall from the Tower feels like a self-destructive risk, it’s likely that it feels liberating too--in both material and immaterial ways. If you’ve been working hard, it’s time to open the windows, take the lid off. Otherwise you run the risk of the work and your worry shutting you in and shutting you off. Don’t let your energies solidify into rock.

Eventually outside forces and voices will intercede or interject. One of the Tower’s Kabbalistic meanings is related to the mouth; it’s time to speak and/or let some outside nourishment influence or add to your ideas and projects. The energy of the relinquishing act is its own reward in that it teaches us a way of relating to what we love that is generous, creative, and inwardly lightening and restorative. Whatever it is, get it off your chest, or send it on its way.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 6TH HOUSE

You may be encountering a challenge that involves the navigation of a complex system; the transit here very much speaks to tax season, or the challenge of paperwork. It could be about wills, property, and other kinds of titles. It could be about getting yourself organized so you can see all the resources that are available to you. It could be that there are archives that need to be put into order so that you can actually use all the information you’ve collected. There is a pattern in your life--materially or psychologically--that is waiting to be discovered. Follow the feeling of Mars for the next two months. What are you drawn to? What are you repelled by? These signals are telling you what’s available in your extrasensory repertoire. They’re telling you what kinds of behaviors, thoughts, or other inclinations are no longer serving you, or what you’re undergoing for the sake of the space these things take up in your life. You may even be worried that without these behaviors or interactions in your life, you will be more bored, or you worry you will miss them when they’re gone. Divert your path. You can find things more worthy of your energy and attention; Gemini in 6th can always adapt to changes to the network.

In the Smith-Waite deck, the figures falling from the Tower are surrounded by Yods, a Hebrew letter that also symbolizes a dot of energy, a spark of fire and life. These marks appear throughout the Tarot, especially in the S-W deck, as points or moments of generative potential. While changing things up (even just thinking about it) might generate feelings of anxiety, at the same time movements of change create new energy. You don’t need to balance your life between what you hate and what you love, or what you fear and what you want. Follow your “nose” (your heart? Some other Martian organ?) toward objects, people, and mindsets that linger with you in a way that is both challenging and pleasurable. Do not mistake resentment for challenge, and do not mistake fear as something you have to bury. Feel for the sensation of something that lingers like a question, or an itch--what generates electricity in your body or the surrounding air. Clear space around that feeling so you can examine it; look for Yods. Chances are what you are unlocking is a key or a clue to the challenge of establishing a new, creatively generative system, one through which you can communicate to yourself and others with a surprising or refreshing clarity. Don’t get frustrated with yourself; enjoy the challenge of the game.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 7TH HOUSE

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In looking at the Heaven’s Gate birth chart, Mars in Gemini in the 7th house seemed to speak very directly to the way couples were required to separate in order to exist within the community. In the HBO documentary, one of the men was sharing a kind of deep sorrow that he experienced when separating from his partner of many years, and the urge he felt to propose that they leave Heaven’s Gate so that they could be together (he did not end up saying this to her). Mars in the 7th isn’t just about the separation of the romantic pair bond, but the challenges of all aspects of intimacy, the way we struggle with ourselves to express things to another person, and the way we struggle to hear what they have to say to us. It can also be the desire that draws us to others in a way we can’t explain. With Mars transiting your 7th house, make sure to be present for the way you are experiencing your intimate, perhaps emotionally difficult relationships. Do you feel like you are able to get distance from your feelings, or do they overwhelm you? Do you feel the need to argue on behalf of your feelings, or, in conflict, can you sit with the unfairness of your perspective as it may feel unrecognized or unacknowledged?

Instead of the desire to use conversation or argument as an outlet or a primary outward expression of difficult emotions, try to bring the difficulty of conflict into a different or less immediate context than with the person who your emotions immediately relate to or concern. Talk to someone else. This might be about “airing out” the feelings of conflict rather than directing them towards a purpose or outcome.

(image from the Tabula Mundi deck)

In Kabbalistic thought, the Tower represents the mouth; and, speech, like the top of the tower, or the crucible, might be the opening that attracts the destructive activation of the lightning bolt. You may feel tempted to spout fire, especially in the direction of a loved one, but, before you do so, try to take a moment to consider the effects this will have on your immediate relationship or environment. Is the scene depicted in this card the kind of results or energy you want to foster? If you are seeking change, is this what you want it to look like? Here it might be more useful to look at the Thoth deck. To do so, we have included a picture of MM Meleen’s version of Crowley’s Tower. In the heat of chaos, the source of discontent matters less than the approach to recovery. How can you divert the force of your words--while remaining true to your feeling--in the heat of the exchange? Can you find a way to examine the feeling without making it a part of a contract or negotiation? When you are ready to share for the sake of sharing--not for the sake of achieving a certain outcome--it may be that the other person has an easier time hearing what you have to say, and you won’t feel the value of your expression wrapped up purely in the way that they react to what you express.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 8TH HOUSE

Go deep. This is a great time to lean into a divinatory practice, particularly Tarot, which helps you to focus your feeling into language and recontextualizes your language into imagistic forms, the descriptions of which provide answers. Use creative dialogue--prompts where you have to ask yourself questions and answer them. Book an appointment with a reader of some kind, or set an intention with a therapist that helps you to excavate a point of uncertainty or difficulty that you are having a hard time working out on your own. Mercury, domiciled in Gemini, delivers messages between the underworld and the surface world. Gemini in 8th is about bringing the depths to light, not necessarily so they can be shared, but so they can be meaningfully integrated in the way you understand and experience yourself. With Mars transiting the 8th, it may be that something has sent you downward, or inward, in an unexpected way. It could have been a trigger, something that in a straightforward way feels unrelated to trauma but nevertheless has made that trauma feel very present. Try not to see being in this place or mindset as if it’s a setback, but rather a challenge to your abilities of mental resourcefulness; feel around in the dark for the tools available to you, and celebrate that you are not with nothing.

You might take out the Tower card from your own deck of Tarot cards or use the ones provided in this post and meditate/converse with the images there. What kind of immediate thoughts or physical reactions do you have toward the card? If, at first glance, all you can perceive are negative messages, what if you tried connecting these to changes or next phases that you would consider positive? You might even choose one of the figures (again, here, referring to the Smith-Waite deck) and imagine that you are them, falling through darkness and fire. If you knew that in the end you would be physically okay, how might you use this inward, metaphorical “fall” as a potential space for personal revelations and transformation? Or, if a visualization of the fall is too much, imagine the figures once they have finally reached the ground: disoriented, lost as to where to go or what to do next. Try not to focus on climbing out of the darkness, but rather find ways to set up camp for a while, and to let your eyes adjust to what is there. And always remember that the card that follows the Tower is the Star.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 9TH HOUSE

You may experience the onset of this transit as a kind of rebelliousness or a “storming the palace” energy. Use it. Argue with your superiors on behalf of those you love and admire. Say what you need to say in order to make space for productive exchange, not only to critique. Be mindful of shots fired. Be honest but not cruel. If you are responsible for young people, as in an educational field, teach them strategies to experience anger, and to honor it as a useful tool for advocacy. Be the lightning bolt in the Tower card: assertive yet precise. Remember that the things you say--even one thing--carry the potential for cataclysmic effect. Use your own anger to advocate for others rather than focusing energy on harming those you might have positioned as antagonists, otherwise you risk becoming the antagonizer yourself. Remind people in power that their confusion is their own challenge and not your responsibility. In some cases this might mean stepping back and letting some of those that you care for “fall from the Tower,” knowing that this can be a loving act, even as it operates as a necessary learning opportunity. Remember that often we are protecting some people from the ignorance of others.

If you are thinking of ways to disrupt a structure you exist within while being aware of the ways in which it is harmful, think about ways you might attract lightning, or ways to welcome powerful transformative force. Like Walter de Maria’s lightning field, which “is intended to be experienced over an extended period of time” and “does not depend upon the occurrence of lightning,” you may find your inclinations better served by setting the scene for change to occur, rather than ushering in that change yourself. Laying the groundwork, or discussing widely and clearly the necessity to do so, remains a valuable contribution to the process of overall change.

We don’t need to rectify privileged ignorance; we only need to provide reminders that the ignorance of a few should not have the power to delimit the experiences of many. Take space by giving reminders that that space exists, whether the powerful acknowledge it or not.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 10TH HOUSE

Facilitate a meeting of the minds. You are probably the hub for several different social groups, and it is likely that you can think of people in these different areas of your life that would benefit from knowing one another. Think of a selection of your social world that would most benefit from a convergence of some kind, and make it happen. You don’t have to feel a responsibility to host, per se, and it may not even be the case that a large group (or email chain) makes sense, but for this transit you might want to think about connecting people who you think ought to be in touch with one another. It may be your job or your public role in some way to do this for others already, but with Mars coming through, it may be a productive challenge to think about conducting this role of connection by considering different topics of connection than you normally would. Like the flash of lightning that disrupts the stability of the Tower, subsequently creating a space for necessary change and dynamic thinking, how might you also shake things up in your communities that need it?

The resulting fire in the Tower is not simply disruptive; it is fabulously alchemical. It may be that you facilitate a connection between people who could enter into a kind of productive conflict, rather than a conventionally harmonious situation. Whatever you decide to do, it could potentially bring greater excitement into others’ lives if you consider the ways in which the people you introduce to one another are very different, rather than very much the same.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 11TH HOUSE

You may have taken on more than you actually wanted to in terms of zoom groups or other meetup type things to pass the time in this past year. You may have said yes to so many things out of the idea that too much is better than not enough, but now you don’t have as much time for yourself as you would like. You also may have figured initially that joining different kinds of arts or leisure communities could be a way to unwind, but you ended up taking on more responsibility in these situations than you initially anticipated--again, out of the idea that it would be interesting, provide more opportunities, be inherently rewarding. Mars may be asking you either to cut ties with certain community obligations or just to change your habits related to the amount of community responsibility you feel energetically capable of or interested in taking on. Don’t feel bad about “abandoning ship,” like the figures in the Tower card. Anticipate your exhaustion. Anticipate your boredom. Listen to your intuition telling you it’s time to step back--it might be trying to save you from a lightning strike or a burn-out. Before you say yes to any new roles or zoom meetings, think about what it is you’re actually willing to do, and be willing to admit what it is you want to get back. Are there times when you want to experience a more passive role in your chosen communities, where someone else is directing or organizing? Maybe ensure that if you continue participating in multiple community settings, there are instances in which you are not in a primary leadership position. A sense of being taken care of, at times, can be the pleasure of existing within a group. Remember that this kind of pleasure helps to strengthen your bond to other members of your community, and in some ways the cultivation of this bond is more useful than an assumption of leadership.

MARS TRANSITING GEMINI IN THE 12TH HOUSE

For some reason you rarely forgive, permit, or celebrate in yourself the same qualities you recognize as valuable or forgivable in others. You are very well-versed in the value of disruptions, of flaws, of setbacks; you even know how to counsel others through the difficulties of grief or loss in order to bring them back in touch with the generative potential they themselves possess. For whatever reason, however, you are hesitant to accept this kind of forgiveness or gentleness from yourself; you may delay asking others for help, or putting yourself into a position to receive the advice that you know others can give. The 12th house, renownedly difficult, seems to assert that you must recover alone, that convalescence and strength of will are related and if you cannot endure something privately then you will not successfully survive it. But what you are thinking of as the burden of your pain placed onto others is actually the generosity of vulnerability; by sharing your predicament with others, you are honoring your connection with those others by expressing that you believe they have the ability to know you, to love you, and to help you. It may be hard to believe that others experience your admission of suffering as an affirmation of intimacy. You may be quicker to defend your feelings than you are to express them, perpetuating a cycle based on boundaries and obscurity rather than openness and transparency. It won’t always guarantee solving the problem in your favor, but before you punish yourself--or others--for the feeling you have, remember that you are the only one who can access what that feeling is. Mars is poking a hole in the fortress, and inviting that feeling to escape.

It may be that, as in the Tower card, you have been living in an upper room, mentally speaking, where no one can reach you. This room is not related to status or confidence, but simply the way you see yourself, or what you know about yourself to be true, fixed, constant. This vantage might keep you safe from the contradictions in your thinking, which is a way of keeping you safe from others’ judgments. But when we talk about a fall, it’s not so much about falling in the esteem of others, but about not being able to rely on the stability of your feelings and thoughts. What bothers you most is not the fall, but the activity of rebuilding the safety of structures you previously assumed would last.

More so than most, you may feel a sense of vulnerability or discomfort in the way you experience your own contradictions. Gemini in 12th might describe the way we protect or preserve our own self-conception; you believe that if this (the Tower, the structure of the “I”) remains stable, then stability is possible in other areas; if it feels unstable, then so is everything else. But when you climb down from the tower, you might see that embracing contradictions are actually what help us to live among other people, as well as to accept ourselves as a fluctuation, or a renegotiation, and not a monolith. In this case, the threat of the lightning bolt might tell you that if you don’t make preparations to climb down from the Tower, the Tower will create the situation for you.

(image from the Anima Mundi Tarot)

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kitkat1993 · 5 years

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This is quite long, but I found it interesting. A numerology reading. Some I would agree with, some I wouldn't.

Your Life Path (sometimes called Destiny) is derived from your birth date. Your Life path is the road you are traveling. It reveals the opportunities and challenges you will face in life. Your Life Path number is the single most important information available in your Personality Chart!

Your Life Path Number is 8

You are gifted with natural leadership and the capacity to accumulate great wealth. You have great talent for management in all areas of life, especially in business and financial matters. You understand the material world; you intuitively know what makes virtually any enterprise work. Your talent lies not with the bookkeeping or petty management, but with the greater vision, it's purpose, and long range goals. You are a visionary and a bit reckless. You possess the ability to inspire people to join you in your quest, but often they are incapable of seeing what you see. Therefore, those around you need your continual guidance, inspiration, and encouragement. You must prod them into action and direct them along the lines of your vision. You attract financial success more than any other Life Path, but effort is required. Your challenge in life is to achieve a high degree of detachment, to understand that power and influence must be used for the benefit of mankind. Those born with the Number 8 Life Path who do not understand the real and relative value of money are bound to suffer the consequences of greed; they run the risk of losing it all! You must learn to bounce back from failures and defeats. You have the character and resilience of a true survivor. It is not uncommon for a person with your Life Path to experience major reverses, including bankruptcies, financial failure, but you also have the talent and the sheer guts to make more than one fortune, and build many successful enterprises. More than most people, your failures in marriage can be extremely expensive for you. Despite the difficulties that life presents, you will experience the satisfaction that comes from material wealth and the power that comes with it. Business, finance, real estate, law, science (particularly history, archeology, and physics), publishing, and the management of large institutions are among the vocational fields that suit you best. You are naturally attracted to positions of influence and leadership -- Politics, social work, and teaching are among the many other areas where your abilities can shine. You are a good judge of character, which aids you well in attracting the right people to you. Most 8s like large families and sometimes tend to keep others dependent longer than necessary. Although jovial in nature you are not demonstrative in showing your love and affection. The desire for luxury and comfort is especially strong in you. Status is very important. You must be careful to avoid living above your means. Your Life Path treads that dangerous ground where power lies -- and can corrupt. You may become too self important, arrogant, and domineering, thinking that your way is the only way. This leads inevitably to isolation and conflict. The people you run the risk of hurting most are those you love, your family and friends. Be careful of becoming stubborn, intolerant, overbearing, and impatient. These characteristics may be born early in the life of an 8 Life Path, who often learn these negative traits after suffering under a tyrannical parent or a family burdened by repressive religious or intellectual dogmas. Those with the 8 Life Path usually possess a strong physique, which is a symptom of their inherent strength and resiliency.

Your Birth Day number

The day you were born bears great significance in understanding who you are and where your talents lie. The day of birth indicates some special talent you possess. It is a gift to you that will help you along your Life's Path. Your day of birth is one of your four core numbers -- the Life Path, Expression, Heart's Desire being the other three. It is the least significant of the four core numbers, but perhaps the most finite, in that it reveals a specific ability you possess in a marked degree.

Your Birth Day Number is 19

You are highly determined and yearn for independence. You tend to struggle to achieve the degree of self- sufficiency you desire, and may endure considerable frustration in your struggle for independence. The reason: your desire for independence is so strong is that it eclipses so many other balancing perspectives. As the poet John Donne said: "No man is an Island unto himself... We are all bits of the main." This is a central lesson in your life: to learn the difference between the dream of independence and the reality of interdependence. Your challenge is to achieve a wider degree of perspective on yourself and others. Exchange ideas with others, lest you become insulated and isolated by your own perspective. This can become a kind of prison for you. You can be highly stubborn, which emanates from fear. Try to see that all of life is but an ecosystem, a life cycle delicately balanced in such a way that everyone is supporting. You are highly ambitious and have a strong drive for success and power. Although self confident, you like to be encouraged. You are a hard worker and an important fixture in any enterprise in which you are involved. People are attracted to your deep commitment to your work, and the steadiness with which you do it. You are a pioneer at heart; you are willing to take risks to get what you desire. As such, you are willing to change your environment often, and even enjoy doing so. You are demonstrative in your affections and willing to sacrifice for others. You are highly idealistic, but if your ideals fail, you can become bitter and negative. You are very sensitive, with many emotional ups and downs. You tend to find yourself in dramatic situations, yet you like to control your emotions in public and come off as if everything is under control. With your determination and inventive and creative mind you have potential for achievement and financial reward!

Your Challenges

Each of us is born with both strengths and weaknesses. Numerology looks at life as if it were an educational process that is meant to bring out and enhance our talents, and turn our weaknesses into strengths. This serves to complete our being.

The job of becoming whole is one in which we must face our weaknesses and consciously work to improve ourselves. There are four Challenges to be faced during our lives. For many of us, the same challenge is repeated, while others have four distinctly different lessons to learn.

The Challenges on your life's path provide specific lessons that you must attend to, and, in order to inspire and help you, life will place you in situations that require the specific characteristics of your Challenge numbers. The four Challenges you are required to overcome during the course of this lifetime will influence you during different periods of your life, except for the Third or Main Challenge, which lasts from birth until death.

The Challenges are fluid periods of your life, not confined to specific years so much as general periods. All of your Challenges are present at birth, like actors standing in the wings. Most of us overcome our Challenges at least to some extend, if not entirely.

The duration of the First Challenge usually lasts from birth until approximately the age of 30 to 35. The Second Challenge most strongly influences your during the middle part of your life until about age 55 to 60. The Third Challenge is also called your Main Challenge and is felt throughout life. The Fourth and Final Challenge starts around age 60 to 65.

Your First Challenge number

The duration of the First Challenge usually lasts from birth until approximately the age of 30 to 35.

Your First Challenge number is 2

You are overly sensitive and too aware of other peoples' expectations. You suppress yourself to avoid feeling conspicuous. You can be overwhelmed by self-consciousness. You fear gossip about you. As a result, you become inhibited. All of this results in a suppression of your own individuality and uniqueness. You yearn to blend into the crowd. You let your own feelings and emotions play too big a role. Your hypersensitivity causes fear, timidity and lack of self-confidence. And you experience unnecessary fear and emotional turmoil. Little things seem disproportionately difficult to overcome and sometimes have a paralyzing effect. Jealousy can cause much pain and misunderstanding. These negative aspects of the challenge actually spring in part from positive characteristics you possess, especially your acute awareness and intuition. You are an antennae for other peoples feelings; you know before a word is spoken how they feel. You lack the inner strength to maintain your own center, and try to conform to the prevailing emotional atmosphere. This challenge makes you understanding and compassionate; you have an enormous empathy for the inner turmoil of others and can do much good for people with emotional problems.

Your Second Challenge number

The duration of the Second Challenge usually lasts from the age of 30 to 35 to around 55/60.

Your Second Challenge number is 3

You are your own worst critic. You suppress your individuality and creativity. Each time you want to make an impression, you doubt yourself beforehand, and criticize yourself ruthlessly afterward. Your criticism of yourself is far more severe than anyone else's. As a result, you tend to play it safe by staying on the surface, indulging in superficialities. You rarely express what goes on deep inside of you; instead, you cover up your feelings with humor or perfunctory remarks. You often feel alone and lonely. Your fear of social interaction causes you to strain conversation by making too many jokes and forced joviality. It may help you to find a creative outlet for your imagination, possibly through writing, painting, singing or dance. At the bottom of the challenge is an effort to bring out your true self. You will learn to truly value your own creative talents above anyone else's judgments. This must be viewed as a process of individuation, in which you become a whole human being, independent and free of the need to conform to others.

Your Third and Main Challenge number

The duration of the Third or Main Challenge is felt through your entire life.

Your Third Challenge number is 1

You must learn to be independent. You will be forced to stand up for yourself and your rights. You will be faced with situations in which you will have to choose between standing up for what you think is right versus giving in to another person's demands. You will have to struggle to strengthen and know your own will power. You will have to learn to be firm and trust your judgment. Don't run with the crowd, be an individual. This whole lesson represents the frontiers of your consciousness. Therefore, you will have to experience much trial and error, sometimes exploding with bursts of aggression, other times being intimidated and letting frustration and anger build within you until you are ready to act on your deepest instincts. You will learn your own set of values; you will develop into an individual with original and innovative ideas. If you have 1s in your core numbers or in your Hidden Passion this challenge will not be as difficult to learn, nor as strongly felt.

Your Fourth Challenge number

The duration of the Fourth Challenge usually starts at approximately the age of 55/60.

Your Fourth Challenge number is 1

Your Pinnacles

The Pinnacles are four long-term cycles, or periods, on our Life Path. Each Pinnacle represents a particular lesson we are working on. The first Pinnacle usually lasts from birth to between the ages of 30 and 35 (your specific Pinnacle periods are provided below -- as with the Period Cycles, the duration depends on your Life Path number). The middle two Pinnacles each last nine years. The last Pinnacle will stay with you for the remainder of your life. The Pinnacles are very important. The transition from one Pinnacle to the next is always strongly felt. Your Pinnacles reveal the general conditions and events you will experience during the period. The Pinnacle describes the atmosphere, or the essential challenge you will be faced with.

You can prepare yourself for the times ahead by knowing your approaching Pinnacle number. The transition from one Pinnacle to the next is usually prepared for approximately 2 years in advance. The latter part of that two year period is particularly strong. You will likely make some life-altering decisions -- marriage, job or career change, or any number of major changes in your character.

Perhaps the most strongly felt change -- internally as well as externally -- is the transition from the first to the second Pinnacle. This change usually takes place in your late 20s or early 30s -- the exact date depends on your Life Path number and is provided below. You begin to feel the impact of this coming change approximately two years prior. This is usually a difficult transition, but once crossed usually provides a clear sense of direction in one's life. It also gives you a much firmer sense of your identity. It is a gateway to maturity.

Your First Pinnacle Cycle

The duration of the First Pinnacle Cycle runs from birth to the age of 28.

Your First Pinnacle number is 4

This is a Pinnacle of hard work and many rewards. You have the opportunity to build a foundation that will last. Your abilities as an organizer, manager, or simply the rock of any institution are greatly increased. You are dependable and reliable. Your ability to fulfill responsibilities is likewise enhanced. As a result of your industry and perseverance, success is well within your reach. It is a step-by-step process in which you build something by small bricks laid one after another. You will find yourself caring for others in a very material way. Family and in-laws can be burdensome, since you are seen as the cornerstone of the foundation. Your life is preoccupied with details and responsibilities that must be taken care of. You have set in motion projects that are your children, demanding your constant attention. While there are many rewards, there are also many frustrations. Your sense of your own limits and the consuming nature of details may at times seem overwhelming. You must remember that things that last require slow growth. You may mistakenly believe that your progress should be faster, or happen with greater ease. The need for efficiency, orderliness, and methodical systems limit your creativity. Your challenge is to be flexible and adaptable. Learn to play more and allow yourself to be more spontaneous. Children born under this Pinnacle will tend to be serious and affected by the financial limitations of their parents. The child may feel the need to leave home early and start a family of his own. He or she must be encouraged to be more farsighted and flexible. The child should avoid jumping into the harsh realities of life too soon.

Your Second Pinnacle Cycle

The duration of the Second Pinnacle Cycle runs from 28 to the age of 37.

Your Second Pinnacle number is 5

This is a period that will teach the realities of freedom and expansion. You will travel great distances, meet many new and interesting people, experience many adventures, and essentially come to know the world. You are in a period of accelerated experimentation and learning. Experience is your teacher. Your ability with words is greatly increased. You can write and speak with ease. You are also able to successfully promote yourself. In fact, this is the source of much adventure; new opportunities for work, travel, and exotic experiences present themselves with regularity. Your challenge is to prevent yourself from becoming a rolling stone. You need to ground yourself in a particular discipline, career, or relationship. This will not limit your freedoms so much as give you a base for operation. Otherwise, you may find yourself skipping from one meaningless job to the next, one superficial relationship after another. You can also fall victim to the abuse of food, alcohol, sex, or drugs. You may fear being anchored or tied down, which can cause you to skim the surface of a pursuit you enjoy, or important relationships. You must come to know the true meaning of freedom, which is unconditional love. You give your love and energy without the condition of holding on to a place, a person, or an occupation; and you expect the same in return -- to be loved for what you are, rather than someone who belongs to another. There is a highly spiritual path offering itself that requires detachment without loss of love. Many turn away from this and instead choose to maintain a superficial relationship with the world, or with other people. You must cultivate your talents, especially your verbal and writing abilities. You are likely a gifted salesperson, or promoter. You must accept limitations as a necessary base for your freedom. Freedom cannot exist without limitations, otherwise you would be without identity, and without existence.

Your Third Pinnacle Cycle

The duration of the Third Pinnacle Cycle runs from 37 to the age of 46.

Your Third Pinnacle number is 9

This is a period in which you must identify with some larger project or goal that is bigger than you. Your greatest satisfaction will be in providing for others, as well as for yourself. Those in business will draw much personal gratification in knowing that they are helping their employees support their families. Those involved in social activism -- a particularly appealing choice of careers during the 9 Pinnacle -- will feel themselves strengthened by the knowledge that they are advancing the safety and well being of society. The 9 Pinnacle is a time in which you apply your energies to the good of the larger community. As a result, there is an element of self-sacrifice present. To some degree, you must subordinate your personal priorities to those of a larger cause. We are not suggesting martyrdom, but making a conscious effort on your part to strike a balance between the good of your milieu and your own personal desires. This is a good time for financial growth and progress in business affairs. It is a period in which you face a large challenge and must give yourself entirely to it. The 9 Pinnacle also promises much reward in drama, writing and art. You have a heightened esthetic sense, and any latent artistic talent you already possess will be enhanced and brought to the surface. If you have been in business, you may suddenly be drawn to the arts as a benefactor or patron, supplying support for theater productions or artists. You will feel an increased sense of social responsibility and compassion for the many. You will want to help those less fortunate than yourself and will likely apply yourself to some social cause or philanthropy. This is a period in which you feel a greater love for the good of your community, country, and the world. Interestingly, you are not restricted by prejudice or boundaries of class or country. You see humanity as a whole. Your love is not personal, however, but for the many. Many under the 9 Pinnacle are drawn to religion or philosophy and have the capacity to spread some doctrine or teaching. In short, you are highly idealistic. You will likely travel extensively during this period and meet people from many walks of life. No matter what your area of expertise, you have a chance not only for success but for fame.

Your Fourth Pinnacle Cycle

The duration of the Fourth Pinnacle Cycle runs from 46 onwards.

Your Fourth Pinnacle number is 7

This is a period of inner development and soul searching. You will deal with the deeply important questions of personal existence and the meaning of life. You will need time to be alone to contemplate your inner world. This is a time of spiritual growth. You will experience a heightened sense of faith. The power of the universe will be the force that carries you along. You have an enhanced appreciation of poetry and nature. Walks in nature provide great therapeutic value and spiritual nourishment. This is a time of specialization. You will pursue some course of development with fervor and focus. Your ability to concentrate will be greatly increased. Your desire to study in all forms -- reading, self reflection, and contemplation -- will reach an all-time high. Your intuition is much more sensitive, making your path a little easier and more direct, since you know intuitively the appropriate next step. Under this Pinnacle, you will become an expert in one particular field. Your capacity to penetrate the depths of a subject area is enormous. You will look below the surface in virtually everything you encounter. It is very possible that you will find yourself in a teaching role. You must consciously work on your closer relationships, especially with your spouse and children. You must explain that your desire to turn inward is not an escape or an avoidance of those you love, but a deep need for knowledge. During this 7 Pinnacle, spiritual growth, increased knowledge, and wisdom are the big rewards. The 7 Pinnacle provides the basis for contentment in older age, because you now begin to understand life more deeply. Your challenge is to avoid becoming critical or cynical of others. You can become so withdrawn from society that you look down on others. You may forget that you, too, are part of the imperfect human race. Sarcasm is the lowest form of communication, and a trap you could fall victim to. Your desire to attain some high degree of perfection is sincere. But that pursuit can make you miserable if you lose perspective and fail to realize the relativity of human existence. Perfection is a Utopian goal, but an unrealistic ambition. It can cause you to be dissatisfied with yourself and others. The 7 provides the possibility of true refinement, insight, and a high degree of wisdom. This deep understanding is the basis for self-love and true happiness.

Your Period Cycles

Period Cycles last 27 years or more. The minimum time-span is always at least 3 full epi-cycles of 9 years, but they can be even longer. The Period Cycles are usually not as strongly felt as the Pinnacle Cycles. It is, however, interesting to note that the Period Cycles form the base structure of all the cycles found in your chart, including the Life Path, the Pinnacles, the Challenges, and the medium-term and short-term cycles.

About your Period Cycles: Like most stories, there are three great divisions of our lives: the First, or opening period, finds us groping to find our true nature; at the same time, we are trying to cope with the powerful forces that are present in our environment, our parents and the socio-economic conditions of our family, for example. The Second Cycle, or middle period of our lives, brings about the slow emergence of our individual and creative talents. The initial part of this cycle -- the early and mid 30s -- represents a struggle to find our place in the world, while the late 30s, 40s, and early 50s, sees us with a greater degree of self-mastery and influence over the environment. The Third, or final Cycle, can represent a flowering of our inner being, such that our true nature has finally come to fruition. It is during this period that one has the greatest degree of self-expression and power.

It is possible to repeat a Period Cycle.

Your First Period Cycle

The duration of the First Period Cycle runs from birth until the age of 28.

Your First Period Cycle is 3

A time of heightened self expression and much social support. Any ability you possess in the arts, especially in writing, acting, or dance, will be brought to new heights and meet with much reward. You are socially active as never before. You will appear to others as charming, attractive, even charismatic. Be careful not to waste your energies on too many superficial projects or relationships, however. The time requires discipline and focus in order to make the most of the great upward energy that is filling your life.

Your Second Period Cycle

The duration of the Second Period Cycle runs from 28 until the age of 55.

Your Second Period Cycle is 1

This a period of much intensity. It requires fortitude, courage, and flexibility. You will be forced to use every one of your talents in order to achieve your own personal individuality and independence. This is a period of integration and a focusing on your life's dream. Your grip on your direction will be tested, but somehow the resources are available to overcome any obstacle and emerge from this time all the stronger. It is a time requiring independence, resilience, and strength, but these characteristics become integral part of your personality. This cycle marks a time of progress.

Your Third Period Cycle

The duration of the First Period Cycle runs from 55 onwards.

Your Third Period Cycle is 22

A time of enormous potential for establishing some lasting institution or teaching that will greatly benefit others. You have the ability to perceive something in the archetypal world and make it manifest in the earth. Your abilities as a builder, organizer, and visionary are at a peak. You are able to perceive a deep need in people and to create a constructive and practical plan to fulfill that need. You will be forced to commit yourself entirely to the work at hand. For many, this dream will last a lifetime and require every ounce of energy and every bit of talent. It is an all-consuming role that beckons, but one that will provide the greatest sense of personal accomplishment and reward. You are able to make a lasting contribution to the well-being of humanity.

Your Personal Numbers

The first and foremost of the several cycles that influence your experience of life is the Personal Year Cycle number. In numerology, each year of your life is part of an evolving pattern that can be described as a nine-year cycle or epicycle. These cycles begin at your birth and progress, one by one, through nine steps that complete an epicycle, and then begin again.

The epicycle starts with a 1 Personal Year, progresses to the 2 Personal Year, and so on to the 9 Personal Year. Each epicycle has a particular tone or character that is distinguished by the opportunities offered, and by the lessons to be learned during that period.

Each numbered year has its own characteristics, as symbolized by the number itself: A 1 Personal Year has all the qualities the number 1 has, just as the 2 Personal Year has the 2 qualities. At the same time, the epicycle is also influenced by other shorter and larger cycles that are at play. These cycles include the Transits, Essence numbers, and long-term cycles. But the influences that are most clearly identifiable are the Personal Year and the Essence numbers.

The Personal Years form the building steps that mark your progress through life. Your maturity and development take place in nine-year stages. Each nine-year period marks the beginning and the end of a particular stage of development. Each has a natural rhythm and flow, as summarized by the nine stages described briefly below:

1: A year of new beginnings, seed-planting, and high energy. 2: A year of relationships, sensitivity, and cooperation. 3: A year of creativity, motivation, and inspiration. 4: A year of hard work, discipline, and opportunities. 5: A year of change, freedom, and unpredictability. 6: A year of responsibility, domestic affairs, and service. 7: A year of contemplation, self-awareness, and spiritual atonement. 8: A year of reward, respect, and recognition. 9: A year of completion, release, and transformation.

Your Current Personal Year Cycle

Your Personal Year number for 2014 is 2

This is a year to carefully protect and nurture your plans. You will be like a mother watching over her children, conscious of every threat, real or imagined. You need tact and cooperation to keep yourself moving forward. There will likely be confrontations with others, requiring a subtle and gentle approach. You will have to stay focused on your goals, yet use intelligent persuasion. Being forceful may work against you; compromises will work in your favor. You will be unusually sensitive and may wonder at times what happened to the drive and momentum you felt last year. This year requires something else from you now -- a delicate sense of balance and a willingness to go around obstacles, without losing sight of your goal. You may experience some emotional depressions and frustrations. The year is marked by struggle, but there are many opportunities to advance your plans. This is a year of slow growth, requiring patience. Be discriminating in your associations and secretive about your plans. Don't talk too much about your ideas; be a bit secretive; guard yourself and your ideas. You are somewhat vulnerable this year. This is a good year to improve yourself through reading and research. Your growing awareness of the less visible and less obvious aspects of life will make you much stronger and better prepared for the future. You must be wise in all your relationships and associations this year. You are far more capable of establishing close, even life long relationships this year. Because sensitivity and openness are heightened, many people find their "soul mate" in a two year. May is the pivotal month in the year. You are extremely intuitive and sensitive. You are also self-reflecting and better able to influence your peers and situation through spiritual awareness. July brings a culmination of plans and a distinct step forward. August sees things become more concrete and brings a new beginning. September is emotional, requiring adjustments, tact, and inner resolve. The 2 year is a year of growth and advancement, but through gentle means, and the indirect use of your personal power.

Your Current Personal Month Cycle

Your Personal Month number for 11 is 4

It requires you to be practical and disciplined in all matters. It brings opportunity as well as limitations. Career is a high priority and you will find yourself putting in overtime. Details will need to be taken care off. There is very little room for slacking, and everyone may be making demands of you. You may feel frustrated and need to blow off steam. On the other hand, there is also much opportunity implicit in these demands and you will be pleasantly surprised with the rewards that come your way late in the month. You'll have to respond quickly. You may feel that you are not ready to take on the new challenge that comes with this opportunity, but if you overcome this temporary lack of confidence you will be well rewarded. This month is demanding in domestic affairs, as well. There is an ongoing need to watch finances carefully, make decisions concerning your budget, and plan for the future. If you have not been keeping a close eye on your checkbook, this month will force you to balance your account and make up for haphazard expenditures of the past. There's not a whole lot of time for romance this month, but when you can find the time, your partner's love brings perspective and rejuvenation.

Your Current Personal Day Cycle

Your Personal Year number for 4 is 8

A day of reward, respect, and recognition.

Your Expression number

The Expression number reveals the talents, abilities, and shortcomings that were with you when you entered your human body. Your name, and the numbers derived from it, reveal your development, as well as the talents and issues you will be working with during this life. It is derived from your full real name.

For those for whom reincarnation is an accepted philosophy, the vibration of your full name can be seen as the totality of your personal evolution, the experiences, talents, and wisdom accumulated over many life times. Every experience, no matter how great or small, along this evolutionary path has influenced your development, and brought you to your current state of being. The Expression is your being; the Life Path is the major lesson you are attempting to learn this time around. Time allows the gradual enfoldment of your personality. By reading the Expression number below, you will come to understand your basic nature and the abilities and issues inherent in your being.

Your Expression number is 5

You are a free spirit. You love change, adventure, and excitement. You love your freedom. Like a bird that needs its wings to live, you cannot exist without it. Freedom is the nucleus around which your life revolves. You need it for your very survival. By using freedom properly, you are able to explore and develop all of your varied talents. You will meet many types of people and travel great distances. Freedom is the atmosphere necessary for you to bring forth your many talents. You are capable of doing almost anything, and probably quite well. Only by avoiding the imprisonment of illusory security are you able to bring forth your abilities. You are unusually adaptable. In fact, change is a blessing for you. In the same way, you need challenge and variety. You hate the routine of life; being stuck is a catastrophe for you. You become miserable when you are held back or held down. The taste and texture and color of life has an overpowering allure for you. From childhood, you dream of seeing foreign lands, experiencing the sensual and the exotic. You want to try everything at least once in life. All of life is a playground for your senses. But this can get you into trouble. You may fail to respect your natural limits, either biologically or socially. Any sort of boundary is anathema to you, which can blind you to your natural limits, and may cause you to overindulge your desire for food, sweets, alcohol, sex, and drugs. You are gifted in your ability to communicate. Your facility with words is almost limitless. You can be a salesman, politician, lawyer, public relations person, and minister. You also possess the talent to share and advance new ideas. You are talented with your hands. You love the new and untried. Your field is the frontier. You are a bit of a gambler, and often play for very high stakes. All of this combines to give you a youthful enthusiasm, which others find infectious and attractive. You like to work with others, but need to perform your task un-encumbered by the restraints of others. You are a clever and a quick thinker, but your thought processes -- like your life in general -- can be unorganized and scattered. You must stay grounded and focused if you want to be successful. You fall in and out of love frequently, especially early in life. You are naturally sensual and commonly have a strong sex drive. These characteristics usually make for a lively and exciting love life, but you must guard against shallow feelings and relationships. Your challenge is to develop mature and lasting relationships. Self-discipline and setting healthy limits is the key to your success in virtually every area of your life. Ironically, you will find that as you learn to set appropriate limits on yourself, you will develop more self- mastery and realize even greater freedom. This is especially true when it comes to finishing what you start. Your tendency is to give up once you've got a project or job under control; you grow bored quickly. You start to fantasize about a new challenge, or the rewards of your great accomplishment, long before the work is finished. The 5 Expression desires the whole world. You are aware that you have many talents that can bring much success. But that success depends on your willingness to choose certain areas to concentrate on, and to bring them to perfection.

Your Heart's Desire number

The Heart's Desire number is just what the name implies: your innermost yearning; the dreams closest to your heart. Consequently, it shows your underlying motivation, or the general intention behind many of your actions. It dramatically influences the choices you make in life. Its influence is everywhere in your life -- your career, your environment, friendships, and life style.

Your Heart's Desire is the inner you. It shows your underlying urge, your true motivation. It reveals the general intention behind many of your actions. Consequently, it dramatically influences the choices you make in life. The Heart's desire is seen as part of the larger picture, called the core numbers, which includes the Life Path, Expression, Day you were born, and Personality. But each points to a different aspect of you. The Expression number reveals your talents and abilities, and your general direction in life. The Life Path is the central lesson you came into the world to learn. The Day you were born is very closely connected to Life Path. It reveals specific talents you possess, which will be helpful to you in dealing with your Life Path. These talents tend to come to fuller expression after the age of 28. The Personality reveals how people tend to see you. It also demonstrates what characteristics you are projecting to the world. The Heart's Desire demonstrates the identity of the soul that joined the earth -- you, the spiritual being.

Your Heart's Desire number is 5

Freedom is essential for your happiness. You love change, new experiences, meeting new people, adventure and travel. You love the exotic, far away places. Variety is more than mere spice of life -- you thrive on it. You are extremely flexible and adaptable. You have more curiosity than the proverbial cat. You have a sharp mind and a natural ability with words. You are a born communicator, clear, fluent, and imaginative in every area that interests you -- which are many! Your Heart's Desire makes you very well equipped for life. Change -- the only constant in life -- doesn't threaten you, as it does other people. You are highly resourceful. Generally, you can think clearly in a crisis; you have good mental and physical reflexes. Whenever you fall, you tend to land on your feet. You are highly enthusiastic. You get excited easily over a new idea or opportunity. Your nature is unconventional. You are a bit of a gambler, taking risks whenever you think the rewards are worth it. You are very socially oriented and rarely, if ever, dull or boring. You are, of course, drawn to those people who, like yourself, are original thinkers and have exciting personalities. You enjoy being involved in several projects at the same time. You need continual stimulation by the new and fascinating. You tend to discard boring pastimes quickly. Your love of freedom and change can have numerous consequences. You can be irresponsible, especially when it comes to finishing tasks. You have a hard time persevering at a given project and bringing it to completion. You must be careful that your love of sensory pleasure doesn't lead you to excessive indulgence in alcohol, food, sex, and even drugs. You are a bit of a hero and want to save the world. This causes you to make promises you often cannot keep. Down deep, you long to please everyone, an impossible goal. Many fives can be emotionally superficial. They feel love passionately, but fear making deep and lasting commitments. As a result, they resist the depths of emotional attachments and remain on the surface where it is safe. You will experience many changes and unusual events, but you learn best through experience. Therefore, your life will be full and you will make great strides in personal growth.

Your Personality number

Your Outer Personality number -- also called Personality number, is derived from the consonants of your full name. Your Personality is like a narrow entrance hall to the great room that is your true nature. It is those aspects that you feel comfortable sharing with people at the outset of a relationship. With time and trust, you invite others into the deeper aspects of your nature; you reveal more of who you really are, in effect, your Heart's Desire, Expression, and so on.

Your Personality number often serves as a censoring device, both in terms of what you send out, as well as what you allow to approach. It discriminates in the kinds of people and information you let enter your heart and mind. For this reason, your Personality is usually much more narrow and protective in its definition than the real you. It can screen out some of what you do not want to deal with -- people or situations -- but it also welcomes those things that immediately relate to your inner nature.

Fortunately or unfortunately, this narrow entrance is the first impression people get of you. It either welcomes and intrigues them, or it causes them to lose interest.

Your Personality number is 9

You have an impressive and aristocratic bearing. No matter how tall you are, you appear noble and upright. You are very much in control of the image you send out to others. Many actors, dancers, and other performers have a 9 Personality Number. You are elegant, graceful, and charismatic. Many admire you. You have the kind of stature that pulls people to you or repels them intensely. Some are jealous of you and may seek to belittle you. You may encourage this to some extent by the amount of arrogance you radiate. This is a caution for all 9 Personalities -- they are sometimes aloof and hold themselves above the world. Your challenge is to come down to earth with your fellow man. Conversely, you have a great compassion for humanity and want to dedicate yourself to improving the lot of others. You are better when dealing with the trials of the many than the trouble of a single person. You are more capable of working on the grand scale, addressing the needs of society, than on a one-to-one basis. You are kind and sympathetic, helpful and compassionate. Behind the controlled and calm facade, you are sensitive, vulnerable and emotional. You have excellent taste. There is a good deal of artistic talent in you that shows in your home environment and your clothing. You tend to see yourself as a guardian of society, a benevolent leader, guiding and directing your community toward a better world.

Your Karmic Lessons

Numerology is based on the understanding that we enter life with certain strengths and weaknesses. Karmic Lessons are areas that we are currently weak in, and that we must face and work on in this life. There can be more than one Karmic Lesson.

As we have already seen, each letter in your name corresponds to a specific number. Certain numbers repeat within your name, while others may be missing. Karmic Lessons are indicated when one or more of the nine single-digit numbers are missing in your name. A Karmic Strength is suggested when a number is represented two or more times. This is called a Hidden Passion. More about Hidden Passions later.

The letters and numbers of your name point to talents and abilities that you possess. These characteristics can be compared to a workshop in which certain tools are available to you. Missing numbers, those that are not represented in the letters of your name, imply tools that are unavailable, and that must be learned and mastered during this lifetime.

For people with three or more numbers missing, it is supremely important to focus on your career and talents, and to persevere in the face of any difficulty or obstacle. The kind of keyhole energy suggested by such a name gives you the ability to achieve great success in a specific part of life; but before such a success can be achieved, adversity must be overcome. Perseverance, therefore, becomes the key to happiness.

Your Karmic Lession numbers are: 1 3 4 7 8 9

Lesson 1: You need to show more initiative in your life. You must learn to be more determined. The will needs to be strengthened. You will be forced to stand up for what you believe to be right. You will need to make your own decisions. You must learn to be more independent. Life will bring many strong willed people into your life with whom you will struggle. You will have to learn to assert yourself or be suppressed by these forceful people. This is happening so that you can learn to become more forceful and dynamic. Learn not to concern yourself too much with what others think. You may be to meek and timid. Learn to promote yourself. Work on your self-confidence, have more faith in your judgment and abilities. Overcome any tendency to procrastinate. The effect of this Karmic Lesson is diminished if you have at least one 1 among your core numbers (Life Path, Birthday, Heart's Desire, Expression, or Personality Number).

Lesson 3: You are highly self-critical. Every time you find yourself at the center of attention, you manage to find something in your performance to be entirely inadequate or embarrassing. You have established an impossible standard of perfection as the only measure of your actions. You need to lighten up on yourself. Realize that you have within you a critical faculty that must be contained and controlled. Otherwise, it can prevent you from doing what you truly enjoy in life. You're too serious. Be more optimistic and cheerful, enjoy life as it was meant to be and share this joy with others. Life will put you in situations that require imagination and communication. You will be tested in these areas. You will be forced to face the challenge. Missing threes will often produce artists but their success requires much work and perseverance. The effect of the Karmic Lesson is diminished if you have at least one 3 among your core numbers (Life Path, Birthday, Hearts Desire, Expression or Personality Number).

Lesson 4: You feel confusion about your life's direction. You will have to establish a methodical and disciplined approach. You need to create a foundation for your life. Otherwise, you will feel lost and tossed about by change. You have trouble finding the work you do best. You tend to be somewhat impractical and disorganized. You look for the answers to life's problems outside yourself, rather than within. New jobs start off as The Answer, but do not have the same glamour for long. You quickly discover that the new work requires the same effort and perseverance, without the excitement you expected, which may cause you to give up too soon. Concentration and application need to be strengthened. The effects of this Karmic Lesson are diminished if you have at least one 4 among your core numbers (Life path, Birthday, Hearts Desire, Expression or Personality Number).

Lesson 7: You need to deepen your knowledge and talents in a specific discipline. You lack the will or determination to perfect yourself or a specific talent you possess. You must learn to be your own critic, without self condemnation, in order to bring your abilities to their full development. You will learn not to take things at face value. A superficial understanding of important matters will prevent you from experiencing the satisfaction of your true potential. The effects of this Karmic Lesson are diminished if you have at least one 7 among your core numbers (Life Path, Birthday, Hearts Desire, Expression and Personality Number).

Lesson 8: You can attract a considerable amount of money and even be a good business person, but you experience major ups and downs in your financial affairs, due largely to your lack of caution in handling your resources. You are highly independent and do not want to be told how to do things. You have great problems with authority figures. This stems from a kind of know-it-all attitude and stubborn behavior that prevents you from knowing your limits. You will have to work at knowing how to handle money. In all likelihood, you will attract enough of it, but it has a tendency to slip through your fingers. This Karmic Lesson forces you to learn your limitations, and the limitations of your resources. Learn to be efficient. The effects of this Karmic Lesson are diminished if you have at least one 8 among your core numbers (Life Path, Birthday, Hearts Desire, Expression, or Personality Number).

Lesson 9: You must learn to be more compassionate, tolerant, and understanding. You have to learn to identify with the trials of others. There will be times when you will have to sacrifice some egocentric ambition for the good of a particular project or some larger goal. You must learn to broaden your view of life. You have to see things on a larger scale. You do not realize the enormous potential you have in influencing your own destiny and that of others. Therefore, you hold back your efforts at helping people, or furthering a particular social cause. You have an issue with commitment to community or mankind. The effects of this Karmic Lesson are diminished if you have at least one 9 among your core numbers (Life Path, Birthday, Expression, Hearts Desire, or Personality Number).

Your Hidden Passion number

As mentioned in the text on Karmic Lessons, numbers that appear several times in your name represent a particular strength or ability. The number that is most often repeated in your name represents your specific field of expertise, or a concentrated talent.

Metaphorically, this talent can be seen as having a power all its own to shape your life. Its existence gives you a strong desire to develop and to express that particular ability. Having the talent demands that you express it, that you experience this part of you, and that you live according to its nature. In this way, the Hidden Passion shapes your personality, and guides your life.

Your Hidden Passion numbers are: 2 5

Passion 2: You are highly considerate, sensitive, and intuitive. You seek peaceful and pleasant environments. You work hard to establish harmony among your peers and co-workers. You work well in groups, often serving as the peacemaker. You may appear shy and timid and although you like people there is an inner fear, you dislike noise and roughness. You are committed to your work and perform your job with a high degree of competency, patience, and persistence. You are a magnet for information. You are often one of the pillars of any organization. People naturally rely upon you. You have a tendency to worry too much about trivial details and can waste time on petty affairs. You may be too sensitive and easily hurt; your feelings can get in the way of your sound judgement. You have a good ear for music and rhythm and an appreciation for the arts. You love beauty in your environment. You have fine and delicate taste.

Passion 5: You love travel, change, and new challenges. You are highly adaptable and versatile. You have a talent for languages, and are generally good with words. Writing, promotion, and public relations work suit you perfectly. You are sensual and a bit impulsive. You love to satisfy your senses, which can get you into trouble. Overindulgence in food, drink, sex, and drugs are common among people with too many 5s -- six or more. You are resourceful and original. You have a good sense of humor and a quick tongue. Your desire for freedom is extremely strong and it will take effort and discipline to stick with whatever it is you started. There is a tendency to give up a project or situation prematurely. You may be interested in too many things, which can make it hard for you to apply yourself to one area successfully. You are very unconventional. Commitment in relationships and your work is fundamental to your happiness. You may have a tendency to wander from person to person, job to job, making depth of relationship or deep expertise difficult.

Your Balance number

People experience different internal responses to life's challenges. Some withdraw from difficult situations to think them through; others withdraw from their emotions, to try and keep themselves from feeling anything. Some explode with emotions, but allow the explosion to pass quickly. Others linger with their feelings, holding on to them well past the time they should have let them go. Maturity and self-development help us to learn new and more effective methods of handling our world and the problems we confront. Your Balance number provides you with the guidance on how best to deal with difficult or threatening situations.

Your Balance number is considered a minor influence. That is, until you start relying heavily on this number because your personal life is "off balance." When you go through emotional turmoil, for whatever reason, the Balance number becomes very important.

Your Balance number is 8

Use your considerable power in a balanced way. You may use power in a manipulative way, rather than confront people on principle. Use your power in a higher way, namely, by accepting personal responsibility for the issue and its solution. You have enormous creativity and the leadership to find an answer to almost any problem. Try not to force your own solution upon groups, but include their concerns and ideas in the larger solution that you can bring about. Learn to use power for the good of all.

Your Subconscious Self number

The Subconscious Self reflects the confidence you have in your personal power and competence, as well as in your ability to deal with sudden events and situations. It shows your capacity to correctly assess a situation and to respond appropriately.

The Subconscious Self is derived from your Karmic Lesson chart, in which it is possible to have all nine numbers represented in your name, or fewer than nine; in fact as few as three or as many as eight. For example, you may be missing a 6 or a 7. This means that when you encounter a situation that requires the characteristics of a 6 or a 7, there will be some feeling of inadequacy, or uncertainty as to how to properly deal with the demands of the situation.

On the other hand, you still have the other seven or eight numbers represented in you name, which means your ability to deal with situations that require any of those numbers is well-developed. You posses a certain confidence or assurance that makes you feel familiar with the situation, and able to deal with effectively. Hence, a person with eight numbers represented in the name will tend to be more confident in most situations than a person with only five numbers.

In general, someone with eight numbers in his name is quite capable of dealing with most situations.

Paradoxically, a person with all nine numbers represented tends to be aloof or overly complacent when dealing with sudden events.

Your Subconscious Self reveals how you react to demanding situations. It indicates your ability to get the most out of your talents and opportunities, especially when you face new or challenging circumstances. The Subconscious Self also reveals the areas of our character that need to be strengthened.

Your Subconscious Self number is 5

You tend to scatter your energies far and wide, making it difficult for you to complete projects and tasks. You need discipline and organization in your life. You have a strong urge to escape difficulties by forcing change, instead of trying to work out the problem. You learn quickly, however, and adapt well to change. Your success in life depends on your ability to ground yourself and accept responsibilities. A family and career do much to anchor your life.

Your Special Letters

Each letter in your name represents your characteristics, but the location of the letters can determine their impact.

Try to read the texts as applying specifically to the areas of your personality as described above. For example, under Special Letter A, you find it to be ambitious. This ambition is related to the way you approach opportunities if it is a Cornerstone. As a First Vowel, the A reveals that you are more ambitious than you let on, and as a Capstone, it shows you to be the kind of person who will push on until a project is completed -- if necessary without anyone's help.

Your Cornerstone

The first letter of your name (use your first name at birth) is called the Cornerstone. It gives you an indication of your character, particularly in the way you approach opportunities and obstacles.

Your Cornerstone letter is k

Illumination, intuition and revelation are the key words for the K, the eleventh letter in the alphabet. You are emotional and creative, with a strong drive to succeed. You can be quite forceful and are many-sided. Nervous tension, fear and hesitation are the negative aspects of this high strung and idealistic cornerstone.

Your Capstone

The last letter of your first name reveals your ability and attitude toward finishing projects that you start. This letter is called your Capstone. Together, your Cornerstone and Capstone can tell you much about your capacity to start and finish a project successfully.

Your Capstone letter is o

You have willpower, religious convictions, and high moral standards. You are patient and thorough when preparing yourself for some new venture. You respect rules and regulations. You are emotional and have to guard against jealousy. You are given to spells of brooding and imaginings.

Your First Vowel

The first vowel of your first name reveals something of your deeper self. As I explained earlier, the Heart's Desire is a somewhat hidden, but strongly represented, core number in your chart. It is a big part of yourself that you do not reveal easily or indiscriminately, and it is usually recognized only by your relatives and friends. The first vowel of your name is the little window through which you allow the uninitiated a glimpse at your deeper self.

Your First Vowel letter is a

You are ambitious, independent and have great drive, you are not easily influenced. You are mental and direct. You want to take charge. You have willpower and are resolute and purposeful. You have courage and boldness but may also be stubborn and willful. Be more flexible and willing to listen to others.

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