#like yes ok you can block them good bye haters but how are you going to deal if someone criticises ur role model/ur work Are you going to

[touyaz]

The ability to block whoever you want is like one of the best perks of social media but also humanity's worst enemy bc like curating your online experience is great and all but the way people shut out other's simply for disagreeing w their own opinions is so detrimental I think like if seeing anything that opposes you impacts you that badly I really wonder how you will deal in real life situations where you can't just Remove People

[jenni42085]

Nervous <Two>

Chapter 2

Chris and Lena pulled up to Marylea’s house. Despite being incredibly nervous about lunch with Chris, Lena was actually able to relax and let her guard down. 

“Sorry to keep you out late. But did you at least have a good time?”

“Honestly, yes. It’s been a while since I’ve been able to have an adult conversation without worry about little ears listening or having to stop every so often to make sure she is ok.”

“Well, I’m glad to give you a little break. I can’t imagine it’s easy doing it all alone.” 

Chris could only imagine all the stuff she has had to deal with on her own. It probably doesn’t help with having anxiety. But if she is able to have a good time maybe it will help easy her. 

“It’s not all that bad but I wouldn’t change the feeling for anything in the world. She is a good baby.”

“That’s good to hear. Can’t wait to meet her.” He replies. He doesn’t want to let her go but knows she spent most of her day on a plane and should have some bonding time with her bestie. “So tomorrow what are you doing?”

“Probably sleep. Why?”

“Well if Marylea is working all day. I can keep you company and do some cheesy sight seeing.”

Lena’s eyes grow slightly larger, she wasn’t expecting that. “Ummm. Sure.”

“I mean you don’t have to if you don’t want to just figured we could continue to hang out and I have nothing on my schedule. It’s kind of boring to be home alone all day.”

Hearing his reason Lena slightly regrets her reply to an innocent question. “No, that sounds like a good idea. Just nothing too early. I have a feeling Marylea will wanna do some drinking so yeah. Might be slightly hungover.”

“Gotcha. Are you a party girl?”

“Maybe back in the day. Once I got married and had Eevee, that feeling kind of went away. You know?”

“Understandable. We all have those party animal moments right?”

“Exactly.”

The pair grew quiet thinking about how they both use to party hard but have grown up and stopped acting like children. 

“Can I have your phone to put my number in?” Lena smiles and hands her phone over to Chris. “So I’ll call or text around 10 ok?”

“Awesome sauce.” Without thinking Lena leans over gives Chris a quick hug and small peck on the cheek and runs inside before he could open the door for her. “Bye” she yells from the front door before walking inside.

What a woman, he thinks as he pulls off.

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“Well, well, well, look who finally decides to come home?” Marylea says as she gets up from the couch. “Were you guys making out?”

“Funny but no. We just had lunch at a small restaurant and talked. A lot.”

“Talked? That’s it. You went out on a date with Chris Evans and all you did was talk?”

Lena gives Marylea a look. “Yes. Just talking. Sorry that I didn’t bang him on the first date.”

“Just kidding. But it’s good to know you had a nice time.” Marylea replies as she opens up a bottle of wine. “So do you like him or like him like him?”

“He’s a nice guy.”

“You are avoiding the question.” Marylea hands Lena a glass of wine. “I’ll ask again when you are tipsy. I mean he isn’t my type but I’m not dead. He’s gorgeous.”

Lena takes a few sips of wine and kicks off her shoes, planting herself next to Marylea on the couch. “I don’t know if I like him like him. I honestly just met the guy.”

A few hours and drinks later. . .

“So he is sexy. But I doubt I’m his type.”

“Why would you say that? He legit picked you! Stop selling yourself short. You are worthy of happiness.”

“I feel like I already had my happiness with Ezra. I don’t know if I need or deserve someone else.”

Marylea looks at her friend like she is crazy. Lena had changed a little bit after meeting Ezra. Even though Lena would never admit it but he could be slightly verbally abuse and make Lena think no one else would ever want her. Hearing her best friend say that broke her heart. “You and I both know that isn’t true. You are worthy of all of it. Hence why I set you up with him.”

“You really think I’m worthy of Chris freaking Evans?” Marylea nods at her; Lena shrugs and picks up her phone. “Ok. Fine. I’ll text him then.”

“Wait, you’ve had his number this entire evening and didn’t tell me or anything?”

“My bad?” Lena gives her a tipsy smile. “What should I say?”

“What do you wanna say? And isn’t a little late?”

They both looked at the clock. 2:45 in the morning. It was a little late or early however you look at it but Lena has a look of determination. “I’ll just thank him for the lunch and I’ll see him tomorrow.”

“Boring but ok. When do you plan to see him again?”

“Tomorrow hopefully.”

“Oh really now.”

“He figured we could do something since you have to work.”

Marylea takes a shot of tequila and make a funny face. “Well isn’t that super sweet.”

“Hater.”

Marylea throws her hands up in the air. “Hey now. I wasn’t hating just saying that it was sweet. Especially considering you were just to do a few events with him.  Nothing more or less.”

“Ma’am I don’t think I like your tone or where you are gong with that comment.” 

Lena replies taking a shot of tequila.

“Just saying he might like you like you. With his PENIS!”

Lena looks shocked but happy at the possibilities. “Shut up!” She squeals as she throws a pillow at her friend, Marylea dodges the pillow and sticks her tongue out at Lena. “Do you think he might like me with his penis?” She asks in a humorous whisper.

“You never know if you don’t try to get to know him. Meaning don’t blow him off tomorrow.” Lena rolls her eyes and shakes her head. "I know he hasn’t been gone long but I highly doubt he wants you to be alone the rest of your life. Just give him and the whole experience a chance.”

“I know and I will try just makes me nervous. You know? Plus being out here with no clue what all they offer makes me feel like he is all in control of the situation. So it just makes me slightly tense.” Lena stretches out in the king size bed and starts to unwind.

Marylea props herself up on her elbows and looks at her friend who is slowly fading fast to Dreamland. “I’ll sign you up for some dance classes. I know it has been a while since we did one but we can try one out. Oh and don’t forget about the photo shoot I sat up with my friend.” She waits for a reply but sees her friend fast asleep with her cell phone in her hand.  She takes the phone out of her friend’s hand and sees that she hadn’t even hit send on the message to Chris.

 “Lena?” With no reply from Lena, Marylea decides to give Lena another little push in the right direction of happiness. She adds a few more lines to the text and hits send then, covers Lena and herself up with a blanket. Just like old times. She thought to herself, she has missed her friend and these moments that have helped them bond and grow. God please let them work out, I need her out here permanently. It’s been forever since she talked to God but figured at this point she could use all the help she can get.

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Chris wakes up at his usual time thanks to Dodger, he loves that dog and his ability to wake up at the same time every day no matter where they are. He lets Dodger out and does some stretches. While his cup of tea is brewing he looks at his phone and catches up on the news and gossip. When he glances at his messages he has a few from friends but one from an unknown number, before blocking the number he decides to read the message.

Thanks for lunch yesterday. Hope to see you again today. 💋

Seeing this message makes him smile a bit. Glad to know that he can still connect to females. He wants her to not only have a good time in California but wants her to enjoy her time with him. He knows it’s only been a day but he likes talking to her. It’s been so long since he has met someone so real and honest that it makes him want to keep her smiling and laughing. He sends her a quick reply then makes a quick call.

“Hey Marylea. Did I wake you?”

A sleepy Marylea answers on the first ring, “Hello? Chris? It’s not even 7am. What do you need?”

“Umm yeah everything is ok for the most part. I just wanted some intel on Lena. Like you know what kind of breakfast she might like or favorite flowers.”

The questions that were asked didn’t fully take Marylea by surprise. She was right when she told Lena Chris liked her. It’s good to see that he is moving so quick to make things go smoothly with her. “Do you like my best friend?”

A small pause happens because he isn’t fully sure how to answer the question. “I think she is a great girl so far. I might like her. I just want to know she likes me back.”

“Interesting… well for breakfast I already got her favorite bagels and cream cheese. But she does love daisies, so if you surprised her with those she would be ok. But you should look at some of her social media to get a better idea of what she likes and I don’t know continue to talk to her to get to know her.”

Chris chuckles at Marylea’s last comment. “I know. I talked to her a lot last night but, I just wanted to have my best foot forward and show her I think she’s pretty awesome. But anyways I’ll let you go. Is she still asleep?”

Marylea looks back at the king size bed to her bestie knocked out still. She doesn’t think she has gotten much sleep or at least a night without interruption since being the only one there for Eevee. “Yeah she is still a sleep. But Chris one more thing before you go.”

“What’s that?”

“If you hurt her, make her cry, or do anything other than make her smile I will promise to end you. She is my best friend and deserves only the best and that was why I volunteered her to escort you to a few gigs. Don’t lead her on, she doesn’t deserve that. Understand?”

“Loud and clear. I just want a friend or maybe more.”

“Ok. Good now I’ve gotta get finished dressing for work. I guess I’ll see you later.” She says cheerfully after changing her tone, “And one more thing. Hello Kitty.”

“Hello Kitty?”

“She adores anything and everything Hello Kitty. The rest of her obsession or ‘hobbies’ as she calls them you will have to figure them out. Buh bye.”

“Bye and thanks so much.”

Click.

With that Chris started googling flower shops that had daisies and starts looking at how to make today a great day for them both.

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Marylea knew she shouldn’t threatened him but at the same point she didn’t really care. Lena was honestly like the only real family she has even if they aren’t blood. She knows if it was the other way around Lena would have said that and more. But on a positive note Chris has a crush on her. She smiles and does a little happy dance as she grabs her keys and heads for the door.

“Marylea? Are you leaving?” Lena groggily asks as she lifts herself up from the comfortable bed.

“Yeah, I’m heading out. Bagels are in the fridge. Tylenol on the nightstand just is case you are hungover.”

“Aren’t you?”

“A little bit but I can get through it. I’ve gotta go but, have fun with Chris today.”

“Ugh! You had to remind me of that. I just wanna sleep.”

“Nope, you already agreed to today.  Maybe it will be an easy day but in a few days you have a photo shoot to do for Andre.” Marylea saw Lena’s eyes open up more when mentioning a photo shoot that she hadn’t told her about yet. With that pause she took that as a sign to leave. “We can discuss that tonight over dinner. Love you mean it.”

Lena falls back into bed and sighs. What have I gotten myself into? She then looks over to her phone:

Had a great time also. Text me when you wake up. Got some fun plans today. :)

Seeing that text made her smile a little bit. She can’t remember she woke up to a text from someone, probably not since her and Ezra were dating years ago. It was a small message but the act still made her smile.  She won’t admit to anyone including herself that she might have a small crush on him. Part of her feels like admitting that  means she doesn’t love Ezra anymore which isn’t the case but she knows he can’t come back. 301 days. She is hoping that as time goes on it will be better.

It’s only 7am she calls her parents to check up on Eevee while making herself breakfast. Her parents let her know that Eevee was doing just fine. She decides to shoot Chris a quick message and let him know that she would be ready in the next hour or so. 

With that she takes two Tylenols then heads to the shower. She realizes that she forgot to ask him how to dress so she figures jean shorts and a white tank top would work. She decides since her hair is still straight she would do her hair in space balls.

She hears the doorbell ring and looks at the clock. Wow he wasn’t joking about wanting to see me. Opening the door she is greeted with a huge bouquet of daisies. 

“Oh my! These are beautiful. How did you know these are my favorite?”

“A little bird told me.”

“Would this birdy happen to be my bestie?” She asked giving him a curious look with one eyebrow raised.

“I can neither confirm nor deny. . .”

“Fine be difficult. So what are the plans for the day?”

“Well I was thinking of going to a café.”

“A café?” She asks with a questioning look.

“You don’t like the idea?”

“Didn’t say that just hoping our full day won’t be spent at a café.”

“Ohh no never. I figured it would be a good way to start the day, then maybe hit a few shops up to find you something for the charity dinner.”

Charity dinner. Thinking of what is to come slightly makes her uncomfortable but, she knows she needs to do this. What’s the worse that can happen in all honesty? You have a great time, meet new people, have fun experiences, and maybe fall in love. LOVE. That seems slightly foreign to her. It has been 301 days since she has been in love. Maybe it has been enough time to at least play with the idea of finding a new love. She has hated going to sleep alone and waking up alone. “OK let’s go!”

The two get in Chris’ car and head down the interstate. Lena enjoys the warm breeze as they are cruising through the city. Chris admire her from the side as she is quietly taking in her new surroundings. He can’t help but think she is beautiful.  She doesn’t wear any makeup minus some chap stick but still manages to look amazing.

They finally arrived to a large bright pink RV as soon as they see it Lena’s eyes grow wide and she squeaks out, “Hello Kitty Café!? Oh. My God! I’ve always want to go to it but they never come to West Virginia or anywhere near me.” Lena hasn’t been this excited about anything for her in a while. “This is sooo amazing.”

“You are really excited about this. Aren’t you?” He replies with a chuckle as he puts the car in park. She’s out of the car before he shuts his door, she standing there bouncing up and down looking giddy with happiness. With out thinking he grabs her hand as the go to stand in line with the other patrons. Her body tensed at first when he grabbed her hand but he stroke her hand with his thumb and she quickly relaxed.

“I’m super excited! This is like totally awesome!” She gets slightly distracted by the menu of things to get.

In no time they are in the front of the line, Lena still hadn’t figured out what she wanted so Chris figured he would surprise her even more. “Good morning ladies, I called ahead and I believe you put stuff aside for me and my lovely date.” Hearing the label of ‘date’ made Lena blush slightly.

“Ohhhh it really is you! And yes, we put one of everything to the side like you asked. Can we have your autograph pretty please?” The perky clerk asked as she had another girl run to get the bag full of goodies. Chris nods as the girl and few others run over to him to get his picture. Lena politely walked off to the side so they could get his picture. “Can we have a picture of you and him together? You guys look so cute together. Plus you guys are matching.”

 Shocked by the fact neither had looked at the other’s clothes they realized they did in fact match. Both wore white tank tops and jean shirts with Converse, hers were Hello Kitty and his were solid black. They both had sunglasses on, the main difference was she didn’t have a hat on unlike him who is sporting his favorite NASA hat.

“Sure why not.” Lena shocked herself with how easily she replied at being ok with being photographed with him. I guess I need to start getting use to it. Chris pulls Lena closer to him and puts his arm around her waist while her hand lays on his chest.

 “Awww you guys look so cute! What’s your name? How long have you guys been going out?”

 Lena looks at Chris nervously praying that he will take the lead and answer questions. She isn’t sure what to say other than the truth so she hopes that when he answers it will set the tone of how things will always be for them.

 “This is Evangeline, and we this is our first official date. We just met through friends yesterday. Hate to cut this short, but I want to give her a great first date.” With that Chris grabs her hand once more as they head back to the car with four bags packed full of Hello Kitty merchandise.

 Beaming Lena gives him a bright smile as she pulls the plush Hello Kitty from the bag. “That was awesome! Thank you so much for this all! I can’t believe you got me one of everything.”

 “Well I looked at your Instagram and was trying to figure out what you did have but I figured this was easier. Are you happy with it?”

 “Most def am I happy about it all! Like look how cute this is”. She shows him the bow shaped water bottle and squeals. “So where to now? If there is a place that can really top of this awesomeness.”

 Chris chuckles and places his hand on her knee and gives it gentle squeeze. “This probably won’t be as awesome as the Hello Kitty cafe but it’s still pretty good.”

 Silently Lena gives him a confused look because she was curious as to what their next adventure would entail. They pulled up to a small bright blue building no words were on the building just large glass windows with mannequins with beautiful gowns on them.  “Where are we?”  She asks as he opens the door for her.

 “CHRISTOPHER!”  A small lady who resembles Edna from the Incredibles comes speed walking up to them with open arms. 

 “Edna!”  Chris greets her with the same warmth that she gives him.  “How are you?”

 “Ohh I’m good.  Same ole’ same ole’.  You know how it is.”  Edna stops when she realizes there is someone else with him.  “And WHO is this lovely lady?”  Edna takes a good look at the brown eye beauty. 

 Chris snakes his arm around Lena’s waist causing her to blush slightly.  “This is Lena.  We need a dress for tomorrow night.  Nothing to flashy but something  . . ..”  He trails off then looks down at Lena trying to sum up how he wants he to look.  “Beautiful.”

 Edna watches how the pair enacts with each other.  She isn’t sure if they are dating or not but they will be soon.  Generally, when Chris has a lady to take with to events they are family and the ones who aren’t have their own designer they would want rather than Edna.  Interesting. “Well hello.  What is your style?  Favorite color?  Are you opposed to heels?”

 “Hi.”  Lena says going to shake hands but Edna give her a hug with the same warmth she gave Chris.  “I’m not a glamour girl by any means.  I’m a mom.  So I guess boring girl next door.  I’m ok with a basic black gown, but not heels.”

 “I’d venture to say that you aren’t boring on any level.”  Edna says while Chris slyly nods his head.  “But here try this black gown on.”  Edna hands Lena a long black  plunging v-neckline and draped-knot waisted gown.  While Lena takes the gown and go to the dressing room; Edna goes into the back thinking she has the perfect dress for Lena. 

 Lena looks at herself in the gown before stepping out.  Wow I look basic and boring, but this is me now.  I guess.  “What do you guys think?  It’s a little loose but it works.”

 Chris and Edna look at each other giving each other the same look.  Chris knows how blunt Edna is so he opens his mouth to say something but Edna beats him to it.  “I don’t like it on you.”

 “Excuse me?”

 “I. Do. Not. Like. This. On. You.”

 Lena looks at herself in the huge mirror.  “Why not?  You made this; I thought I looked ok.”

 Chris intervenes before Edna would open her mouth again and possibly hurting Lena’s feelings.  “What she means is that it doesn’t flatter your figure.”

 She looks slightly defeated.  “Well what should I wear then?”  Tears threaten to fall down her face.  She refused to let them see her cry.

 He could see the difference in her body language. He hurt her. “It’s ok. We will find something better.” He grabs her hand and gives it a gentle squeeze.

 Edna watches them interact and realizes that she was a little bit too blunt with her reply.  “I didn’t mean to say I don’t like it on you, just that it doesn’t look like it is truly your character deep down.  Come sit.”  Lena joins Edna on the velvet blue couch, seeing that they are about to have a moment he walks outside to return some phone calls he has missed.  “Lets just be bluntly honest right now.  You don’t like it very much either.”  

Lena looks down cocking her her head to the side. “It’s not that I don’t like it. . . I just feel like I’m not really Hollywood material.  I don’t know what he or anyone wants of me.”

“Have you met Chris?  He isn’t Hollywood on any level.”

“I know but ...”

“No buts. He likes you. A lot. He might not have told you yet but he does.  You are beautiful and a mom but you can do both. Trust me with your dress ok?”

 “Ok. I’m going to trust, but what do you have in mind?”

“This.  Now go try it on before he comes back.  I want you to just be yourself and more importantly, love yourself.”

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“So let me get this straight. You didn’t want to take a family member to the charity dinner so you asked Jeff to find you someone. And now you are now ‘dating’ a random girl.”  Scott says. 

Chris runs his hands through his hair. “Wow you make me sound like a desperate asshole.”

“You said it not me.”

“Look it’s not like that, well not entirely. She was volunteered by Jeff’s assistant and I like spending time with her so far. I’d like to date her maybe. But...”

Scott cuts his brother off. “But what?”

“I don’t know if she likes me. Like she has been through some stuff. I don’t want to pressure her, even if I feel we would be great together.”

“Welp brother of mine. Give it time and do baby steps.  I mean if she let you hold her hand and such I think she is on board. Just baby steps.”

“Gotcha. Well I’m going to go inside and see what Edna has her in maybe something to really show her body off more.”

There was a pause. “You left her with Edna?”

“Yeah why?”

“Nothing just go back to see what she has her in.”

[polygamyff]

9.

Staring down at the pregnancy stick, my third attempt and it’s clear as day that I am but you never know third time lucky. It’s took me two weeks to suck it up and do this, I know I am, I can feel it in my soul I am. Rolling my eyes sighing out, three times now and I am. Any girl would be over the moon, I mean I don’t know. They got pregnant from a rich man and now they will be set up for life but no, I am not having money to keep a lease on my baby’ life. I don’t know what to feel, should I feel excitement or sadness, I feel slightly sad. I am having a side child because clearly I am a side bitch in this, I have to be because what the hell else am I. I feel like shit actually, he had a whole ass wife, I can’t get over it. But I just think back, just thinking to the times we are together and who the hell makes love to their side bitch. I just can’t comprehend it in my mind, I can’t accept this at all. Five years married and then not only that, he fucked his assistant so I am not the only one. I feel dirty all over again now, I must have been one of many girls for him. Maybe I was part of a sick minded game, I will never know. I better put these away, tell my mom and then break it to my dad in a way. I don’t know how I am going to tell him this, he seems very upset with me. He feels like I did something bad, well he actually thinks a guy or him has forced me to have sex.

Placing the pregnancy sticks in my top drawer, the fuck am I going to do now. I have to work and also be pregnant, I just want to be a surgeon but then I will have to be off. I can’t believe I am a single fucking mother, how life is cruel to me. Why does god hate me at times, I have work in an hour so I better get ready and eat now. I have gone back to eating again, I actually lost weight which was cute to see. I keep getting regular phone calls from Kellen and I hate him so now he’s on my block list, I haven’t blocked Tif because I know she truly didn’t know this. She told me she didn’t know much about that family but I guess I do now, fucking sick minded fucks. I have their spawn in me, that is annoying. Walking down the steps of my home, it’s official now and my mom wanted to find out for real so here I am telling her the bad news but my dad is here still “it’s nice to see you in better spirits Robyn but I do want to know why still” stood on the last step looking at my dad “I know dad, I will soon” he kissed my cheek “that is me going to work, Robyn drop your mom off at work for me. She said she is going in a little later” I know why, she wants to talk to me.

Sitting down at the dining table with my toast and coffee, I am not sure if coffee is bad for the baby or is ok to have. I will worry about that later “so” my mom pulled a chair out “you seem a little excited or are you anxious?” I questioned, maybe it’s both “anxious I would say baby, my baby having a baby it’s making me sick with worry” I love my mom so much “I hope I amount to you when I’m a mother, I pray and hope so” my mom stared at me dumbfounded “so what does that mean?” She is so confused “it means that your daughter is pregnant, I tried three times hoping it would change something but it didn’t, it still said pregnant” my mom smiled at me, I then frowned because she is getting emotional “mom?” I said slightly confused “ignore me baby” she gripped my hand “I wish it was better times but am I excited to be a grandmother? Yes I am, am I scared? Also yes but baby I will support you in this, you’re really having a baby. Don’t ever hate a baby that god blessed you with” my mom is making me emotional “I wouldn’t hate it, it’s something that I knew when I had sex with him without protection. I am scared but more scared to tell dad” my mom is an emotional mess.

I don’t know why my mom is being like this, she is making me feel awkward to eat my toast now, she is smiling at me in happiness but also sadness, I think she is happy for me but also sad “you know, I never thought of the moment when I would find out my daughter is pregnant. I just assumed you would be hard working and just wait for that, I feel as if I am scared for you. But I fully support you, we always do. I will be there for you, you can still prosper in your career. Me and you dad will help, I will take downtime, I am happy for you baby. A little blessing” my mom is making me emotional now “mom” placing my toast down “you’re making me cry again, you know I have refilled on tears now” my mom and I both laughed “I appreciate you so much, my backbone. I can’t explain how I feel because I was fully aware of what could happen so who am I to just be a hypocrite to this. Dad will probably think the worst of me right” my mom sighed out “we will have to sit down and talk but what about that man? What is his name?” Sipping my coffee “what man is this mother?” I played stupid “the man I want to slap” placing my coffee down laughing “Maurice, I’m sure I said it? Maybe not but yeah, he’s called Maurice” I can say his name without wanting to cry “very formal and old fashioned name that is, you need to tell him so then it’s up to him if he cares enough” he probably has his own kids, I don’t want to even speak to him.

Placing my plate in the dishwasher “you know Davenport hotels?” Of course my mom does “yes I do” closing he dishwasher door “he owns those hotels he inherited from his dad, his family own them which I didn’t know from Kellen because Kellen has no part of the hotel so maybe that is why but he owns it” my mom stared at me in shock “really? He owns them?” Nodding my head “those rich men are never too good, oh my word. Kellen never said? You really having a child with a man that owns them?” My mom looks in shock “because I think there is bitterness between the family, that is why he doesn’t mention it but yes mom, he is the man that will father my child” I thought I would tell her that “was it conceived also at his hotel?” I gasped “mother!” My mom laughed “ignore me, just seems funny but ok. You don’t do less do you? Got you a rich baby father” pulling a face “I don’t care for it, he can throw his money around. I will of course tell him but I refuse for my child to be near that family, so I don’t know how that will work” this is all so much.

I am worried at my dad’ reaction, he is going to be very upset. He’s not met him, he’s also upset me. My dad is not the type to get angry that much but when he is then he is, but it’s very rare. I need my mom more than anything right now “you sure you won’t be in trouble for being late at work?” She is pretty late “erm maybe but it’s fine, I will see you later yes?” Nodding my head “no late shifts now and also I googled him” squinting my eyes at my mom “who?” My mom looks guilty “Maurice, I was intrigued to know what he looks like. You said he was different to Kellen and he was more beautiful” placing my hand over my face “mom, you sound like me googling things” she is so silly “he’s different from the guys you’ve had, he’s looks ok” Nodding my head slowly smiling “just ok?” She is making me laugh, god I love this woman.

I don’t know why I bothered coming to London, I can’t concentrate. It bugs me, it’s been weeks and I am going crazy. I miss her face, I miss her voice but I can’t get close. Flicking onto the next picture of Robyn “Mr Davenport, you seem preoccupied” looking up from my phone “not at all, I apologise. I have many of business deals going on but I agree” I don’t know what he said at all, the white guy smiles at me “well least you agree” I don’t fucking agree to anything “you have been writing notes yes?” I leaned over to Ally “seeing as you have been staring at pictures yes I have been” I am glad she did, I can’t wait to leave this meeting so I can just sit in my hotel and think about how shit things are. I have the right mind to go to her house, I did do wrong but she should hear me out. I have been close in wanting to have drugs but I didn’t, I want to explain myself to Robyn before and I will get that chance.

Walking side by side with Ally down the lobby “took your time” Shawn got up from the seating area “well I’m done now” stepping outside “he didn’t do shit but stare at some girl” Ally is a hater “mhmmm whatever” seeing my driver “bye Ally” getting inside the car, I don’t care like I am in the right mind to just fuck up but it’s one thing that is pushing me and is to speak to Robyn and I will get my chance “so you spent your time doing what exactly?” Shawn said as he closed the car door “staring at Robyn, it got me though it. It’s hard, I feel so lonely. That small time we have together I had a purpose in life, what I got now? I ain’t going to find another Robyn, she is the girl I want” and that is it so I am stuck “I don’t like you speaking like that, I care so much about you. You’re my brother, you do have people that care so stop it, just you got to think of an action plan. Maybe spend time around LA? We can threaten Kellen?” See I like that plan, I don’t want to threaten him but then again who cares because I want mines “anyways Dubai next, Nalah will meet us there” my phone pinged “ain’t she staying there” Shawne asked, grabbing my phone out from the inside pocket of my suit jacket “yes she is, I just want to see if we are on the right track with the building and then leaving my sister there to overlook it. She is so happy actu….” I drifted off, that name I haven’t seen in weeks “oh my god, Bonita!!” I shouted out “the fuck?” Shawn said confused, like I haven’t seen that name in so long. I feel teary eyed, I don’t know what the text says but to see that name. Lifting my head up looking it of the window, my heart has text me “Bonita is Robyn, that’s her name from me” unlocking my phone to see the text.

From: Bonita

To: Maurice

We need to talk when you are free from your wife

Placing the phone on my lap, I don’t want her to be like with me. I don’t even want Naomi, she got to hear me out and this is my chance, texting her back ever so quickly.

To: Bonita

From: Maurice

I’m always free for you Bonita, when?

Pressing send hopefully I can see her, I mean ok I have a broken hand but it’s ok because I get to see her. I actually broke my hand from punching the wall, I knew I did that day “I have never see you so happy, using your broken hand to text” grinning wide “doctor said I can use my fingers still just he suggests I don’t and I have this on it” holding my hand up with the splint on “yeah, yeah so what she saying?” I’m so happy “we need to talk once I’m free from my wife but I expected this, I hurt her” my phone pinged in my hand but I never locked my phone which means she is online now and also means I have read her text already.

From: Bonita

To: Maurice

Tomorrow?

Why tomorrow when I am here but everything is cancelled “I’m going California, call Ally and tell her I need my jet. Y’all go Dubai, do me this favor please. Just watch Ally and be me, I will tell my sister what to do. I have to go, this is my time. I need her back” Shawn just smiled at me “you sprung, just go. I hope she hears you out, you deserve happiness” thank god.

To: Bonita

From: Maurice

Yeah! I’ll meet you wherever you want

Pressing send on the text “I am scared to see her, I am scared on if she will want me” I am so scared on this, this is end all “why wouldn’t she? You need to open up and tell her, this marriage was not it. You was forced, you was on drugs, your dad did it to keep a hold of you. Your dad used you, Maurice. You say how much you love her” Nodding my head, I am nervous about this meet. I am wondering why she wants to meet me though, what changed her mind. Now she will see my hand broke, god help me for this meet.