#listened to my fuck boi Keigo playlist to write this believe it or not

[touyasdoll]

Tomorrow

pairing: Hawks/Keigo Takami x reader

word count: 1.2k

warnings: please read! suicidal ideation, overall sense of hopelessness, please do not engage if you are not in the proper headspace, spoilers for the manga, burns

notes: this man is not all sunshine and rainbows & I know he can’t be truly happy serving the agency that kidnapped him. just an angsty little dose of reading between the lines.

Keigo stares out the floor to ceiling windows of his penthouse. His elaborate cage. He finds himself here often. He keeps finding himself here. Stuck.

“Babe?”

And then there’s the reminder that you’re stuck with him. He closes his eyes and takes a breath, puts on a smile, and turns around to pretend that everything’s just fine. Like always.

“What’s up?” He asks easily. As if he hadn’t been contemplating what might happen if he jumped and conveniently forgot that he had wings.

But you can always tell when everything’s not fine. He almost wishes that you couldn’t, but he’s grateful that you can.

“You okay?” You ask quietly, though you know you don’t need to. The same song and dance.

He looks down and shakes his head, sticking his hands in his pockets as he shrugs his shoulders. He can’t bear to look at you.

“No.” He turns to look out the window again. Stares down at the street below before he looks out at the horizon and somehow that hurts more. ”I’m so tired.”

Your beneath his wing in a moment, arms folding around his middle to hold him tight. Trying in vain to hold together a man who is so close to breaking. A man who can’t afford to shatter. One who’s never allowed himself the opportunity, but he’s so close tonight.

“Let’s just go,” you whisper against the fabric of his shirt, tears already pricking your eyes, because you swear you can feel the sadness seeping from his bones. You hold him tighter to no avail. “We can leave tonight. We’ll run.”

His arms wind around you, pulling you closer still. It’s still never close enough.

“We can’t,” his voice breaks and your tears spill onto his chest, because you know that he’s right. “They’ll find me. Even I’m not fast enough to outrun them and even if I was..” he trails off and loosens his hold to look down at you.

He catches your chin, tilting your head back to cup your face in his hand. His thumb wipes away one of the countless tears he wishes you’d never had to cry for him.

“I can’t risk losing you. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I won’t do anything that might put you in their sights,” he whispers as he wipes away another tear, then kisses yet another rolling down your cheek.

“I can’t,” he repeats, voice wavering as his forehead rests against yours and his eyes fall closed. Yours do the same while your hands fist uselessly at his t-shirt and you struggle to swallow the lump in your throat.

“I love you, Kei.” Your voice is just as broken as his, but there’s still hope in your voice when you whisper, “It’ll be alright. We’ll be alright.”

“I love you too.”

Of that, he’s certain. Of what he says next, he’s far less convinced of.

“We’ll be okay,” he murmurs as he pulls you close again, cradling the back of your head against his chest as he kisses your scalp and looks out at the horizon.

Tomorrow could change everything.

He usually tells you when he’s heading off on a particularly dangerous mission, because he usually isn’t actually afraid of not making it back in one piece.

This time is different. He has an awful feeling that he can’t seem to shake. He’s been carefully gathering intel on the PLF and tomorrow’s the day that it finally comes to fruition. He hopes that all goes well. As well as it can, at least, but hope isn’t enough to keep you protected in case things don’t go according to plan.

“We may not be able to run,” he says as he rests his hand against your back, rubbing it gently. “But we can escape for a little bit.”

You tilt your head back and peer up at him curiously. “What do you mean?”

“I booked us a trip.” He smiles and it touches his eyes. Just barely, but it’s enough to soothe the ache of worry in your chest. “I wanted to surprise you in the morning, but something came up that I can’t get out of, so you’ll be on a flight tomorrow and I’ll be right behind you once I'm finished."

He doesn't love the way that he has to lie to you, but he knows that it's for your own good. Maybe he would be right behind you. He hopes so.

“What?" You blink at him in surprise.

It wasn't like Keigo to take a vacation, especially one that he had orchestrated. He'd agreed to it in the past but only after a great deal of persuading on your part. It was encouraging to think that maybe he'd seen the value in allowing himself to rest once in a while.

"Really?" The excitment that had snuck it's way into your voice makes him smile and he nods as you mirror his expression. "Thank you, baby, but I don't wanna leave without you," you say softly as you run your hands over his chest. "I'm happy to wait until we can go together."

"I thought you might say something like that, but your family's going too. They'll be on the flight with you tomorrow and I should be in the day after that. I want you to go and start enjoying yourself, babe. Really," he insists gently, wearing a soft smile as he spots a stray tear on your chin and makes it disappear with his thumb before tilting your head back to give you a chaste kiss.

You lean into it, deepening the kiss for just a second before you pull away to smile up at him, thoroughly and pleasantly surprised.

"You planned a vacation for us and my family?"

"I did," he says proudly. His hand slips over your spine and down to your ass, which he squeezes and delivers a light swat to as he nods towards the bedroom. "So you best start packin'. Bring somethin' to swim in."

You squeal quietly, bouncing on your toes as you wind your arms around his neck to lean in and kiss him again. You're about to take off when you pause and cock your head to one side, trying to read his mind once again.

"I'm fine," he whispers, taking your hand to lift your palm to his lips as he holds your gaze. "I'll be in there in just a minute, okay?"

You nod and slip off to the bedroom to start gathering your things together, your head filled with visions of laying somewhere on a warm beach surrounded by those you love.

While he stares out the window again, contemplating the multitude of ways that tomorrow might play out. None of them bring him any comfort. Only anxiety.

He sighs and stuffs it down to go and join you, eager to keep your spirits up, so that at least he could take comfort in knowing that you wouldn't be concerned about him tomorrow.

He packs a bag for himself, talks to you about the destination, and allows himself a moment of peace as he wraps you up in his arms for the evening while he listens to you go on about how excited you are until you eventually drift to sleep.

The anxiety keeps him awake, but he holds onto the little moments of joy, replaying them in his mind to keep himself grounded while he wraps you up in one of his large red wings, mercifully unaware that tonight would be the last night that he even gets the opportunity, because they would be all but burned away completely by this time tomorrow.

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[blacksta4]

— BNHA boys with a spiritual S/O :)

Includes: Tomura Shigaraki, Dabi, Keigo takami, Hitoshi Shinsou and Kamanari Denki

(for my over 18 folks i aged up the student characters for yall ;] )

Tomura Shigaraki:

He doesn’t get it

Like why does he need to be “cleansed” every month?

and why do you have crystals that he can’t mess with lying in sacred spots???

no matter how hard you try to explain it’s not gonna stick

he likes it though, just means your hands are on him even more

he’s a pervert (no shit)

searched up “spiritual _____ gets.....” on PH before

wants you to send nudes with the crystals on some part of ya body

overall very good reaction to it 10/10

Dabi:

What the actual fuck.

That’s what he said when he walked in on you doing your chakra exercises

hates it when you smudge the house (that’s that toxic energy.....)

But he likes when you rub the florida water on his forehead when he has a headache

touches your crystals all the time and likes when you place them on him

leaves you alone while meditating because he thinks it’s weird 💔

Pokes your cheeks while you try and make herbs

brings you tea when you’re writing in the ✨book ✨

overall reaction 8/10 for annoying you

Keigo:

Goes absolute batshit

This is his dream fr fr you cannot tell me this man doesn’t blast jhene aiko and meditate

listens to you rant about how someone was so toxic today and how you almost picked up on their low vibration while you smudge the house

he looovessss meditating with you

he’s very flexible dispite his wings getting in the way

goes on patrol with a protection jar necklace you made him and safety rocks

best playlist for meditation don’t argue with me.

stares at you like a little puppy while you make moon or rain water

overall reaction 10/10

Shinsou:

the most calm reaction

doesn’t really believe in it

until you told him his vibrations were low and you helped him cleanse himself and energy

felt better after the first affirmation

learnt how to control his body and thoughts making it harder for people who annoy him at work to change that

mediates with you now and always makes pho after no matter how hot

doesn’t really like crystals but will keep some of the ones you gave him in his pockets

Overall reaction 9/10 for not believing at first

Denki:

“So you’re a witch?!?”

that was literally his question

you had to calm him down and explain to him, but he found it so cool and was really interested from the jump

searched up everything even things you already explained because he says you speak in “cryptic messages”

wants to meet his spirit guide so badly but you keep telling him he’s not ready for that

thought nen was real for about a year before you explained

indicates he’s in a bad mood and wants to be “healed” by your hugs and crystals

once again wants pictures of dat ass with crystals on it 🙏🏾

overall 20/10 for the witch comment cause witches are cool

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