#lmfao i missed playing poe!!

[the-force-awakens]

with it officially being disability pride month, I wanna talk about my favorite disabled headcanon, which is for the one and only, my most beloved Poe Dameron. Buckle up, because this is a long post.

I actually have a few different disability headcanons, most of which hold up to canon/are extrapolated from canon, so we'll keep that in mind as we go through. I expect this to have about...four parts total. Let's go!

Hard of Hearing

I think a good case can be made that Poe is hard of hearing, with a few instances that could point to this fact, primarily the very beginning of the Rise of Skywalker. Even though Chewie is sitting right beside Poe, Poe does not understand what Chewie has said, because his head is turned (at no other point does Poe have any problem understanding Chewbacca, so we know it is not a linguistics issue)

It's only when he turns towards Chewie and Chewie repeats what he said that Poe understands what was said. There's also the frankly adorable moment in The Last Jedi that's extremely easy to miss, because it's a far away shot and we just barely catch what Poe says:

BB-8 is beeping so fast trying to catch Poe up that Poe has to request that he slow down so Poe can understand him. Other possible evidence of him being HoH (beyond the comical amount of explosions he's constantly caught in) is that there are several shots where we see Poe carefully watching the lips of the person he's speaking to as they're talking, as if that might help him keep up.

And (I don't have a gif of this lmao I'm not giffing him getting hurt) when Poe gets shot in tros, @/dameronalone pointed out it could be evidence he didn't hear the approaching stormtroopers when he turned to look the other way. @/hermitmoss has also pointed to his line at the start of tfa while being snarky at Kylo as further possible evidence, about how it's hard to understand Ren with the voice modulator.

Essential Hand Tremor

Another fact pointed out to me by @/hermitmoss (thanks Braigwen) is that when Poe goes to cover Leia's hand with his own in the Last Jedi, we see that his hand is shaking:

I later noticed that this isn't the only time that we see Poe do this, we see it again in the Rise of Skywalker, where he cannot keep his blaster steady as Rey approaches the serpent at all.

These are the only two circumstances I can find of his hands trembling in the movies, though, and we know from plenty of other scenes that Poe ordinarily can keep a blaster extremely steady:

Autism & ADHD

Okay this one I don't consider to be a headcanon, lmfao. I genuinely believe that Poe was intentionally coded as autistic/ADHD by Oscar Isaac.

Oscar playing/coding Poe as something that is never explicitly confirmed by Disney is far from new: Poe is coded as a bisexual (or pansexual) man, because that's how Oscar Isaac saw Poe and chose to play him, and even if we weren't gifted with it being made explicit, it's still there in his performance.

If you happen to be a fan of Oscar Isaac, or just a Marvel and Star Wars fan both, you'll know he starred in the Disney+ series Moon Knight last year as the Moon Knight system (Steven Grant, Marc Spector, and Jake Lockley).

Shortly after the first episode premiered, Oscar Isaac revealed in an interview that while trying to figure out who Steven was as a person, he came up with the idea that the system be on the Autism Spectrum, and approached Marvel to see if he could include it into his performances, and it was green-lit.

The Lunar system is the best intentional autistic representation I've ever seen, there are so many things they do that are so minor that I doubt most people would ever consider to include, but they are things that me and my friends do.

And there's an overlap in how Oscar plays the various autistic habits and traits of the Lunar system in how he portrays Poe. Most notably, Poe and Marc have extremely similar meltdowns:

There's plenty more overlap (Poe does the same anxious stim Steven does, of rubbing the inside of his index finger with his thumb) but there's so much there I'm not sure where all to begin. I have gone more in depth on the various autistic traits Poe shows throughout the films in this gifset here, though.

I'll go ahead and include some of the moments we see him stimming, that I have evidence of:

(he also does this same hand thing when he starts to leave BB-8 and promises to come back.)

We also see him fidgeting anxiously with his hands during the briefing in the last jedi:

Poe also has a habit of running his tongue along his bottom lip while he's stressed or thinking something through. Here's three examples from across the trilogy (there are plenty more):

We're leaning a little closer into ADHD territory now. I don't really know how to explain why I think Poe is ADHD, to be quite honest, besides the fact that he just radiates ADHD energy to me and I heavily relate. This is a man who cannot stay still, and frequently talks with his hands:

But there's also the fact that Poe oftentimes has a tendency to not be able to fully see the potential of negative outcomes to his decisions - he sees point a to point b, and sometimes becomes laser focused on that. It's something I understand perfectly, because it's hard for me to pull away from something I've already fully committed to doing, and it's even more difficult sometimes for me to truly understand what (and what kind of) consequences my actions will have.

Other evidence of him being extremely autistic (and adhd) is just....that he makes autistic expressions?

Like this...is an autistic expression, I've seen my best friend make this exact fucking face before, I don't know how else to explain it.

Misc Thoughts

Aside from the above, it's pretty much canon that Poe has anxiety and depression — at the very least, Poe Dameron: Free Fall by Alex Segura certainly does not shy away from the suggestion, and is one of the most implicit portrayals we have of it outside the films — it is a series of catastrophizing his circumstances that leads Poe to joining Zorii for a little while as a teenager, following a joyride that ended in a crash that Poe explicitly wishes he had not survived.

The movies themselves also points to Poe having PTSD, partially through the writing but mostly due to the nuanced and thoughtful performance Oscar Isaac gives as Poe (that goes....woefully underappreciated, seriously he adds so much depth to every single scene as Poe, including the thread of anxiety in Poe's voice when Rey mentions Ren's ship is over Kijimi, or constantly looking out to make sure they're not being followed in tros).

(Good expanded material follows through on this, such as Poe's reluctance to discuss anything about what happened aboard the Finalizer in the Poe Dameron: Flight Log, and becoming irate at the thought of having to. He's an extremely traumatized man, and he certainly doesn't deserve to be thrown out of an airlock jfc and he isn't as arrogant as the fascist regime he is fighting, tbh he's not arrogant at all).

Conclusion

I believe that sums up the majority of my Poe is disabled thoughts, or at least the ones that I think holds up very well within the canon framework. He's extremely disabled and - in the case of being neurodivergent - this is critical to understanding him as a character, especially considering his arc ends up being focused on interdependence.

I wish all fellow disabled folk a happy pride month, and I wish all very ableds a very "please do not be ableist on this post". You will be blocked otherwise.

[quinttyz]

me and the boys boutta storm Raedric’s stronghold (it’s just us three and only one is actually decently armored)

[northeasternwind]

part two!!

rey :c

THERE ARE WOMEN OTHER THAN LEIA

oh my god she likes chewie does he like her back (i assume no)

ARE WE EVER GOING TO FUCKING HIDE THI S DROID

yikes vader isn’t looking good these days. like i know he died but jeez.

THE DAAAARK SIDE

i like this woman

YES HE WANNA RUN!! HE FRIGHTEN!!! PROTEC

REYYYYY SHE WANNA STAY WITH FINN.....

im so sad han is so nice oh my god

BRING THAT DUDE TO THE FORMADINE RIFT

OH BABIE....... BABIE...... PROTEC.....

he is... so frigthen..... he is adult. i will stop calling him babie.

reyyyyy noooooo

fren is smol an careful

is she using her magic force powers

IT IS S W O R D

TAKE THE SWORD!!

sof....

scott manley once did a video on how many twinkies it would take to power a deathstar

maz: IT’S GONNA CATCH UP TO YOU MY SMOL FREND

i do not like this angry hux man. he yells THAT SALUTE WASN’T EVEN SUBTLE

:c.........................................................

oh.... fren.... they follow......

LOOK AT THOSE FUCKERS FLYING

OH MY FUCKING GOD

finn is like Yes. I Will Find Rey. he adult and i believe in him

ben u fuk. water u doin

HE CAN USE THE SWORD!! THE LIGHTSABER!! HE PROVEN FORCE

it’s him!!! it’s spinny-weapon stormtrooper dude!!!

POOOOEEEE!!

get ur mcfukin lightsaber YEEEEEE

that is poe!! he good

rey :c it ok someone coming back for u

JUTS RUN !!!

you have heard nothing u ugly loser. you only know she’s a girl. what else have you heard

its ur boy!! its benny!!!

POOR FUCKING FINN HE JUST KEEPS LOSING PEOPLE

smol fren juts like I GO BACK

ITS HER

IT’S LEIA

IT’S HER

THERE SHE IS

beeps loudly!!! beep!!!

IT’S NICE HAIR JAN

give me carrie back. she’s ours. 2016 can ghet its grubby paws off her

I WANT FINN TO FIND POE AND BE HAPP

Y7E4AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I’M SO HAPPY THEY’RE TOFETHER AGAIN I MCFUCKING 

I’M SO HAPPY THEY’RE TOGETHER AND FRAND

CHEWIE LMFAO

bahaha liea... please... .....i have no idea what han solo has ever done

FREN BEEP AT BIGGER FREN!!!

OH..................... HE MISS LUKE........................................ NO...............

I AM GLAD LEIA KNOWS HOW TO RECOGNIZE

i know he isn’t going to succeed at taking ben back lol he ded

like, well yes i want to kill you i want to defend myself u fuk

okay listen. listen. i am. i am trying. so hard. not to equate ugliness with evil.

i am trying.

..............BUT IT’S HARD SOMETIMES. PLEASE HELP ME.

LMFAO IS SHE READING HIS MIND

darth vader is already stronger than you fuck

why did snoke need to fucking project himself so big. that was unnecessary.

LMFAO OH MY GOD REY

THAT STORMTROOPER IS THE REAL MVP

it’s been zero days since our last kylo ren-related nonsense

you leave that star alone you fucks

take the ding dang sun

I TOO LIKE THIS GUY

finn is such a good guy. he deserves 

i can’t believe the story happened backwards and leia is dead and han solo is still alive. ...not that i want harrison ford to die but i mean. bring carrie back

LMFAO THIS IS EXACTLY LIKE ELITE DANGEROUS

JUST FUCKING SMASH INTO THE PLANET AT LIGHT SPEED WHO GIVES A FUCK. PUT SOME SHIELDS ON THAT SHIT, 

he sense the papa

i’m cry he just came back for rey

phasmaaaaaaaKLAJSDHALSKJGFHALJSHDGFKAJHSDGF can she get a redemption arc

i shake when i play hide and seek i could not handle rey’s situation right now

PUT HER IN THE TRASH!!!!

i hope finnTHERE SHE ISi hope bombing that thing does something

OH MY GOD I’MSO HAPPY SHE HUG SHE IS HAPPY

they came backf or yher

nyoooom!! nyoooom!!

why does han take that fucking jacket off in every single scene

oh han solo dies here i feel like. i remember he gets thrown

ben does a grumpy walk

Where Is Pa

:c he wanna his boi

u gonna dieeee wow that’s a dramatic shot

come see your mama :c

ben u fuk. 

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LEIA FELT IT THAT’S SO SAD????????????

THAT’S SO MUCH SADD

KAJSDHALKSJDHLKJAHS CHEWIE GOOD GUY

GOOD GUY CHEWIE

you can do it finn!! YOU CAN DO IT FINN!!!

its not gonna come you fuck.

YESSSSS

of course the ayy lmao dies first

useless combat rolls

someone mentioned rey keeps using thrusting attacks with a slashing weapon she is too quarterstaff

the force is with youuuuuu

CLIKCLICLICLICLICLICLIC TURN HIS LIGHTSABER OFF

she is STRONKER THAN U

grab finn and gO

you live to fight another day ben

geez, this is a good movie

CHEWIIIIEEEE

just blow up the planet. just blow the whole thing up. bring that senator a planet, senators love planets

oh leia D:

HTEY SNAGGLE THEY HUG...!!! THEY KNOW

lmfao rey is So Tall. statuesque jedi

smol fren like YEI!!!

LMFAO

THEY BEEPS.... THEY BEEPS....

BEEPS HAPPILY

WE CAN FIND THE BOI

rey :c

SMOOCH!!! WHAT A GOOD

fiinn is good and deserve

yeee she have The Stick

can she get a Lightstick

like instead of a saber

juts a stick

beebeeps

i can’t believe rey has her own ship now...........................

someone is definitely going to follow them in the next movie “:c

chewie growling faintly

those stairs look terrifying. where is the railing i’m afraid of heights

NOW WE WAIT FOR THE LAST JEDI YAAAAAY

[reylofanfictionanthology]

The suspense is over! We are very excited to present our updated masterlist of the 56 Ring in the New Year with Reylo fics, now complete with the names of the mystery authors!

Thank you so much to every single one of our writers. You all are free (and encouraged!) to share your hard work on tumblr and elsewhere. Please leave some commenting love for our amazing writers!

Home Is... by Artemis1000 for Sydney508 “Building a life together” is more than just a phrase. For Kylo and Rey, it literally starts with building a home, one little step at a time (but please don’t let them play with electricity anymore.)

Just a Dream by jitterygummy for kmanion At night, desperate to sleep, Rey imagines an island.

we must be killers (children of the wild ones) by diasterisms for personalphilosophie He chuckles. He can't help it. "You have to stop terrorizing the merchants, my love.""I'm 'your love' now, am I? You were calling me 'little idiot' a few days ago—""Who," he snaps, "in their right mind would just drop down into the middle of a pack of Sith hounds?""Element of surprise?" she offers. "Anyway, they were only Sith hounds."There is refuge even here, in their little games. He can't remember precisely when it started. It crept up on him like salvation, like forgiveness, like dawn seeping through.

Fugue by Elywyngirlie for Queronea Kylo and Rey keep their marriage in secret during the war, but in the final fight with Snoke, Kylo gets hit in his head and loses all his memories of Kylo Ren. Now he's Ben Solo, balancing work in the Resistance base, his Jedi training with Luke, the disappearance of his father, and the constant fights with Rey, the only person in the base he cannot seem to get along with.

A wig and glasses isn't enough by Ghostsdontdie for TheJGatsby Rey meets a celebrity in disguise, and things only get crazier from there...

Gideon's Sacrifice by SWAG_77 for Ceallaigh Since the loss of Rey, Kylo Ren’s pursuit of these new enemies has been relentless. Planets of no consequence, like Serpindal and Belkadan have gone completely dark from technology - there were no electronic subspace transmissions. Later his Knights of Ren discovered the planets were destroyed by space anomalies, such as the moon crashing into Serpindal, and an overgrowth of insects on Belkadan. His daughter has been left in the care of his mother, Leia. However, in this last visit, New Republic Forces have chosen to arrest him and try him for his crimes against the galaxy from the last war. The war the First Order lost to the Resistance. He was tried by grand jury of the New Republic and convicted of various crimes. His sentence was to be placed in Carbonite stasis by a new protocol that would cause him to be devoid of the Force. Leia refuses to let Kylo Ren surrender to them. Kylo Ren has other plans.

Love makes the galaxy go round by Karla_shadow for bittersnake Their masters make a secret arrangement behind their backs.

The Word of Skill by TehanuFromEarthsea for onstraysod When Kylo Ren kidnaps Rey from Ahch-to, he expects her to be a worthy rival and a pupil. He's already seen enough to know she's a girl who can match him in wits and in Force power. But it's the other things Rey learned during her years of neglect on Jakku that will make all the difference; not only to Kylo but to the other inhabitants of the Finalizer, and perhaps the Galaxy itself.

The most beautiful souls by NatMatryoshka for dustoftheancients (The_Hollow_Bones) Rey is a Jedi, trained by Luke Skywalker, granddaughter of Obi-Wan Kenobi, another famous Jedi master. Kylo Ren has moved his first steps as a Sith: he's sure of himself, stubborn. They have felt in love too soon.[Jedi/Sith AU]

Heart Craters, Filled With Light by dustoftheancients for KagamiSorciere Rey has never been able to celebrate Christmas before. Kylo can't help but become a little invested.

His Desire by kmanion for Ghostsdontdie Kylo Ren's hopes and dreams are fulfilled with a marriage to Rey, but he remains uncertain and unsatisfied.“Which of us is happy in this world? Which of us has his desire? or, having it, is satisfied?” ― William Makepeace Thackeray, "Vanity Fair"

the hint of hope that is you by SaintHeretical for ReyloTrashCompactor (NextToSomething) Rey, Poe, Finn, and the rest of the staff at Recto et Verso Books are gearing up for the holiday season when a surprise mass shipment throws them off balance. Selling 742 copies of anything would be a challenge for a store their size. Selling 742 copies of pretentious, free form, emo poetry by some asshole named "Kylo Ren" is next to impossible...or so they think.BookstoreAU written for the lovely ReyloTrashCompactor for the "Ring in the New Year with Reylo" challenge. If you love tea, books, and truly horrifying poetry, this story is for you.

let the silver arrow fly by solikerez for LarirenShadow Leia plays cupid, and fires a few misshots before getting it right.

Retrouvailles by OccasionallyCreative for NatMatryoshka : The joy or happiness of reuniting with someone after a long separation.Prompt from NatMatryoshka: "Padawan Rey and Senator Ben Organa Solo: Rey and her master Luke escort young Senator Ben Organa for a noisy party in Coruscant. What will happen?"

The Fickle Finger of Fate by cuddlesome for OfHealingLove She should not be afraid of him. She does not understand. She will. He will make her.

such language holds the solemn sea (to sands upon the shore) by Vivien for cassanah They only ever met in large cities where they could blend into anonymity. This time they were in a city called Tvell’ia on a bustling trade world in the Outer Rim. Kylo came here once when he was not Kylo Ren. He remembered how the luminescent algae in the ocean glowed in the darkness of the night here, and he wanted Rey to see it.

Stay by TheBridgeIntoYourMind for Thelittlescrimshaw Prompt fill for Ring In the Reylo New Year's gift exchange.

Sins of the Father by Ceallaigh for Hormonal_Trashbag Unable to outrun the sins of his past, Ben Solo is faced with a ghost from that life that threatens his chance to finally find a peace he has sought his entire life.

The Five Times We Met At The Train Station And The One Time We Did Not by kuresoto for the-reylo-void (Anysia) Exactly what it says on the tin(or the five times rey assaulted ben in some way lmfao)

Clockwork by WildConcerto for Vickyshipsreylo He is young, and there are two things he fears above everything else: death, and clockwork.

Family issues by Limra for Artemis1000 Rey tries to understand her feelings for a redeemed Ben Solo while his mother and uncle treat her like the hope for a better galaxy. It's not easy when you have to be a jedi, a friend, a warrior and a lover.

That One Time Rey Got Drunk by OfHealingLove for dungeoncrawler Rey is drunk, Kylo is impulsive, and neither of them can admit their feelings. They can, however, express them through physical intimacy.

Take my hand by Vickyshipsreylo for tyrantsandcreampuffs

Opposition in Vain by personalphilosophie for solikerez Rey is a factory girl living off of meager pay and the hope that her parents will return. She's given a new chance at happiness when the parson Luke Skywalker (a former student of her grandfather's) adopts her. Years later, the Skywalker-Solo merchant business is facing financial ruin. In order to save her found family, she enters into marriage with the prodigal Ben Solo, who became wealthy through betrayal. But there may be more to this arrangement than what meets the eye...

Anchorite by dungeoncrawler for momo_official It was right, Rey thought, that he had to bend so low to speak to her. Men like Kylo Ren were made to kneel.

the one thing you leave behind (is how did you love) by MostTulip for diasterisms Kylo's orders are to turn Rey to the Dark Side. His personal feelings may prevent him from doing so.

Clandestine by LueurdeLaube for kuresoto She should have just done her job as a Jedi, should have remained detached yet polite, should have guarded Senator Ben Organa, and should not have jumped into bed with him.

Bound in the Balance by RacheyMayBe for TheBridgeIntoYourMind He sees her struggles. He feels her frustrations. He senses her presence in the Force, a sensation that echoes his own. He feels compelled to help her, to tell her the truth about herself and himself. How much he ends up telling her, he didn't expect.

Solace for the Damned by KagamiSorciere for incognitajones Christmas Eve, and a lone priest of a tiny, isolated parish works feverishly in the snow until an old friend drops by. She misses him- what will it take to lure him away? When will he stop hiding behind the cloth?

The Planet of Fates by agirlfromniima for Juulna Simple scavenger Rey was almost ready to find Luke, to bring peace to the galaxy once again, until a mysterious force pulled her into the dreaded Kylo Ren's path. Though this may be a trap, something bigger seems to be playing out for the two adversaries. And it won't be like anything they've faced before...  

Between Daydreams and Nightmares by Hamliet for BeMyDarkling "Bring the girl to me." Kylo begins to train Rey after her abduction; however, as he attempts to draw out the Dark Side in her, she ignites the Light in him.

Ex Nihilo Nihil Fit by La_Catrina for SouthSideStory A diplomatic mission to Fest goes differently than expected.

Shadowed by Juulna for Limra The war is over. It has been for years. A damaged Kylo is forced to face his fears when Rey tells him that she wants children, believing that the sins of the father would be passed on to the children -- his children... much like the sins of Darth Vader ruined the reputation of his mother, then-Senator Leia Organa.Rey? Well. Rey thinks that it's about time that Kylo faces what people really think about her husband.

A Ghtroc 690, Fully Restored by SouthSideStory for Chthonia This is the Force, Rey knows, trying to draw her to Kylo Ren, but she doesn’t care about whatever greater purpose a higher power has in store for them. She hates this man, and she despises any connection they have, no matter how divine its origin. (Or: the Force ruins Rey's first vacation.)

Quiet Words by tyrantsandcreampuffs for RacheyMayBe She wants to take his heart in her hand and dare it to beat when its fickleness is the reason Han’s never will again.(She doesn’t know yet that this fury doesn’t wholly belong to her.)

One Thousand and One Nights by Thelittlescrimshaw for TehanuFromEarthsea Really, Rey ought to kill him. But instead she found herself fascinated by him

Trapped by BeMyDarkling for PalenDrome (nerdherderette) Rey and Kylo get trapped on a shuttle in the middle of deep space. Inspired by ChroniclyFlaming's "Revanche"

Jazz Night at the Jakku Philharmonic by TehanuFromEarthsea for SaintHeretical Rey expects nothing good when the Jakku Philharmonic plays an outdoor gig with weird and reclusive jazz legend Snoke. As for his backing band, they're something else. Kylo styles himself as "the loudest trumpet player in the universe", and his mic stand is right behind Rey's chair in the woodwind section.

This Darkness Which You Know You Cannot Fight by cuddlesome for OccasionallyCreative Rey gives in to her anger. It has been a long time coming.

Fight Like Me by jitterygummy for SWAG_77 After mysteriously crashing on a moon, Rey and Kylo Ren find themselves Forced to fight together.

The Force Works in Mysterious Ways by Vivien for agirlfromniima Sometimes you just know what you need to do.

Tall Tales of the Western Wilds by politicalmamaduck for Vivien They say there's three sides to every story: his side, her side, and the truth. No matter which you choose to believe, Ragin' Rey Kenobi was the greatest bounty hunter there ever was.

Exigence in Force Majeure by KagamiSorciere for MostTulip This war has raged for ages and most of the leaders at its helm are long gone. It's left to Kylo Ren, and Rey, his constant opposing force, whose minds have seeped so far into each other as to make planning in secret impossible, to come to some accord or else watch the galaxy burn in their futile efforts at mutual destruction.

Muscle Memory by incognitajones for thewayofthetrashcompactor (BriarLily) The war may be over, but Rey is still encountering Kylo Ren far too frequently for her peace of mind.

Two Comets Lost, Following the Trails of Stars Unknown by dustoftheancients for Karla_shadow He calls out to her as if through the Force, a pull that repels and attracts her in equal measure. He draws nearer to her as if he can’t help but follow that strange call.She backs away."You can't fight destiny."

i'm always in this twilight (in the shadow of your heart) by diasterisms for jitterygummy Coded on a secondhand datapad in a run-down motel room in Mos Eisley, deleted and never sent: Everything about us was a whirlwind.Written on a scrap of durasheet in a Tion Cluster outpost, the words fading after a while into air and ghosts: You shouldn't have forgiven me for any of it.Scraped into the bark of an oak tree on the Argazdan homeworld: You won't believe the dreams I have about you.

climb so fast to fall by thewayofthetrashcompactor for LueurdeLaube Kylo Ren arrived at (crashed into) the Resistance base and fell in front of the general, broken and bleeding. No one was very happy about this development, least of all Rey.

All That's Best of Dark and Bright (Eallach Monstrosus) by PalenDrome for cuddlesome monster noun mon·ster \ˈmän(t)-stər\ : a strange or horrible imaginary creature : something that is extremely or unusually large : a powerful person or thing that cannot be controlled and that causes many problems -Source: Mirriam-Webster's Dictionary A Beauty and the Beast pastiche

In Balance by LarirenShadow for Fangirltrashbaby Kylo Ren arrives on Ahch-Too with some surprising news. Rey is hesitant at first but when Luke strands them on the planet she has to learn to get along with him.

soon I know you'll see (you're just like me) by bittersnake for KyloWren She crooks a finger. He kneels.

desperado (where you gonna run to) by second_chances for La_Catrina 'It is my personal opinion that we cannot take Snoke down without you. Sorry excuse of a man that you are at the moment.' Rey's eyes skimmed him up and down as though searching for something, and coming up wanting.Kylo could not fault her for that. He’d failed at being a good man a long time ago, and a bad man more recently. He was adrift between two worlds, belonging in neither.

Captain by Hormonal_Trashbag for politicalmamaduck "Why?” she blurted.He blinked at her for a few seconds. “Why am I bad at flirting? Or--”“No,” Rey cleared her throat. “Why me?”His head tilted inquisitively, and she felt his gaze as it traveled from her face. “Honestly? Han told me he was looking to hire another pilot. I saw you alone in here and…” he trailed off, glaring at his second whiskey.“And?”He met her eye, squaring his shoulders to say, “I’ll pay you double for the same job.”

Blades Crossed by the-reylo-void for second_chances Notorious figure skater Kylo Ren has had a rough few years; once a decorated competitor, now it's hard to say what he's losing faster, sponsors or partners. With Nationals just six months out and no qualified partner on the horizon, Kylo finds himself begrudgingly skating with college hockey phenom Rey Kenobi, a scrappy forward coming off injured reserve who doesn't know a lutz from an axel. It's only for six months, but family drama, a twisted coach, and a budding closeness to his new partner ensure that this will be the most eventful competition season of Kylo's career.

Rare and Imprecise by ReyloTrashCompactor for WildConcerto Soul bonds are rare and imprecise. Few beings took any stock in their occurrence, though the midwife cooed that it was a sign of great luck to have a son born with an omen etched down his back.Leia didn't like it.

The Wheels Keep Right on Rolling by PalenDrome for Hamliet Ben Solo is brilliant and handsome. He is also insufferably arrogant, a flagrant womanizer, and a total ass. On certain days, they get along as well as oil and water. On others, it's more like ammonium nitrate and TNT.Which is why the prospect of spending the next 48-hours cooped up in a car--on a road trip with the man--has left Rey feeling a bit out of sorts....

Convergence by the-reylo-void for Elywyngirlie Whatever the next steps are, I want to take them with you

[politicalmamaduck]

Ring in the Reylo 2017

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Fics under 100 hits and kudos:

Tall Tales of the Western Wilds by Anonymous for Vivien They say there’s three sides to every story: his side, her side, and the truth. No matter which you choose to believe, Ragin’ Rey Kenobi was the greatest bounty hunter there ever was.

Bound in the Balance by Anonymous for TheBridgeIntoYourMind He sees her struggles. He feels her frustrations. He senses her presence in the Force, a sensation that echoes his own. He feels compelled to help her, to tell her the truth about herself and himself. How much he ends up telling her, he didn’t expect. 

Take my hand by Anonymous for tyrantsandcreampuffs 

Fics under 100 kudos:

Convergence by Anonymous for Elywyngirlie Whatever the next steps are, I want to take them with you.

the hint of hope that is you by Anonymous for ReyloTrashCompactor (NextToSomething) Rey, Poe, Finn, and the rest of the staff at Recto et Verso Books are gearing up for the holiday season when a surprise mass shipment throws them off balance. Selling 742 copies of anything would be a challenge for a store their size. Selling 742 copies of pretentious, free form, emo poetry by some asshole named “Kylo Ren” is next to impossible…or so they think.

The Wheels Keep Right on Rolling by Anonymous for Hamliet Ben Solo is brilliant and handsome. He is also insufferably arrogant, a flagrant womanizer, and a total ass. On certain days, they get along as well as oil and water. On others, it’s more like ammonium nitrate and TNT. Which is why the prospect of spending the next 48-hours cooped up in a car–on a road trip with the man–has left Rey feeling a bit out of sorts….

desperado (where you gonna run to) by Anonymous for La_Catrina ‘It is my personal opinion that we cannot take Snoke down without you. Sorry excuse of a man that you are at the moment.’ Rey’s eyes skimmed him up and down as though searching for something, and coming up wanting.Kylo could not fault her for that. He’d failed at being a good man a long time ago, and a bad man more recently. He was adrift between two worlds, belonging in neither.

Gideon’s Sacrifice by Anonymous for Ceallaigh Since the loss of Rey, Kylo Ren’s pursuit of these new enemies has been relentless. Planets of no consequence, like Serpindal and Belkadan have gone completely dark from technology - there were no electronic subspace transmissions. Later his Knights of Ren discovered the planets were destroyed by space anomalies, such as the moon crashing into Serpindal, and an overgrowth of insects on Belkadan. His daughter has been left in the care of his mother, Leia. However, in this last visit, New Republic Forces have chosen to arrest him and try him for his crimes against the galaxy from the last war. The war the First Order lost to the Resistance. He was tried by grand jury of the New Republic and convicted of various crimes. His sentence was to be placed in Carbonite stasis by a new protocol that would cause him to be devoid of the Force. Leia refuses to let Kylo Ren surrender to them. Kylo Ren has other plans.

Love makes the galaxy go round by Anonymous for bittersnake Their masters make a secret arrangement behind their backs.

Family issues by Anonymous for Artemis1000 Rey tries to understand her feelings for a redeemed Ben Solo while his mother and uncle treat her like the hope for a better galaxy. It’s not easy when you have to be a jedi, a friend, a warrior and a lover.

In Balance by Anonymous for Fangirltrashbaby Kylo Ren arrives on Ahch-Too with some surprising news. Rey is hesitant at first but when Luke strands them on the planet she has to learn to get along with him.

soon I know you’ll see (you’re just like me) by Anonymous for KyloWren She crooks a finger. He kneels.

climb so fast to fall by Anonymous for LueurdeLaube Kylo Ren arrived at (crashed into) the Resistance base and fell in front of the general, broken and bleeding. No one was very happy about this development, least of all Rey.

i’m always in this twilight (in the shadow of your heart) by Anonymous for jitterygummy Coded on a secondhand datapad in a run-down motel room in Mos Eisley, deleted and never sent: Everything about us was a whirlwind.Written on a scrap of durasheet in a Tion Cluster outpost, the words fading after a while into air and ghosts: You shouldn’t have forgiven me for any of it.Scraped into the bark of an oak tree on the Argazdan homeworld: You won’t believe the dreams I have about you.

Two Comets Lost, Following the Trails of Stars Unknown by Anonymous for Karla_shadow He calls out to her as if through the Force, a pull that repels and attracts her in equal measure. He draws nearer to her as if he can’t help but follow that strange call. She backs away.“You can’t fight destiny.”

Exigence in Force Majeure by Anonymous for MostTulip This war has raged for ages and most of the leaders at its helm are long gone. It’s left to Kylo Ren, and Rey, his constant opposing force, whose minds have seeped so far into each other as to make planning in secret impossible, to come to some accord or else watch the galaxy burn in their futile efforts at mutual destruction.

Muscle Memory by Anonymous for thewayofthetrashcompactor (BriarLily) The war may be over, but Rey is still encountering Kylo Ren far too frequently for her peace of mind.

The Force Works in Mysterious Ways by Anonymous for agirlfromniima Sometimes you just know what you need to do. 

Jazz Night at the Jakku Philharmonic by Anonymous for SaintHeretical Rey expects nothing good when the Jakku Philharmonic plays an outdoor gig with weird and reclusive jazz legend Snoke. As for his backing band, they’re something else. Kylo styles himself as “the loudest trumpet player in the universe”, and his mic stand is right behind Rey’s chair in the woodwind section.

This Darkness Which You Know You Cannot Fight by Anonymous for OccasionallyCreative Rey gives in to her anger. It has been a long time coming.

Fight Like Me by Anonymous for SWAG_77 After mysteriously crashing on a moon, Rey and Kylo Ren find themselves Forced to fight together.

Quiet Words by Anonymous for RacheyMayBe She wants to take his heart in her hand and dare it to beat when its fickleness is the reason Han’s never will again.(She doesn’t know yet that this fury doesn’t wholly belong to her.)

One Thousand and One Nights by Anonymous for TehanuFromEarthsea Really, Rey ought to kill him. But instead she found herself fascinated by him

Trapped by Anonymous for PalenDrome (nerdherderette) Rey and Kylo get trapped on a shuttle in the middle of deep space. Inspired by ChroniclyFlaming’s “Revanche"

Between Daydreams and Nightmares by Anonymous for BeMyDarkling “Bring the girl to me.” Kylo begins to train Rey after her abduction; however, as he attempts to draw out the Dark Side in her, she ignites the Light in him.

Ex Nihilo Nihil Fit by Anonymous for SouthSideStory A diplomatic mission to Fest goes differently than expected.

Shadowed by Anonymous for Limra The war is over. It has been for years. A damaged Kylo is forced to face his fears when Rey tells him that she wants children, believing that the sins of the father would be passed on to the children – his children… much like the sins of Darth Vader ruined the reputation of his mother, then-Senator Leia Organa.Rey? Well. Rey thinks that it’s about time that Kylo faces what people really think about her husband.

A Ghtroc 690, Fully Restored by Anonymous for Chthonia This is the Force, Rey knows, trying to draw her to Kylo Ren, but she doesn’t care about whatever greater purpose a higher power has in store for them. She hates this man, and she despises any connection they have, no matter how divine its origin. (Or: the Force ruins Rey’s first vacation.)

Solace for the Damned by Anonymous for incognitajones Christmas Eve, and a lone priest of a tiny, isolated parish works feverishly in the snow until an old friend drops by. She misses him- what will it take to lure him away? When will he stop hiding behind the cloth?

The Planet of Fates by Anonymous for Juulna Simple scavenger Rey was almost ready to find Luke, to bring peace to the galaxy once again, until a mysterious force pulled her into the dreaded Kylo Ren’s path. Though this may be a trap, something bigger seems to be playing out for the two adversaries. And it won’t be like anything they’ve faced before…

Anchorite by Anonymous for momo_official It was right, Rey thought, that he had to bend so low to speak to her. Men like Kylo Ren were made to kneel. 

the one thing you leave behind (is how did you love) by Anonymous for diasterisms Kylo’s orders are to turn Rey to the Dark Side. His personal feelings may prevent him from doing so.

Clandestine by Anonymous for kuresoto She should have just done her job as a Jedi, should have remained detached yet polite, should have guarded Senator Ben Organa, and should not have jumped into bed with him.

Opposition in Vain by Anonymous for solikerez Rey is a factory girl living off of meager pay and the hope that her parents will return. She’s given a new chance at happiness when the parson Luke Skywalker (a former student of her grandfather’s) adopts her. Years later, the Skywalker-Solo merchant business is facing financial ruin. In order to save her found family, she enters into marriage with the prodigal Ben Solo, who became wealthy through betrayal. But there may be more to this arrangement than what meets the eye…

That One Time Rey Got Drunk by Anonymous for dungeoncrawler Rey is drunk, Kylo is impulsive, and neither of them can admit their feelings. They can, however, express them through physical intimacy. 

The Five Times We Met At The Train Station And The One Time We Did Not by Anonymous for the-reylo-void (Anysia) Exactly what it says on the tin(or the five times rey assaulted ben in some way lmfao)

Clockwork by Anonymous for Vickyshipsreylo He is young, and there are two things he fears above everything else: death, and clockwork.

Stay by Anonymous for Thelittlescrimshaw Prompt fill for Ring In the Reylo New Year’s gift exchange. 

Sins of the Father by Anonymous for Hormonal_Trashbag Unable to outrun the sins of his past, Ben Solo is faced with a ghost from that life that threatens his chance to finally find a peace he has sought his entire life. 

The Fickle Finger of Fate by Anonymous for OfHealingLove She should not be afraid of him. She does not understand. She will. He will make her.

such language holds the solemn sea (to sands upon the shore) by Anonymous for cassanah They only ever met in large cities where they could blend into anonymity. This time they were in a city called Tvell’ia on a bustling trade world in the Outer Rim. Kylo came here once when he was not Kylo Ren. He remembered how the luminescent algae in the ocean glowed in the darkness of the night here, and he wanted Rey to see it.

let the silver arrow fly by Anonymous for LarirenShadow Leia plays cupid, and fires a few misshots before getting it right.

Retrouvailles by Anonymous for NatMatryoshka : The joy or happiness of reuniting with someone after a long separation.Prompt from NatMatryoshka: “Padawan Rey and Senator Ben Organa Solo: Rey and her master Luke escort young Senator Ben Organa for a noisy party in Coruscant. What will happen?”

The most beautiful souls by Anonymous for dustoftheancients (The_Hollow_Bones) Rey is a Jedi, trained by Luke Skywalker, granddaughter of Obi-Wan Kenobi, another famous Jedi master. Kylo Ren has moved his first steps as a Sith: he’s sure of himself, stubborn. They have felt in love too soon.[Jedi/Sith AU]

Heart Craters, Filled With Light by Anonymous for KagamiSorciere Rey has never been able to celebrate Christmas before. Kylo can’t help but become a little invested.

His Desire by Anonymous for Ghostsdontdie Kylo Ren’s hopes and dreams are fulfilled with a marriage to Rey, but he remains uncertain and unsatisfied.“Which of us is happy in this world? Which of us has his desire? or, having it, is satisfied?” ― William Makepeace Thackeray, “Vanity Fair”

The Word of Skill by Anonymous for onstraysod When Kylo Ren kidnaps Rey from Ahch-to, he expects her to be a worthy rival and a pupil. He’s already seen enough to know she’s a girl who can match him in wits and in Force power. But it’s the other things Rey learned during her years of neglect on Jakku that will make all the difference; not only to Kylo but to the other inhabitants of the Finalizer, and perhaps the Galaxy itself. 

Love makes the galaxy go round by Anonymous for bittersnake Their masters make a secret arrangement behind their backs.

Fugue by Anonymous for Queronea Kylo and Rey keep their marriage in secret during the war, but in the final fight with Snoke, Kylo gets hit in his head and loses all his memories of Kylo Ren. Now he’s Ben Solo, balancing work in the Resistance base, his Jedi training with Luke, the disappearance of his father, and the constant fights with Rey, the only person in the base he cannot seem to get along with.

A wig and glasses isn’t enough by Anonymous for TheJGatsby Rey meets a celebrity in disguise, and things only get crazier from there…

Just a Dream by Anonymous for kmanion At night, desperate to sleep, Rey imagines an island.

we must be killers (children of the wild ones) by Anonymous for personalphilosophie He chuckles. He can’t help it. “You have to stop terrorizing the merchants, my love.”“I’m ‘your love’ now, am I? You were calling me ‘little idiot’ a few days ago—”“Who,” he snaps, “in their right mind would just drop down into the middle of a pack of Sith hounds?”“Element of surprise?” she offers. “Anyway, they were only Sith hounds.“There is refuge even here, in their little games. He can’t remember precisely when it started. It crept up on him like salvation, like forgiveness, like dawn seeping through.

Home Is… by Anonymous for Sydney508 “Building a life together” is more than just a phrase. For Kylo and Rey, it literally starts with building a home, one little step at a time (but please don’t let them play with electricity anymore.)

[dramatologia]

FAQ

Want to know me better? 1: My name? Alícia. 2: Do I have any nicknames? Ally, Alicinha, Lilicia, Mirsthy 3: Zodiac sign? Libra ♎️ 4: Video game I play to chill, not to win? Zelda, League of Legends, Just Dance. 5: Book/series I reread? Many. 6: Aliens or ghosts? Aliens. 7: Writer I trust enough to read whatever they write? Poe, Ursula Poznanski, Stephen King, Kafka, JK Rowlking, Patricia Cromwell, George R.R.Martin, Tolkien, Thomas Harris, Charles Bukowski, F. Scott Fitzgerald, Dan Brown, Colleen Houck, Ginsberg, Amis, Fernando Pessoa, Palahniuk, Linspector, Welsh, John Fante. 8: Favourite radio station? 88.9 (?) 9: Favourite flavour of anything? Chocolate. 10: The word that I use all the time to describe something great? Top. 11: Favourite song? Currently: wanderlust - blackbear 12: The question you ask new friends to get to know them better? Idk 13: Favourite word? Saudade. 14: The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them? Yes. 15: Last song I listened to? Blackbear - 4U 16: TV show I always recommend? The Blacklist. 17: Pirates or ninjas? Ninjas. 18: Movie I watch when I’m feeling down? Hector and the Search for Happiness. 19: Song that I always start my shuffle with/wake-up song/always-on-a-loop song? Naive - The Kooks. 20: Favourite video games? Overwatch. 21: What am I most afraid of? Not living. 22: A good quality of mine? I'm honest and loyal af. 23: A bad quality of mine? Way too patient. 24: Cats or dogs? Cats. 25: Actor/actress you trust enough to watch whatever they’re in? - 26: Favourite season? Autumn. 27: Am I in a relationship? No. 28: Something I miss? Someone: Dad. 29: My best friend? Marcelo Carrara. 30: Eye colour? Dark brown/black. 31: Hair colour? Dark brown/black. 32: Someone I love? Celo. 33: Someone I trust? Celo, Lara, Motta, Toninho, Jojeta, Luísa, Eloisa and Karina. 34: Someone I always think about? Dad. 35: Am I excited about anything? Studying abroad. 36: My current obsession? Overwatch! 37: Favourite TV shows as a child? Invader Zim, Winx, Courage, Scooby-Doo, Drake & Josh, Wizards of Waverly Place, Zack & Cody and the list goes on. 38: Do I have someone of the opposite sex that I can tell everything to? Celo and Guga. 39: Am I superstitious? Slightly. 40: What do I think about most? Traveling. 41: Do I have any strange phobias? Trypophobia (nk) 42: Do I prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? Both. 43: Favourite hobbies? Writing, reading, playing, watching movies and listening to music. 44: Last book I read? Coletânea - Bukowski. 45: Last film I watched? Ruby Sparks. 46: Do I play any instruments? Used to play guitar. Not anymore. 47: Favourite animal? Tigers. 48: Have I ever dated someone older than me? Nah. Not exactly. 49: Superpower I wish I could have? Wish I could teleport. 50: How do I destress? Music and cinema. 51: Do I like confrontation? Depends, not always but sometimes it's necessary. 52: When do I feel most at peace? Under the water. And cuddling. 53: What makes me smile? Anything. 54: Do I sleep with the lights on or off? Ye. 55: Play any sports? Nope. But I'm a great volleyball and handball player. 57: Favourite drink? Coca-Cola, kek. 58: When did I last send a handwritten letter to somebody? Can't remember. 59: Afraid of heights? Kinda, but I usually forget about it ahhahaha 60: Pet peeve? Drama (lol). 61: What was the last concert I went to see? Lady Gaga??? Idk. 62: Am I vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian? Nah. 63: What occupation did I want to do when I was younger? Astronaut. 64: Have I ever had a friend turn enemy? I do not have enemies. 65: What fictional universe would I like to be a part of? Harry Potter’s Wizarding World. 66: Something I worry about? The well being of those closest to me. 67: Scared of the dark? Absolutely. 68: Who are my best friends? Answered. 69: What do I admire most about others? Their sense of humor. 70: Can I sing? I try my best. 71: Something I wish I could do? Get excellent grades hahah 72: If I won the lottery, what would I do? Move out, leave school, invest, travel and donate. 73: Have I ever skipped school? Yes. 74: Favourite place on the planet? Manly. 75: Where do I want to live? Dunno. Used to be Australia but I'm trying to change my mind since Aussie is too isolated. 76: Do I have any pets? 1 cat and 1 dog. 77: What is my current desktop picture? A Japanese dancer. 78: Early bird or night owl? Night owl. 79: Sunsets or sunrise? Sunset. 80: Can I drive? Hell no. 81: Story behind my last kiss? There were so many people there and we were under blankets hiding ourselves from them. 82: Earphones or headphones? Headphones. 83: Have I ever had braces? Yes. I'm going to take them off this year. 84: Story behind one of my scars? - 85: Favourite genre of music? Pretty much anything. 86: Who is my hero? Professor Euzébio. 
87: Favourite comic book character? Dunno. 88: What makes me really angry? When people lie to me, cut me off/or talk over me when I’m talking and when someone disrespect one of my friends. 89: Kindle or real book? Real. Duh. 90: Favourite sporty activity? Badminton. 91: What is one thing that isn’t tight in schools that should be? How to actually live. 92: What was my favourite subject at school? History. 93: Siblings? 4: Jorge, Adriane, Alexandre and Leandro. 94: What was the last thing I bought? Food. 95: How tall am I? 5'3. 96: Can I cook? +-. 97: Can I bake? Yes sir. 98: 3 things I love? My friends, coke and traveling. 99: 3 things I hate? Someone who's a douche canoe. Fish. Being late. 100: Do I have more girl friends or boy friends? Boys. 101: Who do I get on with better, girls or boys? Boys. 102: Where was I born? Brasília - Distrito Federal, Brazil. 103: Sexual orientation? Love. 104: Where do I currently live? Brasília - DF, Brazil. 105: Last person I texted? A unknown. 106: Last time I cried? A few days ago, my friends won an important match and I cried like a baby. 107: Guilty pleasure? Getting a new notebook and smelling the blank paper; something about the smell of paper just makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. 108: Favourite Youtuber? Liza. 109: Favorite salad?
- 110: Do I like selfies? Sometimes, if I feel like pretty that day. 111: Favourite game app? Uhhh, Scream Go. 112: My relationship with my parents? Dad was ok but mom is complicated. 113: Favourite accents? British and Australian. And Argentinian. 114: A place I have not been but wish to visit? South Korea :) 115: Favourite number? 13. 116: Can I juggle? Yes! 117: Am I religious? No. 118: Do I like space? Not sure if that means outer space or mental space… I guess both 119: Do I like the deep ocean? Hell no. 120: Am I much of a daredevil? Kinda. 121: Am I allergic to anything? Beach and dust. 122: Can I curl my tongue? Yes. 123: Can I wiggle my ears? Yes. 124: Do I like clowns? Idk. 125: The Beatles or Elvis? Elvis. Obvious. 126: My current project? Growing professionally. 127: Am I a bad loser? No, not really. 128: Do I admit when I wrong? I'll be the first one to do so. 129: Forest or beach? Beach. 130: Favourite piece of advice? What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything? 131: Am I a good liar? Lmfao yeah no. I can’t lie to save my life. I'm terrible. 132: Hogwarts house / Divergent faction / Hunger Games district? Slytherin, Erudite and District 1. 133: Do I talk to myself? Yeah. 134: Am I very social? Yes I am. 135: Do I like gossip? No. 136: Do I keep a journal/diary? Sometimes. 137: Have I ever hopelessly failed a test? Every math test ever put in front of me. 138: Do I believe in second chances? Absolutely. 139: If I found a wallet full of cash on the ground, what would I do? Try to find the owner of the wallet and turn it in; I’m a big believer in karma. 140: Do I believe people are capable of change? Yes, most people are I believe, except in certain situations. 141: Have I ever been underweight? Idk. 142: Am I ticklish? Yes. A lot. I hate it. 143: Have I ever been in a submarine? No; I don’t think I want to. 144: Have I ever been on a plane? Yes, many times. 145: In a film about my life, who would I cast as myself, friends and family? I have no freaking clue, honestly. 146: Have I ever been overweight? No. 147: Do I have any piercings? Not anymore. 148: Which fictional character do I wish was real?
Hmm, idk. 149: Do I have any tattoos? No. 150: What is the best decision I have made in life so far? I started being myself. 151: Do I believe in Karma? So much yes! 152: Do I wear glasses or contacts? No. 153: What was my first car? I've never had one. 154: Do I want children? Hell fucking no. 155: Who is the most intelligent person I know? Euzébio - he's wise. Costacurta - he knows everything about anything. He's amazing. 156: My most embarrassing memory? Can't remember, srsly. 157: What makes me nostalgic? Frank Sinatra. 158: Have I ever pulled an all-nighter? Yes. 159: Which do I value more in others, brains or beauty? Brains. But what I most value in others? The contents of their heart. That makes up all the rest, at least for me. 160: What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe? Black. 161: Have I ever had a paranormal experience? I guess so. 162: What do I hate most about myself? I should study more. 163: What do I love most about myself? My aura. 164: Do I like adventure? I'm always up for a good time! 165: Do I believe in fate? Yes. 166: Favourite animal? Answered. Another one? Whale. 167: Have I ever been on radio? Yes. 168: Have I ever been on TV? Yes. 169: How old am I? 17. 170: One of my favourite quotes? The free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it - basically because you feel good, very good, when you are near or with them. 171: Do I hold grudges? No; I forget. 172: Do I trust easily? I do, unfortunately, but that’s because I don’t lie. People who lie to one another walk around thinking everyone’s lying to them, people who tell the truth make the 
mistake of believing everyone is being honest. 173: Have I learnt from my mistakes? Yes. 174: Best gift I’ve ever received? A bracelet from a hipster I had just met. 175: Do I dream? Yea, they're really weird. 176: Have I ever had a night terror? Ye. 177: Do I remember my dreams, and what is one that comes to mind? Yes; it's too long, won't right it down. 178: An experience that has made me stronger? My entire fucking life thus far. 179: If I were immortal, what would I do? Become wealthy and travel to every single place on Earth. 180: Do I like shopping? Yes. 181: If I could get away with a crime, what would I choose to do? Probably commit a bank robbery. 182: What does “family” mean to me? People who love you for who you are unconditionally, without limitations; people who encourage and support you, and who are there for you even if you can’t do much in return; people who can comfort you when your sad, tell you what you don’t want to hear when you need to hear it, laugh and cry with you,people who would love to see you succeed and be happy, and who will actually do what it takes to help you get there, and people for whom you can be and do the same. Merely sharing a Bloodline doesn’t make a family; sharing love and trust and loyalty do. 183: What is my spirit animal? Tigers. They're big cats but savage. 184: How do I want to be remembered? As someone who helped a lot of people in one emerging community. 185: If I could master one skill, what would I choose? Becoming an amazing violinist or writer. 186: What is my greatest failure? I should have traveled with my father. 187: What is my greatest achievement? Not dying. 188: Love or money? Love. 189: Love or career? Love. 190: If I could time travel, where and when would I want to go? No idea. 191: What makes me the happiest? My friends and my achievements so far. 192: What is “home” to me? It's a feeling. 193: What motivates me? The unknown. 194: If I could choose my last words, what would they be? "Finally". 195: Would I ever want to encounter aliens? Depends. Are they good? 196: A movie that scared me as a child? Saw. 197: Something I hated as a child that I like now? Beer. Don't tell my friends. 198: Zombies or vampires? Vampires. 199: Live in the city or suburbs? City. 200: Dragons or wizards? A wizard that can become a dragon and change back at request. 201: A nightmare that has stayed with me? Don't wanna talk about it. 202: How do I define love? Confidence exchanged and trust built. 203: Do I judge a book by its cover? Literally? Yes i do. 204: Have I ever had my heart broken? Ugh. Yes. 205: Do I like my handwriting? Depends on what day it is. 206: Sweet or savoury? Both. 207: Worst job I’ve had? - 208: Do I collect anything? Harry Potter wands. 209: Item of clothing or jewellery you’ll never see me without? Necklace. 210: What is on my bucket list? What is not would be a better question. 211: How do I handle anger? Very. Fucking. Carefully. 212: Was I named after anyone? Nope. 213: Do I use sarcasm a lot? Yes. 214: What TV character am I most like? Amu Hinamori. 215: What is the weirdest talent I have?
I can sleep anywhere, even standing up.

[markyishanthonymartinez]

3/23/17

hey guess what.

another day, another video.

i’m killin’ it (if i do say so myself)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1eiSXtlQsaI

the lighting came out really clutch (aka my window) and i love how it came out visually.

i completely edited and uploaded that this morning. i feel like I'm finally starting to really really streamline my entire video production process which makes it much easier for me to pump out content. like from start to finish of the editing process, which included adjusting and normalizing and equalizing and noise reducing. then syncing that with the video. then color correcting. then finally actually going through and cutting and clipping and piecing together the actual video. then export and upload to youtube and create thumbnail. all in all that took like 3 hours this morning which is not too shabby at all.

today’s my pops birthday. he’s old. jk he’s not that old. i hope he doesn't feel old. i feel like turning 50 is scary. hope he’s not scared. we got him a nice card and his actual actual gift is in the mail. and we’ll go out to dinner on sunday probs probs. yay

um i played games with joey for a bit today. joey’s the best. 

lmfao i washed my supreme hat. this is becoming a trend but like now a hat will get kinda dirty and i’m just like “derp derp derp, lemme wash it.” joey actually made a joke and was like “dude, why aren't you filming yourself?????” v funny joe-poe. 

i had bdubs. but i’m just realizing a horrific thing. i ordered 8 wings to go when we were just about leaving cause i wanted to bring some home for joey. and guess what. i totally left without ever getting those wings. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. I'm so dumb. like i even paid for them. it just completely slipped my mind. I'm not even mad that i paid for them and didn't get them. i’m mad that i won't get to give joey the wings i got for him. I'm actually so stupid. fuck

what am i doing with my life

i hung out with nick swaggy and matty ice and kyle today. oh and grant and ben and ben’s bae for a lil. and this girl. lmfao this girl. she was a freshman when we were seniors but nick would always talk to her and i guess he still does and he wanted her to be in his music video and like. it was the most awkward situation i’ve been a part of in 2017. please never again. 

oh wait but before that we met up with nick and matt and starbucks and i saw mariam and stuff. she’s a good clam.

lmfao also kyle missed that entire awkward girl part cause he rushed home cause i guess the bdubs did not sit well in his tummy and he was on the toilet forever. like he snapchatted me him, at his toilet, with his laptop in front of him cause he figured he might as well study if he was gonna be there forever. 

i kinda wish nick would make a video where he’s just his own awkward self, but i guess that’s not really the image he’s trying to paint. idk it’s fun to help around with that stuff. 

disclaimer: this video is not a markyish production. dont hate me if it sucks. dont credit me if it’s dank. i’m just emotional support on this one. 

will maybe combine clips i’ve taken into a lil behind the scenes vlog, we’ll see what i have though.

rocky is completely passed out on my bed rn like i just had to shake him to make sure he wasn't, ya’know dead. happy national pupper day.

cya in mormondale.

dü fun tings//stæ beautiful

-mark ifuckingforgotjoey’swingsthony martinez