#lowkey it was the series that got me back into reading because I’d seen Bryce and it was love at first sight fr

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Hii 😍

I just noticed your quote ”Through love all is possible“ isn’t that from Sarah J. Maas book series Crescent City? I love that book series 😍

Hope you have a great wonderful day / night 🥰

IT IS!!!! Dksjwkdjkdjdjd I have a very soft spot for this series and brycey 🥺🥺🥺 I think I’d just finished book 2 when I changed it I was very emo 😂😭

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5 writer asks

thank you for tagging me @pixelsandkink and @raleiighcarrera mwah !!

ok so since i write for choices, litg, and twc i’m gonna take all of those into account for this :)

1 story to be proud of & why:

the first one that comes to mind is to hell and back. i hadn’t written for ride or die before, and i pushed myself to write something diverging from canon that had consistent theming, and great angst. i’m still really proud of it. it took me a long time to finish it and all my friends who stan ride or die really loved it so !!!

2 stories that are most popular by readers:

unrequited part one and calm before the storm ! both bryce fics lmao he’s the money maker baby KSDFJKSD but seriously i love writing bryce so im glad it’s fics that i care about that are well received!!

3 stories with the best characters & why:

as good as gold – i just love mal in this fic so much because i was really wrapped up in blades and fleshing out my mc zilyana at the time and this is them when they were testing the waters with each other and getting to know each other so i just <3 they’re babies and also i lowkey predicted some of mal’s behaviors so !!! i think i nailed his characterization

hearth – i think this is one of my underrated favs bc i think i nailed bryce’s flirty side and i wrote a little bit of the group dynamic !!

unrequited part 3 – well i mean bryce is perfect here because i predicted canon so i think i wrote him very in character AND i wrote keiki and i love her so <3 KSJDFKSKD JK i just think since it took me a long time to finish it i was focusing even more on the characterization

4 stories I was excited to write about:

the list, because it’s canon divergent and set in the future with mal and i just! once i had the idea in my head i couldn’t stop

more, because i’d never written mason smut before OR super explicit smut at that LMFAO

mementos, because i wanted to write for rodaw and i managed to put out a good fic 

out of time – i’m gonna sound demonic but i was excited to write this because i knew i was gonna write characters i normally didn’t and give myself the closure i wanted from an off screen character death

calm before the storm – gonna sound demonic again, but i used this fic kind of as a coping mechanism from the loss i’ve experienced this year so !! i was excited to delve into bryce’s motivations because i saw myself in him in the way he handled things

5 of my personal favorite stories:

creature of habit, because i think i captured zilyana and mal’s relationship perfectly and it was a gift fic using my friend’s headcanon so !!! it’s an underrated fav

attached series, because it’s something i haven’t seen before? and im pushing myself to write for two polar opposite characters (mason and felix). and i care so deeply about them both as love interests and characters so !!! i’m really excited to see where it goes.

unrequited series, because it was the first time i was really proud of my writing? i’ve said it a million times before but i really was and still am. people actually wanted more from me and that hadn’t happened before (outside of my friend group LMAO)

asvista cove, my litg college au that i’ve been working on (kind of mia rn but im trying to get back on track). it’s the most ambitious world building i’ve done but i’ve come up with the town, the school, the mascot, the friend groups, the beach hangout spot, the bar, all of it!! it’s so much planning and it’s completely self indulgent and i love it.

i’m gonna add this litg fic on the end, because the one year anniversary of ‘is this fate?’ is coming up tomorrow (i think) – this was the first multi-chaptered fanfic i’d written and the second fic i’d EVER written. i’ve grown so much as a writer and even though i cringe a little at the title, the writing, the repetitiveness, the overall sloppiness of it – it’s something i’m really proud of because i sat down and crafted an au when i didn’t know anyone online, didn’t have anybody to motivate me or push me besides myself and my own mind which was bursting with stupid little cliche ideas that i felt like i had to write down.... and people enjoyed it and wanted more (its about to hit 3k hits, which WOW... how???). anyways sorry this got so long but i’ve come SO FAR in a year and it makes me feel so warm inside thinking about it. <3 

not tagging anybody but if you made it this far, consider yourself tagged - and thank u for reading my ramblings LMAO

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(book anon) hey what do you think of 13 reasons why? (the show, I never read the book) My heart literally broke when I found out Jeff died too, all he wanted to do was get better grades and help his nerdy friend get the girl. Also, I started to like Justin more because of his home situation and once he realized he'd made a mistake by keeping the secret from Jess, he cut off all ties with Bryce and that takes real guts to just cut off your best friend (don't get me wrong, he was still awful).

(book anon) sorry my emotions could not be contained into one ask. Because POOR CLAY. He was just the sweetest, most oblivious boy ever. I loved that he was just so unapologetically him. It was so incredibly sad to watch him listen to his tape and omg Tony is the real mvp with always being by Clay's side, no wonder his bf got jealous. Also, did you read the book? Did it ever say anything about the endings for the other kids? Like why on earth did Tyler have all those guns???

BOOK. ANON.

I seriously have to put my feelings under a cut because they got so out of hand and LONG. I’m sorry. I love you. Read on.

I’m blown away. That show really affected me in a way I didn’t expect it to. I read the book before I could relate to it, and I remember really liking it, but I wasn’t prepared for the series to touch me the way it did so many years later. I’m still pretty shaken, actually lol.

Jeff was so GOOD. He was good. He was the best. So good. Like there was literally not one thing wrong with him. He was SO kind, and he was trying to pass his classes, and he thought the founding fathers were potheads asdfghkl. And he didn’t just want to repay Clay for helping him pick up his grades, he genuinely wanted to help out this dorky outsider who he, a popular, attractive jock, considered his friend with something that he was struggling with -- talking to the girl he liked. I was devastated when I realized Jeff was the other kid that died. I started wondering why we only saw him in flashbacks, you know? It’s so unfair. I guess that was the point. Death is senseless.

I definitely sympathize with Justin but I don’t like him. I know his issues stem from the toxic environment he was raised in but. I dunno. There are just some things you know better than to do, I feel, no matter where you’re from or how you’re raised. Spreading a nasty rumor about someone is one thing. Not fighting hard enough to stop your best friend from r*ping your girlfriend? Keeping it a secret from her? Never reporting it? Actively trying to keep it quiet “for Jess’ benefit” and protecting her r*pist in the process? That’s just...unforgivable. This applies to Hannah too, tbh, though her intent was less...selfish? Malicious? Anyway, I agree with you 100%. He got a nod at the screen from me when he finally cut Bryce off. But that was it lol.

CLAY IS MY BOY. He’s seriously my type of guy. Dorky and bashful and goodhearted and true to himself (although he DID have insecurities too, Hannah!). I’ve seen some people say he was just another boring, pasty white boy protagonist and I dunno. Maybe in any other story he would be but I think the situation he and every other character was thrown into made it difficult for that to be applicable. Not wrong about the white part, but, to me, he wasn’t typical. Though Hannah saying Clay wasn’t like other boys and that he was different from every other guy was like...a little annoying because it came off as one of those “not ALL guys” and “not like OTHER girls” sentiments that are meant to divide the genders. Too feministy? Anyway, I fucking love Clay lmao. I remember getting to his tape in the book and being disappointed because it seemed like the author was giving him a free pass? Like, he didn’t actually do anything? So why was he even relevant? I don’t remember Clay and Hannah being as close in the books so it was off key to me. THE SHOW, THOUGH. Now I understand that he was really a huge part of Hannah’s story, and he had to be included in the one she was telling. Like she said, he was her glimpse of light when all she saw was darkness. That’s what he was amidst the 13 other tapes too. And he deserved to know why Hannah did what she did and he deserved to know he did nothing wrong but he also needed to know that he could have tried just a little bit more. That everyone could have tried just a little bit more.

Clay’s tape completely messed me up, though. He and Hannah liked each other SO MUCH. They were literally bursting at the seams with how much they liked each other. Their feelings boiled up and bubbled over the lid so hard that it got to the point at Jessica’s party where they were just like “fuck it, you know I like you,” and they were STILL SHEEPISH ABOUT IT. My heart. I’m so weak. But that’s also what got them in the end, too. They were too afraid to love each other. Hannah pushed Clay away and then Clay pushed Hannah away and then they were back to square one and it was too late I’ll never get over that. It really put things in perspective for me and my own relationships as well. You need to be brave enough to tell people how you feel.

On the other hand, of course, that screwed Hannah over a million times.

Tony is ACTUALLY AN ANGEL. God dropped down from Heaven and told me himself. He pointed to Tony on my laptop screen then gave me a thumbs up and a pat on his own back. Angel: confirmed. Tony was another person who did no wrong. Like, maybe the whole delivering of the tapes thing wasn’t really RIGHT but. His intentions were always, always, always good. I’m glad he realized Ryan was a selfish prick and found Brad. WHO IS ALSO LOWKEY WONDERFUL. I’d be a lot more openly agitated if my boyfriend was devoting so much time to Clay. And maybe Tony’s wisdom was bothersome at points but it turns out he was a better fucking counselor than the real fucking counselor and just wanted to look out for his friend and give him space to think and process and grieve. Also, when he calls Clay his friend on top of that cliff? I clutched my chest. It was aching so good. Wholesome friendships are my kryptonite.

I read the book YEARS ago so I don’t remember what happens to the other kids, but I’m pretty sure nothing does? Their stories were hardly as intricate as in the show, especially since it was all written through the perspectives of Hannah and Clay. I don’t think the lawsuit was even a thing. Clay just listened to the tapes and that was about it. I’m pretty sure all of the bad things they did were the same but there were no repercussions? And Alex didn’t try to kill himself and Tyler definitely DID NOT BUY GUNS LIKE WHAT ?!?

That’s partly why I think there will probably be a second season (thank God). Because pretty sure they’re gonna make Tyler a school shooter, or try to be. Jesus. Also, we need to know what happens with Alex. We need to see the rest of the kids be interviewed. We need to see Clay and his mom CLEAR THE AIR about everything. We need to see what Hannah’s parents do after hearing her tapes. We need to see Bryce fry in Hell.

So much was left unresolved. The only thing is, I don’t know how they’d incorporate the same amount of Hannah in a second season. :\

I’m so sorry this got so long? This show just changed my life is all lol.