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Right face, wrong time.

Wish you'd be mine.

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Losing my mind.

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#LyricsThatResonate #quote #quotes @vastaire2090 is one of my favorite emcees ever!!!!! Knowing your worth is powerful. Here, he expresses his worth of being more than a friend to a woman that only sees him as such and isn’t willing to take that leap with him. Fearlessness is an admirable quality especially when it’s combined with vision. https://www.instagram.com/p/B8Wjvt9hxad/?igshid=15m6ykajk8645

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The Short

Presently, I’m living as an expat in Norway. Why I ended up here, I’ll get to later. Rather, I want to discuss how I’m not going completely insane while waiting for my residency and work permit.

I've been reading numerous blogs from fellow expats in search of solace and support. I soon realized that I wasn’t alone in my frustration and feeling of failure. That didn’t exactly bring me comfort though. I’m familiar with the saying, “misery loves company,” but I’m not one to enjoy negativity. I’m an idealist, optimist, and hopeful-romantic! Therefore, instead of leeching off their misery, I decided to do some self-reflection.

After 5 years of relentlessly developing my self-awareness, confidence, and identifying my sources of happiness, I thought my road to self-love was finally in the clear of negativity. What I didn’t realize was that I needed to create an impenetrable defensive strategy. Sure I have evaluated my core beliefs, identified my strengths, and accepted my weaknesses. But all of that hard work was vulnerable and unprotected without a plan of attack to those unwelcomed negative thoughts. They were telling me, “You aren’t contributing. You don’t add value. You are wasting time. You’ll never get the job you want. You’re a burden.” These ugly buggers targeted and brutally waged war on my carefully nurtured self-truths.

Why in the world does my mind project such cruel and false thoughts? Where do they come from?

Sometimes these thought battles are a surprise attack triggered by social comparison. Other times they hatch from one negative thought and then explode into differentiating lies, flooding my mind until I break.

  The Sweet

Previously, I would ride out the process with a good cry and reluctantly accept these impractical thoughts. Then something would distract me and I would continue on with the day as if nothing happened. Now, I realized I have a surprise counter attack! My incredibly wise and centered fiancé! He didn’t let me cry and sulk in a corner. Instead, he held my hand, gave me tissues, and patiently waited for me to release everything my brain was giving me.

When these negative thoughts invaded again, and they would, I was to ask myself if they were TRUE. Where was the evidence?

So this time when I heard, “You aren’t contributing,” I responded with, “Yes, I am. I contribute love and positivity to our relationship. I am a motivating partner who expresses my love and appreciation daily.” When they shot back, “You don’t add value,” I fired off, “monetary value isn’t the only way to measure self-worth!”

When they could no longer attack our relationship, they targeted my creativity and yelled, “You’ll never get the career you want under these circumstances. There are too many obstacles!�� With stronger confidence I calmly responded, “Never? I highly doubt that. Yes, it will take me months, maybe even years to learn Norwegian, but fortunately I have the time, love, support, and resources I need. I just need to STAY FOCUSED and be PROACTIVE. Since I can’t even work without a job permit, I’m wasting valuable time on these negative thoughts. I should instead use my time towards learning Norwegian and acquiring all the skills I need to get the career I want! Rome wasn’t built in one day.”

Stunned and bewildered by evidential truths, the negative thought buggers surrendered and vowed their loyalty towards only spreading thoughts of love and positivity.

  The Point

Viking Beard helped me realize that I am my worst enemy and harshest critic. BUT, even enemies can become allies if both have the courage to allow love, honesty, and truth replace unconstructive criticism.

I listen in agreement to Roo Panes’ eloquent lyrics, “Every moment is a chance to define what you want to become. You’re not a slave to the things you’ve done. Be brave and be bold."

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How much time can I waste

Constantly feeling the same thing?

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We're not who we used to be

We're just two ghosts standin' in the place of you and me

Tryin' to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat

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You're driving me away, give me a reason to stay I want to be lost in you, but not in this way

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Stranger, who knows all my secrets

Can pull me apart and break my heart

A soulmate who wasn't meant to be

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Now that I'm over that hill You wanna say how you feel Crazy to think that You still call me psycho

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I wanna believe in religion

But nobody reminds me of God

I wanna believe in what I hear and what I read

But it mostly reminds me I'm lost

I wanna believe that when I fuck it's romantic

But no lovers remind me of love

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If I could see the future

I never would believe her

Falling in and out of love and falling in again

We were never any good at being friends

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I think it's time for me to leave but I'll never leave you

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And while you're outside looking in

Describing what you see

Remember what you're staring at is me

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass

Don't know how much time has passed

All I know is that it feels like forever

When no one ever tells you that forever feels like home

Sitting all alone inside your head

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She said my spirit doesn't move like it did before

She said that I don't look like me no more no more

I said I'm just tired

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I gave you ride or die and you gave me games

I know I'm crying 'cause you just won't change

I gave it all and you gave me shit

I wish I could do exactly what you did

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Things I'm longing for Someday, I'll be bored of It's so weird That we care so much until we don't

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Wish I had no expectations

But I expect, you expect, we expect