#maddy.stuff

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I couldn't utter my love when it counted

I couldn't utter my love when it counted

I couldn't utter my love when it counted

I couldn't utter my love when it counted

I couldn't utter my love when it counted

I couldn't utter my love when it counted

But I'm singing like a bird 'bout it now

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words from sunfish by shelby eileen / for day 1 of g's summer jamboree💛 @meatmensch

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this one's for @theghostontheshoremp3 <3 happy graduation Jay ily!

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Words hung above but never would form

Like a cry at the final breath that is drawn

Remember me love when I'm reborn

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I wanna overcome and try to love someone

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Oh to think that I could stop the tide, well I'm still trying to know you, and I'm still trying // did I love you - flipturn

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And if I can’t go home, I’ll build one in these bones

@spnpoetryrenaissance prompts: bodies & home

transcript under the cut

The body count started the moment I crashed into these bones

Wrapped myself around two lungs

and melted into muscles all the way down

to feet that have been carrying me ever since.

Always walking away

toward some higher altitude absolution

where I'll make myself worthy

of the eyes that once watched that little girl run through fields instead of fire

of the arms that sheltered her from nightmares

about monsters that look a little too much

like me.

Maybe I'll never stop striving to be better

but quietly, somewhere along the way,

forgiveness flooded the path

splashing up at me with every step

I can feel it seeping in

I thought if I could be useful

that goodness would follow

But what are healing hands

to legs that keep leaving?

What good is this body if it can't be held onto?

And when is a good time to tell you

That your hand on my shoulder

breath on my cheek

arms circled around me like a new kind of halo

helped me learn to make a home of myself

The way you pulled the love right out of my stolen chest

Gave me words and a place to come back to

Again and again

Until the heart and the home and the phrases were my own.

Now I'm sitting here in this beating heart

and I can hear a thousand others.

These ears weren't meant to know the melody of a prayer 20 miles away

Or the bumblebee buzzing in a garden two doors down

Just as these wings weren't meant to sway in a slowdance

Or fold around a child of my own

But I’ve settled into the entirety of me

whatever I was before, swallowed down

absorbed into the walls

and the door inside with a lock

and a key that fits only in my palm

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Just discovered canva can be used for making stickers?? I'm having so much FUN turns out you don't have to actually be good at art to make things?!?!

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A Case of You - Joni Mitchell // 4x01 // I Sing for Things - Stevie Nicks // 15x18 // The Heart is a Muscle - Gang of Youths

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For the first time, I feel

Poem from Goddess of the Hunt by Shelby Eileen /// For @aspecnaturalweek day two- asexuality/purple/connection

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you come to me and give me everything I need

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Louisa - Lord Huron // 4x01 // If I Was Dead - Carol Ann Duffy // 4x01 // Louisa - Lord Huron // 5x03

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My 'dean deserved to live and heal and be better' playlist<3

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maybe peace and freedom go together like pb&j

For @pissbabydean's follower milestone celebration! congrats gray!

Before the resurrection

before the end of god

before the dying

and the leaving

and the dying again

You asked me a question I didn't get to answer.

-

Now heaven's gone and hell ain't so bad

on earth there's a graceless angel at the dinner table

and it feels a lot like freedom

So,

maybe I'm too old for this

maybe I'm never going to get this right

but there are things I want to do-

I should be looking for the next fight-

but maybe I'd rather have you.

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So give me your halo

and your hands,

only one of these is holy.

Touch my face like you don't have to heal me

show me what love means when you stay after its spoken.

We'll wash the halo in the kitchen sink

with the coffee cups and soup spoons

Sweetheart, this

is holy.

wrap your broken wings around us,

let me kiss you feather light

I'll be your fall asleep on the couch cowboy

you'll be my cereal aisle angel.

No more dying for love

we'll live it instead