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[luminoustarlight]

OH MY GOSH I SAW UR POST ABOUT WANTING ANI FLUFF REQUESTS so i’m gonna just spit shit out into your inbox okay anyways

playing with his hair and he’s like all in love and he’s like laying on you right and then he like flips his body over and starts kissing you and saying how much he loves you and shit OHBMYFUCKINGGOD

thats like so basic but

Sweet Everythings | Anakin Skywalker (x gn!reader)

Admissions, cuddles, and kisses.

On the rare occasion that Anakin has a day off, he is absolutely spending it with you. He sneaks over to your apartment early, as quietly as he can manage but his arrivals always stir you out of your sleep.

When you groggily call out to him with tired eyes, his reply is always the same. "It's just me, angel. Go back to sleep." Anakin slips himself beneath your sheets, sidling up to you on the warm side of the bed. He drops a soft kiss to your shoulder while wrapping his arms around you and bringing your back to his firm chest. "My love," he whispers.

"Mmm," is all your foggy mind can conjure.

"You are my everything," Anakin says. "Every day I don't see you, I am yearning for you. I think about you on the battlefields, the promise of your love is what gets me through even the toughest of missions. I would leave it all for you, my angel. I think about it often..." Anakin's voice trails off.

You let him lull you back to sleep with sweet nothings. Or rather, sweet everythings. When he expresses how much he loves you, how much you mean to him, it is not nothing.

"I would leave the Order if you asked me to," is the last thing you remember Anakin saying before fully falling asleep.

You would never ask him to do such a thing— leave the Order. You know he is conflicted about many aspects of the War, the Jedi Way, the Prophesy, the attachment to you he's not supposed to have. But Anakin is a good Jedi. He is a good Master to Ahsoka and he is a good commander to the 501st. You would never ask him to leave the Order for you and you hate that he thinks you want him to.

Or perhaps it is what he really wants... and he needs you to be the reason for him to finally walk away.

When you awake up, Anakin's legs are tangled with yours. His head is on your chest, rising and falling as you breathe. You comb your fingers through his bed-head, detangling the knots in his dirty blonde waves. A rather firm pull awakes him up.

"Ow," he mumbles.

You grin. "Sorry, Ani."

"S'okay," he sighs. He lays his arm over your tummy while peppering kisses above the seam of your bed shirt. Warm lips against warm skin, your calming scent of Lavandula infiltrating his senses. "I love you, anyway." Anakin traces his lips over your clavicle and the early intimacy makes your whole nervous system send shocks to your nerve endings. Every little touch is heightened. You feel every kiss deep in your bones, his hands feel impossibly large on your hips as he crawls on top of you.

Anakin lays his full weight on you which makes you wheeze out a puff of air. "You're crushing me!"

"Nuh uh," Anakin replies. "If I was crushing you, you wouldn't be able to talk."

You roll your eyes, playfully hitting his shoulder. "Get off of me, you oaf!"

That gets him sitting up. Anakin's pretty face is contorted into a not so pretty face as he exclaims, "Oaf?!"

"I said what I said."

"Take it back."

"No," you jut your chin up in protest.

Anakin frowns. "Take it back or no kisses."

Oh, now that is something you simply cannot gamble. To not kiss Anakin is like Tatooine with only one sun— unimaginable. It's only a joke, but a knot of sadness forms in your throat. There are many rotations in which you can't kiss Anakin. Weeks upon weeks when he is away on a mission and you have little communication with him.

Those bouts are the toughest— when you are missing Anakin with your entire being and you can't be consoled by even your closest friend because not even she knows of your relationship.

Anakin can sense the uneasiness in you. Plus, the way your face falls is a clear indication that you are upset. "Hey," Anakin shifts off of you and props himself on his elbow. He runs the back of his fingers over your cheek as he wonders what he said wrong. "You know I was only joking, right?"

"I know," you sniffle. "It's dumb."

"It's not dumb, my love. What is bothering you?"

"Oh, Ani," you tuck his hair behind his ear with a smile. "You know I would never ask you to leave the Order for me."

The crease between Anakin's eyebrows deepens. "What are you..."

"It's hard to be away from you sometimes," you bite the inside of your cheek. Anakin absently draws on your skin with his mechanical limb. "Okay, all of the time. It's hard to be away from you every time we are apart. Encrypted files are never enough. Our stolen moments in the Temple are never enough."

Where you're going with this starts to terrify Anakin. Anxiety creeps into his bloodstream, heart rate ticking up as he fears he's about to lose the greatest, most wonderful thing in his life.

"But this," you say, grabbing Anakin's hands. "Ani... we are enough. It is the most sweetest thing to be loved by you, Anakin Skywalker. And I would go through hell or high water to keep you in my life. But I will never take you away from the Order if that is not what you truly want."

"I- I didn't realize you were awake when I said that. It's just something I have been meditating over. Do you know how happy you make me? I didn't know love until I met you." Anakin has somehow maneuvered himself on top of you once again. His nose brushes yours as your breath becomes one in the space between you. "If I were to leave the Order, it would be so that I could love you freely. Because you, my love, are all I ever want."

Anakin lowers his lips over yours, nothing over the top or too intense. It's just pure love. Poetry in motion as your lips move against each other. Anakin wraps his arms around your back and rolls you over so you're sitting on top of him. You cup his cheeks to press yourself even closer to him. There is nowhere else either of you would rather be.

anakin masterlist

[take-everything-you-can]

I'm bored at work cause we are waiting for the power to come back on ...send me some asks 🥺🥺🥺

[buggybambi]

imagine richie shamelessly flirting with the new waitress at the bear as a 'joke '

he's being charming, flirting with her every chance he gets and she's oblivious to his antics but is still nice to him

after a while, the lines for richie becomes blurred and he starts to develop real feelings

so, while he's having this internal crisis, tiff drops eva at the bear and everyone's really busy, including richie

and the waitress takes care of eva & she's just so sweet to her, and when richie sees the two girls he loves having fun with each other, he knows he's far gone

(i need that old man so bad it's not even funny anymore-)

-🪷

my lotus. i'm obsessed.

okay.

richie and you had first met when you began working for the bear. being trained by him, it meant you two were spending a lot of time together. late nights, early mornings. you two would talk over coffee when you could sneak in a break during kitchen prep, you'd talk when marcus had you two try his newest pastries.

the first time he flirted with you, it was an accident. just slipped. but then it became your 'thing'. it was that teasing flirting, you know? pet names for each other, the whole shabang.

over the months you and him spend together, richie begins feeling the lines blurred. what's real and what's not between you two? it's the age old question. are you calling him honey as a joke or is that real? is his contact name 'R HONEY' to fit that joke or whatever?

he can feel himself falling in love with you. and before he can catch himself, he dives into it when he sees you and eva interacting.

tiff had rushed to the bear one afternoon when she was called into work. it was unexpected and in the middle of the lunch rush, and you'd been at the front when eva was dropped off, backpack in hand.

you guided her away from the chaos and into the back office. you and her talked about how excited she was for weekend plans with richie, what she learned in school. by the time richie found you two, you were talking her through her math homework. your voice was soft, you were patient with her.

he's in love.

by the time he realizes, he's so far gone. he knows it's the kind of love that could metaphorically kill him. you and him watch over eva together, and you help him load her into the car.

when he and eva are driving back to tiff's house, it's silent until eva's small voice speaks up. "are you in love with y/n, daddy?"

well, shit. if the kid can figure it out, maybe you have, too.

he returns to the bear where he knows you'll be, cleaning up with syd. he finds you in the front, sweeping the floors. before you can greet him, he's blurting it out. "i'm in love with you."

it's a blur. his ears are filled with the sound of his heartbeat and he knows you're talking, he can see your perfect lips moving but he can't hear you. it isn't until you're in front of him he can hear you clearly.

"i love you, too."

one of my favorite movie quotes is from the princess bride, where they say that since the invention of the kiss, there have been five kisses that were the most passionate, the most pure.

the one you and richie share buries them all in a fucking grave.

[locklylemybeloved]

Are you normal obsessed about pjo or me obsessed? Like trying to figure out who's wld be their parent god constantly and make posts about it for themselves

ohhhhh definitely you obsessed

like pjo was my first fandom so obviously itll always have a special place in my heart (since i was 7!!!)

but like idk it itches my brain just right. im ALWAYS thinking about pjo (even if i dont post it)

yeah when i was around liiike maybe 10 or 11 years old i came up with this INTENSE self lore about who i would be in the riordanverse it was. crazy honestly.

[sl-vega]

just saw your post earlier about whether to continue your scara series and vee, girl…you have to continue the mhbfy series like that shouldn’t even be a question 🗣️🗣️ you’ve got such a good audience for it me included!

plus the masterpost for it hit 400 notes already omg !1?1! handing best smau author title to you because you are now officially the cool and popular smau author here www shedding a tear :’) im so happy for you 🥹💗💗 KEEP IT UP VEE YOURE DOING GREAT

HI MAE GREAT TO SEE YA IN MY INBOX

and tyyy I try my best to give my audience the content they deserve (even if it isn't the best) and I love that you actually entertain my dumb little dabbles 😭

AND ME BEING THE COOL SMAU AUTHOR FRIEND?! never bro, that title will always belong to you mae, it's basically an unspoken rule amongst us, BUT TYYY you don't knkw how much that means coming from you 🥺

AND I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU TOO MAE GREAT JOB ON GETTING THE FIRST CHAP TO SCS OUT!

(no I haven't finished it yet but I'll get there, trust 🤞)

[bleubrri]

happy new year niiiiiiiiiiia

i dunno what u did but u implanted in me horniness for men's thighs 😩😩 - esp daichi's and enji's istfg i wanna bite them

yk what’s so crazy that was literally my resolution this year !!! mission accomplished

HAPPY NEW YEAR BELOVED !! dyou have any plans for 2nite :0 ?

[mikumanogi-blog]

2023-02-02 “Imagination” Ikeda Teresa Blog 2 [ENG]

Hello, it’s Teresa.

Nice to meet you for the second time? Thank you very much for opening up this blog today. Thank yo-yo ｰ( ･_･)/-------◎

A picture of me and Kubo-san ‘click’

She has such white skin, her cheeks and my cheeks together, hers were so smooth I felt like mine were going to melt.. Cute (important) kind (significant) amazing senior member. Every time I appear a long side the snior members I think ‘Nogizaka is amaaaaazing and awesome”

 Did you see the previous LINELIVE!

Ioki, Ikeda, Okamoto,Ogawa were the members that participated from the 5th generation 😳

Ikeda was the second! My stream was from 8 and those 30 seconds just went by in the blink of an eye.

 You really did have the image that I’m a glutton didn’t you.. I want to go eat yakiniku with Kubo-san one day. Next time I’m going to bring my recommended manga to show (I wonder what genre Kubo-san likes, those in the know please let me know  ahhhhh（///＞-＜///）)

 💌Speaking of which, right after this on a quiz…did you really talk about Kuroko’s Basketball? It seemed like it was just an egg quiz…? If not could you please tell me what kind of quiz you were planning to do🧸

(blog name: Hinata)

 🤍You’re very sharp to notice that just by watching the live stream, too sharp ‘sweats’

The quiz was actually two surveys, one was

Q. What club did Ikeda devote herself to in school? (A. Basketball club)

If I talked about Kuroko’s basketball it would be too easy to guess wouldn’t it`

💌Which makes you more nervous, live streaming or recording?

(blog name: Atobe)

🤍Probably Live streaming!

Recently the 5th generation members appeared on a tiktokLIVE and even then I was really nervous :( ;´꒳`;):

Please protect me from the rain

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The MV for the first ever 5th generation song “Zetsubou no ichi byou mae” is now on the Nogizaka46 OFFICIAL YouTube CHANNEL📽

“Nogizaka46 “Zetsubou no ichi byou mae”

https://youtu.be/eAjVkmkGL_Q

Saku-tan and my voice are in there.

We participated in the recording with everyone, in the song we each have our parts and names, I remember being so happy.

The MV that we took from this rooftop, we were really there.

Please find me, even if you can’t see me, I’m there.

Apparently the time between the sun setting and complete darkness is known as the ‘magic hour’

Our scene was shot around that time.

 I really live the shading and the look of the MV. Please look at the sky during the ‘magic hour’ (○´ｰ`○)

 〜〜〜

 On the previously blog I didn’t mention anything about it but I have some wonderful and happy news!

 The 5th generation’s Nogizaka46 mail, Nogizaka46 message service will start (●︎´▽︎`●︎)

https://www.nogizaka46.com/s/n46/news/detail/66161?ima=3109

Changing from the continuous blog relay to sending things off on my own…for a shy person like me this takes a lot of courage but I’m going to do my best.

 Right now I’m doing the individual blog, but I’m also looking forward to doing Nogimail! I’m especially glad that I can send video and voice messages now. I’m thinking about sending a good morning everyday (　･´ｰ･｀)

Let’s make the hashtag #terepantalk.

I need it to match the blog which is currently and will continue to be #Tereblog #Terepanblog, please and thank you🫶🏻

 I’m going to continue to work hard to help you get to know me even more.

 February 1st marked the anniversary of the formation of the 5th generation. It went by so fast, but I can remember how much work we put into it this past year.

 Recently at work the staff and the other members have said things about how much we’ve improved, that makes me really happy, I think ‘doing my best’ has become my source of motivation and I’ve come to know how much those words can boost others.

I’m looking forward to see how I evolve over the course of this year, I want to become even better than my expectations!

Please continue to look after me in my second year. <(_ _)>

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 For me, February 1st will always be a special day. When I was a student studying for my entrance exams Nogizaka46 really supported me, and so I want to become the strength for other people taking and preparing for their entrance exams. I’m cheering for you

With the knowledge of both sweet and sour tastes these two oldest 5th generation members are cheering for you ✊🏻 ̖́-

Don’t eat a yukhoe before the real thing

 Thank you for reading this far.

 Bye byee(○´ｰ`○)

#Tereblog #2

https://www.nogizaka46.com/s/n46/diary/detail/101119?ima=4109&cd=MEMBER

[tteokdoroki]

for u but for a sec i thought the blurb above katsuki’s head was a chefs hat

honestly leave me alone don’t touch me dni with me i can’t believe you would send this without warning and expect me to be okay

[fairydxll]

again, happy birthday rue!!! I hope you have the happiest day and im wishing u lots of love 💞

*mwah* 💋

ilysm <33

[hyuckilstan]

i am seeing all the moots and name and emojis and I JUST REMEMBERED THAT WE HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT THAT BEFORE

can i please get a Mae and add 💸 emoji next to it bcs, u know, material ghourl 😭😭

OMG YEA YOU MADE ME REMEMBER JUST NOW AGAGGDGS AND OFC Material gworl shit 😔

[luminoustarlight]

- maybe make it slowburn? I mean that way story always goes smooth and have time to developing feelings for each other. Uncle ben and auntie ahsoka absolutely lets go,not to be dramatic but i would die for them. Age gap can be 10 years? Hope its not too much or less. As for reader having alone time with twins,i think will be a good idea since i love the parent-type interaction with anakin's kids. Plus twins will totally set them both up. Anakin can have any job relating to engineering or smt<33

yess slow burn it is!!!

ahsoka and reader are gonna be besties i can see it now.

the twins immediately fall in love with reader and have little to no filter since they're only five and will say things that lowkey expose anakin without realizing it

another person said engineering job too!! i think that's what i'll go with! thank you so much for your thoughts!!!

[luminoustarlight]

Ok so I read your ideas for “I’ve been waiting for you” and here are my thoughts.

1. Anakin shouldn’t open up to reader too quickly (maybe an incident happens that makes him want to open up)

2. She is absolutely Anakin’s last minute babysitter for the twins (reader is naturally good with kids but doesn’t think she is?)

3. If you think Anakin should be rich, what if we made him the CEO of a super successful engineering company? (Will we give Anakin a metal prosthetic arm?)

4. If the twins are around the age of 5 that would make Anakin roughly 28 so maybe reader should be 21-22? (A relatively average age gap, nothing ground breaking)

Just some thoughts I had. Love the idea and excited to read.

HELLO THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR THOUGHTS WITH ME, I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!!

i definitely don't see ani opening up very easily but reader has the kindest, warmest heart and because she never pressures ani to open up, he feels like he can.

I DIDN'T THINK OF THE METAL ARM?!?!?!? WHAT DO YOU THINK 👀

i think i want an age gap but maybe an undisclosed age gap like you said, so more than 5 but less than 10. i just like the idea of ani being older than her

again, thank u for your thoughts!! it means a lot to me <3

[luminoustarlight]

girl i NEED a part 3 to as fate would have it IMMEDIATELYYYYY it’s so good

I WILL TRY TO GET ON A CONSISTENT POSTING SCHEDULE FOR IT BUT I ONLY JUST POSTED PART 2 ON TUESDAY 😭😭😭

[luminoustarlight]

Hi hi!! How are you doing today?

i am good!!! not too busy so i'm sending emails, replying to emails, and just doddling around until it's time to go home.

how are you darling?

[luminoustarlight]

Girl I am in LOVE with ur modern!anakin fic! Ugh I have such a weakness for modern!anakin 😫 anywaaaaaayyy I love ur writing 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

thank you SO MUCH! i have a few so out now so i'm not sure which one you're talking about but thank you anyway!!!

[luminoustarlight]

aww ik it’s easier said than done but pls don’t feel any guilt around not posting! life is especially busy around this period, and it’s so hard to find time for ourselves amidst the chaos let alone to write, which takes effort and time. i hope you fall back into writing/posting at whatever pace and in whatever way is most comfortable and accessible to you <3 we will be here for afwhi always without pressure, time contstraints or expectations! lotsa luv & gd wishes :)

-🫧anon

you are tooooooo freaking sweet 😭. i'm gonna cry. thank you for your graciousness, kind and encouraging words, and patience. it warms my heart and eases my anxieties more than you could possibly know. so THANK YOU.