#makes me cwazy

[majoringinsarcasm]

The brain scrambling insanity that is the “everyone leaves me no matter how much I love them so I have to distance myself and not let anyone get close in order to feel safe” paired with “despite all my efforts I always end up hurting the people I care about so in order to keep them safe I have to distance myself and hope my problems don’t follow them anymore”

Makes me crazy makes me want to jump and scream

[limerental]

after writing that meve/milva ficlet I've accidentally tripped into several more feelings about calanthe/meve. the complicated feelings about motherhood and political marriage and queenship of it all. cintran law denying calanthe from ruling alone the way meve was able to but ultimately each having their own children used against them and losing their kingdoms anyway.

[obscenicon]

My Collection...

[shepscapades]

hi shep i just do need you to know your rythna art Has made me worse on this day thank you

Just for you <3

[thekidsarentalright]

new patrick image means screaming crying blowing up exploding chewing on him over it x

[plantanarchy]

the good workplace news is that the structure of new greenhouse is finished. it sure is a structure.

the bad news is that it probably won't be a functional greenhouse in time for spring growing and also that in the meantime maintenance and badly needed improvements for every other greenhouse has just not happened

along with stuff like... making sure we have the pots we need. having any kind of covered structure to store pots (used to keep new ones in one of the houses that came down). all the heavy machinery operators needed for moving pallets of pots and filling pots diverted to fixing the greenhouse

[apotheoseity]

*grits my teeth so haerd they crack* i need to make fan content

[thesunwillart]

"All that Remains" by @pawprinterfanfic chapter 16 spoilers!!!

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mid battle fight kiss got me going wild!!!!!!!!!!

also worm.

[baylardo]

burdened with what ive spoiled for myself about kira and stupid obrien baby plot and how she prevented dukat from killing his halfbreed daughter 😭😭😭😭

my impression is kira and odo are never a thing kms but literallyyyyyyyy 😞🔫 kira/dukat making me insane im gonna get killed

[spteez]

sannie… (o_ _)ﾉ彡☆

[xxbimbobunnyxx]

Sorry you guys are having to watch me relapse on Jonathan after all these years bc he was my season 1 crush right before your eyes… I’m having some epiphanies rn I guess

[nicollekidman]

alina with three morozova amplifiers, on parem, to anyone who will listen: so is it possible there’s any left of him to dig up orrrr. just like wondering if we did a good job or whatever. no reason.

[freesomebodybyluna]

[pirdmystery]

i had my friend beta read the first fic i got up the nerve to post and it was a hugely vulnerable process to open myself up even to someone i knew very well. i specifically told her i was interested in criticism, highlighted the sections i was worried were unclear or incomplete or just poorly written, and gave her a few things i wanted to look out for in the whole piece. her criticism was extremely helpful and it was enlightening to see how some of the things i thought were huge, work-ruining problems hadn't even occurred to her, she did notice some of the same problems i was worried about, and found a few little issues i hadn't. some of her criticisms i didn't agree with and i talked them through with her, and ended up making different changes to those sections based on the resulting discussion. she helped me solve a huge structural problem that i think would have kept me from finishing the fic if i hadn't gotten out of my own head and talked it through with someone.

i absolutely cannot imagine criticism being helpful outside of circumstances like these. this was someone i trusted, and she was not "going easy" on me, but i knew she had my best interests in mind, and we were in the same frame of mind about what i wanted the finished work to look like. the idea of some person i don't know feeling entitled to give me "constructive criticism" after i've posted what i consider a finished work is frankly a little outrageous! i hate the idea that it's only unacceptable to share negative feedback on fanfic because writers are "afraid of criticism."

[plantanarchy]

i'm trying to make lists of all the small projects left unfinished in my house and frankly none of it is big stuff (except the kitchen) but it's all just. compounding small things that i don't have the tools or knowledge to do.

[uhyeahnoabsolutelynot]

those little moments in ep 6 in between leaving jackson and the stabbing are Too Much

i can just relate so hard to the portrayal of their relationship at that stage, when it’s right after you made up with somebody you care about and you’re both still feeling shy and a little embarrassed in the aftermath of the unique vulnerability and intimacy of fighting with/apologizing to someone, so you’re just kinda casually chatting about any light meaningless stuff you can. not openly acknowledging anything that happened between you, not wanting to pop that bubble just yet. just being as gentle with each other as possible