#may or may not be posting in anticipation of the next chapter 👀

[melis-writes]

Introducing my next, upcoming multi-chapter, Sonny Corleone x Reader smut fic, coming soon!! 🥰🤞🏻

Mafia Wife.

A very big thank you to all of you who submitted suggestions/ideas for everything related to Gabriella; we even chose her name from popular vote! 🥰💓 Please welcome the OC/Reader persona, none other than Gabriella Giordano. ❤️

Staying as canon as possible to all of the events of The Godfather including the timeline, the only things that change in this fic is the year Sonny gets married (canonically 1935 to Sandra). ✨

Mafia Wife will follow the plot of the first film, showing us Gabriella and Sonny's romance, sex life and growing family. 👀❤️ I named this fic Mafia Wife because that is exactly what Gabriella is down to the core, the to-be wife of a very powerful and influential mafioso. For those of you who are fans/readers of Moth to Flame, you may think of Victoria Corleone as a mafia wife and she indeed is, but the title to this fic has a deeper meaning to Gabriella. There's a difference between being a mafia wife, and then being pulled into the lifestyle of the mafia/being a mafiosa. 😏

“The underboss’s wife”; that’s who you are, and the whispers of enemies, family and colleagues alike know it too. You’re no stranger to the underworld of crime surrounding you including the one run by the Corleone family’s underboss; Santino Corleone. The streets run red with blood and brutality under Santino’s influence but it’s Santino who feels hit by the thunderbolt at the very sight of you—pushing away his womanizing and notorious unfaithfulness. You unexpectedly find yourself in a position of influence balancing your marriage and family ties with the fate of the Corleone’s family’s future whether it be through Santino’s infamous brutality or the love he finds amidst the man he claims to be.

You can expect lots of filthy smut scenes, kinks, but also fluffy romance and wholesomeness. Lots of domestic family life as well as Gabriella and Sonny's family starts and grows. ❤️ Fans of pre-Don college boy Michael can rejoice, and Gabriella x Sonny forever shippers can rest easy knowing Sonny never had his romance with Sandra in this fic! 😂

Everything related to this fic will be tagged as #mafia wife fic. Anything related to Gabriella directly will be tagged under her full name as #Gabriella Giordano. I guess the official ship name is Sonniella! 😅

There will only be one canonical ending to this fic. 👁️👁️ After the first smut scene is posted, I'm willing to take in prompt requests for Gabriella x Sonny! That being said, I'm still/always taking in Sonny x Reader (general reader) too! And yes, I will not forget about Victonny. 🤭

I anticipate to have the first chapter of Mafia Wife up and posted in a week or two, but I always hope to write it up sooner. 😅💓 Can’t wait to share it with you guys and hear all your feedback! 😍

[toournextadventure]

I'm finally finished and thinking back to the pics you used as hints yesterday have me cackling djdjdhdkdkk i shall now dove into my fave bits!!

dance scene!!

not to self: do NOT get h word for your partner around your entire family!

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i feel like this can be used in one of those wesnesday character x y/n out of context posts like the comedic timing in "show a LITTLE vulnerability" is golden

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starting a gofundme to get birb some damn vaseline

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so painfully romantic and very VERY lovesick addams of her. to think her biggest fear was turning into her parents and THIS is your inner monologue??? mission failed babe.

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this was just precious. i feel like birb was getting weary of getting their ass handed to them and went to wednesday all frustrated and asked for help with anticipating the attacks and pretty little viper got fed up of having to tend to their wounds (not really) so she gave in, only bc they begged and not at all bc she couldn't take the way worry gripped her ice cold heart when birb got hurt. ALSO love how birb went from hiding out with Pugs (older sibling birb will never not hit btw) to be ready to fend off Gomez. the GROWTH!

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YES SHE IS AN ADDAMS. BY MARRI [call disconnects]

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if i had to choose 1 piece out of the entire story that perfectly represents the dynamic between them this would be a tough contender. like 9/10 birb is putty in her hands and would do quite literally anything for her BUT birb's also a little shit and know that this is something only she can get away with ugh i just love them smmmmm

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Finally decided to stop lurking because I just had to tell you how much I enjoy this story. Your characterization of Wednesday is so good, especially how you write her inner turmoils! Your ability to map out a setting so we can visualize exactly what's written puts us right in the atmosphere. I can't wait to see how you go about having Wednesday ask more about birb's family and the tearful goodbye as they go back to campus :(((((((( ANDDDD it may be a few chapters away but when enid gets wind of the trip and the development of the relationship??? I can hear her scream rn dkdjdjskkssks

brb building a time machine so i can skip to next Thursday!!!!

Bestie no STOP you hit me with the SCREENSHOTS it's official, we've now got to get married because this is my WEAKNESS

I LOVE seeing what parts y'all like because, of course I've got my own, but it's so exciting to see YOUR favourite parts. If they're different than mine, the same, WHY you like it. Like Wednesday lowkey getting all h word? It's such a small part but, like, it's THERE and you NOTICED IT. Or Wednesday's inability to EXPRESS HER FEELINGS IN A NICE WAY "I feel you're a little annoying" bitch PLEASE

But yes, there at the end with Birb just??? Being an asshole??? Like listen, Birb can be the sweetest thing ever, but deep down she's an INSUFFERABLE DICK and she's gotta make sure everyone remembers it

I'm so glad you're here, bestie! Don't worry, the next chapter will get y'all in the feels (I hope). Might even post it on Wednesday just because I love y'all 👀

[lightlycareless]

Chapter 25 - thoughts.

Another long overdue behind-the-scenes post! It was a combination of being busy, and not being able to write, but here it is!

I think this is the most anticipated one, due to all that happened throughout the chapter hahah I hope I deliver with the behind the scenes :>

Also, as expected, don’t read this post if you haven’t read chapter 25, which you can find on ao3, on this link here. Because you’ll just get a bunch of no-context spoilers (but if you want, go ahead 😏)

Now, without further ado, I hope you enjoy these behind-the-scene comments!

Now, without any further ado, here are the behind the scenes.

As I started previously, I was really nervous to write this chapter, because it represented a big shift on the future of the story, as well as considering how the last chapter ended lol.

But it makes it exciting as well!! This is hands down my favorite chapter :> for the past reasons hehe.

Anyways, I knew there would be many questions regarding with… everything. From what happened immediately after Y/N had that conversation with Jinichi, Naoya, and Naoaki. Specially this last one 👀

Let’s start by the beginning, and the one topic most comments spoke of: Naoaki and Jinichi.

Did his words imply something else?

Perhaps—although I can argue that he was more caught off guard by Naoaki’s mention than anything else. It’s been stated in the manga that basically anyone who lives in the estate goes through hell.

However, I do think that hell for each and every inhabitant must be different.

I do not think Naoaki suffered the same as Toji did (or that twins in that matter) considering that the first was, in a way, still good enough to become a sorcerer—just not good enough to be the next leader. There was still a point in his life where everyone around him venerated him as some kind of savior, until he lost it all, so that’s a different kind of struggle. Toji, Mai, Maki never had anything—Naoaki had it all.

I wish Gege would’ve told us more about the things that Toji and the twins went through at the Zen’in clan, at this point, I had to limit myself to just imagining Toji to be some kind of punching bag, while Mai and Maki were pushed to the side to become simple nameless servants for no one to see or hear about (with Maki being able to join the kukuru unit because… insistence? Only becoming a sorcerer because she wanted, Mai being dragged along to do the same for… idk, resentment?)

Anyways, as Naoaki stated, Jinichi’s words might’ve come from bitterness/frustration for not being able to do much for his own brother, as well as thinking of him as some kind of… well, ungrateful, privileged kid compared to his own brother—like a “I suffered more” kind of competition, although it’s really not.

And while I still consider Jinichi to be leaning more onto the good side of his morals, he still has allot of things to unpack due to the suffering he endured by the clan, leading him to do things… well, that could be interpreted the wrong way.

I mean, didn’t he basically trauma dump Y/N? Well, it was a moment where he allowed himself to remember his brother. I like to think that he cared for Toji one way or the other.

If it’s ever stated otherwise, I’ll be disappointed, but oh well 😭

From there, Naoaki!

I completely understand how… bad Jinichi’s words might make Naoaki look, as well as how the last avoided talking about certain topics, so I’m not surprised some started to believe he was planning something.

But I really don’t find a better explanation than what is already stated on the chapter (and the previous notes hehe)

It wasn’t in his place to talk about Toji, or anyone else’s suffering in that matter. He didn’t like speaking of his own, only doing so to relate a bit better to Y/N, but other than that, he likes to keep to himself. Naoaki is ashamed of all that he had to endure :/ because deep inside him, he believes that if only he’d been better in certain things, none of that would’ve happened.

Besides, after her initial reaction to his backstory, I don’t think he was willing to put her through that again 😬 it’s kind of sad because it seems that everything related to the Zen’in clan is straight up bad lol. Talking about having shitty in-laws.

I really hated writing Naoaki in a less than desirable way hahahahaha It’s like I’m trying to break that perfect persona I made for him, but I can’t help it… he’s precious to me 😂 And these kind of things end up with making up scenes that make my heart melt so I think it was all worth it ❤

Anyways, now that that’s set… let’s move onto Naoya.

Ok so, there’s no denying that all that happened is sending Naoya down a different path—whether for good or bad, we don’t know. But it’s something that I’m excited to explore :> I’m still upset that Gege just wanted Naoya to be like… straight up bad, but not even in the good sense. Almost cartoonish hahaha, we get it, Zen’in=bad… but I wasn’t satisfied with their portrayal.

Well, since I don’t believe we’re going to see much of the clans anymore, I decided to take matters into my own hands.

Let’s start with what happened after Y/N left.

There’s no denying that Naoya was angry, and more than ready to enact some kind of punishment on his supposedly errant wife—and while I do understand the rage that comes from being hurt, he was completely tone deaf as to why that happened.

I mean sure, he got hurt—but he was attacking her first, and way worse. What was he expecting to happen? That she would just take it and move on with her life?

Well, just as he spent this time away cooling off from receiving the death sentence of his wife, (and apparently leaving her in some kind of daycare for her to become a better wife, per Junko’s words) Y/N did the same too—she’d turned into the woman that wasn’t going to take his BS anymore, while Naoya just came back the same, if not worse.

However, for the whole night to go without incident meant that something bigger must’ve happened meanwhile.

And that’s what I like writing about Naoya lol he likes to act all though, as if nothing stands on his way… but then Naobito comes along and reminds him of his place. (Which kind of serves as a foreshadowing? I also hinted at that in the last chapter with that conversation about children, and their roles/stereotypes in the families)

Anyways, Naoya is really scared of his father, I mean, Naobito is a frightening power figure with tendencies of getting drunk and lose his cool, and add the whole situation with the L/N clan… yeah :> Naoya isn’t really in any position to fight this authority.

Also, when Ranta hinted that Naobito was lurking around just to see what his son was going to do with his wife, well… that’s kinda creepy 😳 However, I do believe it was coincidental… as well as brought forward because Y/N was quite loud with her rejection towards Naoya. (I believe he was just going to get water or something)

Still, it’s kind of in character for Naobito to do this. To be waiting for the moment others fail just to rub it in their face—more so when that person has been seemingly failing constantly in this one aspect. And now that Naoaki is also part of the equation… well, it’s like free entertainment. But I just think that he was just passing by when everything went down, and since it was also pretty late at night, doing just about anything that isn’t sneaking or sleeping, well, it’s bound to get you in trouble.

But moving on!

From there, it’s easy to assume that Naoya did not have a good night—or a good morning. As soon as everyone heard what happened through the murmurs of the guards that were on patrol last night, or from seeing the bandage on his face, they were quick to put two and two together and the rumors just got out of control.

Poor Ranta tried his best to offer advice (which served to mirror the Mariya—Y/N dynamic, but like, if it were on crack and super toxic) but once Naoya has something in his mind, nothing can stop him (asides from his dad of course LMAO)

And then, one of my favorite scenes unfolds.

As certain parts of the story, this is something that I always intended to occur, more so after giving it much thought and deciding there was nothing more I could think of that could possibly entail some kind of change from Naoya hahah

I was like, how do I make this insufferable man a bit more human? Maybe even cause some kind of pity?

Loneliness. That’s it.

I assumed that Naoya must feel lonely most of the time, like genuinely lonely—nobody likes him, most of his relatives are quick to attack him, even his own dad was like nope, someone out there is better and he’s becoming the leader.

And the people that compliment/admire him are… well, while he likes it, but he doesn’t think it’s genuine. Or their words are more like a dime a dozen, for example, those compliments would mean the world if they came from Toji—or Y/N.

I don’t think he’s been cherished, ever¸ in his life. And that’s something that definitely fuels his terrible attitude.

There are allot of things Naoya wishes to be recipient of when it comes to his wife. Her attention has to be on the top of the list, but more than that, he wants her support, her admiration. Remember that scene at the mall, where Naoya was kind of being harassed by this obnoxious laughing woman and he was like I think Y/N’s laughter is prettier? Yeah. He doesn’t care if other’s laugh when he tells a joke or whatever. He wants Y/N to react at him.

So, there you have it, he wants everything from her… but he wants it for him because of him.

To see you happy with Naoaki, or how well the servants speak of you… EVEN JINICHI!!! Well, can’t say anything more than it was enough to shake the foundations of his marriage, if only for a second, to ask himself why them and not him? before his anger comes back and places him back to another one of his priorities, which was his mission.

Talking more about this scene, I initially just wanted Y/N to laugh and move on with the conversation, but I was like you know what? I want to indulge more of Naoaki, and make Naoya see it all, suffer, thus, we got that somewhat intimate moment between the two. Spit and kick Naoya while he’s down—he deserves it hahahahahahah

Now, I don’t have much to say about the exam, except that I was inspired by Naruto and My Hero Academia, more into the last one. I just liked how their exams tend to be a bit… theatrical in a way? All Might comes to mind throughout this whole charade, due to him being the inspiration for the instructor playing the villain/enemy haha.

However, I did feel like maybe my interpretation would’ve been like… silly, in a way? I really don’t know how high ranked sorcerers get evaluated. I constantly felt like this exam would be easy for them to take, but then I remembered:

“Well, if you’re a very talented sorcerer, then I guess everything is easy by default”

 So, I moved on from that dilemma pretty quickly. (It was still a difficult task to write something different, but I’m pretty satisfied hehe practice makes perfect)

Which takes me to another point that I also liked writing, which was Naoya’s distraction, and eventually, his failure :>

Once more, I wanted to show just how affected he was by Y/N coldness towards him. Let’s remember that he’s never seen anything positive come from her, and with good reason! He does not deserve it!!!

It’s at this point that I think he slightly understands that he could do anything, achieve everything, and Y/N would not bat an eye. She doesn’t care about him. She seemingly only has eyes for everyone else—specifically Naoaki, the man whom he and the rest of the clan considered a failure!

What does his brother have that he doesn’t??? Naoya is the one paying for everything regarding your livelihood, as well as being a promising sorcerer and heir of the clan.

Why is Y/N so interested in Naoaki? Are there feelings involved?

And if this were the truth, then why would anything matter anymore?

Just as he’s quick to indulge in the reflection of how he truly feels about what’s going on in his marriage, he’s quick to return to snap out of it and go back into his mission, using his emotions as fuel to get it done with.

Had he not committed the small (grave) mistake he did.

This was very satisfying—like, he wants to portray himself as some kind of strong man, whose emotions never cloud his vision because that’s “woman stuff” and yet… that couldn’t be further from the truth.

Naoya is human at the end of the day, and his (one of many) weakness has to be the emotions he’s always tended to ignore—which is now making way to other areas of his life.

Y/N has such a grip on him (always had, I suppose) and I wanted to show that, since all we’ve seen was just him taking advantage of her (to the point where many believed if Naoya even cared for her at all)

And now that this is presented, karma was bound to get him.

From there, the start of his downfall.

The next scene was like another one that I’ve been wanting to write since FOREVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER since it’s just a sliver of consequences Naoya has to face for the first time in his life maybe 😂 (as well as being angst between the main couple, and who doesn’t love some angst?) but I also had to be very careful to how I presented it, cause I believe it might be misinterpreted.

I mean, I totally understand how Y/N “defending” Naoya could be seen as—the man literally abused her!

However, the intended message is not about that.

Kind of a “life isn’t black or white” situation, I’ve always been a fierce believer that it’s not good to take the law into our own hands, or treat others badly because we’ve been treated badly.

Believe me, I’ve been there, and as much as I’ve wanted to get my revenge, I don’t think that’s the healthy nor the best option to choose. Besides, there’s nothing better than thriving and making the others realize they can’t get to you.

Now that this is stablished, this scene was also placed to further show that indeed, Naoya does not deserve Y/N nor has he done anything to obtain her respect, as well as how Y/N is like, the bigger person of the two, why everyone around her likes her.

And omg that part where he was like, ah yes, finally, she sees me as her husband and it was only a matter of time before she came around….

Talking about being delusional 😭

Thank God she was quick to set him back to reality when she told him he was worse than his father, and the subsequent way she showed how regretful she was of saving him. Get his ass, Y/N.

Also, how Y/N and Naoaki were leaving??? I posted about the staff thinking they were totally having an affair, and while that might’ve been a joke… I’m sure one or two servants DO BELIEVE THAT.

No, but really. This is something that needed to be exposed in a way, further cement the broken relationship Naoya and Y/N have. That the woman he seemingly loves, does not give a shit about him.

It was the beginning of some self-reflection, and after questioning why his marriage is failing and why Y/N is acting differently towards him vs the rest of the world… it seems that he’s finally understanding why.

Or maybe not, this is still Naoya that we’re talking about. Ah, but isn’t that exciting 😭?

Aaaaand…. That’s it.

I think most of the general points are completed. Now, onto the questions I’ve been asked somewhat frequently :>

Did Naobito abuse Naoya as well?

I have no doubt that he has. I mean, he’s abusive with the rest of his kids, what difference would it make with Naoya? If anything, I feel like he could’ve been stricter with him in certain moments because he is the heir? (Endeavor, Shoto, you know the drill 😔)

But because Naoya is more talented than the others, he often avoided those situations all together thanks to it—however, because he’s so perfect, his mistakes are often highlighted more than the usually required… even the smallest thing, it’s like blown so out of proportion, that it adds stress into Naoya to follow everything the clan wants, just how they want it.

That’s the dark side of being the preferred one.

I was slowly trying to building up the levels of abuse that the Zen’in clan suffers, as a way to motivate Y/N to still have some kind of connection towards Naoya. After all, had it not been for the characters that she encountered I think she would’ve been completely detached from everyone lol.

First, we start with the more obvious. Women and non-sorcerers. Pretty self-explanatory, the most viewed in the story. Y/N, Junko, Mai, Maki, and Toji are here. Y/N already expected this, so she wasn’t surprised.

From there, those that are in power, but not necessarily at the same expectations as others. This is were Naoaki and his brothers are—a topic that I like to discuss because appearances are often deceiving :> It’s quite easy to believe that because they’re not in the lower end of the pyramid, they’re living a good lifestyle, when that’s just… not the truth. However, they don’t have it as hard as the ones “beneath” them. Y/N was really… disgusted by this, which only made her hatred toward the ones on the top of the pyramid (and subsequently her husband) even stronger, as well as readjusting her perception of reality.

And finally, the ones on the “top” Naoya, Naobito, Ougi… I guess Jinichi sometimes too hahah. The ones with most of the power, the ones you’d think they stick to each other and be collectively evil together… when they can be as vicious to one another as they are to others. If not more, because they have access to more… tools, as well as having apparently more to lose than the other tiers. The hardest pill to swallow, but ultimately the reason why she decided to step in when Naoya was being reprimanded.

I also tried to avoid explicitly stating that Naobito was abusive towards Naoya as well, as to keep it a surprise lmao, although we could already guess that was happening by the way Naoya reacted to his father whenever he was around lol

Well, Naobito is a terrible man over all. With his wife, children, and I guess everyone that doesn’t act as he wants? That's something that I've always believed ever since I saw Naoya all too happy to hear he was dead, combine that with the expectations he must've instilled in his children….

There was no way he didn't lose his patience once or twice in his life, and probably gotten abusive at one point. So yeah, that’s what I think of the Naoya—Naobito dynamic.

Now, onto another question :>

Did Naoaki know Naoya was being abused too?

Yes… No. Maybe.

I think he had the vague idea that that could’ve happened, however, because Naoaki was distancing himself from his father and brother, and well… how Naoya thinks of him, as well as how he’s preferred over the rest of the siblings, the evidence is pointing towards him not getting the same treatment as he did.

After all, he’s the child Naobito always wanted; you know? Why would he go down the same path?

And even if he got to see that kind of familiar abusive reaction when Naoya got back from his exam, the combination of his own ptsd, as well as having Y/N out there and exposed to be victim of his father’s rampage, I think he was more concerned with getting her out of there (and subsequently comforting her) than questioning if his brother was being hurt as well. Their relationship is broken at that point, and I can’t blame him from not caring for Naoya at all.

If I were to detail what he wanted to do right now, it’s probably spend all of his free time with Y/N lol.

At the end of the day… we’re entitled to suffer our own pain. And be selfish when it comes to it—as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else— it’s kind of funny, because Naoya is super selfish, thus, he has to learn the exact opposite, which is to be benevolent :>

And that’s all of my behind the scenes for chapter 25! I think I got most of the questions that were asked to be about this chapter, but if I’m missing any, be sure to let me know! (This is what I get for writing this after a while) Of course, all within nothing that will spoil the future of the story 😂

As always, thank you so much for your support ❤ as well as for sticking with me during my hiatus/break.

Take care y’all, and hope to see you soon!!

[aijee]

IDOTSC BTS #5: All tied up with no strings attached

A pretty valid question to pose: Why haven’t WW and J fallen in love with each other? They seem to exhibit emotional compatibility and even greater physical chemistry. I’m sure WW has definitely wondered such a question, whether legitimately or as a passing thought. Since I couldn’t really get into it in the story, here are my thoughts regarding that.

Spoiler alert: it’s not just drama for the sake of drama. Who knew!

Here’s one thing I’ve realized in this current pandemic era, during which anxiety, stress, and concerns about the future have reached an all-time high. I find myself engaging more and more in things I objectively like—writing, watching certain Youtube channels, playing video games, other creative endeavors that may even include friends—to the point that I feel like I’m suffocating in them sometimes. I try to smother the pain with pleasure, which doesn’t exactly fix anything that’s actually inside. They simply help hide the noise. Even then, excessive pleasure can make me more tired. Why do I do it?

First, I don’t like settling, even for objectively inconsequential things. Going at 100% all the time can yield great results, but inevitably leads to burnout. Maybe that’s why I’m so tired all the time.

Second, I have a theory that is sort of analogous to gate control theory: the idea that, if you’re in pain, adding a source of non-painful input inhibits transmission of that first pain to your brain. Imagine getting a cut on your finger and then sucking on it, putting pressure on that finger to not only clean the blood but to also suppress the pain. Or you’ve accidentally stubbed your toe on the coffee table and you start rubbing the skin to dissipate the feeling. I wonder if this theory applies to psychological pain.

For WW, engaging in this seemingly inconsequential, non-painful no-strings experience helps numb the pain of his career. Vice versa goes for J; inequality in Asian entertainment, especially regarding unfair treatment of non-Koreans in Korean entertainment, has long been a historical issue in the industry (e.g. oldies will remember Super Junior M, and even EXO’s earlier eras are still pretty recent). WW’s and J’s relationship is a means to ultimately selfish ends. Deep down, I think they both know that any chance of “real romance” has been fully tarnished by this yearning for internal contentment through the guise of companionship, one founded on mutual struggle in life and work—and seeming understanding thereof. 

TL;DR: It’s a relationship where the parties involved know how to scratch each other’s itches because they have similar wounds, but wounds aren’t healed by scratching them. It just feels good.

For those with little experience in relationships, I understand that the idea of FWB can be very foreign and/or simplistic. “It’s just sex.” I myself don’t have experience in it. I see sex as intimate and requiring of great trust (I didn’t even know sex could be casual until university). But I’ve been reflecting on one particular past relationship and realized that, though not FWB, was pretty much the same. It was in high school. In what felt like a relationship where I was respected, I actually felt desirable and admired in a way that fed a young ego desperate for the validation I lacked. I gave this other person gifts, time, attention, all the bullet points for being a good partner on paper—but in my heart and soul, it was all for my emotional satiation.

In the end, I don’t think I truly liked this person, just the sugary words and reassurances they gave me, but never the body or aspirations that came with them. I liked the idea of this person, but not the person themselves. And, my god, that’s the type of shit you hear all the time in try-hard indie love songs from VSCO teens and young artists brandishing their ukuleles and unnecessary vocal trills. But it’s so damn true. The imagination is a dangerously powerful thing. (n=1, take it with a grain of salt.)

I’ve spent the last few months grappling with how fucking MESSY life and relationships really are. For so long, I’d subscribed to picture-perfect ideals of family, friends, significant others. Unconditional love doesn’t leave room for hurt—right? This grand ambition of love that I’ve written about, read about, and consumed has been challenged so many times and it’s only recently that I’m realizing it. Perhaps I wrote about unconditional love so much because I thought I felt like lacked it, or, really, what I imagined it to be. Perhaps it was inevitable that I’d eventually challenge these “fantasies” I dreamt of. Perhaps that’s why we also write so much damn fiction about it, because their reality is questionable.

But rounding back to the story, as for WW and J, I fully anticipate genuine feelings seeping in once in a while; they’re only human. But at the end of the day, as the characters that they are with the goals and lives they have, they wouldn’t have worked out romantically in the end.

Originally written on February 11, 2021

[melis-writes]

Little writing update!! 😌💓

I’ve had a lot more time to work on the next chapter of Moth to Flame: Part II which has been amazing, tbh. 🥴 I’ve written 12,000 words on my silly little lunch break and only have 2 more scenes to write out until this chapter is finished and posted!! 😍🤞🏻

That being said... 👀 I’m deciding to take a little bit of an unofficial break from prompt writing. Unofficial as in I’m not changing my prompts page/faq to say “prompts are closed” or anything like that. I’m still taking them in and I don’t plan on changing that! However, I have a loooot of fics to write, update and start! 😅 I love how my lovely readers all have their favourite pick of fics and I aim to update all of them fairly and post new ones too. 

I’m struggling with time due to working full time and finding free time for myself, family, friends, and other hobbies. 😭 I feel like I have to focus on one or the other most times, neglecting the other which I absolutely don’t want to do! That’s why this update is just to say that I’m going to be more focused on fic chapters and uploads so we/I don’t wait 100 million years for another fic update. 😂😂

I also don’t want to slap together some quick dog shit and call it a prompt. I never write out prompts just to finish and post them. I put the same quality and effort of writing as if I was writing a full out fic! I hope you guys understand. ❤️

Anytime there’s a change to my writing schedule/updates, I always make a post like this one! While I won’t be focusing on prompts, if I have the extra time, I will always take it to write one and post so you may be surprised!! 👀 Us fic girlies for now are anticipating new updates for Moth to Flame: Part II, The Other Woman and Blood Money. Eyes Like Stars is calling out again too!! 

Once I start getting more chapters written, posted and established for newer fics (The Other Woman and Blood Money especially), I’d like to reshift on also focusing more on prompts again and see where it goes. If you’ve sent me a prompt, don’t worry!! I see it, I have it, and I greatly appreciate it. 🥺💕