#maybe i'll do kitto kawaranai iro next i love that song

[ariseri]

april loop (エイプリループ) - nekobolo

i was counting how many words and meanings contradict each other this time oh, i’m so sorry about that. i was just talking about nonsense, don’t worry, it’s all fine. i was counting how many words and meanings that i’d ended up regretting but this time i’m not sad, it’s because i have all this time to be here wasting.

i look for now, a tomorrow, and even after that but there’s no meaning to be had i think it’s fine to dream of imitating something else if that can keep you living all by itself

but now i’ll leave, i’ll find a place that nobody could ever see to love someone, or be happy, it’s not what i need, it’s not what i need. i’ll go somewhere you’ll never find, and i’ll leave my regrets behind i still have hopes of leaving behind some sort of meaning. so i just talk to myself in my mind

i was counting how many actions and meanings contradict each other this time oh, i’m so sorry about that. i was just trying to be silly, don’t worry, it’s all fine. i was counting how many actions and meanings that i’d ended up regretting but this time i’m not sad, it’s because i’m an idiot and i’m still waiting

did you notice it repeats again and again? it’s because there’s no meaning to be had. i think it’s fine to like things and dislike something else if that can keep you living all by itself

but now i’ll leave, i’ll find a place that nobody could ever see to shed a tear, or be in pain, it’s not what i need, it’s not what i need. i’ll go somewhere you’ll never find, and i’ll leave my regrets behind i still have hopes of leaving behind some sort of meaning.

i had a dream that i designed, i had a dream just yesterday i had a dream that won’t come true, and a past that i want to erase

there are people that i hate, and there are those i admire i just can’t count how many times i’ve wished to die, but after everything, i’m alive.

it’s okay to hate me if it means you won’t forget about me if that’s me being selfish… i’ll swallow it down, you see…

but now i’ll leave, i’ll find a place that nobody could ever see to remember that day, or my feelings, it’s not what i need, it’s not what i need. i’ll go somewhere you’ll never find, and i’ll leave my regrets behind i can’t help but wonder if i ever managed to reach your heart

but i guess that’s just me talking to myself