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#Fucking loooove ittttt when i ask for help w communicating w my dad and then when i express how i feel like#everything i do and everything i say to him is wrong and bad and shows im selfish and horrible#this person says 'relationships go both ways' and im like uHHHHHHH#i dont have a whole lotta empathy for someone who's abused me for years actually (bc at this point im mad as fuck)#and this person goes 'abused?' at which point i literally start to dissociate and lose the ability to think straight about what's going on#so i say im sick and tired of people knowing nothing about me and having to explain myself to everyone over and over again#while nothing ever sticks#and this person has the audacity to go and whine that i cant expect every single person to know everything about me???#i think 3 sentences in my file could summarise all that clearly enough to give people some guidelines but ALRIGHT APPARENTLY THATS TOO MUCH#meanwhile she keeps pushing me to make some stupid decision and im like i literally cannot think anymore right now and she keeps pushing it#and im freaking out internationally as im struggling not to zone the fuck out and remember how last time this happened#several people threatened to drag me out of the office instead of ya know. comforting the person whos obviously very upset#im so fuckimg tired of the stupid bullshiy#sure keep whininh at me in your nails on a chalkboard voice! sure!! thqt fucking helps right?!#im so fucking mad about this whole situation like imagine fucking dissociating while trying to arrange very practical shit like what the fuc#and then being in a room where the supposed professional doesn't even know what dissociation is lmaooo#im sorry but i feel like a trauma 101 class is essential in a group home for young folks like this one#im so tired of being treated like a picky little bitch when i just want to have professionals who know what theyre doing.#if u can tell the entire team about a client's diabetes and make a management plan u SURE AS HELL can make a plan for me too#on top of everything else im having like proper relivings of shit which rarely happens and is really upsetting#im like safe n shit and about to go crawl in bed and go to sleep and ill be fine tomorrow#but it really fucking SUCKS to be in this place#i feel like some stupid edgy teen even just talking about this but that's also really fucking stupid
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shuatoyou · 5 years ago
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helloooo new oomf 💞. if ur requests are still open, could you pls do something with dino and a masquerade ball?? thank you ✨
omg i love this concept and yes of course!!
♡ my first request ♡
sorry if its too long i just couldn’t stop writing and i am very sorry for the abrupt ending haha... i hope you enjoy
- lia
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it was the day of the big masquerade ball your father had planned to throw, so now you were stood there eyeing the crowd entering the hall slowly, masks being put on one by one hiding each individuals identity.
“m’lady” you turn around to your best friend bowing down before you.
“hansol i will literally kick you stop it” you hiss at his stupidity pulling him up and fixing your dress.
“wheres your mask?” he questions as he puts his own on.
“right here” you say putting it on unbothered.
“you look good.” he winks before grabbing us drinks from a passing waiter.
“i know”
a while later you set your drink down beside him and walking through the crowd occasionally nodding at the few guests who recognised you. maybe it because of the majestic gown you acquired making you the princess of the evening.
soon enough hansol caught up to you but you paid no notice as you laid your eyes on a group of people stood around a table however one gaining your interest more than the others, impulsively while you began walking towards them, one noticed you before the rest before nudging the rest of his friends.
“you’re-” began the boy who noticed you first but getting cut off with a nudge by his friend
“i hope you’re all enjoying your night.” you smiled nodding towards them.
“and you” spoke up the individual who had attracted your attention earlier. you turn towards him and lock gazes, he was searching your eyes and you suddenly realised you were flustered due to the burning sensation in your cheeks and maybe it didn’t help having your hair styled in a way your ears were clearly visible and burning red.
you broke away first and smiled at the said group, before rushing off with hansol tagging behind you once again hoping he wouldn’t question your actions
“has someone sparked y/n’s interest?” hansol questioned giving you a cheeky smile noticing your actions a few seconds ago
“we’ll see” is the last thing you utter to your friend before grabbing another drink and walking away leaving him stranded in a crowd full of elegance.
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the ball had gone into action over an hour ago and now guests were in the middle dancing while certain others (you) stood alone at the side with your own table specially reserved for your family plus hansol. 
speaking of the boy he was also dancing to the slow song with a girl you had no idea who she was, you let out a small laugh at the fact he had found a girl like he intended to so early on in the night. 
you were on drink number three with no issues, no issues except from boredom and the boy from earlier never leaving your mind. leaving you wondering at what was under his mask that kept your interest on him. attempting to push away the same thoughts invading your mind over and over again. you continued looking forward at the dancing pairs in front of you letting out a laugh whenever one messed up their footwork. possibly your only entertainment for the rest of your night as everyone socialised but you.
not for long though...
“drinking alone at your own ball?” a figure walked up beside you gently taking a sip of his own drink and admiring the same view as you.
“well some habits were just meant to not die hard.” you state looking at the stranger now. you recognised the mask from the group of people you had greeted earlier.
“can i help you break that habit then?” he also turned to face towards you while taking a step back and holding a hand out.
“dance with me?”
you hesitated for a moment however still ended up abandoning your glass and took his hand allowing him to gently walk you to the middle of the hall. people made way noticing it was you despite not knowing anything about this person.
he gave you a second to fix your dress before grabbing your hand and getting into a slow dancing position with you just as the slow song you had recommended during the planning of the event.
“its nice to finally meet you kang sumi” he whispers in your ear
“thats quite unfair, you know my name but i dont know yours.” you inform as you both sway to the gentle tune playing.
“hmmm you’re right...” he mumbles
“lee chan” 
you say nothing more, closing your eyes to absorb the moment not aware of all the eyes on the two of you.
the daughter of the country’s most famous business man dancing with a stranger she met a mere five minutes ago that was ought to leave people curious
the song didn’t last forever, unfortunately so once the song comes to an end you make the decision to pull off your mask slowly with chan mirroring your actions.
you smile at the sight in front of you, as chan does the same. he was cute and you had no idea what to do with yourself.
“i’ll see you around lee chan...” you turn around and keep a steady pace away from the boy who caused your heart to flutter many times leaving you in panic about your troubled feelings
meanwhile chan stood there still unable to to process the moment with you, he knew he had to find you again.
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“you what? your what? what?” hansol questioned not understanding the words you had blurted out when you pulled him away from the girl he had met.
“i just danced with a boy and i think im dying because something is wrong with the speed my heart is beating at right now hansol save me is this death?” the words wouldn’t stop forcing their way out of your mouth as you held your chest dramatically trying to breathe and grabbing another drink to down.
“slow down there y/n” hansol exclaims as he grabs the drink out of your hand. “what was his name?”
“lee chan”
“where did you find lee chan?”
“he came to me. he was from that group of boys we met at the beginning of the night.”
“is it maybe the boy heading over here right now?”
“what did you just say?”
“bye bye y/n” hansol shouted walking away leaving you to fend for yourself.
you took a deep breath before turning around only to catch chan approaching you.
“how do you always seem to find me?” you genuinely wonder attitude completely different from the one you were bothering your friend with earlier.
“someone as beautiful as you, not very hard to miss.”
words left your mind empty not allowing you to find a reply to his compliment. he was clever with his choice of words defeating you as you look down not for too long till the boy causing you this inner distress brings out his hand to softly tilt your head back up so you were looking at him.
“did i fluster you?” he asks knowingly over the loud music playing.
“i’ve only just met you and i hate you already” you look up into his eyes.
“i’ll take it kang y/n” he looks down at your hands wondering whether he should do what he’s planning.
he goes through with it anyways, grabbing your hand he intertwines both your them before walking with you to a nearby balcony he had discovered before approaching you.
the two of you let the doors close behind you and chan immediately faces you. there’s a comfortable distance between you and him. 
“can you stop” you whisper.
“am i doing something wrong?” he says attempting to take a step back before you pull him back with his hand still in yours.
“my heart has been feeling weird ever since i saw you in the crowd of people at the start of the night.”
“you’ve been thinking about me all this time?” he lets out a teasing laugh only to be responded with a nudge immediately making him stop. “well is it a good weird?”
“i think so. but we only just met so it’s hard to say.”
he leans forward making your breath hitch. “how do you feel when i do this?”
“nervous”
he searches your eyes for non verbal approval. you quietly wait for him to take his chance anyways with your heart rooting for him. he took the chance to place a lingering kiss onto your lips becoming addicted to the feeling.
as he pulled away you continued to crave the short length of warmth again but it wasn’t long till he was back and most transferring your beautiful shade of lipstick onto his own soft lips.
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intothespideyverses · 6 years ago
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so I had a season 2b/3 predictions post in my drafts that’s been sitting there since the bar mitzvah episode but now that so many Things have happened I feel like I kinda need to redo it. funnily enough I predicted juffy (but it was one-sided), ham having a midlife crisis (although the midlife crisis was linked to ham having a health scare that caused him to try to ‘live every day like its his last’ and not ham being so Done with his family that he just leaves them for india) and the post also mentions tyrus and g*briel coming back (neither have been been confirmed yet but they’re very likely) so! here’s my New and Improved list of Season 3 Predictions/Ideas:
[Disclaimer: I doubt a lot of this will happen bc my mind automatically goes for the most melodramatic scenario. This is still disney channel and they’re too cowardly to go thru with like half of this tbh. also tw for minor abuse mention!]
The G*briel Plot
-g*be comes back and reminds bex of “””why she can never marry anyone””” just as bowie is about to bring up maybe getting back together again. the reason why they shot a wedding scene and the whole green screen thing is bc bex has a nightmare about marrying bowie but then everyone’s heads turn into gabe’s. the following is literally copy and pasted from the first post and tbh I don’t think things will happen this way anymore (I originally thought miranda wasn’t going to be a snake and that her and bowie would get married, leading bex to run back to g*briel so andi could have a father figure in her life again) but it’s still a p interesting plot I think so: g*be’s an abusive asshole. it’s still disney so I doubt they’d show that much but like…he’s very manipulative and he kisses bex really hard all the time in front of everyone and he’s super possessive, etc. he gives bex the silent treatment every time she hangs out with bowie and thus the whole “ask if they’re mad 3 times” thing and on the third time he always yells at her in front of andi. andi notices all of this and tells bowie but bowie thinks she’s just saying that to break bex/gabe up so she can get back with bowie. that is until he witnesses the tomfoolery himself when the couples are on a double date so bowie takes her aside and starts questioning her but bex lies and this whole ugly thing continues on for several episodes until bex and satan have one last fight that goes too far (he says something about andi probably) thats about to get physical and andi strolls in w/ a phone in her hand like 91 fucking 1 bitch. pack your bags ur going home rat! and he’s finally gone and andi tells bex that she doesn’t need another dad if it means bex puts herself thru that kinda torture. and they have another closure ceremony <3
The Divorce Plot
-ham decides to permanently travel the world. he probably comes back for an episode to get cece to sign them divorce papers. this starts a huge plotline that will probably get ignored after 2 episodes lbr here but we finally see cece SNAP bc the way she’s been behaving lately has definitely been leading up to that
-bex is going off the rails at this. she starts slacking at work and the business that caused the rift in her parents’ marriage in the first place is starting to fall apart. the light bill is going unpaid and bex is crumbling. she doesn’t want anyone to know so she makes andi stay at cece’s while she’s living in darkness. bowie visits one day and is like “tf happened to the lights” and bex has a breakdown. she tells him everything and bowie comforts her and offers to help (how? who the hell knows!). bex is so touched that she admits to having feelings for bowie still. bowie turns her down tho bc she’s in a rly emotional state and doesn’t want to take advantage of her. 
-andi eventually finds out what’s been going on and tells cece. cece is the last person bex wanted to know about cloud ten struggling, as cloud ten was the only thing keeping cece sane. they eventually have a heart-to-heart and bex/andi encourage cece to get some closure from ham
The Wandi Plot/Death of Jandi
-wandi rises. they resolve to just be friends at the end of season 2 but after a lot of things that I’ll mention later, andi realizes walker was the one for her :’). they paint a mural alongside cloud ten and cece makes some offhand comment about them becoming a painting duo, which they LOVE. they go around the town offering to paint on the walls of local businesses and it’s rly cute. god can you imagine the montages?? andi is in puppy love however we have like 5 episodes of her despairing over if walker even LIKES her anymore after months of just being friends. the roles are reversed and she’s the one doing all these things to get his attention. bc he’s not an oblivious Fool like jonah, walker picks up on this relatively fast and wandi is official!!
-that leads us to what will come of jandi? they perish of course. andi starts getting jealous of jonah hanging out with all these high school girls and naturally there’s more and more miscommunication and jonah whines about her friendship with walker etc etc etc just break up already god. andi eventually realizes that she’s just not feeling it and she puts her foot down to bex that he’s just not right for her!! bc tbh at this point the only reason she still fw jonah is bc of bex’s constant encouragement 
The Tyrus Plot
-tyrus happens obviously. if we ever actually get a real apology from tj (which I’m doubting at this point lol) this can happen smoothly. I kinda imagine tj trying to teach cyrus how to swim (swimming is definitely on cyrus’ list of things he can’t do) and the first time it happens tj is SO sure cyrus will be able to do it that he lets him go out on the deep end on his own and uh lmao ya boi almost drowns. buffy’s there and she saves him and she tells tj to stay away from cy bc hello he could’ve McDied and tj, crushed over the fact that cyrus could’ve met a watery grave, actually does what she says. cyrus tells buffy that it was his dumbass decision to go on the deep end tho, and tj didn’t make him do anything he didn’t want to do, so buffy relents. cyrus practices by himself and makes it his goal to learn how to swim in order to impress tj. he invites tj to the neighborhood pool one day as a surprise and he just like...cannonballs into the deep end (but he’s STILL not ready) and again almost fucking dies. tj saves him and he starts yelling at him a la titanic (”you’re SO stupid rose why’d ya do that huh???”) and then tj lets it slip that he would’ve mcfreaking lost it if something ever happened to cyrus bc “you mean a lot to me underdog” or w/e and during this whole rant cyrus realizes that he’s floating!! and he’s like yes bitch i did it im swimming! and tj’s so happy for him that he kisses him and cyrus almost drowns again from shock but it’s all good lol. maybe tj avoids him for a bit after the kiss bc cyrus’ reaction seemed like a rejection, but it wasn’t cyrus was honestly just shook to the core. 
-cyrus lets tj know that he likes him too and they start dating. they definitely keep it a secret from the ghc for a while, probably until the midseason finale. maybe jonah finds out first and that’s how cyrus comes out to him and tells him that he used to have a crush on him too. jonah is flattered and cool w/ it. anyway at first tj doesn’t like going on rly public dates with cyrus, not bc he’s ashamed of him or anything, but bc he doesn’t want anyone to make fun of cyrus (he can take ugly remarks but he’d hulk out if anyone touched a hair on cyrus’ head). cyrus doesn’t care tho and the one time they go on a date, some kids from tj’s school (he’d be in high school by season 3 right?) start messing with them. tj does in fact hulk out but only when one of the demons says something about cyrus. cyrus hauls tj off the creep and they talk in private about not wanting to live in fear but also not wanting to get harassed everywhere they go. when cy tells andi, she tells them that maybe they’d be safer if they went on double dates with her and walker, and so that’s a thing and its cute
The Juffy Plot
-anyway by the season 3b, both wandi and tyrus are thriving. they all hang out a lot leaving buffy to feel like a fifth wheel. she hides it tho bc does she ever express her feelings? she soon finds out that jonah is feeling the same way, and he thinks andi and cyrus don’t rly want to hang out with him anymore. buffy starts inviting jonah to all their outings and anytime the two couples are on a double date or something, buffy and jonah decide to do something else together on their own. cyrus takes note of this and tries to push buffy to ask jonah out since they’re practically dating already but she refuses bc he’s still andi’s ex and that violates girl code or w/e. 
-she goes to bex for advice! but she uses a hypothetical situation instead and changes names. bex, unaware that she’s telling buffy to go after her daughter’s ex, tells her to follow her heart but keep it a secret. meanwhile, jonah is slowly but surely realizing his feelings for buffy, and goes to bowie for advice. bc jonah’s a fool, he doesn’t know buffy has any feelings for him whatsoever, and he asks bowie how he can make her see him That Way. bowie, recycling ideas, tells him to perform a song for her but to do it as if he was just practicing and wanted to see if she thought it was a good song. jonah also doesn’t tell bowie that this is all for buffy lol. 
-so jonah invites buffy to the record store to hang out while wandi and tyrus are doing wandi and tyrus things. he plays some song for her (chemistry perhaps?? i still haven’t heard it yet but if its as good as y’all say...) and buffy is all heart eyes!! until she assumes that he wrote that song for another girl. there’s more unnecessary tiptoeing and drama for an episode until jonah notices that there’s something Up with buffy (she started avoiding him) and demands to know what’s going on. she doesn’t feel like talking about fEeLiNgS so instead he challenges her to arm wrestle. if she wins, she has to fess up. buffy’s like “um?? so all I have to do is let you win” but jonah’s like “like you would ever do that lmao”. she almost lets him win but bc he starts taunting she slams his mf arm into the table!! she fesses up and jonah’s like :D bc duh bitch that song was for you this whole time. they keep it a secret bc of bex’s foolish advice but eventually cyrus finds out and tells them to tell andi. andi’s upset at first but she gets over it. the three couples live in harmony 
The High School Plot
-we see more of the high school now that jonah (and tj?? unless he has to repeat a grade which is seeming likely actually) are there. jonah, who’s used to being the big man on campus, gets bullied for liking frisbee so much and is shamed into doing a “real sport” instead. he hates it and is miserable. he puts on a good face for the ghc bc he doesn’t want them to know he’s struggling. it eventually all comes crashing down when he has another panic attack (the first one in a while after starting therapy WHICH HE BETTER). also we get a look at his home life, I hc that he’s adopted and has a lot of foster siblings that have a lot of their own issues, so he constantly downplays his own bc he doesn’t want to be a “burden” and be abandoned again
-amber becomes a part of the crew and hopefully maybe just maybe is a lesbian. she starts hanging out with a bunch of sapphic baddies. she and jonah become friends and they help each other with their respective mental illnesses 
-through jonah, buffy makes friends with the high school track lesbians <3 they adopt her. one of them tho is Evil and is jealous that some middle schooler is getting all of this attention from the captain so she tries to break buffy’s fucking leg akjhskjdhds I told y’all this was melodramatic 
das it. disney you can send my paycheck to [redacted] within 10-12 business days.
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