#mostly because it relies a lot of me not changing emu too much which. I most likely will as I read more wxs stuff

[arolesbianism]

Me scrolling through the unit swap cast in my head checking to make sure I have basic ideas for all of them before landing on Tsukasa and staring at him for 10 deafening seconds before silently moving on

[ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is]

(1) Hello Em! I was wondering if you'd have time for another ask about typing? Being en9 doesn't help hehe. I was certain I was ISFP, but recently I started to wonder if I actually use Si Ne. I like to have structure and order in small everyday things or follow instructions when doing it, but anything bigger than receipts, document or clothing storage is too hard for me, so not high Te. Although I like order and a little schedule – it makes me feel I have things under control.

(2) I am majoring medicine field cause it’s safe and practical, and I don’t like it, but now I’ve been in EMU and I loved it there. The staff was excellent, healthy relationships, things moving quickly, busy job, not having to deal with the same people for too long. I might end up there. Sadly I’m a bad student and I don’t know enough, and that makes me feel out of control. It didn’t took much to impress the staff but somehow I did, I’m wondering how myself. They liked me for once.

(3) Maybe I liked it cause they liked me. I’m spending my free time watching or re-watching series I like, learning language or reading on the Internet or some book. Meeting with friends take too much of my energy, as in the end, we all end up wanting free therapy and I don’t have energy for that, at least when I’m busy with studying and internships. But I'm a good listener and giver of advice when I'm in a good mood. I really don't get how people go to work, clean the house, cook, have kids.

(4) That sounds so exhausting. I do care what other people think either because I think they know better or because I am afraid of what they can affect with their opinion. I don‘t want people to have something over me that I can‘t change. I think my T function is low in the stack as I am prone to rethinking, doubting, seeing how I missed something, acting on my whims and emotions. I have gotten better with this, but it‘s fear that‘s holding me, not being sensible and logical.

(5) I am actually highly annoyed by my mother telling me to settle in this town, as there are no opportunities to become someone more and I don’t have a family I’d should settle with for. I know her opinion hurts me and will make me doubt myself and my future plans, and if it won’t work out, I’ll wonder if she was right and I was wrong and I should never have done what I wanted because the pattern is that it never works out. I recently started noticing how much my surroundings influence

(6) Me and my views and I feel so disgusted by that. But instead of completely cutting myself from that, I think it would be way healthier to get a more supportive and more widely experienced group of people. A dream. Cutting this off would mean I wouldn’t allow myself to have a need I actually have. I don’t have a huge need for friends, but I am open and expressive with the ones I have. The strangers are a different talk. I don't know how this particular person functions and I can't read them

(7) well. My mom would say my weakness is I don’t look at details, forget them or don’t hold them important. It’s because I get bored and restless easy. I have a set of hobbies I like to mingle in, and when I get bored, I move on to another one, but I always come back after some time. It’s mostly important that I can research it, or actually work on it, like with language learning, I do stuff here and now, I focus on what's in front of me. My major is similar, but I am bad at studying lol.

(8) I wonder if this info has any relevance what so ever. I like to talk about myself and I loos the track of the real thing quickly. Hope you're doing good and I didn't bore you too much. Thanks in advance.

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Hi anon, I would actually look at INTP:

Relying heavily on how others see you and talking about a strong need to have the approval of others and being influenced in your views by your surroundings is far more indicative of Fe-Ti than Fi-Te, certainly not high Fi. You also mention a lot of difficulty with details and with decision making - I don't think it's feeling functions so much as the indecisive "must consider all possible choices and never settle" nature of Ne. The shifting hobbies fit that as well, and I think the enneagram 9 (which does sound reasonable) sort of reduces the stronger novelty-seeking and boundary-pushing nature of INTP, although it's still present with your desire to leave your town, getting bored easily, and so on.