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[chaoticxbeast]

More than friends?

Content: PAIN. Emotions. Leo speaks to April about his feelings.

Dressed in a big warm coat, winter boots and pants, he wrapped his arms around himself and rubbed his arms in attempt to get warm. He smiled a bit as he gazed up at the bright lights adorning the huge christmastree at rockefeller city. "wow.."

Leo loved christmas. And this was the first christmas they could walk around as they wished, admiring the way the streets would light up and shine in the magical way christmas should.

Across the street, April ordered bought one of green tea for Leo and a latte for herself. She was used to coffeine despite her young age. She needed that for the many late nights she´d been putting in lately, for the school paper.

She wondered why he wanted to hang out tonight. Leo often called her just to chat, and she had a feeling something was up.

She spotted the familiar silhouette of her turtle friend over by the tree, and she found it kinda cute the way he stood there, just gazing like a kid up at the rockefeller tree. Then again, all the turtles were adorable like that, so entranced by things she took for granted. In all honesty it made her appreciate things more.

She walked over to him, and gave him the cup of tea. His eyes widened in appreciation. "Thank you.. And uh...hi! How are you?" Leo asked, faint blush crept across face.

"I’m good...you? That’s green tea. You like that right?"

"I’m great! Yea. I love green tea..How did you know?!" Holding the hot cup felt so good in his cold hands, but the fact she had thought of him make him feel warm from the heart and out. He sneaked a peek at her while he sipped it, burning his tongue, and spilling some tea on his jacket.

"Oh!" April quickly grabbed some napkins and began dabbing at his jacket. Leo froze, utterly helpless, his wide, dark brown eyes fixed on her. Slowly, he reached out to take the napkins from her hand, and when their fingers brushed, a jolt of electricity shot through him. For several seconds, he stood there, speechless, his mind racing but completely blank.

Leo’s laugh came out nervous and shaky. Inwardly, he cringed at his awkwardness, wishing he could be more like Mikey or Donnie. They were always so natural around April, unapologetically themselves, and she seemed so at ease with them.

"Uh, yeah... I do," April replied, glancing at him curiously. Her brow furrowed slightly as she added, "Is everything okay? You seem a little... on edge."

"Oh? Yeah, of course. Everything’s fine," Leo said quickly, flashing a smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes. His gaze dropped to the ground, his smile faltering.

"Um... okay..." April said slowly, her tone uncertain as she studied him.

They walked slowly together along the edge of the ice rink, surrounded by couples and friends laughing and gliding across the ice. The colorful lights and cheerful Christmas music filled the air, wrapping everything in a festive glow. April stole a glance at Leo, watching as the lights flickered across his face. He looked so sweet the way he seemed to be taking in the mood of the place, as if he was just glad to be there, watching everyone. Leo could be so cute, in that way. All the turtles were.

She could think of so many things that made him into perfect boyfriend material. He was responsible, disciplined, and respectful, with a strong moral compass that guided everything he did. The kind of guy who would show up on time, offer to help with the dishes, and always ask how her day was. Polite to a fault and genuinely caring.

But he wasn’t for her. And it worried her, that he might like her in that way. She didn’t want to loose him, or his brothers. Her eyes nearly welled up from the thought. They had been through so much already, just these last few months. She didn’t want to hurt leo, and loose everyone, but she had to do something, before his feelings grew deeper.

"So uh..I’m really happy you wanted to come to the schooldance with me." Leonardo suddenly said, crashing Aprils train of thoughts.

"Yeah..As..friends, right?" April said, as if she wasn’t sure.

Leo nodded. "Yeah! As friends."

There was an awkward pause, and Leo broke the silence.

"..But hypothetically, if I meant it.as..a date. Would you still..wanna uhm..Go with me?"

"April fell quiet, and Leo began to inwardly panic, realizing he had probably crossed the line. "I mean.. I ... "

"Do you wanna sit down?" She said, and grabbed his arm, dragging him over to a bench. When they sat down, overlooking the ice rink, she held his arm closer, as if she worried he would disappear on her.

"I just wanna be honest with you and..you and the others..you and your family. When I met you guys I was so..." She cleared her throat, trying to keep the tears from welling up in her eyes. "I just..I felt so alone." She sniffled, and Leo stiffened up. He had never seen her get this emotional before. April was usually so tough and guarded.

"You guys are like my brothers and..I felt so alone. You know? I just..felt like a loser. And you guys suddenly showed up you’re all just so..unique. And weird. And fun. And interesting. And fascinating. She realized she was gripping his arm a little too tight, and she let go, taking a deep breath, turning away a bit and wiping her eyes, embarrassed to be so emotional infront of him.

"You just make me see everything differently you know? Making me appreciate ordinary things and..I’m just trying to say I really really glad I met you guys and I don’t want to loose you, or the guys, I want..I want to be part of the family.

"Oh..April. I.."

Leo put his arm around her and squeezed her gently. Even though it hurt to know she didn’t feel the same way as he did, it hurt more to know how lonely she had been, and how scared she was to loose them. He rested his head on her curly hair and hugged her gently. "You’re totally my sis, April." He said, softly.

"That’s never gonna change. I promise."

[im-on-fire-today]

Master post

Making this thing so people can find stuff easier. I'm not the most organized individual, and tumblr doesn't care about the actual full link to blogs much anymore.

Anyways ~ my handle is "im-on-fire-today" but I generally tag any art I make as Tazercat. I just haven't bothered to amend that situation If I do ignore this part. This is an 18+ blog.

Bluesky | Twitter(X) | AO3

I do both writing and drawing, and sometimes a secret third thing (felting)

Important tags are

#fanfic | #fake banter | #untitled goose game | #my art

Also if you want to use the fake banter for anything, go right ahead. Would I like to see what you do with it? Yes, but you aren't obligated to share.

[sleepy-writer]

[savagecuhnt]

Answer to following questions and tag people you wanna know better!

Tagged by: @myriadxofxmuses

tagging:@heartxshaped-bruises @wxrldinmyeyes @fangsandmagic @halfdent @adsagsona @t-errifier @fleshtak3r @gadgetmxn @bornhngry

roleplayer name: Becca...cause I'm not very cool and never came up with a nickname lol

roleplayer's pronounce: she/her

preferred communication: IM is cool, so is discord...smoke signals? telepathy.

experience: I've been here since 2012? if not a little earlier than that?

preferred roleplay type: Tumblr and discord only.

deal breakers: being rude. Forcing ideas. changing the plot of a thread without discussing. Mun drama.

plots or meme: Meme. It's easier. and if I send in a meme or I receive one we can plot on that lol

best time to write: Whenever. Mostly between 6pm-2am for me EST.

are you like your muse? I used to share similarities with Rose , minus the whole psychic abilities and killing....however less like her now which makes things a lil hard to write now.

[what-the-stark]

Mint, Olive, Mauve

🐝  *  ―  𝑪𝑶𝑳𝑶𝑼𝑹𝑭𝑼𝑳 𝑰𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑽𝑰𝑬𝑾. ( send one or more of these to get to know the person behind the blog a little better. )

[ mint ]  when did you start your blog? what made you start it? This one was made in Nov. of 2012, so it's definitely been a minute. I had been playing Tony already for a good while through email and in ims, but I had no idea that character blogs were a thing until I tripped over one here back when I only had my art blog up and running. The MCU was an entirely different space back then, simpler for sure, but also more...I don't know, optimistic? Somehow brighter? And definitely more active, though there's still a fair amount of traffic in these circles nowadays. A lot of the RPC has grown up here to some degree, and it's cool having such a common bond with my partners.

[ olive ]  what gives you the most inspiration for your muse(s)? Honestly it's just chatting with my partners, discussing various fandom stuff, obsessing over upcoming content and brainstorming over how our babes can plausibly fit in those concepts. Re-watching movies always helps me tighten up my character's voice, but creativity and innovation are born through collaboration and friendship (rainbow.jpg).

[ mauve ]  give one random headcanon about your muse / one of your muses. You mean beyond the Avalon Protocol? /evilgrin But technically that's canon other than the name, so. Let me see.

Generally I treat headcanons like legos. I may elaborate on the structures, but the available pieces were already there, you feel me? I try not to infuse anything into him that wouldn't likely be there, inspired by observation of canon events.

So the items that involve off-screen development of those events are the ones I've put the most opinion or conjecture into. For example, we see him having panic attacks in various situations, we know broadly why. Depending on the partner/thread I might have developed that further. What else could have happened to him in Afghanistan? With the Mandarin's goons or in the void? How about when he was slowly dying, drifting in space? Or even when he actually did die?

As a general answer to that question — for my interpretation of Tony — I will say that he doesn't tolerate being bound very well, to put it mildly. And that he'd pretty much never be down for doing so recreationally. It would take a monumental act of trust and honestly he would be so triggered by it that I don't think he could appreciate anything else happening in the vicinity, regardless of the good time factor. Along the same lines, he never felt the same about water after Afghanistan, and even taking a shower took an uncomfortable exercise of will for a good long time.

[one-twisted-sister]

[hells-fvry]

can i offer everyone pictures of my animals in these trying times?

[katanamasako]

Dunno what's wrong with me, but i think i'm under the weather. I'm gonna hold off on livestreaming for a day or two to see if it clears up. But i've all but lost my voice today XD I don't feel ill, but i am unable to speak above a whisper ;u;

[sleepy-writer]

Still waiting for the dream for some of them...

Hypnos, plz get to it?

No, I am not 'hoarding craft supplies.' I am sourcing materials for a very big project that will be revealed to me at a later date- perhaps in a dream.

[chaoticxbeast]

Mikey deals with being left out when it truly mattered

It was one thing being the runt. But another thing being left out. It wasn't the first time they forgot he existed, or forgot that he wanted to be part of the group when it really mattered. It broke his heart over and over again when something happened and they left him out. And yeah, Mikey had that kind of heart that could break and then heal, again and again, because he was good at understanding why they did what they did, and excusing them, and healing up, and forgiving, again and again.

He got it. He knew he wasn't that strong, or smart or brilliant. That was why he wasn't given responsibility, or given a dangerous task.

But he could've been useful, this time. If only just to be around Don and support him or be a sidekick or something. He could fight, he distract the enemy, he could've comforted Leo, because Leo couldn't even deal with blood without throwing up. But noooo. Mikey never got the call.

"What's going on." Mikey said, throwing his arms out. "Why didn't you call me?"

"No time to.." Leo said, "Don's fine though."

"But..this isn't fine! I wanted to be there too, Leo!"

"I couldn't think, I just.."

"Why did you think of calling Raph, but not me? You always forget about me."

"It's okay, Mikey," Leo said softly, reaching out to touch Mikey's shoulder.

"It's not okay!" Mikey yelled, his voice breaking as he throwing his hands out. Tears welled up in his eyes, spilling over and down his face.

Silence fell over the group, and they looked at Mikey, who was staring back at them with a pained hurtful expression on his face. Mikey dried his tears with the palm of his hand, and Leo grimaced with regret and hurt. Leo tried to hug him, but when he did, Mikey could only stand it for a second or two, before he pulled away. "You hurt my feelings doing that bro, leaving me out, like I..like I don't matter!" Mikey choked out, yelling as loud as he could.

"No..Mikey..It was just..overwhelming and..dangerous and.."

"So?? You thought of Raph! What about me! I could've helped YOU. And Donnie." Mikey sobbed and Leo tried to reach out yet again. "I'm sorry. Next time..I'll remember."

Mikey couldn't stand the hug, but he couldn't stand pushing away again and hurt Leo's feelings, so he let him. "No you won't.."

"I will. I promise."

[sleepy-writer]

War from Darksiders

*scoots him closer to Azrael*

[yellingmetatron]

So, I was reading an article debunking misconceptions about the Mouseion (better known as the Library of Alexandria), and I needed to share this because it's the funniest thing:

Again, of these scholars, only Eratosthenes is known for doing anything that we would consider “science”, the others were devoted to literary and textual analysis, poetry and grammar.  Of course, these scholars were polymaths and most of them would probably have ranged over many topics including areas of mathematics and natural philosophy; Eratosthenes himself was nicknamed “Beta” because he covered so many disciplines he was something of a jack of all trades and master of none, so his colleagues mocked him as “Number 2” in all subjects. That aside, the idea that the Mouseion was a major centre of scientific speculation is at best an exaggeration and largely yet another fantasy.

Emphasis and bolding mine. I just find it hilarious that we have 2200 year old academic cattiness on record, and it's calling someone Beta of all things. Full article here for those interested.

[sleepy-writer]

HOW DO YOU EVEN FIND ANYTHING IF THERE'S THREE-DOZEN TABS!?

I lose shtuff in my six orso at times!

rb if you, like me, are the rare breed of internet user who always closes browser tabs that you dont need. like sorry your computer runs like shit maybe its because you have 50 fucking tabs open, cant relate

[what-the-stark]

Ruby and bronze!

🐝  *  ―  𝑪𝑶𝑳𝑶𝑼𝑹𝑭𝑼𝑳 𝑰𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑽𝑰𝑬𝑾. ( send one or more of these to get to know the person behind the blog a little better. )

[ ruby ]  give one random fun fact about yourself. I'm a firespinner, mostly single wick chain poi. Used to do parties on the side back in the day, and worked at a renaissance festival at a poi booth on the weekends lol. These days I just spin when friends or family want their events livened up a bit.

[ bronze ]  if you were stranded on a deserted island, which three things would you want to have with you? I mean, the obvious choices would my phone and a portable charger as items 1 and 2? xD But as a person with Xfinity for a provider, I would absolutely not have signal. Item 3 would be a bucket of sunblock, my exceedingly white ass burns walking to the car if I stop to chat with anyone (I wish I was kidding lol).

[savagecuhnt]

It’s not M U N D A Y but have my face anyways💜🖤

[chaoticxbeast]

Highway to the friendzone. Leo has a broken heart but it´s movie night.

Content: Heartache and some comfort

Leo made his way home, after his talk with April. It was so odd to him how this morning he had woken up with her in his mind, feeling so bright and hopeful, and happy to begin his day. But now, the thought of April made him feel like a complete loser.

The sting of rejection was perhaps the most painful part right now. But another of his worries was also how he was going to keep his promise and continue hanging out with her together with the guys. Would that even be possible without things getting weird?

He was nearly back home, and he felt his phone buzzing in the pocket on his belt. He stopped to look, and as he had assumed, it was April, asking if he was okay.

Leo didn’t feel like answering, but there was something in his core that drove him to. His sense of obligation to others was sometimes so annoying. "Hi. :) Yes, I´m fine! Going home! Movie-night with the guys. Wish you could come!"

He paused, about to hit send, but erased half the sentence, and hit send, and the pain of not including her, as well as not wanting to see her, felt like it was tearing his heart apart.

Back home, the guys were already watching a movie. Leo walked past them quietly his shoulders slumped.

Mikey lit up at the sight of Leo, but when Leo looked over, Mikey’s smile faltered, replaced by a worried frown. "Leo..?" He said softly.

Donnie looked up next, spotting the concern in Mikey, and also picking up on the weight in Leos demeanor. "It’s..movie night. Remember?"

"Leo’s hanging out with April instead of us." Raph said, missing the mood completely.

"No...I..wanna watch a movie with you guys." Leo said, and made his way over to sit with them.

Mikey kept his eyes fixed on Leo’s face, and suddenly got an awful feeling something was wrong. "Why do you look like someone..died."

Now everyone was looking at Leo, seated in the middle of the group

"What? No I’m just.." Leo sighed. "What are you watching?"

"Some boring romantic movie Don picked." Raph said.

"It’s not boring." Don retorted. It’s better than your pick!"

"Battle royale is a classic."

"All that senseless violence is desensitizing your brain, Raph. It’s triggering mirror neurons, you know what that does?" Donnie said.

"Yeah, I don’t care."

Leo wanted to say something. Something fair, something to solve the conflict. But he didn’t. His phone buzzed and he didn’t do anything about that either, and Mikey thought that was pretty odd.

"Can we please just finish the movie? There’s like... ten minutes left," Don said, his tone pleading.

Raph waved him off dismissively, clearly uninterested.

"Good so," Don continued, trying to explain it to Leo in a simple way. "it’s about this girl who has memory loss. She forgets him every day, which is kinda funny! And this guy, who’s in love with her, decides to just be her friend so he can see her every day."

"He does that... every day?" Leo asked, his voice quiet, a note of disbelief in it. The striking similarity between the movie’s plot and his own heart-wrenching evening hit him like a wave.

"Yeah uh he.. hangs out with her, because he’s in love with her. But she doesn’t love him back, blah blah blah." Raph continued.

"Oh." Leo felt his eyes well up, but tried to keep cool. "That must feel..so..awful." He said, and bit his lip, bowing his head. And then, tears began flowing freely down his face, and a loud embarrassing heart-wrenching sob tore through his throat.

"Well, now you know the ending and...." Raph lost his train of thought at the strange sound and just stared in disbelief at Leo and his grimace that contorted his face to the point where he almost couldn’t recognize him.

"What’s wrong bro?" Mikey said, and put an arm around Leo. "The story’s not that sad.."

"It’s April." Leo said, and pulled his knees up, hugging himself. "She doesn’t..like me back." His voice broke, fading into a weak trembling whisper.

"OH noooo broooo.." Mikey said softly, and patted Leo’s trembling back, grimacing at Raph and Donnie, as if not knowing what to do. Raphael and Don looked just as clueless, but they surrounded their brokenhearted brother, looking equally concerned.

"But you are so cool...and everything.." Mikey began, looking to his brothers for help.

Don agreed. "Yea...the coolest.."

Raph hesitated for a beat. "Yeah um..maybe you used to be kind of a dork. But you´re getting a lot cooler." he said casually.

Donnie gave him a look like he’d lost his mind, and Mikey’s jaw dropped in exaggerated shock.

"But you are cool now!" Raph added quickly, a bit too loudly. "And... getting cooler every day." He nodded, satisfied with his save.

"Thanks.." Leo peeked up at them, before he buried his face in his knees again.

They all paused for a moment, and Leo gave a loud frustrated sigh. "What was I thinking!!...I feel so DUMB !"

The three others all disagreed the same time, shaking their heads. "Nooo..You’re smart. "So smart.." "Yeah just look at your grades man..You get all A’s.." "Yeah. Sooo smart."

There was another pause, before Mikey said, carefully. "So..uh Did you tell her you liked her?"

"Kinda..I guess." Leo said, voice muffled, face buried against his knees.

At that point, all of them wondered if April was going to hang out with them again. She was such a great friend, she was their first human friend, and they all loved her, and they’d become like family by now. It felt like they had known each other for years already. It was kind of weird, to get so close with a human, this fast, but they really had a great connection. None of them wanted their friendship to go up into smoke.

"So..Are you still friends?" Mikey asked, carefully, as if he was asking for everyone.

Leo finally straightened up in his seat, dragging his sleeve across his face to wipe away the remnants of tears and snot.

"Gross..the hoodie.." Donnie mumbled.

Leo managed a brave smile. "Yeah. Actually, she really wants to hang out with us. She said she likes you guys a lot."

His brothers exchanged a glance, their hearts aching at the sight of Leo’s smile—a smile that held so much resilience despite everything. In that moment, all they could think about was how strong he seemed.

"She likes you too, Leo. " Donnie said softly. "She’s like..part of the family."

"She doesn’t deserve you, man," Raph added.

"Yeah you’re awesome Leo." They all agreed in unison, again.

Leo smiled faintly. "I don’t feel awesome, but... thanks." He glanced around at his brothers, their unwavering kindness and support already making him feel so much better. "Actually, I think she’s worried we’re not gonna hang out anymore. Do you guys still feel like it’s okay to hang out with her? I mean, I do."

Raph shrugged casually. "Well, as long as you feel okay about it."

Don and Mikey nodded in agreement.

"I do," Leo said, the confidence in his voice growing. "She sent me a text, and I haven’t answered yet, so… let’s send her a selfie."

It didn’t take much convincing. They crowded together, Leo settling in the middle, his puffy, red eyes softened by a small, genuine smile. Mikey threw an arm around Leo and posed dramatically as if bawling his eyes out, while Don struck a goofy face. Raph grinned wide, flashing a peace sign and sneaking bunny ears behind Don’s head.

Leo hit send, and felt relieved when April hearted the picture almost instantly. "She says hi." Before he could relish the moment, however, the guys took it as an excuse to dogpile him.

"Nooo!" Leo yelped, coughing as he was buried under a tangle of arms and legs. "Get off me!"

Their laughter echoed through the lair. and then, they all knew then that no matter the sadness they were to face out there, as brothers they would always be there for each other.