Ok ok ok... I am move into the new house. The mentally ill chipmunks that run my brain are satisfied with the level of unpacked. I can stop working until midnight on setting up my new house.
NOW I CAN WRITE. I have smut writer blue balls. I needed to write or I will explode.
yesterday i moved all of my belongings from my spring housing to my summer housing by myself and that shit took SEVEN HOURS…. passed out at 4am and just woke up and now i have to put everything away (-‘:
That moment when you try to learn tarot for like the third time but also its peak training weak in your high school sports season.
I recently decided to be a little more dedicated to learning tarot and to saying my prayers and doing devotions to Persephone and Apollo. Unfortunately, I choose like the worst time to do it cause now I’m absolutely more exhausted then usual post swim practice and don’t actually have the energy to get out of bed and say prayers/do a reading. This is also probably cause muscle soreness accompanied by worsening joint pain cause its been raining for the past like 24 hours. Yayyyyyyy
hii. your uncaring or cold f/o does in fact care quite a lot. especially in moments of weakness.
yes they care whenever you feel tired, burnt out and maybe they won't say anything. maybe it comes off like they don't care, but that would be ignoring how they find themselves taking up whatever work there might've been to do so you can rest a while longer without complaint. any 'oh you don't have to-'s get brushed off with a little 'go lay back down' or something similar. the shortness isn't because they're irritated, no, it's just because it's a little silly to them- yes, obviously they don't have to, but they're going to because they love you. maybe that's a little too sappy for them to voice, maybe they do reveal that, either way they'll find their way back to you whenever everything's set away and done. whether they're laying down with you or just sitting nearby and working on their own thing, they keep themself within arm's reach should you need anything.
yes they care whenever you're feeling sick or riding out any nasty symptoms. they'll go make any trips out for things you want or need without question, maybe making a quick promise that they'll be right back. maybe it's a little silly to think you're going to keel over in the handful of minutes they're at the store for, but they just don't want you to feel like you're suffering alone. they might not be feeling out whatever it is you are, but they still want to keep you company through it. maybe they hover just a little, if only just to monitor your symptoms, but rest assured they really don't mind doing whatever it is that makes you feel better. if you want a specific food or drink they'll be running through the rain if they have to to get it to you. if you wanna shower or take a bath but don't have the energy to set it all up or to really take care of yourself they're meticulous with it, setting out whatever they can remember you liking and what might help you feel better and keeping any touches gentle and delicate. if you just wanna lay down and have them nearby, they're happy to just stick around, so long as you can spare them the glances they're sneaking at you every now and then while you rest, relishing in the comfort and safety of the moment.
found out the reason why i was burning up earlier wasn't entirely because of the heat because even at night i was hot but i actaully am FEVERISH with a stupid FLU and iMALS LAHFLKSH l KAHFLKHKS LLHHHFL ARTFIGHT STARTS IN SEVERAL HOURS.