#my bones feel like theyre trying to fuse together

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oh baby stretching is not enough anymore i need to be put on the rack

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As someone with DID, i respect you so much for your talk about Saeran and his system. It seems like so many people just gloss over it and/or act like Saeran, Ray, Unknown(though its debatable, i agree with you that he's seperate from Suit), and GE Saeran are all the same people. They use the name Saeran interchangeably for all of them, erasing the fact that theyre all seperate. And i think it has partially something to do with Cheritz's not so great rep of DID but... Idk, its just sad and disappointing, and stressful to see the DID/OSDD erasure.

TW: Dissociation, Abuse-Mention

I try my best to do what I can to salvage what Chertiz did and flesh it out further because the concept is there, it just needed better touches. I’m aware that it is not perfect but it’s there and more people should be willing to talk about it as it’s hard to find representation in media for DID/OSDD that is written properly and in a way that isn’t patronizing or harmful. 

Don’t get me started on the bullshit that horror movies do to people with DID. People with DID are victims of extreme abuse and are more likely to be victims than perpetrators of violence in the way that film tries to make it out to be. Just as the rate goes for anyone with mental illness, we’re more likely to be harmed than to be doing harm. 

I try my damnedest to ensure that I’m writing them properly and that I’m being respectful. So, like, don’t hesitate to tell me that I need to work on something or fix my angle if I’m doing something wrong. My partner has DID, as we recently discovered this past year, and because of my interest in learning more about Saeran’s system, I already had a bit of insight and knowledge from my research to better understand what was happening when we learned what was going on. I’ve spent much more time trying to learn everything I can and be a good ally as well as someone who can write about this topic with care. 

I’m a singlet, but yeah, I’m only human so if there’s any system here that feels like I could use advice or tips to better write with them all, I’d be happy to hear what you all have to say! Ray is not Suit Saeran. Suit Saeran isn’t GE Saeran. Unknown and SE are the same person, in my opinion, just pre-and-post therapy in the timeline. 

It really is debatable if Suit Saeran and Unknown are one and the same, but they just don’t feel the same to me, personally. Two years is a long time to be trapped in Mint Eye. I always assumed that when Ray eventually went dormant from exhaustion, Suit Saeran was pushed to the bone until somewhere along the line in that anger, there was a fracture or a split which led to Unknown coming to the surface. There’s a hard line to tow with that, though, so I’m always open to any other opinion on the matter. 

Fusion does happen out of the blue sometimes, and both Ray and Suit Saeran hit a wall during that last night when they were caught by Rika. There was just this mutual agreement in their feelings that they needed to be strong enough to leave that place and protect their MC, and in that, they just sort of... connected in a way that they didn’t plan or expect in that way, and there was definitely an attempt on Cheritz part to show that. Because there was a fumble of speech on GE Saeran’s part, where he isn’t sure if he’s Ray or Suit Saeran... a lot of “we” and not “me”. 

GE Saeran isn’t Ray nor is he Suit Saeran, nor is he both of mushed together where one voice is stronger than the other. He’s his own person that has both of the experiences of Ray and Suit Saeran. He doesn’t really settle on a name for himself, he just says it’s okay to call him Saeran or Ray. When I’m writing with GE Saeran, I tend to let my MC follow that, sometimes she’ll call him Saeran, or Ray, just whatever feels right at that moment, and GE Saeran happily answers to either because she’s respecting what he asked. 

Integration and fusion isn’t the goal for many systems, even though the world wants to push that you need to fuse to heal or “become normal”. Wrong, wrong, wrong! For many systems, they might never integrate and that’s okay. It’s a case by case basis and comfort zone for every system and what feels right for all of you. You do what you have to do and don’t let anyone make you feel bad for having a different opinion. 

I don’t like it when people erase their identities. Just because they happen to use a similar name doesn’t mean that they’re the same person. That’s why I always make the point to label which system member that I’m talking about so that they have that clarity. It’s not cool to just think that they’re all the same person, they may share a single body, but they are not a singlet. Respect that notion and it’s the first step to being a better person. 

There’s so much that I could say about it, but I feel like I’m babbling, haha. 

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FF HEADCANON LIST

CRACKS KNUCKLES these are all imported from google docs bc thats where ive been keeping all my thoughts :] im not sure if theres any repeat HCs in here and im sorry if someones got to me before i have but these all came from my own brain !!! these are all very miscellaneous HCs but they generally revolve around vivosaurs and revival. some of them are rather macabre so a solid CW warning here for mentions of dinosaur body horror and death. ALSO SPOILERS FOR FOSSIL FIGHTERS 1 AND 2 BUT MOSTLY 2 LETS GO

modern boneysaurs/zombiesaurs

i think it is entirely possible to replicate a boney/zombiesaur outside of whatever sorcery zongazonga used to resurrect them in the first place. i think its relatively well known undead vivosaurs are a direct result of ZZ and his ancient tournament, and although zombiesaurs are usually claimed to be used in such tournaments most often, i think boneysaurs are just a variant of that but where less used due to weakness and general incompatibility. theyre all undead vivosaurs. thats it. on to the meat of this headcanon, boney/zombiesaur resurrection: i think zombiesaurs could be the result of attempting to revive a deceased vivosaur, while boneysaurs might be caused by man or machine malfunction while reviving a fossil. i think this might be an interchangeable effect: zombiesaurs might emerge from resurrections, and boneysaurs might emerge from revivals, although altogether i think this entire phenomenon is extremely rare. fossil revival goes entirely against the laws of nature and thus, nature must step in at some points to attempt to stop the process, although common fossil park high-tech machinery probably stops most instances like this from happening. boneysaurs emerging from failed revivals are almost always the cause of very poor cleaning, (maybe attempting to revive a heavily damaged, failed fossil head?) or outdated/unkempt fossil revival machinery. boney/zombiesaurs were so common in ZZ’s time because of such poor methods of revival. at some point during a “doomed” fossil revival, the skin and flesh of the vivosaur its supposed to resemble never quite “renders” in. the skin is registered and stitched together, but only holds the bones in place with an unknown black substance, leaving it void black in the same way a texture in a video game may just fail to load. presumably boneysaurs are almost always immediately dead in the revival chamber after the process is over due to lack of functioning organs, skin, etc, without some kind of support or magic. or maybe they are magic- every bad unnatural part of a revival machine fused into one being, and thats what allows them to live on. on the other hand, this could mean any type of boneysaur could emerge from any dinosaur- pterosaurs, therizinosaurs, raptors, maybe- maybe- just a thought, maybe even super revival vivosaurs could have this effect happen too. so, so rarely though. so rarely, its probably never even happened before in recorded vivosaur revival history. 

as for zombiesaurs- this phenomenon could happen when a recently deceased vivosaur is attempted revival. recently deceased, as in, undecayed flesh-still-in-tact. i imagine this happens much more often than boneysaurs- although, i dont think many people are trying to revive dead vivosaurs.

zombiesaurs, fresh from the revival chamber, are almost always damned and in pain, and serve as a reminder to fighters that the laws of nature can only be twisted so far, and they are best be put down. presumably no fossil cleaning facilities will allow a fighter to attempt to revive a dead vivosaur due to the danger and the frightening, disturbing nature of zombiesaurs. fossil damage + neon goo every fighter has encountered the bright purple (green in the OG FF) substance that appears during cleaning when a fossil is too damaged in one area. this material wouldnt be produced from the fossil itself, but rather generated by the fossil cleaning machinery when it detects damage within the bone, kinda like a 3D printer. this is why fossil cleaning is so meticulous, and why it has to be done in such specific conditions with heavy surveillance and a tight time limit. this prevents the vivosaur from having broken bones when it is revived- it is a bright, obvious substance, and it feels much like a warm, firm jelly with a hard, synthetic core that sews bones together. maybe its different in other regions, explaining the color difference amongst games. it is almost completely unnoticeable when the vivosaur is revived, nearly perfectly mimicking bone and flesh to prevent issues later on in the vivosaurs life. as good of a bone mimic as it might be, i think a very heavily damaged bone would still be a weak point during battle or an area of pain or irritation for the vivosaur. that is why it is best to clean your fossils as well as you can. maybe this goo is designed to be replaced with real bone by the vivosaurs body later in life, but i have yet to think about that too much. perhaps its soft enough to be destroyed and replaced by the body’s natural healing functions, but hard enough to act as bone? And perhaps thats why its best to let your vivosaur rank up (rest+heal) before taking them to battle. UNRELATED HEADCANON- GUHNASH COULD HAVE HAD A COOLER DESIGN. I DONT LIKE HIM HE LOOKS LIKE A TADPOLE. i have a vision in mind for a cooler guhnash redesign- i like the snake-ish look, but maybe he could be like. an infinitely long being. nobody knows where he starts or ends. a head at the front of an infinitely massive body that consumes everything, and nobody knows where the eaten planets goes. kinda like a jörmungandr-like being. idk i just think a “planet eater” with living brains should be more eldritch and god-like and mysterious. ANYWAYS vivosaur ecosystems? there is literally no way a vivo ecosystem wouldnt form. NO WAY. so many dinosaurs and seeing how OFTEN they are abandoned- refer to the opening scene of fossil fighters champions- it would not be any surprise feral vivosaurs wouldnt breed and form small ecosystems among themselves and around fossil parks. its not an uncommon sight to see pterosaurs flying overhead or sauropods munching on trees, although id bet theropods and more dangerous vivosaurs would have teams of park rangers to keep them under control. refer once again to FFC opening scene. this would explain the seemingly infinite amount of fossils in the dig sites, how you can find vivosaurs in only specific areas- although thats leading into a rather dark topic and i would rather not talk about it right now LOL i will leave that open to interpretation. jurassic park knock off SOME OTHER LITTLE MISC HCS TOO SHORT TO WRITE ENTIRE TOPICS ABOUT: because ZZ is a mix of boneysaur and zombiesaur and hes also an ancient sorcerer he smells fucking rank. so fucking bad. hes got maggots and shit hes only held together by magic but somehow he kicks ass. but hes fucking stinky so at what cost boneysaurs have no concept of feelings and arent really desirable as vivos and zombiesaurs only know rage and pain, also making them undesirable, for very very good reasons. they are taboo to talk about among fighters but most of the time they are only myths because of how rare they are feral vivosaurs dont have medals, only revived vivos do. that means they are standalone animals and they are also generally undesirable for fighters but they can still be tamed, if one wishes. theres way, WAY more fossil parks and dig sites than shown in the games. fossil battling is as well known and used as much as people love music and video games in the fossil fighters universe. vivosaurs are an essential part of society, although there is often controversy on the ethics of fossil battles and revival. pokemon knock off alright thats all i feel like typing for now thanks for reading this far lads. i love dinossuars. i wanna write some things on dinaurians but maybe later after ive introduced saar here :)