#my favorite war criminal <3 would sometimes avoid letting herself let her emotions out

[cosmicmakos]

imagine holding your f/o when they need comfort from their lover (even if they don't make it known and/or try to deny it). they feel safe in your presence and can finally let their walls down and release all of their pent-up emotions while in your embrace.

[astromechs]

Do you plan on seeing A4 the day it comes out? Also, (you’ve probably answered this before but) top 3 favorite ships/characters and why?

i totally plan on it! i’ve been to every mcu movie opening weekend, if not opening day, since iron man in 2008, and this, like infinity war, is something i definitely think i’ll need to see opening night (my new work schedule permitting, but definitely at least sometime opening day for sure) – 1) because it’s the Event culminating all the years i’ve put into marvel at this point, so i definitely want to be there, and 2) to avoid being spoiled, lol.

also, for top 3s! i’m gonna largely focus on marvel/mcu, because that’s where my brain is these days, for the most part, but i have a lot of thoughts and feelings about each entry, thanks so much for asking 💕

top 3 characters

1. gamora – she’s one of the most interesting characters in the mcu to me, and she’s also very inspirational. all the steps she’s taken to define herself as a person and break free from the shadows of her abusive adoptive “father” are incredibly brave, and she has such a pure and beautiful soul – and also very realistic character flaws. i love her.

2. peter quill – i see a lot of myself in peter, and i relate to him pretty strongly for that reason; we both tend to rely on pop culture and humor to process things and deal with the world, we’re both guilty of hiding behind humor to put some distance between us and authentic interactions/relationships with others, and we’re both, as adults, still trying to figure out how tf to deal with the death of a parent we were very close to, but we’re also both people with huge hearts who have a lot to give, i think. watching him go through his character arc has sort of helped me to process some of my own shit…. and, like, all that personal stuff i just unloaded aside, he’s a really great character, and so refreshing as a male protagonist for a lot of reasons (namely his emotional tendencies, as well as how, through his character arc, he’s confronted toxic masculinity directly).

3. nebula – i find nebula to also be a very interesting, and incredibly underrated, character. her anger is so, so justified, and i’ve loved watching her evolve from someone who’s used that against literally everyone in her life, to someone who’s started to learn to let something else into her heart besides that. her sister bond with gamora is my literal favorite mcu relationship, with all their complications and ups and downs. it’s rare that we get to see an arc like that between two female characters onscreen, and i always want more.

top 3 ships

1. peter/gamora – i’ve waxed poetic at length about them, but i really genuinely adore their dynamic and how it’s been built up over the course of three films now. these are two adults who are products of similar, but also different, childhood traumas, and in adulthood, are still in the process of figuring out how to heal from them. in their own ways, they’re each trying to learn how to be people (gamora, how to be something other than the weapon she was molded to be, and peter, how to actually be a real person who lives in reality and doesn’t refuse to do anything but cling desperately to a fantasy version of the past as a way to cope), how to live, and together, they’re better at it than they were alone.

let them have their happy ending, marvel, or else.

2. scott/hope – the ant-man movies are my favorite mcu franchise after guardians, and some of these characters would definitely be listed as favorites after i got through my guardians list. there are also, yeah, certain tropes that i’m weak to that are common to both starmora and scott/hope, but i love scott/hope specifically for the dynamic that these two unique characters have. 

hope has had a lot of anger, resentment, and distrust in her life, starting from when she was 7 after the “death” of her mother and her relationship with her father started to become strained – which sort of extended to pretty much every other relationship in her life. dealing with parent death is hard at any age, especially that young, so it’s easy to see how hope became such a closed-off person who’s reluctant to trust people. scott, on the other hand, is wide open; he’s not particularly great at pulling off actually being a criminal in large part because he’s a horrible liar, and what you see with him is what you get… he has a big heart, and it’s out on his sleeve 24/7. the two personalities tend to balance each other out, and circumstance aside, you get a functional partnership that helps both of them to grow as people – hope to be more functional in her personal relationships, old and new, and scott to consider the consequences of his decisions.

3. mantis/nebula – this ship has so much potential, and i love that potential. neither character is going to be in a place to be ready for a romantic relationship anytime soon, but they’re both the product of living through years of being used as tools by “father figures” who abused them. there are levels on which they can really understand each other.