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Sometimes I'm unable. Unable to shut up the voice inside my head.

Sometimes my addiction isn't talking. Sometimes she is screaming so loud. Hoping I will let her out.

But I don't.

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A lot of people focus on saying how strong you are. And they mean well. And sometimes it’s the reminder we need.

But sometimes… it’s the exact opposite of what we need to hear.

So, here’s a reminder if you need it. It’s okay to be weak. It’s okay to need to take a break. It’s okay to be tired. It’s okay to crumble. Your worth does not change. It’s okay if you don’t want to be strong. You are worthy whether you’re weak or strong.

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Getting sober meant I have to learn to love myself , everyday.

Instead of constantly wanting to escape myself, everyday.

One Day at the Time

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Recovery makes me able to stop my train of thoughts before they overwhelm me.

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Rock.

The best part about Rock bottom is the Rock part. You discover the solid bit of you. The bit that can't be broken down further. The thing that might be your soul. At our lowest we find the solid ground of our foundation. And we can build ourselves up. Renewed.

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Three things I have control over.. My thoughts, my choices and my recovery.

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You don't ever have to cover up being an addict in recovery. Wear your courage proudly. Clean & sober is badass💪🏼

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So they do tell you that recovery is like an Olympic sport and it's hard as hell.. When the obsession stops and life starts and you work your 12-step program, you're on the road the road to recovery and it's wonderful. But sometimes life sucks and they do forget to mention that addicts, even those who are in recovery, struggle with reality and that is not something that suddenly changes. I know that it's a marathon and not a sprint and it's only been six months. But you know, it's hard.