#my memory is very poor but i'll never forget this experience because everything feels so grand when you're a child haha

[gummi-ships]

Kingdom Hearts

[chidoroki]

182 Days of TPN - Day 182

Epilogue: "Dreams Come True"

I'm gonna be honestly with y'all, no matter how many times I've read through this chapter over the last couple days to try and prepare myself, all my thoughts and comments are still so similar to what I originally wrote two years ago. I doubt anything I say now could top it but I'll apologize in advance if I really do sound like a broken record this time since my feelings regarding this beautiful finale really haven't changed since then. I'll start off with saying that I am a tiny bit bummed that we never got the chance to see the children explore the large city they arrived in, but the second season's ending slideshow sorta filled in that need for me. While the city is definitely a complete contrast to what they were used to living in back in the demon world, I love they all decided to create their own little village around where Emma lives. That'll definitely make her feel more at ease with being somewhere she's familiar with and I'm sure a majority of the kids fancy the wildlife surrounding them too, especially Ayshe and the dogs. Let's not forget how impressive it is that these kids were able to build so many houses on their own as well! And the idea of them taking turns to visit Emma so she doesn't get overwhelmed with so much attention at one given time makes me so happy. Speaking of our girl, she looks so pretty! She definitely looks like the Emma we've come to know and love with that big smile on her face (even if seeing her without her iconic 63194 still upsets me a little) while looking fondly at new photos of her large family. Sure, anyone in this world could've taken the photos, but of course I headcanon that it was Ray who purchased a new camera to do so.

Emma's face here is damn hysterical and Phil looks so proud of himself for surprising her. Seeing these young kids casually riding on top of a plane that large is truly quite a remarkable sight, but she had to at least hear that thing flying closer, yea? No way something that huge can sneak up on someone.

It is so darn cute how the younger kids act like buying a plane that size and flying it everywhere they go is totally normal. Their chill attitude has poor Emma completely speechless. I'm so proud of her for learning everyone's names though, not only by recognizing their faces but their voices too as she knew it was Phil calling to her from outside. Seeing Violet become a pilot is surprising but the job fits Oliver very well since he was typically seen holding onto a plane toy during numerous Goldy Pond flashbacks. Looks like he achieved his dream and I'm happy for him!

I'm even more excited to see Chris feeling 100% better and finally reuniting with Emma! It's sweet how he still loves her so much regardless her lost memories. I'm only noticing now but it appears Jemima even brought flowers for Emma? Ahh, these kids are too precious for words!

It's crazy how they're able to visit so many different places and experience countless new things all in the span of one single day, but I suppose traveling is pretty simple with a plane like that, not to mention how this world doesn't have any national borders to worry about. Seeing Yvette get inspiration and sketch everything she sees is adorable and of course you have Ray being the strict older sibling who makes sure everyone else behaves while out in public. I still wish more of the Goldy Pond kids were invited to join the trip, but I understand how meaningful it is to see all the GF escapees finally live out their dreams which they shared with us at the very beginning of the story.

One of the most ridiculous and funniest things this extra chapter reveals to us and Emma is how Norman became the leading man behind some huge multipurpose company. I know his motive was to act independently from the Ratri clan (which is fair because I wouldn't wanna rely on those bastards either) but at least have the company be a fresh idea in his mind or a little new, not hit us with his total success right outta the gate! I can accept this life for him further into the future for sure, but not at 15/16 years old! You're still a child sir! Dude must have really loved hearing others refer to him as "boss." Vincent would obviously be okay with that and I imagine Ray making fun of Norman each time, or jokingly calling him "emperor" like he did in one of volume 15's extra pages. Speaking of my boy, he looks way too chill and perhaps unbothered about this whole idea, or maybe he's just so used to his friends having crazy idea that he's become immune and knows deep down there's no way he can change their minds once they get this passionate about something. Even though this chapter is primarily focused on the GF children, it's nice to learn more about what Nigel and Sony are up to nowadays with their new roles.

Hearing how Norman was capable of skipping grades and essentially graduating is the most believable thing about this page. I'm sure the schools in the human world were nothing compared to the difficult tests he passed with ease at GF and Lambda. I'm relieved he and the rest of the Lambda crew are healthy as well, but I can't imagine him recovering while simultaneously constructing a large company from the ground up. Perhaps he focused on getting better first and then started on his career path, but then I'd have a harder time believing this boy managed to do so in less than two years, depending how long it took for him to fully recover beforehand. Norman is definitely a force to be reckoned with.

Moving onto everyone's wishes now and ooohhh my, the girls look simply gorgeous!! I love each of their outfits so very much! I especially like how often Anna has her hair up in that ponytail too. It suits her and she's beautiful! And it's adorable how she and Gilda pull Emma along with them so they can all take advantage of the 3-for-1 deal. Emma looks great in her new outfit too but I very much prefer her previous one, only because it's reminiscent of her GP out a little bit. So happy our little musician was able to witness an opera too. I've been to several Broadway plays and musicals before but seeing an opera is still on my checklist for sure.

I gotta give kudos to all the children because while it's certainly insane how they're hitting everyone's dreams all in one day, not once do they ever look exhausted. They're having the time of their lives and are beaming with excitement no matter if they're fulfilling their wish or someone else's. Some of their wishes are really simple too if ya think about it, like a handful are things us readers could try out for ourselves, but after all the drama they fought through in the demon world, they absolutely deserve to enjoy everything this world has to offer them. I'm once again loving Ray being that caring older brother who makes sure his younger siblings don't exert themselves. Not to mention how damn hilarious it is to see him not even flinch while touring the haunted house. After the traumatizing childhood he lived through and the wacko world of the Seven Walls, nothing should frighten my boy, so I'd like to imagine he only entered the haunted house to look out for the younger child like Rossi and Alicia who are absolutely regretting their life choices. What matters is that Yvette is loving every moment of her wish and possibly laughing at her sibling's expense.

Despite mentioning how we could visit such places ourselves, I have yet to actually go watch an official soccer game, visit a hot spring or eat lunch in such gardens. I mean, I visited such botanical gardens down in the city but not once have I ever had a fancy picnic there! These young kiddos are out here making me jealous for real. I still find it so amusing that Rossi, a child who had fled from actual demons before, is amazed by dinosaurs. I guess it would be interesting to see such creatures whether they're alive or not. As of this previous weekend I can say I finally rode one of those old style trains as well, but Phil is way more excited about the adventure than I could ever be. So glad this moment of his was sorta animated, though he wasn't bouncing in his seat as wildly as he is here.

Everyone has these grand experiences in mind for their wish and Norman is over here just vibing with his two favorite people. It's real definitely simple compared to everything else but with how often the trio was forcefully separated throughout the story I know how much he doesn't wanna feel that pain ever again.

While I love how excited Emma was upon seeing the giraffes, I'm certain her reaction was due to seeing these animals up close for the first time. Of course I'd be ecstatic if our girl would slowly gain back some of her memories over time, they choose to show us the anxieties she probably feels every day about whether or not she's really Emma deep down and if she should act like the girl her family loves so much or just be her new self.

Phil being that one good boy who chooses to focus on Emma and her sudden mood switch while she's battling herself in her head.

I wanna say "oh sweetheart, you're anything but alone," but I know her amnesia makes her feel as if she's isolated from her family by not being able to remember every detail about them, the experiences they shared, or her true feelings. She can imagine this giraffe wish would've made her old self happy, since everyone else's wishes brought such big smiles onto their faces, but that's because they all wished for these kinds of moment their entire lives. New Emma is hearing about this dream for the first time and has no clue on how to react to a wish that isn't truly her own. She's probably even feels a little scared that she won't come across as genuine about the idea and she doesn't wanna disappoint her family by not living up to their expectations of what the original Emma would've done in her situation now. It really breaks my little heart to see her doubt herself so much when she literally has the greatest family in the world who would accept her regardless of what she acts like or feels.

One might think that Emma yelled so loudly to try to convince herself and her family that she's really excited about this wish, but to her surprise, she's rewarded with beautiful laughs. Once they arrived, Emma asked if her dream was to see a giraffe but no one bothered to correct her about how original Emma always wanted to ride one instead. To see this Emma reach deep down into her heart and shout with such confidence about what she really wanted to do is perfect in every way, so little does she know that her reaction was exactly what her family expected of her and they couldn't be more delighted to hear such words come from her again.

I'm in love with her adorable, surprised face and how she's in complete awe to learn that perhaps she and the original Emma are more alike that she's realized.

Aahhh it thrills me to no end that this little joke from all the way back from the first chapter is exactly how this series ends. We're coming fill circle baby!

Favorite panel/moment:

Oh no way, Ray's wish as my favorite? Wow, who could've possibly guessed that? Not to show any dislike towards the Mona Lisa or anything, but I'm very glad the story chooses to show us the kids visiting the Sagrada Familia way better. The architecture of this damn thing is impressive and it's insane how it looks this breathtaking despite it not being completely finished yet.

More importantly, this smile of Ray's is the most precious and beautiful thing I've ever set my eyes on! He's probably filled with so much emotion just by standing in a place he never imagined himself to be. He believe he was gonna die a long time ago but now that all his trauma is behind him and he fought his way to freedom, he's so grateful he's alive to actually see this gorgeous structure actually in front of him and realize that all the hardships he fought through alongside his family was truly worth all the effort. This face of his has absolutely lived rent free in my head these past couple years.

BEST GIRL!! I am so incredibly happy and proud of you that you achieved your dreams!! Truly inspirational and she undoubtedly keeps her top spot as my favorite shonen protagonist.

And with all that, I can finally say: End of series.

Seriously though, thank y'all so much for reading through all this, whether you were here from the very start back in April or ya caught interest somewhere down the line, I appreciate every single one of you! I dunno exactly when these posts went from a couple short comments to full length chapter reviews, so I apologize for all my rambling since I honestly didn't intend to write out such long posts. I literally couldn't help it. The love I have for this series is as strong as ever and I'm very surprised that even after these last couple years I still somehow manage to learn or notice new stuff about this world and these characters. One of the many benefits to reading through this story at a slower pace I suppose, and wouldn't you know it? Today is the perfect day to experience it all over again from the beginning.

(Yes, having the project end today was 100% planned from the start.)

[beesflowers]

𝐵𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓁𝓁𝑒 𝒮𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝒱𝑜𝒾𝒸𝑒-𝐿𝒾𝓃𝑒𝓈

Characters: Brielle

Type: OC description

Hello

My name is Brielle... umm I hope I'll be of use to you. ... If that's all... I'll take my leave…

Chat: Book

I'll go back to my book for the time being...

Chat: Afternoon Tea

Lisa would probably say it's time for afternoon tea...

Chat: Other Place

Eh... *whispering* I could've been somewhere else...

When It Rains

Once I tried using my vision in the rain... eek! Forgive me, I don't know why I mentioned it...

When Thunder Strikes

Eek! ehem... i-is there a chance we can go somewhere else?

When It's Snowy

Weather like this makes me feel young again~

Good Morning

Good morning. Have a nice day...!

Good Afternoon

Good afternoon, maybe you'd like to have afternoon tea with me and Lisa?

Good Evening

You should get some sleep. You deserve it.

Good Night

Goodnight. Have a nice rest.

About Brielle: Horns

I never mind that people asked if they can touch my horns, in fact, it made a lot of kids happy! And Baaaard... yes bard, he also had fun. It's a long story...

About Brielle: Adepti

It's a little hard for me so... please don't laugh but... well, I'm adepti... oh- you know about it?!

About Brielle: Family

I never had good relationship with my family... maybe it's part of the reason why I want to help you find your siblling so much?

About Us: Comrades

Thank you for inviting me to your team... not many people had ever done that...

About Us: Trust

I trust you so much that I think I told you everything... and I hope you also feel like you can tell me everything.

About Vision: Memories

My vision remind me about my childhoos... I can't say those were bad times but... they weren't the best either...

About Vision: Cold

Every time I use my vision I can feel coldness go through my body, as if thousands of snowflakes were going through my body. Isn't that interesting?

About Amber

She's quite... lively person... I don't mean it in a bad way! It's just... I'm still not sure if I hurt her feelings or not...

About Kaeya

I don't want to talk badly behind peoples backs but... I prefer to avoid him...

About Lisa

Miss Lisa is very smart! And she's helping me to overcome my shyness. Hehe~ I start to feel sad when I remember how much time we have left together...

About Barbara

When she first met me, she thought something's wrong with me because of my horns on my eyes... I don't think badly of her because of that, quite the opposite, it was nice of her to be worried about me~

About Fischl

I don't know what to think about her... once I came to give her a quest from someone and she told me her whole backstory. Oh! Don't get me wrong! I think it was quite... interesting.

About Noelle

Noelle helps others all the time but she forgets about herself... ehh... poor girl needs to start taking care of herself or she'll overdo it one day...

About Sucrose

She's the reason why I was part of "Experiment Br.". But I need to admit that it was interesting experience, Sucrose was so delicate!

About Jean

At first I thought that Miss Jean and Miss Lisa had something special between each other. But... later it turned out that... ehh... w-well, it's a story between us three.

About Mona

Her ilussions are great! Let's just say we have few shared topics...

About Venti

You mean Barb- ehem...Venti. Heh well... we don't have any special relationships going on! Hehehe...

About Klee

Once I took care of her and... ehh... for the first time I was so tired after one day...

About Diona

It's hard to admit but... she reminds me a little of me when I was younger... ehem can you check how she's doing from time to time for me?

About Zhongli

I met him thanks to Baaa-rd... ehem, I thought it was going to be some serious meeting but it was just friendly hangout... but at least he told me many interesting histories! I'm curious if they were all he knew...

About Albedo

Sucrose was delicate with so called "Experiment Br." but he wasn't holding back at all! Ah... I'm sorry... I think I got too carried away...

About Ganyu

If you're looking for someone you can spend good time with, it would be Ganyu but... I recommend you first making sure she's not busy...

About Eula

Her dancing skills are amazing! hah... I still don't know how I managed to get into her small dancing lesson...

About Raiden Shogun

I feel like i met her but... I can't seem to recall any details...

About Yae Miko

She's really nice but she also decorates by horns all the time... it's not that bad! But... every time it becomes harder to take all of these off... But at least I could feel how fluffy her ears and tail are! Hehe~

About Collei

The last time I met her, she had... interesting aura... I hope she's doing better now...

More About Brielle: I

I know it's change of topic but... I just realized that I never told you about sheeps I create with my vision... well one is named "Snowflake", I know it's a bit childish to name them but I thought of that when I was young... it's just... if you ever will have trouble with climbing, Snowfalek is great companion.

More About Brielle: II

Do you ever have nightmares? I often dream that I'm trapped in dark hole I can't get out from... um... please don't laugh... I know it's- he? oh so you also have nightmares, I think we can agree they're not nice...

More About Brielle: III

When I come to library I always promise myself to be there for no longer than 3 hours but... it usually ends with Miss Lisa reminding me it's time to close library. Only then I realize I spent there my whole day!

More About Brielle: IV

Is something bothering you? Mhm... I thought so. Maybe I can't see well but I can feel someones aura, that's why I knew we'll meet today and I prepared few things.

More About Brielle: V

People often ask me how I see... and truth is that... I don't. I'm blind. But instead I have better feeling of senses! With walking helps me touch, taste, smell... all my senses to be honest! But to be honest... I wandered around Teyvat so many times I doubt I can get lost, especially Mondstadt.

Brielle's Hobby

In my free time I like to climb on Mondstadts mountains. But I need to admit that Liyues mountains are much better! I-I'm not complaining on Monstadt! Absolutely not! It's just... every region has it's own traits...

Brielle's Troubles

Every morning I need to ask people for help with brushing my hair, eh... it's really hard to style it because of them... eh? How I deal with them during taking a bath? Ehe... eheheheh... let's leave this talk for another day...

Favorite Food

Ah... it's a tough choice... I admit that Lisa's Spaghetti is delicious! If you want I can even ask her to make portion for us both! But... Barbatos Ratatouille is also delicious... Ah! Please don't make me choose!

Least Favorite Food

I don't want to complain but if I had tochoose one food in entire Teyvat that I don't like, it would be jelly... it's that... I don't like it's consistence...

Receiving a Gift: I

That's way more than I could dream of! Thank you so much!

Receiving a Gift: II

Oh my! H-How can I repay you?

Receiving a Gift: III

You didn't had to! But... I love this, thank you.

Feelings About Ascension: Intro

I feel like sheeps around my heart started to dance a bit more lively...

Feelings About Ascension: Building Up

Mhm... I have a feeling... that this will be something more... I guess I'll have to be patient...

Feelings About Ascension: Climax

Climbing isn't that easy, but when you have someone by your side, it makes you think like it!

Feelings About Ascension: Conclusion

The moment we met, I felt I was becoming stronger every day... I don't even know what was the reason for that but... thank you. For everything.

[marsbutterfly]

Unhealed Wounds

Summary: Hallucinations are sensory experiences that appear real but are created by your mind. They can affect all five of your senses. For example, you might hear a voice that no one else in the room can hear or see an image that isn't real.

TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF PTSD!

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"Hanji, that's not going to work. You've already tried mixing those two chemicals together." You say, hoping the mad scientist will listen to your advice this time.

"Yes, it will. Can you trust me for once?" she rolls her eyes as you put your hands up, a sign of defeat. You take a few steps back, allowing Moblit to stand behind her.

"Section Commander, who... are you talking to?"

She turns around to face him, a confused expression taking over her features, "What do you mean?" She proceeds to change her focus to you. Your face matching hers, you both turn back to stare at the worried, brown-haired man.

"Hanji, there's no one there."

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"Commander Erwin, it's happening again." You hear Moblit's voice coming from the office, the concern in his words is undeniable. You take a few steps forward and sit next to Hanji she doesn't take her eyes off her book, but she slides you her right hand while gently blushing, you flash her a smile and lace your fingers together.

"Do you have any idea why we are here?" You face the massive brown doors, a hint of uneasiness hiding in your voice. She shrugs her shoulders before letting out a clearly annoyed sight.

"Beats me, Moblit is always dragging me here, once he asked for a meeting with the Commander because Bean almost ate my leg and he thought it was a little too dangerous, but I know my poor Beannie was just trying to play."

You roll your eyes at her while letting out a quiet laugh, "Doesn't surprise me."

Staring at the clock, you can no longer hear the voices coming inside the room, Are they making a point to be quiet? you think to yourself but before you could share your thoughts with Hanji, Erwin's figure walks out of the room, followed by a very concerned Moblit.

"Hanji, come on in." His gentle but firm voice filling the air around you as he gestures towards the room. She closes her book before handing it to her assistant, as she walks past the two men you can see her eyes rolling.

"You too, Y/N."

"Oh shit." .

You can't read quite read his expression. An uneasiness settling in your stomach as you stand before the Commander, waiting for him to find the rights words.

"Do you know why you're here?" His voice echoes through the silent room, he doesn't sound mad, in reality, the tone of his voice gives away a fair amount of concern. Hanji looks down at her hands the entire time.

"Moblit seems to be concerned about something, but all I was trying to do is figure out how to..." The Commander raises his hand as a signal for her to stop talking. Hanji quickly closes her mouth and crosses her arms, her annoyance visible to anyone who looks at her. You take a deep breath.

"Sir, with all due respect, Hanji hasn't done anything dangerous." Your words seem to get lost in the air, almost as if he couldn't hear you. As you're about to resume your point, his voice echoes through the room one more time, cutting you off.

"You don't remember, do you?" You can make out the pity in his voice. You share a confused look with your girlfriend, neither of you has any idea what he's talking about. The sadness in his expression is as clear as his blue eyes.

"What are you... talking about, Sir?" He ignores you. Not out of malice, but he simply can not hear you. A red light flashes in your brain, clouding your vision slightly. You shake the sight off and look at Hanji, waiting for her reaction.

"Erwin, did you not hear Y/N?" She asks while making her way towards you, your cold fingers touching her warm skin. The man standing in front of you takes a deep breath, it's almost unnoticeable but one small, gentle tear runs down his face.

"Please, come with me."

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As you follow the Commander, a million thoughts go through your head, your main questions are where are you going and why is he acting like he can't hear you? You turn over to face Hanji, who has an angry expression taking over her features, clearly angry Erwin didn't address your question earlier that evening.

You can hear your footsteps against the grass as you follow him up a hill. Underneath a big tree, you see a small stone. As you take a closer look at it, you feel a pit opening in your stomach before nausea hits you. You look over at Hanji but her focus lays on the words ahead of you:

"Captain Y/N. Birth: 820.

Death: 850."

It was a simple gravestone. The dark grey contrasts with the bright green grass. The words now floating in front of you as your body suddenly becomes heavier than iron. You fall flat on the ground, tears burning in your eyes.

"But.. Y/N is right here, how can that be?" Hanji's voice is barely audible, her body shaking as she tries to fight back tears of her own. As you look at her, the memories you tried so hard to bury hit you all at once.

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The rain makes it hard for you to see anything, you can't use flares and the mud beneath your feet comes dangerously close to being quicksand. In the distance, you can see three titans. Two of them sprint in your direction as the last one walks relatively slowly.

"SQUADS 2 AND 3, TAKE DOWN BOTH 5 METER TITANS. ME AND SECTION COMMANDER HANJI WILL HANDLE THE 10 METER ONE!"

You pray they were able to hear you over the deafening sound of the thunder. As their horses shift to the right, you share a look with the brunette beside you, the excitement in her eyes is undeniable as you approach the massive creature.

Once you're closer to the trees, you switch to your 3D Gear, the wind hits your body, undoing the suttle styling you did to your hair before leaving the walls. The titan closes the distance between you as you prepare to strike it. Hanji looks at you before nodding, "It's time!"

In a split of a second, your hook is caught on its arm and as you draw out your blades, ready to carve out its eyes, the titan pulls you down. You can feel the raindrops hit your face while your body falls. You can almost hear Hanji screaming your name through the thunder. A gentle but sad smile taking over your features as the titan grabs you before your body hits the ground.

You look at Hanji and realize she's running towards you without her gear. As you get closer and closer to the titan's mouth, your body goes numb. The foul smell from its mouth creating enormous nausea in your stomach. Your eyes wander down to the shine of her glasses as she's now being carried away by the Commander himself.

"It's ok, Hanji. I'll be ok."

Before you could even finish your track of thought, the excruciating pain of the titan's teeth ripping your flesh hits you. You're conscious long enough to let out one final scream as you feel the lower half of your body being torn apart.

After a few seconds of such horrible pain, everything goes dark.

As you open your eyes, you find yourself sitting underneath an enormous tree. Not remembering where you are, what happened to you, or why you are here, you stand up and start walking forward, looking for a familiar face.

You walk for what it feels like hours but eventually make it back to the Scouts. A bright smile on your face as you run past the gates. All of your friends are crying but before you could ask what's wrong, you see Hanji's hair through a small window.

You find her crying on the floor, ripped papers all over her, and her glasses behind the door. You sit by her side before wrapping your left arm around her waist. She looks up at you and allows herself to melt away in your arms.

"What happened, my love?" The gentle tone of your voice makes her forget what even happened in the first place. Her tears dry on their own as you start to play with her hair. Neither of you has talked about it ever since.

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"So this is what happened. Why you were crying so hard that day." Your hands shift onto fists before punching the tree by your side. The unbearable sadness that takes over your body is indescribable.

"Hanji, hallucinations are fairly common symptoms of PTSD." Erwin says, touching her shoulder gently, "Let us help you get better."

"I don't want to let Y/N go." She says before covering her face with her hands, hiccups coming out of her body like you've never seen before. Your heart sinks as you watch her like that, but you realize one thing: for her to heal, you need to go.

And so you do. One final time, you lean towards her, gently moving her hair away from her cheeks as you place a simple kiss on it. Erwin shakes his head lightly for he could've sworn he saw her ponytail move, even without any wind. Reluctantly, you take a few steps forward and sit on the exact same spot you woke up a few months ago.

A single tear escapes your eye, "Take care of yourself, Hanji. You're living for the two of us now."

Your body becomes so heavy you can't support it anymore, so you quietly lay down under the shadows of the leaves, watching as the two figures walk away. Before you allow yourself to go back to sleep, you say it one more time, just for her to hear.

"I love you."

And soon enough, everything turns dark one more time, but this is different. Now you can finally allow yourself to relax and sleep because you know she'll be ok and so will you.

[surveystodestressme]

15.

A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? i've been in three actually lol

02. Do you have a lot of scars? kind of..

03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? no

04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? not like physically

05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? not that i know of

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? yeah, i think i am

07. Are you self conscious of how you look? not at all.

08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? i only put makeup on occasionally and when i do it's only lipstick or eyeliner

09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? nah

10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? their personality and how they treat others.

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? not very long. my parents never stuck to it

12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? i really want to say that i'd do the right thing and have the baby then just give it up for adoption... but at this point in my life, i really can't have a child so i honestly don't know

13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? sometimes i do.

14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? taking my loved ones away from me

15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? i'm not for sure

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? i'll usually say really passive aggressive things or just say that i want to be left alone

17. Name a time when you had to be strong. when i was giving up on hurting myself. i mean, i guess i shouldn't say it like that. when i decided to get help and stop hurting myself. it was hard to get help and it was a hard thing to stop.

18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? my parents have fought before but nothing serious

19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? well, when i went to school, i just ignored them. i was so used to getting picked on that i just figured it was always gonna happen, ya know?

20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. honestly, the most traumatizing death i've ever gone through was my cat, lilly. she was 16 years old. she was a part of my life since i was 3 years old. she was so important to me. she slept with me every single night, under the cover and cuddled up next to me. she was so lovable. i saw her deteriorate over her last year of life. it was so hard because i saw her become really lazy, she lost half of her body weight, she stopped eating, she stopped sleeping with me, she even cried whenever people tried to pet her. it was so hard to get over her death because she was everything to me. she was the best cat ever. i will never forget her

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? i've had several

22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? i mean, i think i'm pretty experienced.

23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? i've been through a lot in the past.

24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? i will be once i finish college

25. How old do you act? i think i act my age

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? nah

27. If you had to choose, family or friends? family probably

28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? yeah, i think so

29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? two. i used to get jealous of my sister all the time because all the people that i had crushes on always had a thing for her and it annoyed me lol

30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? at least once a week if not more

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? i'm 4'11" and i wish i was at least 5 foot lol

32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? lol no

33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? i think i'm pretty mature

34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? nahh i have no reason to be scared. i'm actually excited for the future

35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? absolutely

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not? real

37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist? optimist

38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? i think actions lead the way definitely

39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? i don't think so

40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? i have people who love and care about me who are always here for me

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? i used to, but i've got it under control now

42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? nope

43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? nada

44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? absolutely not

45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? not anymore at all.

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke) darude sandstorm

47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? i make people laugh a lot

48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? sometimes i do, but it's not super common

49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! i can't think of anything right now

50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? lol yes, honestly. in high school they used to move me to sit by other people and then i'd just talk to them too.

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends? to learn

52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? smart.

53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? i finished high school and am currently attending college

54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher? i have no idea, i usually get between A's or B's

55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? science

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? yes i am!

57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? i think so

58. Is love worth it? i believe so

59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months? it used to bother me, but honestly some people just fall really fast and that's okay. i told jack i loved him after only dating for 3 months so i definitely believe someone can honestly just fall in love quickly and that's perfectly normal.

60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? i only tell people i love them if they mean a lot to me

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? yeah

62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? probably just slightly below average

63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? i'm in college now

64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? well, i've already found the perfect person so i'd rather win the millions

65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? 8

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin? nope

67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with? i don't judge people that do it, it doesn't bother me any

68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that? nah, i don't judge people based on how much sex they do or don't have

69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? nahhh

70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both! nice i guess lol

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? it usually takes some time

72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? it takes some time for me because i've been screwed over before.

73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? ^^^^

74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? i don't know, when i trust them fully, i guess??

75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them? i tell my parents anything if they ask, and same goes for friends.

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? i mean, yeah i've had bad experiences with people but those experiences have made me who i am today and i wouldn't be me without experiencing those things

77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? yes and no. i'd rather to have loved and continue to be loved and love in return lol

78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? optimistic

79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? sure

80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please explain what it was: i'm sure i have but i can't think of anything

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? i try to figure it out myself before asking for help

82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? i don’t question it at all.

83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? let’s be real, probably not.

84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? i will probably confront them

85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? the kennedy assassination or the moon landing

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect? manners

87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? be disrespectful, hurt someone on purpose, do something completely wrong or illegal

88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? yeah

89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? they just yell at me or send me to my room

90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? it depends on the person/situation

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? junior yr of college

92. When will you graduate high school/college? a couple years still

93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? i took a year off from school then i went to the junior college by my house

94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? i love it

95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? nah

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? several times

97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? yeah, that's how i got into smoking cigarettes. but i drank all on my own.

98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it? nah

99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? i wanted to. i knew him but we were just friends, i almost had a threesome with him and my best friend when i was really drunk

100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed? independent

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? i used to be like that but no more

103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? i wear what i want

104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? not usually

105. What makes you different from people your age? i don't really know lol

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? my computer

107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? my loved ones are more important, i would sacrifice myself for them in a heartbeat

108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? my baby blanket

109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? my cat!!

110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? they’re about the same.

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? happiness and a sense of accomplishment

112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? my loved ones.

113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? nah

114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? not that i can think of

115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? kind of

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social? independent

122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? crime, rape, abuse

123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? absolutely

124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? nurture over nature.

125. Do you think people are generally good? everyone can be good

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not? yes i am happy with my life

127. Do you go on FacebookCraze.com to get facebook survey’s and quizzes like this one? nope i get them from tumblr

128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? depends on if it's change that's going to benefit my life or not

129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? yes i do

130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? idk.