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time's rlly a funny thing
#🌙.rambles#playing ffxiv rn n being in ishgard just#feels so at home. i wld rmb just afking here n wtvr#oh yeah this specific market board in the pillars i rmb once#coming across the fc lead here n we talked a bit c: n then a bit after that#he. an old.. friend of mine came up n i rmb the /hug n then he tped away wtf 😭😭#i rmb this was all on like. school in the morning n then logging into ffxiv yeah twintani. sometime in october 2021#n then after i still rmb how i checked my friends list n tped to limsa n then w ^^ we did some savage unsynced#just us then apollo n one of the dude's friends joined too. he joked abt some silly stuff. i still remember#nyways it's just. really bittersweet how yk we can't ever return to these memories#n sometimes things that used to feel like home yk stuff we used to be so familiar with. routine. they can just end so quickly#like ppl we used to talk to. or homes we used to have. yeah. so much#not too long ago the thought of 2023 seemed so far away but look—we're now already on the 3rd month#n soon. things that feel so far away wld. yk rlly be closer than it seems#i miss being a child. i miss the friends i used to have but have now lost contact with#just.. the little things. i miss them so much#i wldn't say i'm stuck in the past but it just hurts#when i'll eventually be an adult yk these years of my youth wld feel like a faraway dream#i don't really know how i'll be able to cope with that. all i can do is just.. not rlly think abt it as much. it just hurts#time's so funny huh? look it's nearly 5 pm now.#so much to do n the pressure of time is weighing heavy upon me#the inevitability of end of pain of loneliness is smth i know very well but.. it just. yeah#n there's so much in me that just wants to be let free. all these words n. yeah#fuck it#🌙.vents#i just want to enjoy myself for now but it's so hard w all the pressure i place on myself#to do so much to do this n that n. yeah#i wish. i could at the very least do more for others.#but i don't really know how#how tragic isn't it? nothing in life is ever quite enough. but. we can all just keep on going.. yeah
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