#neomata ramblings

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Name's Reko, this is my blog of pure fictionkind insanity. Yeah, not an RP blog. Drawing above made by main blog.

Last edited: 28/05/2024

📖✏️・⌒ヾ(￣ -￣ )) About ．．．

I'm an agender trans man , demi-aroace, plural [Host, Spikes fableing] , 19 years old , 🇲🇽 , AUDHD and dyslexia. Nonhuman. I use we/i interchangeably.

My icon was edited by @/otherkinotd , the flag is the werewolf therian flag.

My main alth blog is @nyctohyloph0bia . Interact from @woodlandscab1n

ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧ Fictionmere ．．．

🎬 Fictotypes

［RE］Leon ― Slightly canon divergent. Is genderfluid/queer, bisexual, any pronouns. How I look like: x . Full neomata: pending.

［STH］Spikes ― AU, very canon divergent. Named Sonic, called Spikes by everyone. Is a trans man, achillean, aroace , he/him. How I look like: x . Full neomata: pending.

🎭 Fictionflickers

［RE］Vex ― AU Leon , pretty common. Fucked up looking werewolf.

🔗 Linktypes

［TRI98］Vash ― Not very common. Canon compliant.

📖 Heart-tales

White Fang , 1906

Sonic Unleashed , 2008

⏳ Questioning

[D20: NA] Ylfa Snoglenson

(*>O<)📢꙳⟡ BYI ．．．

My headmates Reagan and Spikes might speak or add comments here. We have the same source. I'm coolio with doubles and encourage interaction! However, Exe sοnics please interact with caution! 👍

Adα Wοngkin, fictives and fans don't interact for our safety. She's a huge trigger. Generally anyone with her on a pfp or on your blog name, sorry.

ϵggmαnkin or fictives interact with caution. If you're from boom, you're chill. 👍 Sometimes I put up images on my posts that might look like I'm roleplaying, I am not, lol. I just like adding them bc it makes me happy :3

Don't tag my art or posts about fictionmere with main fandom tags (ex. #residϵnt ϵvil , sοnic the hedgehοg, #sτh , #rϵ), main fanart tags (ex. trigυn fαnart) or main ship tags (ex. #sonαdow). The fandom scares me.

Don't tag my art or posts with self-ship tags. That'd be like calling me your S/O, and that makes me uncomfortable.

Don't act like you know me. You know what happened in canon, but you don't know me.

✍(◕◡◕) Tags ．．．

💌 Fictionmere tags

#🌼🍃 ― spikes' tag #🌻🥞 ― leοn's tag

#🪓🐺 ― Ylfα's tag #💡🐺 ― vex's tag #🔗👼 ― vαsh's tag #💘🩹 ― shade's tag #💘🧸 ― clαire's tag

📜 Post tags

#reko's artwork ― my art. #reko's chatter ― I am SPEAKING!! #neomata ramblings ― me rambling about stuff that happened in source or fictotypes. #exotrauma rant ― rant or vents of awful events from source and/or how I feel about them. #🌲 ― nonhuman tag

📫 Reblog tags

#art museum ― not my art. #abyss speaks ― not my posts. #🌴 ― spikes' source or related. #💾 ― leοn's source or related.

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Wait, actually that made me realize that we didn't meet Topaz on the Sonic X arc part of our story... She was a GUN agent, like Rouge and Shade but just in completely different section from them. I don't think I ever meet Topaz before she started working with Rouge and Shade.

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It's so fucking funny to me how I'm a trans man, but when looking into my noemata it was left very clear that my Leon fictotype was, in fact, Not A Man so you can imagine my surprise when I realized it. Especially because Leon's a big source of gender envy for me, lol.

Soo, it pretty much went like this:

"Wooo, I'm a cis man! neaat. *looks into my noemata* wait- wait a moment..."

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Unable to stare at Sherry without wanting to cry. Out of guilt, pride and just love for that damn kid. She was a real good one...I wish I could've been an actual father to her, I wish I could've protected her better, I wish I could've found out what was happening to her much earlier.

Claire and I used to visit her almost every week, depending on what Simmons let us. Claire had to pretty much beg for more visits. I was barely able to visit her twice a month, only a few hours too, I was way too busy and...well, I couldn't always get out of bed even for her, I wish I did. I always wished I could see her more.

Thankfully when she became older and a DSO agent I was able to properly bond with her. It was short lived though.

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Random neomata talk.

I'm aware I was raised in a very catholic orphanage and while they were for the most part nice to me, they only reinforced really awful beliefs so that took a huge toll on my brain and the way I viewed the world and myself.

But , in my mid 20s, I lost my faith completely. It's always been wavered, I never fully believed in it but it was just how the world worked for me so when RC happened...it broke that completely. So, out of spite for myself and a god that was always held above my head, always felt like a surveillance camera to judge me and other's while it stood idly by; I started to go to queer spaces as I always knew I was a fag lmfao, besides I needed to find some way of taking control back of my life.

Actually remember my first "boyfriend", somewhere in mid to late highschool? Cute guy, nice smile. I think he was my first true kiss where I actually fully wanted it. Hm, damn, my girlfriends from that time were trashy as hell compared to that guy 😭 wish I didn't have internalized homophobia that kept me from actually dating him.

I knew I had something going on with my gender, but I thought it was too late, not "trans enough" to transition or do anything about it.

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Hm. I hate that sometimes I miss her. Despite knowing what she did to us. How awful.

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Trying to figure out memories w/o any similar circumstance/stimuli is so hard like...I can barely remember my own memories you think I'm gonna remember what happened to my fictotype?? 😭😭