#ngl; i busted out laughing at this pic

[falloutconfessions]

“Jezebelle was such a jerk I gave her the goofiest body possible.

Thank you for your sacrifice NIRA.“

Fallout Confessions

[derekmorganscrocs]

Nancy Drew 2x10

Thoughts While Watching

Spoiler Alert!!

YO- THE- WHAT IS THAT-

Pls the Ryan puns, I can’t even lmaooo. Wholesome Nancy? PLEASE LMAOOOOO OK OK THIS GIRL IS MAKING ME LAUGH. oh no- the straw: SHE KNOWS. ms reporter is gonna DNA test nancy.

Is aces contact info for his bro “long lost brother”? GEORGE IS A RENTAL CAR? Pls. George has abs- I think I have a crush ngl. Bess knows- ODETTE IS CRUSHING ON BESS. Nick and Bess are about to be sister wives no cap.

Apparently he is Tamura, not Tamara... I’ve been calling him the second this whole time- was no one gonna tell me?! Oh enemies to lovers 250k words I see how it is. JOKING, JOKING. We don’t ship nancy and tamura.

“I thought I smelled bacon” OH PERIOD GIL. Sass king, I love. Oh Nancy getting all up in his space is something else. Good to see that Gil is rockin with ghosts, as he should.

“Typical waitress occurrence” okay, Tamura is kind of growing on me. He’s a little funny. “Whatever do you mean, another?” Ace stop trying to lie please. HOW OLD IS TAMURA- oh he’s like a history guy... I really just thought he was like an eternal being for a sec. “the supernatural detective and the basic one”

OMG BESS IS FALLING FOR ODETTE IN GEORGE’s BODY. and nick is seeing a contractor. (Awkward thumbs up). I STILL THINK GRANT IS A MURDERER. pls Nancy’s lil cheesey smile is so cute and funny.

Ryan coming off all smoldery, okay Riley smith. Own that swag.

Bess falling over made me laugh. Odette coming thru with the skating skill. Odess? Bessdette?? I love. Ace’s brother??? ALCOHOL- ODETTE. ACE HELP A GIRL OUT HERE!!!?

Tamura got left at the alter. NO WAY I WAS RIGHT LMAO sorry Tamura lol I know you got left at the alter or whatever but I like being right. PLS HES SO SARCASTIC ABOUT THE DRESS THEORY NO- AHAHA HES KILLING ME. (poor word choice but the point stands).

OH NO I SAW THIS NICK CLIP ON THE IG- IF THIS BITCH LIGHTS MY MAN ON FIRE I STG. NAH NAH NAH HES STUCK IN THERE. WITH A MURDERER.

OH M G. I SAW GAY SO I SAID GAY. THEYRE IN LOVE. ODETTE AND BESS IS SO CUTE. I love the French accent too.

OH NO NICK- DON’T GET LIT ON FIRE MAN, YEAH DUH THE DOOR IS WELDED SHUT- OH THEY BUSTED THAT DOWN LIKE NOTHING. Fire extinguisher fight.

SALT AND BURN, HOES. WHY WOULD YOU BREATHE IN THE SMOKE WTF

My girl nancy just fainted omg. I’m cackling at the prospect of what’s about to happen. BESS AND GEORGE GOT ARRESTED- GEORGES HAIR. what’s going on rn. “My face isn’t working yet” MOOD.

IM CACKLING OMFG TAMURA SLOW MO- pack it up property brother number three. “Were you just waking in slow motion” MY GIRL IS STRUGGLING. she’s trying so hard. GIL TOO- OKAY BUT GIL IS HOT- “so smoldery” YES MAAM HE IS. GOOD TASTE GIRL. She’s petting him? “No seriously get me away from them” the way she said that is sending me- she’s so freaked.

FANSON RIGHTS!! NANCY NOOOO. NO NANCY. STOP PETTING GEORGE’s BOYFRIEND PLEASE NANCY. THE HAIR- THE HAIR. I don’t blame her not gonna lie, I would also want to touch his hair. “I’ll kill Annette” MAAM JEALOUS MUCH OMFG. “Your palms are really sweaty” ACE STOP OMFG. Wow sis snapped there omg.

They locked her... in the freezer.

He FOUND the brother- ACE HARDY ACE HARDY ACE HARDY PLEASE. Ace half Hardy? Okay we’ve paused the show so I can do some math: so Ace’s dad was the Marshall for mom 1 and father to brother. And also father to ace but different mother. Okay we got it. Bess and Ace are such a cute friendship.

Aw FANSON YAY. “We’re gonna work on it okay? And we’re gonna get better at it.” PLEASE SOMEONE TALK TO ME LIKE THAT OMG. o nancy ruined the moment.

“She’s okay. Just a lil boy crazy” RYAN IS SO CONFUSED OMG.

Nancy having a breakdown in the freezer is a mood. Is she about to stab someone- NO SHES BREAKING OUT OF THE FREEZER. THEYRE ALL THERE OH NO. why’d she go over the railing like that I’m laughing so hard- SHE JUST BODY SLAMMED GEORGE OMFG IM SCREAMING LMAO

OH GOD THEY CAN HEAR GEORGE AND NANCY FIGHTING FROM THE FRONT- i love the absolute dragging that’s going on here, honestly vibes. it’s like they’re feeding a child.

The girls are fighting (Tamura and Gil) NICK JUST KICKED THEM OUT.

I thought she was gonna escape lmao. WHY DOES SHE RUN LIKE THAT OMG AHAHHAHA. oh no Tamura is... they’re gonna kiss Rn I’m gonna barf ew. STOP MOVING SO SLOW JUST GET IT OVER WITH SO I CAN LOOK AWAY PLS. oh nvm she’s good now. She just dipped and Tamura is like: what now

LOVE THIS GIRL TALK OMG. YES PLS NANCY. Did George just emoji? AW GIRL HUG. I love the friend moment here, pls the sleuth sisters are the CUTEST trio.

HIS BROTHER IS IN TOWN? PETTY BESS I LOVE HER.

aw poor Tamura... oh no omg I actually feel bad for him now :( aw besties!!! Teamwork moment here, I love. HE TOTALLY HAS A CRUSH ON NANCY AND IDK HOW TO FEEL 😭

WHAT OMG DID ACES DAD GET KIDNAPPED? That might just be an old photo I’m kinda dumb ngl

NANCY CHOSE GIL? ARE THEY ABOUT TO KISS RIGHT- yup they just kissed.

RYAN IS SMILING WHEN HES TEXTING HER OH NO. HES GONNA GET HIS HEART BROKEN 😭

DAMN IT VAL. NO NEED TO OUT NANCY AS THE GRANDCHILD, HOLY CRAP.

Okay, so the episode is over, but I KNEW one of them was gonna fall in love with a ghost. KNEW IT! But on the down low, Bess and Odette are cute.

Sister:

Literal GASP at Ryan’s photo shoot. Like sat up like she rose from the dead and gasped SO LOUD- Yeah we’re both Riley smith groupies, what about it.

(When they locked nancy in the freezer) “I gotta ask. Is the meat hook still in there?”

Here are some more (ignore the contact image please lmao the vibe in my phone is random pics of my friends/family):

So the only explanation you really need is she LOVES Riley Smith, and is definitely crushing on Ryan lmao. She literally GASPED so loud at model Ryan.

And she’s not a huge fan of Tamura x Nancy. Tbh idk how I feel yet.

[tartagliaxx]

lol i hope you dont mind me placing it utc bc my reply got really, really long... so long i can just hear people in bg telling me to stfu... love you tho babes <3

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OMG BBY AHAHAHAHAHA IM SO SORRY I FORGOT ABT THE RINGS— dw tho cuz i alr got them marriage papers so just sign right over here 🖋 also, you dk how big my smile is while reading through your ask im— my heart is so soft 4 u 🥺

all barbie movies were made on crack but istg princess charm school was made w ten times more crack than usual. harry potter boo’s dance break carried the whole movie, sorry i dont make the rules. and also, PORTIA. that’s the tweet. her entire existence is a mood and a blessing no wonder you kin her.

the only thing i liked abt nutcracker was the ending and the fact that im not even kidding—

mm yeah bbyg u know imma treat you like that— asjajkdakdakjdhka PLS im busting a lung. ngl tho fashion fairy tale ken is the only ken that i didn’t immediately want to punch out of reflex. that ken? *chefs kiss* majestic, monumental, a freaking miracle. give me a man like ken who would intrude on a fashion runway to express his undying love for me. can i also mention that this movie is my second pick so i would like to return the compliment and say u have SUPERB taste.

valid response. the first movie i watched w stacy in it made me walk out. dont remember which one tho. i dont think i watched rock n royals so maybe that came after the 12 princesses thing? i remember skipping that movie and all the others that followed it.

YESSS. RAQUELLE. girl crush omg and mhmm very good taste in music too btw!

childe to your stinky feet comment: “just to set the record straight, i do wash my clothes.” (its a line from that movie if u dont remember ajsdak). honestly the whole movie feels like a fever dream. it’s like... mean girls turned... something. but thats what makes it so memorable tho

imagine: you catch fatui bf childe singing the twins’ hits. your face morphs into confusion as you eat your mashed potato. your dog rolls its eyes in utter disgust. congrats. you unintentionally role played one of the most iconic scenes in the movie. 

awwwww bby thats so sweet of u to say!! im glad i was able to make you happy :))) i shall honorably take the position you kindly offer me and wear it w pride. speaking of which, i should probs rewatch too. and yes!! the bloopers made the movies sm better!! im actually surprised some people didnt know abt them or how barbie was actually an actress.

oooooooh!! genshin band au 😏 do send.

my day is going relatively well? i didnt do much today aside from doing my carrd and stuff. my proper main team is diluc, zhongli, mona, venti BUT! the one that i’ve been running is composed of xiao, mona, xiangling and diona bc im tryna get their namecards. im pulling for childe, yes but i only have 49? pulls i think (its making me so sad oml). i rlly like the windblume festival. it’s like checking up on old friends and stuff. i enjoyed the very chill atmosphere and yknow... seeing hot bby boy kaeya once again. i feel rejuvenated. also the cutscenes!! i love em. uhh i simp for everyone ngl. but at the top of that list are teyvat’s boygroup, teyvat’s big mommas, xiao and albedo. yknow,,, like any sane person. 

man,, anon, you and i share one braincell im cackling— i dont think i laughed this hard in a while,, did u see that childe au! preminger pic an anon sent me? pls i need a therapist.

[thotantics]

hi hi! could i request a #65 with chanyeol??? thanks so much💖

⚤   pairing — reader + Park Chanyeol (exo)

✎ word count — 968

✦ genre — smut, fluff, drabble

✗ warnings  — graphic description of oral sex, public(?) sex

[A/N] fully inspired by the pics of chayeollie at his sister’s wedding :’) ngl i’m v v soft65.“There’s people here.” + “I know.”

The music playing flows through your veins and in a frozen moment in time, you exist as one being. One body, one mind, one soul, hopelessly lost to the gentle sway of your bodies as you stand in a small crowd of people on the dance floor. Maybe it’s that nobody else exists around you anymore, or the closeness of your body’s, or the romance that’s hanging in the air but Chanyeol’s heart is racing under your palm resting gently on his chest, and you lift your head from his shoulder to smile at him.

“I want you.” He tells you, loud enough that maybe someone nearby could have heard and in a second, you’re reminded of your surroundings again, crashing back to reality.

“Shh,” You encouraged him, shaking your head fondly as you tap a finger drunkenly to his lips and he grins back at you, equally sloshed. “Later.”

“Nah.” Chanyeol shakes his head, stepping back away from you, his arms dropping from around you, “Come with me.”

You love when he’s like this. Careless and free. Happy. Chanyeol is always warm and fun, but sometimes he doesn’t always get the chance to let that side of him out, so you relish in it when he does. You let him lead you away from the dance floor, out of the room entirely, and you’re so fixated on the blush of his cheeks and mischievous glint in his eyes you don’t really care where you’re headed. He doesn’t take you far away from the wedding guests and the thump of music changing into something more uptempo can still be heard when he’s got you pressed up against the wall in some hallway.

“What are you doing?” You giggle up at him, hands on his chest to keep him pushed a little bit away from you, because sure enough he tries to dive right in to kiss along your neck.

“I told you, I want you.”

“To do what?” You laugh incredulously. He just cocks his brows and gives you a look that spells trouble, and he easily pushes past your feeble attempts to hold him back and kisses very sweetly along your jaw.

“Chanyeol,” You whisper at him, “There’s people here.”

“I know.” He hums, moving along your throat and pressing you tighter into the wall, “So we better be quick.”

“Tell me what you want.” You tell him, pushing at his chest again and he meets your eyes, searching your face briefly before he registered that you were serious.

“Suck me off.” Chanyeol smirks down at you, putting his hands on either side of the wall, effectively pinning you against it with the full length of his body.

“You better be quiet.” You tell him, voice stern as you reached down for his belt. “I can’t believe you...”

“You’re such a good dancer, baby.” He chuckles as you drop onto your knees, hiking up your dress a little so you didn’t ruin it on the floor. “Fuck,” He grunts as he watches you ready yourself, moving one hand from the wall to pull his cock out for you, “You’re such a good girl for me.”

You’re only good for him when he deserves it, and Chanyeol had definitely earned this, you figure. As your mouth pops open, you make sure to stick out your tongue and look up at him with big, innocent eyes because you know that sort of shit drives him wild. You tease his head first, soft flicks of your tongue and very gently slicking him with spit before you took him all in your mouth.

Chanyeol lets out a curse that has you gasping about midway down his length, eyes wide and nervous as he glances back around the corner, but he doesn’t look as if he sees anything, so you let out a sigh of relief and keep going.

As anticipated, your boyfriend is having a difficult time being quiet, and you stop bobbing your head up and down his length to wrap your hand around it and hiss up at him, “Chanyeol! Be quiet!”

“I’m trying, baby, fuck, you just feel so guh-ah, ah wait, not my balls!” He jerks entirely away from you mid sentence when you reach up to cup the hefty weight of his balls, and you stare at him incredulously, amazed he would make so much noise when he’s got his dick out damn near in public like this.

“Are you kidding me?” You ask him quietly, unable to contain your laughter. You cover your mouth and try to stifle the sounds, and Chanyeol steps in closer again, gripping his cock in one fist and your hair in the other.

“Open your fucking mouth.” He grumbles to you, pressing the blunt tip of his cock to your lips and you let your mouth fall open for him immediately. He thrusts inside and you choke a little at first, but he figures out the depth that’s easiest for you and he fucks your pretty little mouth, smearing your lipstick all over your face and his cock.

It doesn’t take long when he takes you like this, and you hold onto his thighs and let him finish, swallowing every last drop before you pull away and wipe your chin off on the back of your hand, cringing at the taste on your tongue.

“Feel better?” You ask Chanyeol as he stuffs himself back in his pants and peers cautiously around the corner to make sure nobody was nearby.

“Yeah,” He sighs. “Much better. Thank you.” He flashes a handsome smile your way, then promptly busts out laughing at the state of your makeup before he leads you by the hand to the nearest bathroom, sits you on the counter, and gently wipes away the smears and smudges with care.

[rosyjimiin-archive]

Ngl I busted out laughing at that pic, you’re one of my fave pages. Keep on traumatizing the children

Snjsjsjd I’m glad you like my tumblr!!! I will haha ily

[onlyjihoons]

policeman!jihoon pt.2

a/n; special thanks to bff jupiter @chaeyolks for the pretty pretty moodboard once again,, also! this is a collab w @alliwannado-w1, her installment for woojin is coming up this weekend so do look forward to it^^

policeman!jihoon pt.1//policeman!woojin

warning: slight alcohol mention+slight violence, however characters are written when they are of adult age

“you’re illegal, why are you even a police officer?”

“you’re going to do undercover duty with y/n.”

“again?!”

“unless you want me to–”

“yes sir”

so here he was, groaning at his impeccable luck

he needed to get back at daniel for making him buy that drink LOL

“hello, im inspector park jihoon, please take care of me”

you looked up, being greeted by jihoon, in a light blue button down and ripped jeans

with that lanyard that has his name and picture??

usually staff id pics look like mugshots

but hey his pic deadass looks like a shot of those models for some fashion show

“hello, i’m sergeant y/l/n,” you smiled, sticking out your hand, “i hope we will work well together.”

at that moment jihoon fell for your brown eyes

and dimples when you smile

whatever he said about having zero interest in girls was thrown into the gutter

jihoon was tasked to shadow you for your duties for a month

he was pretty sure he was gonna get sacked for falling for his superior LOL

anyways

your first day of working with jihoon was nothing big, just typing out some reports

it was a little weird because an inspector from the violent crimes department in a street crimes(idk what its called pls forgive me) department? typing out reports of a lost puppy??

anyhow your female colleagues from the other departments will ever more often drop by your desk just to see jihoon

it was getting annoying how theyre actually paying more attention to jihoon

so you asked minhyun to dispatch you for more undercover duties LOL

“i thought you loved writing reports”

“not until the female sergeants from other departments come to my desk to see inspector park??”

“are you jealous?”

ngl you were but you arent gonna let it show

especially in front of minhyun

he would f l i p

“try having 3 colleagues flocking to your table every 2 hours to see your co-worker instead of talking to you, and also distracting you from doing work.”

“fine”

undercover was boring, you would normally drag sergeant!baejin along with you

but this time he wanted to stay in the office because he doesnt want to be the “third wheel”

you and jihoon would go to the same club everyday to do undercover duties

and the both of you manage to bust some sleazy dudes

since the whole thing was already under control the both of you soon don’t need to go to the club

and actually do night patrols

it was fun, because jihoon would entertain you by pulling funny faces and treat you to ice cream

contrary to your expectations, jihoon was actually quite nice to be around with

but then something in your mind went off about him

 you remembered the fuckboy senior that played with girls’ hearts in high school

it was jihoon

you were well aware that you were a position above him despite the 2 year age gap

but you couldn’t let yourself fall for someone who breaks hearts

so you decided to build a invisible wall of friendship to prevent yourself from falling for him

i mean how couldn’t you,, he was good looking, good at his work, and had a faint protective vibe which you liked

like whenever you were feeling only a little chilly at the cool breeze jihoon would not hesitate to drape his jacket over you

and also let you walk on the inside of the pavement

besides, minhyun would fall off his chair at the thought of his sister dating someone from the violent crimes department

but that didn’t stop you from having fun

the both of you would sit at swings and play at the slides

there was once jihoon was stuck at one of the slides and you had to help him LOL

but ended up pulling out one of his Stan Smiths and nearly called the fire brigade

day by day, the both of you got closer

and you told jihoon not to call you “sergeant hwang” bc that sounds rlly formal

one day the both of you were just talking about random stuff and you mentioned that you wanted to pick up martial arts

“i can teach you if you want!^^”

“really? what martial arts do you do?”

“i have a six-don black belt in taekwondo, i do teach little kids in my spare time as well”

so here you are, standing at the back of jihoon’s taekwondo class

you felt very over-aged learning taekwondo with a bunch of white-belt kids

but they were really good, and jihoon told the kids you were his assistant for the time being

yeah, assistant with a white belt

and just saying, jihoon looked rlly rlly hot in that taekwondo uniform

with slightly sweaty bangs and all

when he just stands aside for the kids to practice and adjusts his belt

bOI

ok moving on

you learnt some basic moves and jihoon barely needed to coach you to get them right

so all those years of fighting with minhyun was worthwhile

jihoon would shift you up to a yellow belt in two weeks because you were that good

so one day your eyes obviously wasn’t doing you good

you kept messing up the sequence throughout the lesson, maybe your condition wasn’t good

jihoon could see it and asked you to rest for a while

after the lesson ended, you took your street clothes and accidentally walked into the men’s changing room

and you walked into a topless jihoon

luckily, he was the only one inside

you could see his toned abs, and defined arms

not to mention that killer jawline

and in taekwondo pants????

jihoon noticed you staring slightly and then fumbled to find his taekwondo robe

and you noticed you were in the wrong changing room

“oh shit im so sorry i--i”

just as you were about to get out of the changing room jihoon blocked the door

without his robe

“y/n, did you enter the wrong changing room to see,,,”

“see?”

he pointed to his abs, “this?”

you could only laugh, “i would never do that, i can easily see them on the internet”

he raised his eyebrows, “so you watch porn?”

“no??” you rolled your eyes, offended, “do you think i’m that kind of person, inspector park?”

“n-no--”

“i’m sorry i’m not like those girls you played with back in high school, i’m not after your body--”

“you’re driving me crazy, y/n”

“what?”

“your eyes, your nose, your lips, drive me crazy.” jihoon stared right into your eyes, making you blush

“hey inspector park--”

“why don’t you call me ‘jihoon oppa’ anymore? is our relationship strictly work-related now?”

“i just...” you sighed how something small could escalate to something big like this, “i like you, jihoon-oppa”

you slightly cringed but you continued, 

“but we cant do this. minhyun will get mad, and there goes my job.”

“b-but--”

“sorry, inspector park, i’d have to go.”

you pushed jihoon aside weakly, then going out and into the ladies’ changing room

you felt hot tears trickling down your face, in reality, you just didn’t want your heart to be broken

the next day, you and jihoon went to work like a normal day

just, no patrolling and writing of reports the whole day

the office could sense a tension between the both of you, even your female colleagues stopped coming over

“hey y/n,” baejin stopped by your table and handed over a file, “you gotta go undercover again for that club, the perverts are striking again.”

“again?” you sighed, “okay i’ll go.”

“do you need me to go with you?” baejin leaned against your desk, “ you seem, off, today”

“i-”

“i will go with her, sergeant bae.” jihoon spoke, “it’s my last day here anyway.”

so fast, a month has passed, you thought.

“thanks inspector park. i’ll get going then.”

you skipped dinner, all you did was to write reports continuously throughout the day

until jihoon slammed your laptop shut, and stared straight into your eyes

“we need to go now, sergeant hwang.” his lips stretched into a straight line.

you unwillingly got up from your seat, as you shrugged on your coat and headed out to the carpark to wait for jihoon

the car ride was quiet, with you staring out of the window, not talking to jihoon

though it was jihoon’s last day, and you were sorry he had to spend his last day like that

you had to stop yourself 

though the club was playing upbeat music, all you could do was to stare into blank space

just then, some sleazy dude came up to you

“can i buy this pretty lady a drink?” he winked

“no thanks, im with someone else--”

“ey, that someone else can wait.”

“i really do have someone--”

“i said i will get you a drink alright?!” the man’s rogueish smile appeared, grabbing your wrist, “i know you’re here to do undercover duties, sergeant hwang--”

just then, a fist was sent flying to the man’s cheek, as he stumbled backwards

you saw an angry jihoon, his face was red with anger

“if you ever touch sergeant hwang again, you’ll end up in the hospital.” jihoon growled.

“wow, sergeant, i didn’t know you were into flowery pretty boys like--”

jihoon sent another punch across the man’s face, making him fall to the ground

you had to physically stop jihoon from hitting that sleazy dude, or it would’ve turned into a full fight

“jihoon-oppa,” you held his arm, which weakened at your touch, “let’s stop, minhyun wouldn’t be happy if he saw this.”

jihoon scoffed, putting the dude in handcuffs

“you’re under arrest for sexual harrassment, you have a right to remain silent, unless with witness that will support your innocence.”

after that dude was thrown into jail, jihoon immediately hugged you

“are you okay?” he then took a step back to analyse your frame, “he didn’t hurt you, right? i was so--”

you then cut jihoon off with a kiss, shutting him up effectively.

jihoon kissed you back with more assertion, to make up for the time he didn’t get to talk to you throughout the day

“what was that, y/n?” jihoon smiled, ruffling your hair

“don’t tell minhyun about this”

boyfriend!jihoon in the police station is super sweet, leaving you a sandwich for breakfast, then dragging you out for lunch

minhyun soon found out about it, “i knew the both of you had something going on”

and jihoon wasn’t the asshole you expected him to be

he only had eyes for you, and it was really endearing

the both of you would go on night walks, and then sitting on the swing set, talking about random things

overall, the sweetest crime-busting couple in Gangnam Police Station

“I don’t know how you became a police officer, your looks are illegal, you’re my illegirl”

lowkey stole that from dimple by bts sorry im lame i hope you guys enjoyed this as much as i liked writing this,,my request box is always open, so do send in requests!

[kingsofeverything]

2017

okay let’s see! first off, i want to start with just a general thank you to the writers, the artists, the fic reccers, the charity stuff, the websites, etc. you guys--the people who bust ass for this fandom for fucking free--i just love what you do and i’m proud to be a little part of it. 

special thanks to those who’ve read my fics, recced my fics, shouted at me about my fics, sent me messages about my fics, left comments or kudos on my fics, etc. thank you thank you thank you.

below the cut because i rambled. sorry.

fics. friends. depression. art. my house. the camper. my kids. tour. louis.

those are the main things i want to touch on and idek where to start. 

so fics. at the beginning of this year, i was writing ‘fall at my door’ and feeling shitty because DEPRESSION and some situational shit. i signed up for big bang, and my first exchange--the hp1d exchange, and then my second exchange--hlsummer, and then boom i decided to do 50 reasons, and tbh it’s been a fucking ride, my friends. because of fanfiction, i’ve made so many friends in this fandom, and i’m so thankful for our little corner of this absolutely bizarre world that we call the 1d tumblr fandom. i can’t name you all. i won’t even try because i’ll leave someone out and then i’ll cry. but to everyone i’ve met/talked to because of fic?? it’s a fucking pleasure knowing you. 2017 was my first full year of fic writing and just the fact that i’ve written anything at all still blows me away.

FRIENDS! okay, i just have to say that i love nic @louandhazaf and without 1d and tumblr, i’d never have known her. so, really, thanks to whoever posted the link to the treatise on gomi, because so many things in my life have changed for the better because of it. i have a friend that i want to be friends with forever :D and i can’t wait for summer to come visit!!! to all of my other friends--idek what to say. you guys make me laugh, make me think, make me proud, and change me for the better, i think. so... i love you all. 

depression. okey dokey. thank you to my gc wenches. i would never have had the courage to start therapy without your encouragment, so @louandhazaf @justafatbirdonaboat @theonewiththebluemic @fratboylouie you guys mean so much to me <3 and i love you. therapy is some crazy fucked up shit, but it works, soooooo... i’m going to keep going. also, high five to wellbutrin. i’m so glad that the first med i tried worked for me.

ART! when things started to go to shit in this fandom, i started looking for fan art to distract myself and found out that our fandom is so fucking talented! i am so amazed by you guys and you really do have the ability to change my mood. when i feel like shit, i reblog art. so thank you.

my house/the camper. guys, ngl this has fucking sucked. it still sucks. we’re literally having the coldest winter in yearssssssssss and our heat broke lol. still in the camper. thank you for listening to me bitch and complain and talking to me about the bullshit surrounding this whole thing. hopefully it’ll be over soon. i do have some pics to post, so i’ll do that later.

i don’t post about them much, but i have shared a bit about my kids. homeschooling and especially dealing with my youngest and all of the shit that has happened this year from his first seizure, our visits to the neuro, the tests, etc. you guys have been so lovely. the messages and comments just sending positive thoughts mean a lot to me. thank you <3

TOUR. okay, so @fratboylouie i am so happy that i got to meet you and hang out with you for the entire fucking day while waiting for harry. and then on top of that to meet @laurabelle0624 and for us to get that bi flag passed up to harry???? y’all harry styles has my hair tie. plus i got to meet @laynefaire and @always-aqua and @roguecurls (and i feel like i’m forgetting some urls here and this is why i don’t do this!!!!!!!) and i had so much fun. it was a wonderful day and harry was amazing in his plant pants!

LOUIS. i have to end on louis. louis has changed my life in so many ways and idek where to start. his strength, his perseverance, his kindness, just his overall loving nature has made me want to be a better person. he’s made me want to try harder, to fight for myself and for other people. i honestly wish that i’d known of someone like him when i was a teenager and/or in my 20s. i just love him so much for everything that he is and everything that he does. he’s just absolutely the best person. pure sunshine and love. and i wouldn’t be here if not for louis. 

anyway, this is messy and probably full of misspellings and other errors and maybe doesn’t make much sense at all, but idc. i can’t wait to say BYE to 2017 and tbh 2018 better kick ass.

[ham-lin-ton]

Post hamilton feelings

okay so i just got back from NY today and hamilton was AMAZING! ngl i was a little afraid it wouldn’t live up to the hype, but the hype is Real y’all!! my full hamilton #Review is below and feel free to shoot an ask or a msg if you have questions or just wanna Yell with me about it, i still have a lot of feelings and Opinions. and besides for hamilton, NY in general was ofc amazing! it’s so big and loud and bright and beautiful!! the buildings were so cool looking i felt like such a tourist taking pics of all the buildings and shit but i couldn’t help it, i loved the #Aesthetic so much. i had so much good food and cocktails! we toured the morgan museum and library and it was so cool to see all these old documents and abstract art. the strand was so cool, i bought a second hand vintage aesop's fables book and a cool hamilton themed canvas bag, i honestly could have spent all my money there. we p much walked from midtown (our hotel was in hells kitchen) to lower manhattan (west village) all day on the 31st and the rooftop party on new years eve was so cool! the empire state building was all lit up and was right there. if you got my snapchat you probs saw the pics and the following drunk snaps... there was an open bar, so i had a good time lmaoo

okay first of the theatre is beautiful, and i had front mezzanine seats so i was on the 2nd level. my view was great, i could see everyone clearly and i only had to lean forward a little bit because of the dude in front of me and his fat head.

okay im gonna get my criticisms out of the way first so i can get back to gushing. now some parts i wasn’t quite sold on was thayne jasperson as laurens/philip and seth stewart as lafayette/jefferson.

now i’ll be honest i love jordan fisher okay so im maybe a bit biased here lmao. he’s a babe and i love his voice so much (if you haven’t heard lin and jordan fisher doing your welcome, 10/10 would recommend), so when i saw that jordan wasn’t playing my boi john laurens that night i was disappointed, ngl. i really wanted to like thayne, i really did. but. he just.... did Not do it for me. his voice is very...young and boyish sounding. higher pitched and almost squeaky in parts. it suited him well as philip when he’s playing a child but as john laurens?.....ehhhhh. he just could not sing out those smooth crooner melodies like anthony ramos and i kinda felt like he trying too hard to sound like anthony. also thayne is....very white. and tbh the line “but we’ll never be truly free until those in bondage have the same rights as you and me... wait till I sally in on a stallion with the first black battalion” just did not have the same bite coming from a little white boy.

as for seth stewart.... his lafayette was a bit forced. the accent was kinda jarring and distracting. during my shot he was really rushing it. i felt like he was trying to take it too fast and bust out those guns n ships level raps right away. when the whole point is that lafayette is unsure with english at first so he’s a bit slower and more hesitant but then by guns and ships he busts out with that IMTAKINGTHISHORSEBYTHEREINSMAKINGREDCOATSREDDERWITHBLOODSTAINS! and you’re like whooooooa! character development!!! and that did not quite happen. i was impressed that seth actually managed to pull of those guns n ships raps really well tho. so his lafayette didn’t quite do it for me, but his jefferson was amazing! jefferson has moves and swagger lol! you like him but you kinda hate that you sort of like the guy cause he’s an asshole, but he’s also charmed you a bit as well. you’re kinda sitting there like WAIT i don’t wanna like this guy but i sort of do!!

keep in mind that i have no other comparison other than the soundtrack and watching the bootleg a couple times. i was overall impressed at how true to the soundtrack it sounded!! the voices that really stood out to me were javier munoz (hamilton), brandon victor dixon (burr), nicholas christopher (washington), andrew chappelle (he’s a switch for p much all the parts but that night he played herc/madison), and mandy gonzalez (angelica). everyone was amazing but these people just really jumped out at me

javi is really enjoyable as hamilton, like i do enjoy lmm’s voice but let’s face it y’all he’s a rapper and a writer at heart, he doesn’t have those traditional broadway pipes. he still moves you and hits you right in the gut with his voice, but it is unique and distinctive, especially on broadway. so hearing javi, a objectively better singer, do hamilton was very refreshing and enjoyable. he also brings so much passion and intensity to the role and almost like a mischievous? quality as well.

dixon as burr was also very good... the burr songs (wait for it and room where it happens) were def like the highlights of the show. dixon kind of has more of a rapper quality to his voice than leslie odom jrs’ burr, who has that velvet and smoke jazz singer kind of voice. wait for it utterly took my breath away. he starts off so calm and controlled and by the crescendo he is passionate and intense, enraged even. it’s the most worked up you see burr and it’s amazing to see him go from 100 to 0 and bring it all back down to the burr like calm and control that we see all the time with him.... dixons voice was so strong and intense and when it ends and he’s standing there in darkness with just the lone light shining on him and quietly whispers “....wait for it”... ahhhh! one of my fave burr moments was how during aaron burr, sir at the line “you wanna get ahead?” burr grabs hams plain brown jacket he’s wearing at the time and like gestures and looks at it like really? you expect to get ahead looking like THIS

nicholas christopher had such a stage presence! and it’s amusing to notice that he is literally the only person in the show who can seem to say no to Ham outright. i also loved his Look, hes bald and has a big beard and when he comes out in right hand man banishing the sword it looked so badass. one last time was so intense and i was impressed that nicholas christopher managed to pull of those chris jackson runs, he sounded almost exactly like chris jackson on the soundtrack

andrew chappelle is also one of my faves, his hercules was amazing and he pulled of the swagger and presence really well but he really shone as madison. he adds so much sass and exasperation to madison, especially when it comes to jefferson. you really get the sense of him just humoring jefferson

now someone who REALLY blew the roof of the place with their voice alone was mandy gonzalez. she also played Nina in In the heights, and now she plays angelica. satisfied was one of the best parts and her voice just filled the whole theatre til it was bursting!! and the choreography and use of the turntables during satisfied was impressive, they literally rewind everything to how the scene is set during helpless when angelica, eliza, and ham meet.

speaking of hamilton and eliza omg, they were so cute??? like they’re so sweet with each other and are almost always constantly touching hands or touching in some way when near each other, which makes it that much more sad later when during non stop he tears his hands away from eliza (and angelica too) and during quiet uptown when hamilton tries to hold elizas hand and she jerks her hand away from his. another thing about quiet uptown was that when eliza decides to forgive him, hamilton is pretty much breaking down. like his shoulders are shaking and he’s openly crying and eliza is standing there impassively coldly ignoring him until she holds his hand and they turn to each other.

rory o’malley is delightful as king george, he is so petulant and ridiculous that you can’t help but laugh he had the whole theatre cracking up.

alysha deslorieux and peggy/maria was amazing! she has the same smooth low quality to it that jasmine has and say no to this was actually quite sexy. the soundtrack does not do it justice. hamilton and maria kiss pretty deeply with a lot of heat for like 10 seconds and during that part where hamilton is practically moaning “yes! yes! yes!” yea maria is essentially giving him a lapdance at that part, it was a very sensual scene.

parts i cried/teared up during (yes i am weak and emo okay)

-helpless

-satisfied

-wait for it

-that would be enough

-dear theodosia

-the laurens interlude

-one last time

-hurricane

-burn

-it’s quiet uptown

-best of wives and best of women

-who lives who dies who tells your story