#nightlythoughts

[glowyjjk]

I need a best friend, anyone up for the task?

Haha but seriously now, I am tired of not having someone to call or text all the time, someone that I can truly be myself with and that I can rely on. Everytime I get close to someone I discover that I am not their first choice, they like spending time with me but when it's something important they turn to someone else, their best friend. I want that too. I miss it.

[west-coast-taylor]

I really wanna be in the same room or arena hearing Taylor sing again so bad like I just miss her so much and the energy, excitement , and positive vibes and emotions that are all in the room that you feel .

[lagodny]

I wanna be the subject of someone’s dreams.

[faalconpunch-blog]

Nightly Thoughts

My self esteem is absolutely DESTROYED when I see guys on Tumblr. It makes me feel so weak and not good enough. It makes me wonder, how do they do it? Why are they just born with it?

I'm like a girl when it comes to this stuff. Being born beautiful or good looking. Attractive. I wish i was born that way. You know?

I don't know. I feel like my Mom and Dad genes do NOT work good together. My mom has curly hair, my dad has straight hair. My mom is pale, my dad is dark.

But I've been told, I look the best out of my 2 other brothers. Hehe. I guess that's a good thing.

Anyways, yeah. It's not that I think i'm ugly, or strange looking. I just get the feeling that I wish I looked different, you know? Because I ain't perfect, and I'm sure no one else is but still. The fact that they get load of compliments. Everyday. People CALLING them perfect. AGHH.

Well, I guess on the brightside, i have a good personality? -thumbs up-

[coolurban]

The word temporary doesn't seem intimidating now. But then look around, it's everywhere, and that's scary as fuck

[trailmadeoflight]

I used to believe I could achieve anything in the world...stupid considering I can't even achieve full control of myself.

[platinumlilacs]

why don’t you get the sudden urge to text me, like i get the sudden urge to text you?

[jooorrdd]

I always say I hate you, but when 2 am comes I love you.

Me

[obviouslyfantastic]

I've been living in my apartment for three years now and until this evening I never actually realized that the mirror in my bathroom is placed a little bit to high for me to properly see myself, so I unconsciously always reached up to see more than just my head. And until tonight I never thought about the double meaning in this, me being to small to really see myself. Only I'm not to small to see myself, my surrounding isn't fitting my potential. If this mirror is to high up for me to see myself in it, i should hang it lower or move to find a better placed mirror. It's not the mirrors fault of course, but it isn't mine either, and I deserve to not have to stretch up to see all of me. And neither do any of you. Always remember this.

[lagodny]

Sometimes I just cry myself to sleep.

[faalconpunch-blog]

Enjoy your youth.

I don't get those kids my age that are all about doing cool cat things that adults do. Wow, you a dumb. I mean, okay those things seem cool, and our lives suck because "we don't have freedom?" uh your parents have limits for a reason. If they didn't, you'd probably be all fucked up and shit. You have PLENTY of time to do whatever the hell you want when you grow older, but you have a limited amount of time being a kid. I don't know about you but I love being a kid. You don't got to worry about shit, and if you do have things to worry about, it's not as bad as adults have it. When you're a kid, you get so many opportunities , so many chances at your goals, dreams, whatever. Blah. I don't want to grow up. Oh and you horny ass teenagers, gtfo. Go shove your dick or vagina up something, idk. Don't you dare mess with another kid by fucking contaminating their minds. That shit messes up people bad. You know teenagers are easily influenced and don't go influencing others by getting up in their grill and introducing them to shit. Go out for a movie, go read a book or something, I don't know. Never chose your bf/gf over your friends or family at this age. Chances are, that shit be over before high school will be done with. Your friends(some) & family won't leave your ass. Go love them instead and just enjoy being a kid. Please

[estar-enlaluna]

Who the fuck are you to tell me who I am, when you don't even know who you are? Your word's pierce, like needles popping the balloons of my once inflated self esteem.

All because of my very own choice to be free. Not just free from your grip, but from my past.

I wanted to shake the skin of the past off and slither away as if you would never notice I was gone. Just the shell of someone you knew, but had already forgotten.

Something to hold onto the memories of what were but did not want to repeat. 

Once you've realized what's happened your grip tightens, you want me to feel the pain your feeling but I cannot. The grieving process only happens to those who are grieving.

But I am not. 

I will not grieve over the past, the loss of self, your word's you scream out of anger at me as I walk away.

I will let you sit with grief, until you're ready to sit down one day and tell me why you did what you have done.

But in this moment, never forget you would rather find me again, than yourself. 

[glowyjjk]

I need more positive people in my life..

I can't surround myself with people who are energy-thieves and make me feel bad about myself. I need to learn to stand up for myself and not let people walk over me all the time. Where can I find people who'll lift me up and not bring me down?

[lagodny]

Kontakty międzyludzkie zdecydowanie nie są dla mnie.

[faalconpunch-blog]

Music is Powerful.

I feel for this so greatly. Music is the universal language for everybody in this world. It has the power to express every single emotion in this world. It's said that Music and Language are processed by the same brain system. It has the mighty power to drown you in feeling. You can feel the emotion in anybody's music. Their message from the song, and how they can convey you with the meaning of the song. It's something I really can't explain. I feel like I can come in contact with their deepest thoughts.

It has the power to transport you in your own world. The melodies bring you to a secret place. The rhythmic beat captures our souls. And the dynamics reflect our passion.

It has the power to bring us all together.  As we all come from different lifestyles and backrounds, we all can relate our experiences to pain, loss, happiness, and excitement. We can relate to these experiences to music. We can feel it.

Music has the potential to effect our world. To do the most amazing things.

I can't really express music in a intelligent matter. Like those people who are just one with music. I wish i was one though. I love music. I want to learn it, and study it my whole life. Music is just so amazing, I can't even put it in words.