trailmadeoflight

[trailmadeoflight]

Fellow INFP's

It's been getting annoyed these past couple days how I can never relate with anyone. It feels desperate, but I will gladly have private conversations with anyone willing. I am into rap, philosophy, video games, and poetry. I doubt any other introverts will feel like chatting, but I could really use a friend and hopefully someone could use one. I'm just done never connecting with anyone.

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Music guides me

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I sometimes wish somebody took the time to know me...

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People promote their favorite groups so much they make them "normal", but in the heat of the situation, they forget their initial purpose. To let people have a voice. They give certain groups so much voice they begin to silence those still in need of being recognized. That's selfish. Ignorant. Hypocritical. I don't give af if they were oppressed, the question is who is REALLY being oppressed now as a result. I know, the damn TRUTH!

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I belong in no group. Even the introverts don't want me. I'm no fitting puzzle, even the big picture doesn't include me. If I were to approach the loneliest of the bunch, I would be rejected for the fact that I am me. Even support groups don't support me. Tumblr would ban me for being myself, for what you see and read is men in restraint. Not even I can support my own company. You say you support minorities yet you completely ignore a minority's minority amongst the giants unafraid to express themselves. I'm not completely lonesome but...

Family aside, I am nothing but an object with a face and a name, more ignored than a random drop of rain. Though my soul contains more than the average man would claim my solitude nonetheless will stay the same. Can you relate to my gruesome vain? I can't tell because the fakes want a piece of this cake and I simply can't take it! They're only good because it makes then feel better and I HATE IT! I'm losing faith in humanity, down goes their morality! You really think I can resolve one of mankind's issues over damn cup of tea!? Let me strip you back to reality, my poetry is becoming lost to me because you simply think that a nice remark would mean anything when you'll forget the damn thing by next Thanksgiving?! Well thank you very much, I'll add that to my long list of lies; but realize that by ignoring me, my eyes become a WALL hiding the unwanting tears behind. Living this life is becoming irrelevant due to the focused iconic movement towards the unrecognized, how ironic, that my personic is misconstrued as one hundred percent moronic. Actually, I am ninety percent. I don't care, at least I have God, the only one capable of understanding me completely, see he doesn't spend his time trying to mislead me, actually quite the opposite, because at least to him I mean so much more. If you don't believe in God, then either accept that I belief or YOU treat me like a moral! Or else don't go around saying there's nothing wrong with the abnormal...

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A talentless life is so dull. I hate being dull.

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"The observer changes the properties of the observed

This is done with your mind, not with your words

Word? Yeah, I'm about to show you nerds

You bookworms really startin' to get on my nerves

I can't talk like you, but I can understand you

I know what this entire ordeal can expand to"

Link: https://youtu.be/Mq86umv6eC0

-Canibus

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Tried to chat with other infps. Turns out I don't fit in with them. Guess I'm simply meant to be left with my thoughts.

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Do my words matter?

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I'm uncomfortable with strangers, but I fear no stranger will feel comfortable around me.

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Ever had a morning when you wake up, look outside and say, "What a beautiful day. I should stay inside and drink coffee" Yeah, me too. It's a rarity to wake up in a good mood, but it makes all those times worth the wait.

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I used to believe I could achieve anything in the world...stupid considering I can't even achieve full control of myself.

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"Sometimes I wonder, do I deserve to live? Or am I gonna burn in Hell for all the things I did? No time to dwell on that, 'cus my brain reacts"

-Havoc of Mobb Deep

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Used to think at some point that being tough (especially as a young man since this is expected of us) was to withstand pain. Then I realized that the art of withstanding pain wasn't from brushing it away, it was by living with that pain. It's not about how you feel that makes people tough, it's how they deal with it. It hurts like hell, but they pull through because they'd rather feel pain and succeed than not feel pain and fail.

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Hey there, you're probably reading this because you searched up infp or for some reason following me. For those who did search infp, know that I search too. We sometimes come back because in the world outside we find no one to relate to. This post may be useless for most but for those of you like me, and for those of you whom I'm like, know that we aren't alone. At least, not always. I only wish I engaged more with other infp's out there to see what it's like because tbh, I probably never had a conversation with one in my life. It would feel nice to see just how relatable we are because we often put our minds in solitude out of spite for the world so much that we make ourselves out to be unrelated to anyone. But when several others do that exact same thing, well, that doesn't make us that different, does it?

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This awful feeling of loneliness is starting to get to me. My mind is reminding me of the empty hole carved into my soul. It needs to be filled with love and instead I fill it with self pity. Pathetic couldn't describe me more accurately than now and it hurts.

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She's somewhere out there. Hopefully she's thinking about someone out there for her. Me.

I'm right here, waiting...