#no no i will do what i preach i promiseee

[lettersfromloui]

i have seen it all but you, you're so you

I am currently writing on a fantasy story and I keep coming back to the thought "Why do I even try to do this? This story probably exists already somewhere." When it comes to fashion, I feel the same. Picking outfits and asking myself "Why do I even try? I will look like everyone else anyways." And I have these thoughts when writing entries like this or when it comes to sharing my art. "It already exists and it is probably even better than what I have to offer." It kept me away from trying and sharing so many things and, though I don't like having regrets, it makes me feel like I lost so much time and potential. Trying to be perfect in things is essentially just a struggle of doubting your own worth and skills. People would think you're modest or humble bragging; "You're so good at this, why don't you see it?" And I would think "I am not good enough, at least not for me." I know that I had more to offer, but then I would be too scared to pursue it because I kept comparing myself. In that never ending cycle, I, at one point, would think I had nothing to offer. Why am I not as good as others at whatever I do?

The reason why I thought of everyone else's work so highly but not mine is because I viewed the people highly but not me. It wasn't "my missing passion, talent or discipline" as I thought the whole time. It also wasn't that everyone else's work is so incredibly and objectively perfect. I simply didn't treat myself how I treat others and that was very unfair of me to me. Have you ever looked at someone's outfit and it was just everything you've seen before but you realize how good the person is feeling in it? And that makes you feel happy. Or someone posting their art and they just love what they're doing even if "they weren't as skilled or original" as others? And you still love it? Love it as much as reading essentially the same plots over and over just from different authors?

Almost everything existed already at this point - outfits, story plots, characters, the things we want to portray in our works, the topics we want to write about. Trying so hard to be outstanding when it comes to the content we create. Try to be new, find a niche, do what's never done before. I am not trying to say that this is not possible and we shouldn't strive for anything "new" because we should. In the context of trying to be unique it is just, whatever you want to do, it is already unique because it is you who does it. No one can express and create the way you do. No one because no one is you. Write that story that has been told a thousand times before. Write a poem about the fking moon. Write the song with the most used chord progression. Go draw your realistic pencil portrait. After all, everything you express and create is so incredibly unique and therefore valuable. If we value ourselves, we can create freely. There will be simply no room for doubt or comparison, if we fully believe in our worth, quality and uniqueness in creation. It is like that, really! The reason to believe is so simple and always present, too: you, who no one can replace. You and your work are so special, forever good enough and incomparable because of you, because you are. No one can do it like you, that is a simple fact, go argue with the wall if you don't agree!

Ps. If I end posts on a believe in yourself note one more time aghhh