#no wait I think it was about clingyduo in............... I think the moment when tommy goes “the disks are worh more than you ever did” and

[cozy-kitty-corner]

SBI Whumptober - Poisoned. Based loosely off of that old TikTok audio from Cinnamon by Hayley Williams. I only know this by Clingyduo cosplays so why not have this. I struggled with this one to the point of failing to get it out on day 8, so please give it a like if you enjoy!

Today should have been perfect, and yet… nothing felt quite right.

He leaned over and rested his head on Tubbo’s shoulder, watching the sunset with the other boy.

That day was his birthday, so he and Tubbo had dressed up in PJs(Tommy’s was green and covered in bees, while Tubbo’s was red and adorned with raccoons) and done whatever Tommy had wanted.

And it had been great, for a while!

They had built massive cobblestone towers and laughed at each other when they’d failed to land in the ponds and died, having to run back from their respawn point in Tommy’s house, and they’d gone looking for ducks and spiders, and gotten pet rocks with each other, and everything else Tommy could think of.

But something just felt wrong. There was a foreboding pit in Tommy’s stomach, and the blonde had no idea why.

He sighed again.

“Is something wrong, Toms?”

Tommy yelped as Tubbo shifted to look at him, subsequently losing Tommy his pillow.

“Yeah… just a bit tired. Big day, innit?”

Tubbo studied Tommy’s face, searching for a sign as to why Tommy was so much less boisterous than normal.

“Toms… do you want to go see Wilbur?” The brunette rushed to clarify at Tommy’s startled look. “You just mentioned him this morning, and you seem down, so… we could go see him, if you’d like. He is your brother after all.”

(And wasn’t that a contradictory sentence. Brothers by blood and by history, but not much else. Not anymore.)

Tommy thought for a moment. He could go, and risk being shunned by a person he really shouldn’t care about at all, or he could stay here with Tubbo, and keep thinking about whether or not Wilbur would even remember at this point.

Tubbo watched Tommy think for a moment, then stood up abruptly, pulling the younger boy up.

Tommy yelped. “Tubbo, what are you-”

Tubbo cut him off with a bleat, pulling him onto the path.

“We’re going to see Wilbur, it will be good for you.”

Tommy tried to protest(about five times actually), but every sentence was cut off by a warning bleat.

He slumped and let Tubbo drag him along the Prime path.

They quickly arrived at where Wilbur was staying, a rundown shack outside of Las Nevadas.

The bitch was like a wet cat, following his crush(ew) around everywhere.

Tubbo knocked on the door, never letting go of Tommy’s wrist.

(He knew the other boy would run.)

When nobody answered, Tubbo shook his head, stomped a hoof, and rammed the door down.

Tommy barely flinched, used to the other boy’s antics.

But… there was nobody inside.

Tubbo bleated in frustration and turned to Tommy.

“Okay… he’s not here.”

Tommy wasn’t listening, though. He’d seen a note on the table.

He pushed past Tubbo, picking it up and skimming the the contents

   Dear Tommy.

You’re definitely going to show up today. Don’t bother waiting for me, I won’t be back for a few days. I don’t want to deal with your birthday.

The note slipped out of Tommy’s hands, and tears slipped down his face. Distantly, he heard Tubbo come over to ask if he was alright, then see the message and hug Tommy tight.

Tommy just cried silently, shaking.

(Dream taught him to be better than this. He taught him to never be this weak. Why was he so weak.)

Eventually, Tommy had enough mental fortitude to move away from Tubbo.

“Y’wanna… wanna go get a burger?” His voice was hoarse and weak.

The ram hybrid gave him a small smile.

“Sure, Toms.”

                           ________

By the time they reached the burger shop, Tommy had made a decision.

He was going to get the Pumpkin Spice Latte and forgo a burger.

He told Tubbo to order without him, insisting that he would pay for his own, then talked about nothing in particular while the friends waited.

With how slow the place was, it only took a couple of minutes for the food to come out.

The boys went up and thanked the employees for the service, then walked outside to look at the stars.

Tommy listened to Tubbo speak happily, chugging his drink.

“Hey, Big T. We should try to guess each other’s drinks from the smell, like we did when we were little.”

Tubbo gasped and nodded. “Okay okay okay… you go first.”

Tommy switched beverages with his friend and took a long smell of the scent wafting out of the cup.

He wrinkled his woefully human nose, feeling woozy. “Is that black coffee?”

Tubbo nodded, giggling at Tommy’s affronted look.

“You disgusting, disgusting man. How could you?”

Tubbo tapped Tommy teasingly with a hoof, then settled down.

“Okay okay, my turn now.” He took a smell, goatlike nose twitching.

“Smells like citrus and…” The brunette paled. “Cinnamon.”

Tommy met his eyes as they flicked up panickedly, letting an exhausted smile slip through. “Cinnamon.”

Then his eyes rolled up into his head and he collapsed.

And the last thing he heard was a bleating scream of “Tommy!!”

[sleepypuffpastry]

I kinda wanna talk about cc!Sam saying “I think the dynamic between mine and Tommy’s characters is one of the most interesting on the server.”

From Season 1 to now, it’s always felt so...different and unique compared to their other usual relationships on the server, but I was never able to put it into words.

But when I heard cc!Sam say that I finally came to the realization as to why it may be, and no it’s not because I am stupid I am very smart and sexy actually.

c!Tommy’s most well-known relationship dynamics, based on what I have seen, are with c!Tubbo, c!Wilbur, and c!Techno. And c!Sam’s are with the rest of the Badlands, c!Ponk, and c!Dreamteam. 

Naturally, this is because cc!Tommy and cc!Sam were close friends with the CCs even before the server, so this also meant that when they all joined the server, their characters acted as if they had already known each other since before the server. For example, when c!Techno joined during the elections, it was presented in a way so that he, c!Tommy, and c!Wilbur had already known each other long before they met up to flee to Pogtopia. That was the first time we see them canonically together as the audience. But based on the dialogue from that scene, we can clearly tell it wasn’t their first time meeting each other.

However, in the case of c!Tommy and c!Sam, the CCs didn’t know each other before the server, so both the CCs and characters met for the first time on the server. This means that we were able to see their relationship’s journey from the very start to now. 

Their interactions back in Season 1 were infrequent yet memorable. Who could forget the time c!Sam bought Tubbo bath water in an attempt to “turn British” from c!clingyduo? Who could forget the time c!Sam took c!Tommy to his home for the first time and how amazed c!Tommy was at it? Who could forget the time c!Sam helped c!Tommy with his TNT-water bucket MLG practice in preparation for the Manburg vs Pogtopia war?

These were incredibly light-hearted and fun moments between the two that were always a damn delight to watch.

Then you have Season 2. There wasn’t much of them together during Season 2 due to how quick it was and the fact that c!Tommy spent the majority of the season away from the main areas (staying in Logstedshire and Antarctic Commune). But, there were still incredibly important moments for the duo that still affects the lore today.

When c!Tommy was exiled kidnapped, c!Sam was incredibly worried for him, taking huge risks to find c!Tommy on the very first day of exile to check on him. He offered him a place to run away to (which damn shawty I know we all wished c!Tommy took the offer). c!Sam was c!Tommy’s first visitor (excluding Ghostbur since he traveled with c!Tommy and stayed with the majority of the time until thee green bastard tried to off him). 

During the beginning of exile, c!Dream commissioned c!Sam to build Pandora’s Vault. Sam’s most recent lore stream, where c!Sam tells c!Dream off with his bullshit, reveals that c!Sam knows that c!Dream wanted to throw c!Tommy into the prison with the intention of making life hell for him and to display him like some sort of trophy. Although there is still room for doubt (not that much if you ask me lol) as to whether or not the prison had always been intended for c!Tommy or whether or not everything c!Sam said was him believing that’s what happened or knowing for sure and such and so, especially with Sam’s QnA stream today where he says we will have to wait to find out, it can be said with full confidence, based on Sam’s last prison lore stream and the Disc War Finale, that c!Dream did intend on putting c!Tommy into the prison by the end.

Then in comes the iconic, the beautiful, and the gorgeous Animal Crossing Hotel Arc that kicks off in the beginning of Season 3. The beginning of Season 3 is, arguably, the most development we get out of the relationship. After the Disc War Finale, c!Sam has no regrets or second thoughts about having c!Dream, a former acquaintance, locked up in the prison. And c!Tommy, finally having had escaped the clutches of his abuser for a good amount of time hsgbhdsvhjdd wanted to live his life again and heal from the past. Thus, begins the beloved Hotel Arc.

There’s a lot we learn from this arc alone. Some I can list from the top of my head are:

c!Sam finds out about c!Dream abusive treatment towards c!Tommy during exile (extent unknown).

c!Sam build Sam Nook to help c!Tommy keep busy with hotel-related and egg-related tasks. Sam Nook has been found to be extremely patient and calm with c!Tommy.

c!Sam also programmed Sam Nook to protect c!Tommy.

c!Sam is fully aware that c!Tommy’s mental state was in shambles and does not want it to worsen.

c!Tommy wants c!Sam to be one of his best friends and to protect him.

There’s most likely more I can’t remember at the moment, but this shows just how much more nurturing and positive their relationship has since they first met. The positive development of their relationship has made so many people, including myself, very emotional considering at the time, many people were still emotionally burnt out from the absurd amount of backlash c!Tommy and cc!Tommy got for the Green Festival-Doomsday discourse, the constant losses c!Tommy suffered during Season 2, and the amount of characters that either hated and/or wanted to murder c!Tommy during the beginning of Season 3. c!Sam was one of the only characters during that time to have shown genuine care for the kid, something we simply weren’t used to. For someone who barely knew the kid just a few months prior to show immense care, love, and patience for him was amazing to watch.

Then, of course, we have the prison lockdown. As most of us know, the lockdown put a serious dent into their relationship. And just when we thought things couldn’t get worse, c!Tommy’s failed attempt to kill c!Dream once and for all did exactly that. Their relationship remained strained for quite a long time (due to lore drought) up until Tommy’s most recent DSMP stream where c!Tommy and c!Sam seemed to have...somewhat mended things. 

After all, c!Sam invited c!Tommy to investigate the egg post-Red Banquet and along the way, they demonstrated that the two still joke with each other and have fun, similar to the light-heartedness from Season 1 and early Season 3. Of course, things haven’t been fully resolved, the biggest evidence being the line c!Tommy dropped regarding him still not having forgotten the prison lockdown during that very same stream.

It’s obvious that c!Sam still cares about c!Tommy even after the Lockdown + Break-In. This becomes very apparent when c!Dream tries to use his attachment to c!Tommy to convince him to not tell c!Quackity about his whereabouts, c!Sam responding in a way that shows us that he didn’t want to lose c!Tommy, not again. And the same goes for c!Tommy, though it was more subtle. In Tommy’s stone mining stream with Ranboo, he sprinkles in moments of reminiscing about c!Sam and Sam Nook (calling out for Sam and Sam Nook using the creeper head he gifted him + wanting the construction clothes they gave him before).

But hopefully, we will get to see more of them to observe how this relationship resolves.

All in all, I fully agree with cc!Sam in that c!Sam+c!Tommy’s relationship is truly one that is unique to the others for the reasons I have presented and I really, really, really hope that we get more! I am certain many of us want to see how this relationship will progress (or regress oooo spooky) based on everything that’s happened so far.

[mc-pumpkin]

So I rewatched, or I should say relistened, as it was specifically audio only today so no visuals would distract me, and I have some random thoughts I just wanted to write out that I don't feel like making a bunch of individual posts for

Dream popped off with his voice acting holy hell. Claps for Dream he did an Amazing job with his line delievery

When c!Tommy left the vc after talking to Ghostboo for the first time, he sounded so So devastated about c!Ranboo being dead. I'm. Ow.

I want c!Wilbur to see c!Tommy's walls. I want him to hear c!Tommy talk about how they make him feel safe, and remind him of better times. I want c!Wilbur to have yet another moment in his life where he realizes the things he made weren't hated and discarded by the people he made them for

I feel like Ghostboo's main feature is he's stress free. I don't think he's apathetic, I think he just can't feel stress/anxiety anymore. Which,, will have an interesting effect on how he interacts with people and situations

Speaking of Ghostboo I don't think he remembers Everything. Or at least he only remembers post-joining the smp. Which implies that even Enderwalk c!Ranboo only remembers post-joining the smp. So, what happened to c!Ranboo the he doesn't remember anything from before the smp?

Also while I think it's fair to assume Ghostboo might remember everything Enderwalk c!Ranboo remembers, that doesn't mean his memory is Perfect. He's still going to have the average imperfect memory the average person has. (I've seen some people attribute the fact that he doesn't remember how he got into the prison with Perfect Detail with the theory that Ghostboo doesn't remember as much as he says he does)

I'm so curious about how c!Tubbo and c!Wilbur will react to Ghostboo,,, it's like, at the top of my mind rn

Clearly I'm on Ghostboo brainrot lmao

I wonder how the whole thing between c!Tommy, c!Wilbur and c!Dream is gonna go down.. that seems like a whole mess waiting to happen I'm very intrigued

I really want c!Tommy and c!Eryn to be like, brothers in arms. Similarly to the way c!clingyduo was but obviously different and special in their own way

Thinking about c!Tommy being so devasted about c!Ranboo dying... and now Ghostboo is here. The way that would feel having already been through something similar with c!Wilbur... I'm sad

The allium :(((

I think it's really cool how c!Quackity seems to have some new perspective on life. He's calmed down a little. I'm sad he lost Slime in the process, but I am glad for the character development. I'm excited for Big Brother Big Q content lol

Wait,, more c!Wilbur and c!Quackity rival content but this time for the position of c!Tommys big brother lmao

Probably not going to happen (maybe) but it is funny to think about

c!Tommy's conflicted feelings about c!Wilbur are so understandable but god I'm so sad about it. I hope one day they can sort out their issues and be together as brothers in a healthy way again

c!Clingyduo content when

I love that everyone believed c!Tommy. Like even if someone didn't help him they Believed him, that's so important to me considering so many of them don't even know what Specifically happened in exile

I have thoughts on c!Phil and the Syndicate and Doomsday and L'manberg but I actually do want to make a seperate post for that. But I'm running out of time on my break so that'll be later

[drawnship]

Through the Eyes of a Child

HAIIIIIII I posted a clingyduo fic based on season 2 of the dsmp!! Please check it out if you’re interested, it would mean the world to me!! /nf

Words: 2,018

Tags: Abuse, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Heavy Angst, Depressed TommyInnit, Suicidal Thoughts, Emotional Manipulation

Summary: The question sits heavy on his tongue before he asks it, and his chest feels right when it leaves his lips. “Would you go back to your younger self and tell him to never have met me?”

“Why would you ask that?” Tubbo responds quickly, Tommy thinks he hears panic in the other boy's voice. But he ignores it in favor of picking at the bottom of his shirt. The seams were tearing apart between his finger tips, he was practically wearing rags at this point. “Tommy, why the hell would you ask that?”

“‘Dunno… Wouldn’t you want to save yourself from me? The anger we feel towards each other? The questions around us? The pain we put each other through?”

“No.”

Tommy was sitting on the edge of his bridge in the nether, staring down at the lava with a dull look in his eyes. The firey orange liquid called out to him, enticing him to jump into the sweet abyss.

And he wants to, he really does. He’s done everything he wanted to already. Hung out with Mexican Dream, spent the day with Drista. But for some reason he just can’t bring himself to do it.

So he sits.

No one had come to visit him today, no one ever does. But not even Ghostbur or Dream came to see him. He hasn’t seen Ghostbur in a week, and Dream just hasn't shown up. He’s sure the man would come eventually, he understood Dream was busy and couldn’t be around him at every waking moment. But he still missed the man, in a way.

Dream was his only friend after all.

Maybe that’s why he hasn’t gone through with it yet, he didn’t want to disappoint Dream. Or maybe he was just hopeful someone would actually come visit him. Like Phil, or Big Q, or Ranboo, or even Vikkstar!

Maybe even Tubbo.

Who was he kidding, Tubbo didn’t want to visit him. Tubbo didn’t care about him, if he did then he would’ve already come to see him. Because no one cares anymore. Especially not Tubbo. That’s why he was fucking exiled and not in the Dream SMP with his friends, not in L’Manburg…

Sighing, Tommy picks at a hole in his pants as he stares into the lava. He was so incredibly tired, of everything really. He was tired of the pity gifts, he was tired of everyone laughing at him behind his back and in front of his face, he was tired of waking up every morning, and most of all he was just tired.

He misses Dream. The man always kept him company, never pitying him or treating him like a baby. He even let him keep his pickaxe and trident, he thought Dream was so cool for that. Sure, he was a little mean. Especially with the whole pit thing, and sly remarks about no one caring about him. But he was Tommy’s friend. And that’s what mattered.

Hell, he even left his armor and tools in a pit back in Logstedshire for Dream to destroy. He hoped the man appreciated it, he didn’t even have to tell Tommy to do it this time!

But he thinks he misses his old friends more. He misses scamming people with Fundy, and talking about drugs with Quackity, and pulling pranks on everyone, but more than anything he misses Tubbo. The Tubbo before he was president, and maybe even the Tubbo before Schlatt.

The familiar buzz of a nether portal cuts through his thoughts, he frowns when he realizes it’s coming from the community portal. Bubbling excitement in his stomach and anxious thoughts make him wonder if Dream is finally coming to see him today, or maybe even a new visitor!

Though it could also just be someone going mining or traveling somewhere else. The thought disappoints him immensely, and he silently cursed at himself for making everything about himself once again.

Turning to face the portal, he waits to see… well, anyone really.

He was expecting to see Dream. Or maybe even Sam, possibly even Ranboo.

What he wasn’t expecting to see was Tubbo.

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[sapphire-innit]

DRISTAAAAA TIMEEE

VOD: TommyInnit Speaks To Dream’s Sister AGAIN

(rp): Drista!! I love this chaotic child and am looking forward to seeing the children bully each other lmao. I especially love the mythos around Creative mode, and that the most benevolent god on the Dream SMP is just as likely to ban you as hand you a shulker box lol.

I do wonder how in character cc!Tommy is going to be able to stay during this stream: on one hand he’s a master at staying in character even during lh moments, and on the other Exile arc is some Dark Shit and Dristas like what, 14?? Overall I expect this to be one of the lighter streams, with a smattering of moments where we remember that, oh right, Tommy’s pretty actively suicidal at this point and he sees this as one of his last hurrahs.

Speaking of our boy Tommy: it's very clear we are getting closer and closer to the infamous pillar. He switches rapidly between Fight and Fawn reflexes and has mostly internalized Dream’s treatment and conditions at this point. The one stand out moment being him calling out Dream killing Mexican Dream last stream, and pointing out he was changing his story even when Dream tried to lie and say he died of “a drug overdose [...] or natural causes”. I’m curious if Tommy is going to bring it up again, and even more curious if he eventually believes Dream about it; something to watch out for, for sure. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that this moment of rebellion happened right after he had someone both stand up for him and spend time with him that wasn’t actively hostile or going to end (supposedly, at least by intention)

Hey we didn’t start off drowning for once!! cc!Tommy was also singing, though that could have been mostly out of character as well. Still, remarkably in a better mood, he even mentions having an appetite! You love to see it, and it's clearly because he’s looking forward to Drista’s visit

He’s building a log tower and on one hand, Tommy building Towers is a natural state of being, and on the other…. I know the pillar is coming and I am scared

A mention of the Anti-Dream hole… I still worry about when exactly and how Dream is going to find it. Still, I’m glad it exists, both for Tommy having a space for things important to him, as well as what it represents about his mental state re:not giving over completely to Dream

DRISTA!!!! LOL she was already online we didn't even see her join LOL. CHAOS GREMLIN she just flew over in creative mode and started wrecking shit, as is her right lmaoooo

“You massive jer--, (quieter) whats a nicer way…, YOU MASSIVE DICKHEAD” oh, Tommy..

I like how he tries to punch her even when shes CLEARLY IN CREATIVE MODE ADSADASD

The violence inherent in fourteen year olds,,,, adsfsadfsdfds

I hate this conversation why is this the conversation asdffdsfsd TEENAGERS

DREAM YOUR NOT EVEN A TEENAGER WHY ARE YOU FOLLOWING THE SAME LOGIC

Well SHE can destroy the obsidian asdfsdfds She just Spleefs

“What would Dream do” Probably worse lets be honest

Is he actually gonna go back to L’manburg?? I don’t believe it but I also want :(

Again with the stabbing

AND DOWN HE GOEEEESSSS

“I have the fork, but I'm also killing you” afsafsdfdsf Tommy why are you wearing your good shit omg

Lol cc!Dream trying to defend his character for mocking Tommy’s accent adsfsdfds “I would NEVER” in the totally not believable tone lmaoooo

DID SHE REALLY GO AT HIM WITH A FORK I'M FUCKING DYING DSAFDADSFDS

“I will take it from you and I’ll kill him”... I have so many thoughts about how this works in lore. Is Drista possessing Dream? He can kick her out clearly, but she still has God Powers…

Lol and now SHES mocking his accent lmaoooo (... is it bad she sounded pretty close to me? lol)

Adsfdsfswd casual chaos Drista just broke the Nether Portal

Asking Drista to stop destroying things is a big ask to be honest lmaoo. Also she seems to be at least somewhat informed that ‘Dream is not supposed to be nice to Tommy’ or at least seemed hesitant to do /weather clear

GOD THE LAVA BUCKETS AND THE POTION OF HARMING adsfsdfsdf

“Tommy [beheaded him] actually… and killed Mexican Dream” Dream you motherfucker

“How to Sex 3” THE PANIK!!!!!! From Both cc!Dream and Tommy!!! This server is Not Child Friendly lol (Doesn’t…. That not even include sex things…. afasfsd)

Honestly I can’t stop smiling this is so wholesome somehow even with all the cursing and violence

Pigstep IS a bop, Tommy is right

“Just let him, just let him this one time” :(

“Tommy I still have the Fork” Drista totally willing to stab her brother to visit L’manburg

HE TOOK THE FORK ASDASDAS

Yes, closing your eyes will totally protect you from Forks lol

“I don’t need school, I dropped out” Is this Lore Crumbs, is this Lore

HEYYYY ITS THE BEDROCK, the one piece of bedrock he has lol, I think he still has that in current day right?

Drista is writing her name in BEDROCK adsfsdfds “I’m not going to be able to get rid of that actually” “That's the Point”

LOL SHe also recognized the burrito as from Mos lmaooo

Somehow “I really want to go to the other place.. I don’t know why he won’t let you” hit hard… it was def ooc, and she doesn’t have the full context, but still… its just someone else wanting and asking for Tommy to be able see L’manburg…

Afsdfsd the Small Gasp when she spleefs herself omgg

HES THERE!!! HES THERE!!!!!! L’MANBURG!!!!!!

Punz!!! WHY!!!! Were you there bc Drista might let Tommy through, was this a safeguard for the LORE. Also he’s currently working for Dream directly right, as a merc?

Drista trying to save Tommy!!!! Punz why are you winning a fight with someone in creative adfsadfsd He’s too good lol

They have negotiated a visit… I’m so emotional I wasn’t expecting this…. No one told me we got a real L’manburg visit !

BIG Q SHES FOURTEEN!!! Omg they didn’t tell him it was Drista. BIG Q!!! BIG Q DON’T SELL HER DRUGS

“He was Naked” good for you Drista, good for you. There’s something so hilarious about Drista just stabbing Quackity over and over again cause she’s uncomfortable lol (as is her right)

LOL THE FINAL KILL WITH MAGIC WHEN HE’S ALREADY DROWNING IM

Wha --- what video was it????? What is this Tommy picture on the Technoganda???

….”are you sure I’m allowed here” Dream’s conditioning is strong :(

“At many minute I could get mugged” To be Fair Tommy, that was true before

Did Tommy just suggest spawning in a Wither asdfsdfds

DRISTA DOG ARMY!!!! Aww and Tommy has one too~

THE BENCH!! THE HOUSE!!! Aaaaaaaaa He’s sitting on the bench nature is HEALING

AAAAAAAA A BLAZE!!!! Pfffft

…. Who destroyed the front of Tommys house?

,,,,Drista what are you doing with that soULSAND

“OK we'll turn on him” adsfsdfsd

OH HEY TECHNO!!! Lol “Oh god he meant me” fucking mood big man

……. Tubbo hallucination……… fuck

LOL HE COMBAT LOGGED “YOU CALL THAT COMBAT” I'M

To be fair, logging against a /kill is probably the only way to get away lmao

…...F

“Getting thrown off a cliff is literally how Theseus died!!” lol its also hilarious to me that Tommy def does not remember being called that. Personally I don't think it fits him super well anyway, but I do like it as something Techno calls Tommy, that shows how much he misjudges Tommy's character and intentions. No heroes here, just a kid trying to do good by their friends and what they care about

Techno actually looking up how to kill someone in creative mode

…. :( I just want my actual clingyduo content this is meeeeannn

OH HEY TECHNO …. You fucker he would and it would be HILARIOUS (get mad if Drista opped Techno that is lol)

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IS THIS WHY THEY’RE BEDROCK BROS????? BECAUSE THEY BOTH HAVE DRISTA BEDROCK??????????????????????????

HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS ???

LOL TRUE DUO SUPREMACY TUBBO’S GOT TECHNO'S BEDROCK

Oh F Techno got him with the Obliterator lmaoooo

“I have 114 levels PLEASE” asdfdasfsdf

LOL Tubbo with the TNT there's our nuke boy, I'll take my crumbs where I can get them

THE SHULKER HOLY SHIT

“Don't let someone get it!!”” ADSFDSAFSDFDS they all tuRN CC REAL QUICK WHEN THE SHULKER BOXES COME OUT

Awesamdudes like: MORE PLEASE AFDASFDSF

Techno immediately snitching about Elytra and dRISTA GETTING THE ACHIEVEMENT

EVERYONE SNITCHING IN CHAT I'M!!!! DREAMS REACTION ASDFSDFDSF

Drista being the chaotic giver of illegal gifts is so fucking good I'M THRIVING

THE RUN ON PUNZ !!!! omg

Also can we just take a minute to appreciate Tommy being allowed around people <3 <3 This is so wholesome and good and chaotic as all hell

“I thought I was Tom Cruz for like a whole week” ...TOMMY??

LOL SHE BANNED TECHNO OMG

Dristas on a banning Rampage afsdfsdf

BAN GOGGY OMGGG

Omg shes actually making a wITHER DASDASDFAS

Oh no poor Tubbo I didn’t know he was liVE

319k viewers jeezus

Awwwww Techno hyping up Wilbur's song :) that's so sweet actually

…………….Fuck you Dream :( saw the chance to Twist the Knife in c! And TOOK IT

LOL THE FUCKING FORK IS THE BEST BIT LOLLLL

Lol ironically the Bedrock bros song is the oNE COPYRIGHTED ONE, god why did Minecraft ever copyright Pigstep what a shit move honestlyyy

Pigstep fucking goING TO TECHNO LOLLLLLL “this is the most powerful item on the server since it DMCA’s people”

LOL PUNZ TRYING TO STEAL ANOTHER SHULKER

Poor Sam he actually has to BUILD give this man a SHULKER

Lol Everyone wants a shulker so much

….aww he tried to toss the pigstep disc lmaooo DRISTAS LITERALLY HOLDING IT Scaaaaaammmmed

Drista “I NEED IT ON HAND” So committed to violence !!!

The fucking creepers on the way out omg fuckign PERFECT

LOL TOMMY WASN’T READY FOR THE TURN AROUND ON CURSING LMAO You can tell he's always been the youngest who people aren't sure how much they can curse around lmao He's so soft honestly he talks such a big game and then CRUMBLES when called on it lol

Asfdsfs she fell through the same hole again afsdfsdfsd

Drista has been introduced to a Weapon and she’s gotten ATTACHED lmaooo

Wait HOLD THE PHONE Dream has multiple sisters??? Lol

“Yeah I like Shit” Dream: “whAT???”

Bye Drista it’s been nice!!! I hope she had a good time, she seems like a good kid (who is definitely not a content creator lol though she keeps up admirably)

Drista’s one of the few people who can make Tommy speechless lmaooo he looks actually shocked lol

Also first mention of GhostInnit…. cc!Tommy…..

Keep preparing…. Was his original plan to rush Dream even if (maybe especially if…) he died? Fuck man

Also holy shit was this stream right before Quackitys? ? amazing

This was honestly such a BLAST and a really good time, and I can see why its viewed as one of the few breaks we get during Exile :) I feel so refreshed and it was so so nice to have Tommy hanging out in L’manburg having fun with his friends (even if Tubbo was stuck being a Hallucination and Also Banned lol) No deeper insight, I just haven’t stopped smiling for an hour and a half <3

[quillcalamity]

Secret Santa MYCT writing

Title: It’s Snowing!

Characters: c!clingyduo

Tags: nothing major, just some fluff and maybe a some happy crying.

Work count: 1.2 k+

Summary: Tommy decides to visit Tubbo for Christmas Eve and they decided to catch up.

This is a @mcytblrsecretsanta​ lil fic for @canon-arc​! I hope you like it!

It was Christmas eve, and Tommy had decided to pay Tubbo an unprompted visit. It was a brash, unprompted decision that he didn’t entirely think through, but something within him wanted to see his best friend. How long had it been since they had last seen each other? It felt like forever. Hell, maybe they could go visit the bench again and listen to some music, just like the old times. God, how he craved the old times. He wanted to go back to when the server was peaceful, but alas, certain things can’t be helped or changed.

The blond walked towards the general direction of Snowchester, hoping to find the snowy biome where his friend chose to stay. He hadn’t been to Tubbo’s house in ages, it would be nice to stay there for a little while before they left for the bench. He walked for what seemed like forever until he was met with the familiar terrain of Snowchester and its snow-covered landscape. Not too far away, the unmistakable glint of house light being turned on signaled to Tommy that someone was home.

He trudged through the snow, pulling his cardigan closer to his body. It was always so damn cool in Snowchester. He didn’t know how Tubbo managed to live here at all. He let out a frustrated huff, watching his breath condense in the air in front of him before he finally reached his friends’ house. He stood for a moment, a little hesitant to knock on the door. It was a little nerve-wracking. He hadn’t talked to the other in what seemed like forever. It was natural that he was a bit nervous especially considering what had happened.

Enough waiting. He had walked all the way here, and he was insufferably cold. He couldn’t back away now. He took a deep breath and knocked on the door. There was no turning back now. 

Sure enough, the door opened, and before him stood his friend. Tubbo. He stood there for a moment, unable to speak. It was the brunette who spoke first.

“Tommy? It’s been a little while. What brought you here, bossman?”

“I don’t…I don’t know if I’m being honest. I just, I missed talking to you I guess and I thought it would be nice if we went back to the bench and listened to some music, like the old times. Besides, it’s Christmas Eve. We might as well have a little fun! Hell, maybe we could build some snowmen or something.”

The blonde rambled. He wasn’t sure if the other was entirely convinced with the idea but he hoped he would come along anyway. For nostalgia’s sake.

“I mean, sure! I don’t have much to do here. Let’s catch up! But first, get inside. You look like you’re about to become a popsicle. The fireplace is on so you can sit there. I’ll make some hot chocolate before we head out.”

Tubbo responded, moving out of the way to let Tommy in. Tommy rushed into the warm house, plopping himself down in front of the fireplace, pulling his cardigan closer to his body while pulling his legs up to his knees, He wasn’t paying attention as to where Tubbo had gone but he heard the sound of cups clattering and a match being lit. As the brunette had promised, he was making them some hot chocolate.

“Hey, remember the disc war?”

Tommy asked. It was a spur-of-the-moment sentence, but he was not one for staying on topic. The blond still recalled the antics they went on to protect his two discs, Cat and Mellohi. It was quite fun. He would have given almost anything to go back to that simpler time. Who knows, maybe if everything decides to sort itself out, the two of them could return to their silly antics!

“Yeah, of course, I do! It was the first major thing I participated in when I came here.”

And that right there was the catalyst for their conversation. They went on and on about the memories they had and shared. Tubbo talked about Manburg and what it was like living there as a double agent. What it felt like when he lost one of his lives. Tommy decided to open up a little about his exile and what it was like being stuck with Dream.

It was a difficult conversation, but the both of them enjoyed every single moment of it nonetheless. They clung to each other for comfort. It was what they did. The conversation had ended with the both of them huddled together underneath a patterned blanket that Tommy had haphazardly knitted quite a while back, drinking their hot chocolate and just leaning against each other.

“Now is about as good a time as ever to go to the bench, don’t ya think? Come on, I’ll race you there.”

Tommy finally said, a mischievous little glint catching his eye as he grinned and began to make a mad dash for the door, giggling as he ran. Tubbo froze for a moment before running after him, trying to catch up.

“HEY! WAIT UP! THAT’S UNFAIR!”

He yelled, laughing along with his friend. They ran and ran and ran until their lungs were sputtering and their knees were weak and yet they ran some more until they finally reached the bench. The place they sat together through thick and thin, planning, talking, and joking. It was their most sacred place. It was a place reserved for them and their friendship only. Nothing could change that fact. They eagerly threw themselves down onto the bench and let out tired shaky laughs and breathes.

“Made it here first”

The blonde said through huffs, watching his breath condense before him.

“Absolutely not, I know damn well I got here first!”

The other replied, letting himself catch his own breath. He leaned his head back and focused on his breathing, letting his brunette hair slip away from his face and reveal the collection of scars that formed on his face after the festival at Manburg.

The two of them sat there for a moment, listening to each other rushed breathes before Tommy finally decided to speak up once more.

“You don’t have a music disc with you by any chance? I brought a jukebox with me so we can listen to some music like the old times.”

The blonde said, getting up to place the jukebox on the floor before them, like where he always used to put it.

“Oh! I do actually! Hold on let me just-”

Tubbo said, walking up to the jukebox before rummaging through his pockets, looking for the disc he had brought. Finally, his hands settled on the shape of a disc and he pulled it out before carefully placing it into the jukebox.

“There!”

The two of them plopped back down onto the bench and listened to the music that emanated from the jukebox before them.

“This sounds pretty shit.”

“Yeah….well, can’t do much about that bossman.”

“Fair, fair. Hey, wait, it’s snowing!”

“Huh, you’re right! It is! Hey, how about we make a snowman when there is enough snow.”

“Let’s do it!”

The two of them went on and on, playing and laughing and talking in the snow for what seemed like ages before finally returning to Snowchester, where the two fell asleep in front of the fireplace, huddled in their own blankets. It was a soft ending for the two, one they deserved. They had been through so much together. It was only fair they had some time to enjoy themselves.

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I love my friends, they make me feel alive again, or at least they remind me that I'm not even dead

I am kicking and screaming i must put this one and another Esmp fic out before tomorrow and I am very Nyoom rn so I'm sorry if this one isn't as good, I really liked the way it turned out so here have some clingyduo fluff bc yeah I can writing things that aren't angst?? What? no one dies and their best friend holds them in their arms this time?? fuckin crazy. /lh

TW- Abandonment anxiety, ptsd WC: 2530 words Ao3: :3

It was Tubbo's birthday today. Tommy had been planning something for weeks- grinding, mining, stealing, going through ax after ax getting wood. He even asked Foolish for some help, and after those weeks, he had finally built a perfect replica of the L'manberg bee house. It wasn't in L'manberg, of course, but Tommy was sure Tubbo wouldn't care.

He didn't fill the basement with wolves, but he did get two or three bees in there- he named them. Beeinnit, Ranbee, and Tubbee. Tubbo and his two best friends, but bee form. Tommy was still Tubbo's best friend, right? He knew that Ranboo was more than a friend to Tubbo, the two were married, Ranboo couldn't technically hold both titles, and Ranboo was too dumb- he needs to stop blaming Ranboo. Sitting in the bee dome, planting a few last flowers- cornflowers, poppies, sunflowers, and white tulips, Tommy realizes that he needs to stop blaming Ranboo. He needs to. Because Ranboo was a good… enderguy. And he was good for Tubbo. He had asked Tubbo if Ranboo made him happy- Tubbo nodded, and that was good enough for him. He needs to stop blaming Ranboo, and start looking at himself. Because if he and Tubbo aren't talking as much, of course, he's gonna find someone else to talk to. And he's learning to not blame himself for everything, he does blame Dream for that, but this isn't Ranboo's fault and it isn't Tubbo's. And Tommy knows that he and Tubbo are still gonna be friends. It's been him and Tubbo since the beginning, that's what he said before fighting Dream. And Tommy knows that he and Tubbo will have each other's back. He's just overthinking this, but he is still gonna try and give Tubbo everything he wants or needs. And try to give him the world that he deserves. He's gonna try and make the world a better place for him. And a bee dome is a nice, easy start. It was more tedious than anything- thank prime for Eret stealing the blueprints before Doomsday. They had the plans for every building ever created- they let Tommy have the one for the bee dome. They even brought over the bee that would become Tubbee. Tommy… wanted to forgive Eret. And he would. Eventually. Tommy kind of did that before going off to fight Dream- Eret was the last person he talked to. And Eret looked so relieved when Tommy said that he thought they were the true king. They had been there for him and Tubbo. That was good enough for him. He did think that Tubbo, Ranboo, and Eret, even, were his best friends. He knew that Puffy was his friend, and her griefing his house was just some friendly pranks, and he enjoyed having something to do. Shit was getting too buddy-buddy around here. Wilbur… he wanted to be Wilbur's friend- brother. He wanted the Wilbur who started L'manberg, he wanted the Wilbur who would sit down and play a song. He knew that Wilbur was still there. Somewhere. He stops to touch the petal of a cornflower next to him. Blue and yellow are on opposite ends of the color wheel, but they mean the same thing to Tommy. He loves, and misses, his best friends. They make him a better person. He doesn't have to be the bad guy.

Tommy shields his face, the sun setting and glaring into his eyes through a window. It's almost night, shit. He had put enough lanterns and shroomlights in the dome that mobs wouldn't spawn, but he wasn't so sure about outside. There was some pathing, courtesy of Foolish, and there was some light around, but he wasn't sure. Because mobs weren't the only thing that darkness hid.

Tubbo whispers to you: I'm here boss man

Tommy smiles. He had asked Tubbo to meet him at the community house, after his birthday party in the mansion- Tommy had left early to put the flowers in and told tubbo to meet him there whenever he was ready.

/msg Tubbo: k I gotta do one last thing

/msg Tubbo: be there in a sec

He's almost happier it's night, it'll look a lot cooler from a distance. He plants one more cornflower next to a hive. He brushes his hands off on his pants, and then brushes his pants off, and checks his reflection in the window. It wasn't too far of a run back to the community house, the dome was just to the side of Eret's castle.

"Tubbzo!" Tommy runs up behind his friend, who, unfortunately, had his back turned.

"Tommy!! You scared the shit out of me, fuck you-" Tubbo said, Tommy laughing.

"You fucking jumped, like, 30 feet in the air," Tommy says, a shit-eating grin on his face.

"Fuck you," Tubbo repeats, lightly hitting Tommy in the arm, beginning to giggle as well.

"Come on, I spent so fucking long on this so you'd better like it," Tommy says, beginning to drag Tubbo out by his forearm.

"Yeah, is Ranboo already there?" Tubbo says, walking at pace with the other.

"What? I haven't seen Ranboo since the party." Tommy says, a pit in his stomach opening up.

"Huh, he said he was going to go help you with my birthday gift. You never saw him at all?" Tubbo says, voice laced with worry.

"No, was he going anywhere before coming to me? And- and I never told him where this was- only Foolish knew. So I don't even know how he'd find me." Tommy says, his grip loosening on Tubbo's forearm so he could pull away if he wanted. Tubbo didn't.

"No, he did that weird thing though, he calls me Tubbo and talks to me like you or Foolish would." Tubbo walks a little closer to Tommy.

"What's off about that?"

"Ranboo usually calls me beloved or snow angel, and he'd talk to me like a husband would, yknow?"

"He calls you 'snow angel?'" Tommy screws up his nose.

"Oh, piss off," Tubbo smiles a little.

"But still, we can look for him on our way? Unless you wanna look for him now, the be-irthday gift can wait."

"A beirthday gift, you say?" Tubbo says, smiling.

"Oh, piss off," Tommy mimics Tubbo, "but seriously, if you wanna look for him we can." Tommy stops and turns to face Tubbo, giving a reassuring squeeze.

"No, no, it's- you made it, whatever it is, I'm sure he's fine, and I'm sure he'd want me to go ahead," Tubbo says, looking up and smiling slightly.

"If you're sure. Because fucking Prime, this shit took so fucking long and I had to practically beg Foolish to help…" Tommy continues to talk to Tubbo, trying to distract him from his currently missing husband. Eventually, the moon high in the clouds, they get to the start of the path.

"There's no way you did this." Tubbo laughs.

"I didn't- Foolish did the path but I built the actual thing," Tommy says, letting go of Tubbo's arm, "I'll race you!" and off he sprints.

"NO FAIR YOU KNOW WHERE IT IS!" Tubbo laughs from behind him.

"BYE-BYE BEE- boy-" Tommy skids to a stop, not long after rounding a corner of trees. He can see flames, high over the tree line, the light eating away and the surrounding stars, in the back of his mind he hears explosions- there aren't any explosions, Tommy, it's just a forest fire, there isn't any TNT, there isn't any TNT-

"Oh, is that… supposed to be on fire-" Tubbo stops next to him, Tubbo's hand on Tommy's forearm this time.

"No- no it-" Tommy straightens up, and he catches a glimpse of someone running away- a figure behind the trees, he blinks, and it's gone-

"Tommy?" Tubbo turns to look where Tommy was looking- where the figure was just moments before.

"N- nothing- Tubbo get- get behind me-" Tubbo's grip tightens on Tommy's arm as he pulls Drista's dagger out of his inventory, holding it in his other hand. Together, they creep up the path, until what's left of the bee house comes into view. It’s engulfed in flames, and all of Tommy’s hard work is being eaten away before his eyes. Tommy curses, puts the dagger away, and pulls out his water bucket.

"You've got-" Tommy motions at the bucket

"Yeah- and c'mere," Tubbo says, pulling on Tommy’s arm, throwing a fire res pot up. Tubbo lets go of Tommy’s arm as the shield washes over them, Tommy's skin feeling tingly. Together, they manage to put out the fire and put out a few trees that had caught before it spread anywhere else. They end in the dome, the roof all but gone, one of five beehives on the top floor remain.

"Oh, Tommy-" Tubbo begins to say, sadness heavy in his voice.

"Yeah, yeah, I spent fucking ages on it. Can't have shit- the gods must hate-" Tommy begins bitterly, collecting the last of the water, and putting it back in his hot bar. At least before his knees buckle under an unanticipated pile of weight. He hears Tubbo laughing from right behind him- he jumped on Tommy’s back, “Fuckin- Get off of me-” Tommy laughs, too. He doesn't mean anything by it, there's no malicious tone to anything he says to Tubbo- and Tubbo's one of the few people who actually understand that.

"I know exactly what this is-" Tubbo says, standing straight, a hand on his hip.

"What it was supposed to be." Tommy, out of habit, mirrors Tubbo. "See, why can't we have nice things? Fuckin, everyone else gets cool buildings and kingdoms and shit why the fuck can't we have a bee dome in the middle of the woods- what, why are you laughing" Tommy gestures vaguely at the rubble before raising a quizzical eyebrow at Tubbo's silent giggles.

"What it was supposed to bee," Tubbo says, cackling, and Tommy groans.

"Augh Tubbo, now is not the time-" Tommy rolls his eyes

"It was never meant to bee-" Tubbo laughs harder, clutching his stomach, leaning on Tommy for support. Tommy finds himself laughing a little bit,

"Ok, yeah, that was a good one- you wanna bee a hero, Tommy?" Tommy mimics Techno in a high-pitched voice- sending Tubbo into hysterics.

"We- We-hehehe- We would rather die than give into you and joi- join your SMBee-" Tubbo says between fits of laughter, making Tommy bark out a wheeze, "That was- was beeasier than I thought-"

"My unfinished symphobee-"

"TOMMY-"

"You can't control who lives who dies who-"

"-tells your storbee?"

"Yeah-hahaha! F- for Tommy to bee exiled-"

"That was so fucking stupid why'd I do that-" Tubbo shakes his head, his laughter subsiding.

"Because that's what you thought was best, you had no way of knowing what he was gonna- what he was gonna do to me-" Tommy says, the tone becoming solemnly serious.

"-If I had known I never would have done it, I would have told Dream to shove it up his ass, you know that right?" Tubbo says, reaching for Tommy's hand.

"Of course. We're best friends, I know you'd never do that to me." Tommy squeezes his hand. Tubbo lets out a breath, and he looks like a massive weight has been lifted off his shoulders. As much as he feels guilty admitting it, Tommy's glad Tubbo's been worrying about that. It means that he cares.

"Should he go in there and see what we can rebuild?" Tubbo says, rocking back and forth on his feet.

"If any, but- the bees!" Tommy breaks into a sprint, tugging Tubbo along with him with a yelp.

"Bees?" Tubbo easily gets his footing as they fly down the stairs, and all of Tommy's breath leaves in a sigh of relief. He can see three balls of yellow and black in a patch of flowers.

"Oh, thank prime," Tommy says.

"Oh, the flowers are L'manburg colors!" Tubbo reaches down to pick a poppy.

"Yeah… I tried to think of as many things as possible because I know how much L'manberg meant to you-" Tommy flails his arms out- Tubbo launching himself at Tommy- into a familiar hug, their laughter bouncing off the walls.

"It's fine, Tommy," Tubbo says, his voice bright- and Tommy becomes coldly aware of a memory- the last time Tubbo had roughly tangled him into a hug.

What am I without you?

Yourself?

"Tommy?" Tubbo's pulled back, a- at this point- very familiar concern on his face.

"I'm alright- just, bad memories. I'll be alright-" Tommy shakes his head, pulling Tubbo back into the hug.

"Are you sure? We can stop for a second- sit and talk?" Tubbo says softly from Tommy's shoulder.

"No- not on your birthday, I promise- I promise I'll be alright, this is nothing I haven't done- we haven't done before," Tommy says back, tucking his head into Tubbo's shoulder, trying to chase the pit in his stomach away.

"You sure?" Tommy can feel Tubbo's hand smooth down his hair. Tommy just hmms in response. "Do you think they- the bee's are asleep?"

"What do you mean?" Tommy looks up, he can't see the bees, but he doesn't want to leave the hug.

"The smoke, you think it put them to sleep?" Tubbo muses.

"Maybe," Tommy mutters. "Fuckin- I spent days on this." it was more of an inconvenience than anything at this point. "Do you wanna rebuild it?"

"Not right now, I'm tired, boss man." Tubbo sighs. Tommy realizes how tired he is, too, the familiar ache in his bones.

"Me too, Tubbzo, me too. Let's go home?" He says, making no move to back out of the hug. Tubbo just hums. And so they stand there, until they figure out they can shuffle together- at least to the stairs. Tommy laughs at the image this must make. Two boys, one half-cow, one half-dead, who would rather tear up the ground and trample flowers than break their hug. By the time they do eventually get to the stairs, they both are laughing. Tommy notices that he laughs a lot more whenever he's with Tubbo. He also notices he gets tired a lot quicker. Puffy would say something about Tommy feeling safe around Tubbo, enough so that he shows emotion and lets his guard down, but Tommy knows that. He yawns, he is actually really tired. Tubbo yawns too, and they help each other up the stairs and out of what's left of glass and wood. About halfway down the path, Tommy stops and looks over his shoulder, at the space between trees, where he saw-

"Whacha lookin at, big man?" Tubbo asks from beside him.

"Nothing- I thought I saw someone running away from the fire when we first got here- I think maybe they were the one that did it, but I didn't catch their face." Tommy says, half lying. It was true, he didn't catch their face, but he'd know those two glowing eyes anywhere. He knew who it was. No way he was gonna tell Tubbo about it.

Because he was almost sure it was Ranboo.

[chronicallycrow]

Unreality and Imposters

Chapter Two - This is Wrong

Fandom: DSMP

Relationships: SBI as family, Clingyduo, implied Beeduo / Benchtrio

Wordcount: 1101

CW: N/A (Tell me if any apply and they will be added here, though!)

Notes: I got a laptop, which means I feel more comfortable writing and gauging how much I've written! Also, part of this is definitely inspired by the FNAF books, haha

Ao3 Link

Tubbo answered his phone, rubbing his eyes. He had been taking a nap when he'd gotten a call from Phil. Tommy was usually the one to call him, so he was immediately a bit concerned. When he heard the panic in Phil's voice, he fully woke up. "Tubbo- Have you seen Tommy?" Phil asked, anxiously glancing at Wilbur. They heard the door open, and Wilbur left to talk to Techno. "No, why?" Tubbo asked, moving to fully get up and slip on a pair of shoes. This couldn't be good. "We got in a fight and he left. We haven't seen him since, we-" Phil took a breath in, trying to calm himself and slow his speech. "We thought he might have come over to yours. He's not?" He asked, pushing himself off of the couch. Tubbo shook his head - Though Phil couldn't see that. "No, sorry-" "Right, we'll be over in a bit. We need to look for him." "Okay," Tubbo responded, letting out a small yawn as he grabbed a coat. The sun had almost fully set by now.

-

Techno hadn't seen Tommy either. He seemed less worried about it than the other two - At least on the outside. Internally, he was panicking. He had to stay calm, though. He had to stay the rock for his family. He sat in the passenger seat of the car as Phil drove, Wilbur sitting in the back seat, frantically texting anyone else who may have seen Tommy. Nobody had the answer any of them were looking for.

When they got to Tubbo's house he was waiting outside, fully awake now. The chill of outside had pushed any extra sleep from him. The moment he got into the car he could feel the tension. Wilbur was still vigorously tapping at his phone. The silence felt extremely loud. Tubbo wished he had brought his headphones. He was worried about his friend, but the tension and silence in the car made everything feel so much heavier. They weren't even playing any music. Tubbo tried to distract himself by making a beat tapping at his seat. Phil looked extra tired, and- Guilty. He looked guilty.

He pulled out of the driveway and began driving further into the town. Tubbo chewed at the inside of his cheek while he made his beat, trying not to have a panic attack - It was clear to him Wilbur already was. "Tubbo," Wilbur finally spoke, looking at the other. His eyes were bloodshot and glossy, like he had been close to crying for the past couple of hours - He probably had, Tubbo realized. "Is there any place Tommy might've gone we wouldn't know about?" Tubbo glanced out the window, lost in his thoughts for a moment, the glanced at Wilbur. "No, I don't think so- Did you check the forest?" Wilbur shook his head. "We're going to do that when we get back- Right?" Wilbur glanced at the back of the seat Techno was sitting in. He turned his head towards the two and gave a nod. "Yeah."

They sat in silence for awhile again. If the air wasn't so tense, it might've been nice to drive around like this at night. Tubbo remembered times he'd sleep over and him nor Tommy could sleep, so they'd ask Techno to take them on a night drive. It always made them tired. Tubbo usually fell asleep in the car. He couldn't even fathom sleeping now. His phone buzzed, but it wasn't anything important - It gave him an idea, though. "I'm going to call Ranboo." He announced, popping up his contacts and tapping on Ranboo's. It rung out, but he ultimately didn't answer. Tubbo let out a groan, letting his head fall against the window. He could feel tears welling up in his eyes. He took a shaky breath in and texted Ranboo.

-

After about an hour, the four had scouted the whole town. They'd gone to Tommy's favorite Mcdonald's, to all of the parks around, anywhere they could think Tommy might be - But he wasn't anywhere. Techno was starting to break. Wilbur was having a full on panic attack, shaking and trying to use breathing exercises to calm himself. Phil looked like he wanted to lay his head on the dashboard and fade away. Tubbo had actually began to cry.

Phil took a breath in, glancing back at Wilbur and Tubbo. "Tubbo, do you want to go home tonight?" Phil asked, his voice raspy and laced with pain. Tubbo shook his head. "Can I stay with you, if Tommy comes back?" Phil gave a nod. "Yeah, of course." With that, he started to drive home. It was clear he was trying to force himself to slow down, as it seemed like every time he let his mind wander the car would speed up. A couple of times he'd be tapped by Techno, telling him to slow down. It took them five minutes less than it should have to get home.

When they got home, something - No, someone, was sitting on the porch steps. Tubbo immediately shot up, getting out of the car. Phil and Techno followed suite, borderline running to the figure on the steps. Wilbur got out, and immediately felt like something was off.

There Tommy was, sitting on the step, looking up at them. "I tried to go in, but you guys locked the door!" Tommy- No, that wasn't Tommy, his voice was off. This wasn't right. This- This thing, it stood up, hugging Tubbo and Phil and Techno and - Looking at Wilbur. It's eyes were off. He shivered- That. Was no this brother. No way in hell was that his brother.

Everyone else went inside before Wilbur - Besides this thing, "Not-Tommy" he decided to call it. Wilbur walked up to it. It seemed slightly too tall to be Tommy, its features were slightly off. Wilbur blinked at it, then shoved his hands in his pockets. "I don't know what you are, but you're not my brother." He stated, shoving past the thing and into the house. "What do you mean?" It called out. It did a good impression of Tommy, but it wasn't spot on. Wilbur scoffed.

"I'm going to find out what you did to my brother, and you're going to pay." Wilbur stated, glaring at the thing before descending up the stairs to his room. He pulled out his phone and tried to text Tommy. The message didn't send. He let out a groan, hoping his brother was okay. He was going to get to the bottom of it and save him, no matter what it cost.

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CCs who've treated the themes/subject matter of c!discduo's dynamic with a lil respect:

dream & tommy (cowriters of exile & further c!discduo plot points)

wil

sam

jack

puffy

quackity

sapnap

eret

ranboo

tubbo

hannah

eryn

and that's just off the top of my head. i could be forgetting someone.

it's not hard to respect the serious themes of c!discduo's dynamic. "a lil respect" means just two, easily-doable things:

1) don't say horrible stuff about the dynamic ic that isn't intended to be incorrect.

c!wil and c!jack have said some awful stuff about c!discduo. c!wil has said a lot of those things to c!tommy's face. c!jack puts equal blame on both of c!discduo for how their conflicts have impacted the wider server. and that's fine, great even, bc the whole point behind these words is that they're wrong and we the audience know they're wrong!

2) don't say horrible stuff about the dynamic ooc.

cc!quackity has said some odd, incorrect stuff about c!tommy before, but never anything that makes light of what c!dream did to him.

it boils down to one thing, honestly: "don't legitimately victim-blame c!tommy."

tubbo is a good example of someone who has been respectful in both what he has and what he hasn't said. set aside, for a moment, c!tubbo standing with and supporting c!tommy against c!dream, and just think about the period right after c!tommy was released from Pandora's. c!tommy was incredibly toxic, and things between c!clingyduo were super tense. but c!tubbo never ever said anything about c!tommy deserving anything c!dream had done to him. and that's all it takes. really, that's all!

it is not some grand and unrealistic expectation to want the CCs to handle heavy subject matter with basic care. look at that list again. look at the examples again. look at how many of them have already done it, and look at how they've done it. look at all those amateur writers/actors who've recognised that in this roleplay they take part in just because they want to have fun with their friends, some themes have emerged that are sensitive and should be treated as such.

and if a CC doesn't want to handle the heaviness of c!discduo's dynamic at all, not even a little bit, they don't have to. they just need to recognise the dynamic as indeed heavy and then stay away from it:

they can have their own conflicts with c!dream or c!tommy and not chime in on the c!discduo dynamic, even if it's relevant. the people in the disc war finale weren't all there to help c!tommy. bc the disc finale wasn't just about c!tommy. it was also about c!tubbo. it was also about the server as a whole. another good example is the prison break—when everyone was waiting outside to try to stop c!dream and c!tommy had a breakdown about it, not everyone comforted and promised to protect him like c!sapnap did.

OR

they can be uninvolved with both of c!discduo, even when the conflict between the two of them overlaps with server-wide conflict. like how c!techno and c!phil weren't in the disc finale at all, even though there were spaces for some of c!techno's attachments.

nobody is saying that the CCs need to take classes or read books or get sensitivity training. the bar of respect we are talking about here is not at some virtually unattainable height. the bar is on the floor. the only thing the CCs have to do to reach it is not decide to grab a shovel.

[aurieeeeeenyx]

hhhh,,, i am So Tired,,,

have some clingyduo (a snippet from my latest wip, unedited)

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"tommy, can you sing for me?"

the question is whispered late into the night, long after the sound of slow, even breaths has filled the tiny little cave-turned-barracks. something creaks nearby as tommy shifts around, presumably to face him, and mumbles back a sleepy "hm?"

tubbo reaches over and laces his fingers with his best friend's, and tommy squeezes back. "sing something," he says, hushed. "please."

"right now? big t, it's--there's people sleeping."

"we can go outside."

"but it's cold outside." still, tommy doesn't hesitate to clamber out of his cot.

"we can go to another cave instead, then. or take your blanket with you. or both."

tommy grumbles a bit even as he lets go of tubbo's hand to gather his blanket in his arms, and tubbo does the same. "c'mon," he sighs, once tubbo's wrapped the thin blanket around himself like a cloak, "let's go to the storage area."

"alright."

the two of them creep out of barracks on tiptoe, weaving--or trying to, at least--around the cots strewn on the floor. tubbo bumps into several along the way, and hisses out a sorry! when he accidentally pokes someone in the back with his foot. by the time he makes it out, tommy is waiting for him already, and they set off through the winding pathways of pogtopia.

"don't fall."

"i know."

tommy holds tubbo's hand as they shuffle down the steps carved into the side of the ravine, and tubbo trails his other hand down the wall as they descend. once they reach the bottom, it's only another few minutes before tommy stops and sits down on a chest with a thud.

"ok, big t. what do you want me to sing?"

tubbo remembers hearing tommy sing for the first time when they were little and still small enough that the world was just the walk between their houses; he was at tommy's house, then, watching phil slice up a freshly baked loaf of bread, and tommy had wandered past humming a simple tune under his breath. tommy had been surprised when tubbo asked about it later, then embarrassed, but tubbo could see the delighted glint in his eye.

he remembers hearing tommy sing when it was just the two of them a couple years later, on a quick trip to the woods for resources, and tommy had let a few notes slip while he picked through the mossy ground for mushrooms. from one of wilbur's latest songs at the time, the one that he refused to show tubbo until it was done. tommy hadn't caught tubbo's glance.

he remembers hearing tommy sing back at the beginning of the smp, before revolutions and duels and elections and exile from the country he helped found. before everything. he remembers a moment at the bench, after the war, when tommy tipped his head back and smiled to the setting sun and let himself be happy. he remembers waking up one night to find the cot at his side cold and empty, he remembers stumbling out of the barracks calling tommy's name and hoping he hadn't gone far, he remembers hearing a voice drift through the narrow stone walls, my l'manberg, my l'manberg, my l'manberg...

"big t?"

tubbo wraps the blanket tighter around himself and pulls his knees close to his chest, leaning back against the chest tommy's sitting on.

"i dunno. anything you want."

tommy takes a while to pick something to sing, and tubbo waits as the silence stretches on. it's a comfortable silence, the kind of silence just before dawn when the whole world is still. there's a distant clatter of pebbles on wood as a breeze drags through pogtopia, and tommy finally blows out a breath.

"okay," he says, more to himself than tubbo. "okay."

the song is vaguely familiar; tubbo doesn't know the lyrics but tommy lets the words, from a language long forgotten, flow from him easy as breathing. there's an old memory buried somewhere beneath the wandering melody; of crackling fires and warm beds, of moonlight shining through a bright window, of a father teaching his sons the language of his childhood. tubbo thinks he's heard this song once or twice, when he and tommy were young. not from tommy, though. just a quiet voice humming them to sleep after a long day of play, solid and smooth.

tubbo doesn't realize tommy's stopped--or finished, perhaps--until his friend leans forward, bumping his shoulder with his knee. he doesn't say anything.

"that was nice."

"yeah."

silence settles again, and tubbo wriggles out of the blanket to sit next to tommy on the chest. tommy twines their fingers together and tubbo hums lightly, resting his head on tommy's shoulder. a breeze whistles through the ravine. the air is cool on tubbo's face, and he lets himself just breathe: in, out, in, out...

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niki finds them the next morning curled up together with two blankets spread loosely between them.

[elytrafemme]

hi mare :D hope you're doin well!

i haven't done one of these in a while, life has been absolutely insane and i just couldn't find the time to be active on social media much or keep up with fics and stuff. now that things have kinda evened out i'm back for a little chapter review thing on every chapter that's come out (as of right now) since chapter 18. this is gonna be a VERY long ask, i already know now lmao sorry in advance but also buckle up, we're gonna be here for a while.

ch 19:

i loved the way you presented all the information in the beginning of the chapter, that was such a cool way to do that and the perspective and formality of it was really interesting and very different than how you've presented information before so i really enjoyed that!!

“You’re my brother, Tubbo. And I won’t let them take you away.”

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH THEYER HTLIUTERALY BROTHERS NADNJGALHLHAFJ FUCCKKKKK

clingyduo :( they mean so much to me oh my god, also just the way you write their whole friendship and the way that tubbo thinks about it and the way he thinks about tommy is just so accurate and subsequently devastating when he's sort of frantically trying to gather his thoughts and come up with what to say and how to say it and everything and its just kinda heartbreaking man

also the underlying tension between ranboo and tommy in this chapter is very well done. its enough to be stressful and to remind you that its entirely unresolved while showing that tubbo really doesn't know about it at all

“I’ll be anywhere you need me to be.”

i am going to cry real tears fuck you fuck you fuck you he cares so much and he loves so much and hes trying without being asked cause he just wants his friend to be okay, fuck you /lh

by the way there is a song called i exist i exist i exist by flatsound (its on the cs!beeduo playlist i made) that reminds me of them so much. it just occurred to me again and i wanted to mention it here cause of what happened with schlatt and everything. anyway these are the lyrics that i'm thinking of right at this moment:

Baby please, it's the way you speak

Forming words so easily

And I think of the way you think

It keeps me from falling asleep

In that grave I call a bed

Until you called me up and said:

"I haven't stopped crying

My father's been drinking

I need a place to stay

I don't want to be here

He's saying the words that

He promised he would never say

That liquid he consumes

Makes him speak the truth"

that part reminds me of the chapter ( i think its 15?) where tubbo goes home home and its bad and then ranboo comes and picks him up and tubbo has a breakdown and everything. anyway i'm just thinking about that right now and i needed you to know

anyway! reading tubbo's thoughts in this chapter was so goddamn sad, like the uncertain certainty (if that makes sense)?? and also seeing the whole "i'm definitely not gonna be here soon" and "but what if i get to stay?" ideas frantically switching back and forth i was just like :((

i'm worried for my boy

ch 20:

"Ranboo wishes he could take her pain from her. She deserves to be happy, and… and it’s payment, really, for Niki taking him in. He wishes he could do that for her, for Tubbo, for everyone."

ranboo again being the one of the most compassionate and supportive characters i've ever seen. hes got issues and is flawed but i'd be gravely wrong if i ever said he didn't care about everyone he loves with every fiber of his being

i loved the phone call scene, the whole talking about baking stuff and different types of cakes and stuff was sweet. i bake a lot and apprenticed under a chef in a professional kitchen for a year and a half so it was kinda fun to see that stuff talked about :) also ranboo has some based takes on baking, cupcakes are indeed the fucking worst pastry to make and angel food cake is better than sponge

WOAHDF WAIT I WAS TALKING ABOUT THE BAKING BIT AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN:

“You’d make a good husband.”

you caught me off guard there with that queer shit (i love them)

also:

“I… I hear spring is a nice time of year,” Ranboo says softly, half to himself.

In turn, Tubbo’s voice gets a little quieter, too. “Yeah?” and his voice is really nice, Ranboo realizes for the hundredth time. He wonders how Tubbo can even stand Ranboo’s voice, much less like it, especially in comparison. “I usually get allergies, but I’ll take your word for it, Boo. Spring wedding it is.”

“Spring wedding it is.”

i feel unwell i am going to die i am crumbling into dust and floating away in the wind as i write this oh my god they mean so much to me

idk what it is about finding out that ranboo can braid hair from that one bit about him braiding niki's hair before the funeral but it makes me happy

ranboo gender identity crisis, we love a relatable king

both quackity's and tubbo's speeches at the funeral :(

also the couple quackity is sitting next to might be karl and sapnap perhaps cause of the way the one person was comforting him? idk, im just speculating. also i dont remember if they've been mentioned before

"'We will all miss J Schlatt dearly,' the preacher projects"

im sorry but this is such a fucking funny sentence to me, its one of those that makes me think about the idea of really serious stuff being written about people with ridiculous names, probably because this is exactly that. anyway, serious moment but that bit was funny

FUNDY???

also i would love to know how you came up with ranboo's dead name, my guess is that it was a play on the heterochromia thing (editing this before i send it and i realized you actually sort of answered this in the chapter notes but i will leave it in here anyway)

the imagery and metaphors in that part where ranboo has a bit of a breakdown/trauma response/panic was fucking incredible, like holy shit. also it was very realistic, i genuinely think you wrote that bit absolutely perfectly.

"Ranboo knows one thing. The sea can’t take it away from him; no storm can change the tides of the universe."

this was my favorite line from this chapter i think. no storm can change the tides of the universe. that's quite devastatingly beautiful, isn't it?

"(The sea of memories is crueler than the river of Lethe but he reserves as much will as he can to wade through both.)"

this is a close second favorite, i just really love how its written

"God isn’t here, but Ranboo prays to It so he is spared from begging the universe, a much less merciful entity. It’s all an act of survival that Ranboo is miserable at, but he has to play because it’s him and it’s the universe and it’s God and it’s no other players, no allies."

DAMN.

"Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls starts playing, and the sound of a broken scream tears through the rain."

FUUUUUUUUCCCKKKKK. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. OH MY GOD. OH MY FUCKING GOD.

yeah after the end of that chapter i feel closer to death than ive ever felt before. it was fantastically written and undoubtedly my favorite chapter so far. holy shit. also what the fuck. i feel like im fighting for my goddamn life. i feel ill. i feel insane. what the fuck. i am so fine i am totally okay and i am going to happily read the next chapter now knowing that everything is okay actually!

ch 21

"When Tubbo’s shaken awake by Tommy at ass o’clock in the morning, he already knows that today is going to be the worst day of his entire life ever, probably."

off to a good start i see! how promising!

"your boy" :((( yeah.

oh man, tensions addressed, resulted in even more tension. this is not looking good

also good to see that the not telling each other stuff is as frustrating as ever lmao, they both need therapy and also to just talk to each other i reckon. i know it wont happen (yet?) but still

"He knows that Quackity probably likes himself more when he’s overly energetic and loud."

Man :(

i do not know what to say about that phone call but i will very much be thinking about it for a while

the way that you address the whole they're still kids but never really got to be kids thing thats happened with everyone is so sad but i really like the way you did it. like the way that you write them thinking about it and the way that the adults around them talk about it. its a super important aspect of who they are and why they are the way that they are. thats not a super good way to express that thought but i cant find the right words right now so i'm just gonna hope you understand what i'm saying

dream mention, i do not think this is going to go well at ALL

it went better than i thought honestly but still terrified for what is yet to come!

also god, the tommy lore. if you ever decide to write a thing about c!tommy in the future i will be your #1 supporter however i do not think that i will ever recover from it

"Tubbo wonders if he’s ever truly been enough to save anybody."

fuck man :((

i think you handled the miscommunication between tommy and tubbo really well, and i just wanted to mention that. i dont have much else to say about it cause i don't know how to say it but honestly it was realistic and i totally understand why they said what they said and everything. well done.

well! now im caught up and everything so that's fun :)

these last few chapters were absolutely fucking phenomenal. i'm super excited for the next chapter :D hope you have the loveliest of days/nights/whenever you get around to reading this <3

HIIIII LIV HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI <33333

SUPER happy you liked how i handled the start of chapter 19, i knew a lot of people might have gotten confused because of the unreliable narration and also my own writing flaws so i thought have a refresher that also sort of served as a good chapter opener would be best! so happy people liked it :]

clingyduo and alliumduo have been difficult to write for this fic because what a lot of it comes down to is the fact that i have to be cognizant of the timeframe that both parties have known each other, take into account the general spats that happen in some longterm relationships, and sort of factor into how realistically all this pressure weighs down.

i told myself i wouldn't ramble for long but i do find this interesting: what i try to put myself in the mentality of writing cs!clingy is a lot of what you see in canon, but also the way that really longterm friendships can sometimes have these long festering periods of strain rather than a single one-and-done conflict, whereas a newer relationship like cs!allium can break a lot easier. it's something i've experienced and something i try to consider with the fic and have to sort of balance out-- you see a LOT of what you could consider highschool friendship problems in cs!allium (albeit at higher stakes) but you see a lot more of people growing apart (NOT SAYING THEY ARE NECESSARILY BUT JUST COMPARATIVELY) in cs!clingy.

I SHOULD RELISTEN TO THAT SONG BC I SEE UR VISION ABSOLUTELY i think that fits them i think it does :]

your boy will be okay <3 not any time soon or anything but at some point in the future maybe. jk jk unless...

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CEDAR WITH THE STEEL CHAIR I DIDN'T KNOW YOU HAD BAKING EXPERIENCE THAT'S SO COOL!!!!! im so glad my takes were based i just bullshitted through that so im really happy to hear it! if u ever want YOUR baking takes expressed just like dm me and i'll throw them in somehow somewhere bc i feel like i may need those

they are so beloved to me and us all <3

DING DING DING!!! yep those are karl and sapnap :] CS was planned before i realized c!sapnap was a comfort character of mine so they dont get super involved but you'll see them again, whether you like it or not :>

I KEPT FORGETTING THAT I JUST MADE HIS FIRST NAME J HELP ME FDJHHJDF

there were so many different things that went into the naming tbh but you hit on one i dont think a ton of people mentioned so nice job :DDDD

im so so happy you liked all those quotes and writing btw i feel like im replying to this so disorganizedly but genuinely appreciate you so fucking much <333

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i totally get you yeah, the whole concept of adulthood is one that i've tried to sort of throw in there but admittedly do think i could have built up better; regardless, i think there's a lot of angles to it but what i try to go for is like. when you are undergoing trauma the shittiest thing you hear so often is about your age, right? you're so mature you're like an adult you're acting like a kid you're too young to handle this ETC. i think cs!ranboo holds a lot of resentment towards the fact that people point out his age (something that i've thought about even after the events of cough syrup as a conflicting point between him and other characters but in general just kind of important to his worldview), while cs!tubbo is a lot more just... confused and a little annoyed at the sentiment. similar but kind of different, y'know?

i do have a few c!tommy-centered wips actually but he's a character im still kind of dipping my toes in the shallow side of the pool with

liv i would sell my soul for u i think