#oc: virgil wagnon

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Virgil Wagnon

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Handing you all this WIP again cuz tumblr hates me

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desire, for the ask game

Desire: what's one thing your OC wants more than anything in the world? Are they open with that desire? Why or why not? What would they do to fulfill it?

Amaya wants love. More than anything else in life, they want to love and to be loved. They want to be someone who can fill every hole in a person's heart, fix their every problem, part the sea so they can walk. And they're very open about this. It's not really in Amaya's nature to be quiet about something that is so massively huge to them. But they would do anything to be good enough to make everything right for the one they love. They would kill and die for them, move mountains, do anything at all. Combining the very deep love they feel with the sense of obligation they have to those around them to sort of make up for being in others' presence, you get love that practically borders on obsession.

Virgil somewhat similarly wants to earn the adoration of those around him. He wants to be cheered on by an audience, adored by fans, have people come to him in flocks wanting to be his friend because of what a phenomenon he is. He's not open about this, partially because he knows how selfish and idealistic it sounds, and partially because he doesn't fully recognize that desire because it's part of a deeper longing that he's kept buried so deep he doesn't even recognize it- a longing to be good enough to earn the love of his family. Some part of him, subconsciously, fully believes that if he can just be entrancing enough, talented enough, worth enough, that his parents will decide they want him back almost twenty years after leaving him. He would do anything for this as well. He desperately longs for connection, but he just doesn't know how to achieve it.

Rina wants to carve out a name for herself that isn't defined by tragedy. She comes from a family that is sort of cursed. Nothing good ever seems to happen to the Aikawa family, and while that's something she refuses to be hung up on and pretends doesn't affect her at all, A, good luck pretending that you don't care that someone you used to think was the coolest person in the world is dead and you'll never see them again, B, everyone else expects that Rina will be, as she says, nothing more than a mourner. And she refuses to be. She doesn't want to be the girl whose family just keeps dwindling in numbers. She doesn't want to be someone who's only uplifted because of her tragic upbringing and doesn't she deserve the attention after what she went through?. She wants to be recognized as Rina Takahashi, a person, her own person, and she's very vocal (and profane) about this. And while she would never go as far as to kill, even for the only thing she really cares about with any passion, she damn well will force people to recognize her by making scenes, playing and using those around her to climb the social ladder, and cutting off anyone she sees as posing a risk to that.

Antonio genuinely wants to help people. I think that's the most tragic part about his character to me. Antonio is a person who, similarly to Rina, wants to be recognized as his own person, but he's aware that what he's avoiding being known for are things that are his fault- his history of harming others, his mistreatment of his family and those around him. But he wants to help people and to make something good of the fact that he doesn't really care about the suffering and death of those around him- and in fact, finds it rather fascinating. He knows right from wrong, and he wants to use the fact that he has no emotional connection to those ideas to help others. But he drives himself in paranoid, obsessive circles thinking about all the awful things that could happen if people found out about the kind of person he really is(/used to be) and how he can't let that happen no matter what. He of course keeps this quiet, but he would be fully willing to essentially regress back into all of those patterns- hurting others, treating them like toys, throwing them away, making them suffer intentionally- just to hide that he used to be that person and is ashamed of it now.

Tara wants protection. Being raised in a cult, he felt his safety was always at risk, and it did a lot of damage to his psyche, especially after escaping the cult when they were planning to kill him. He wants protection from that danger, from the trauma, and he'll tell those he trusts about it, but he'd just as quickly betray those people if it meant that he could be safe by doing that. Most of his spiritual endeavors were brought about by him trying to appeal to the gods for protection. So much of what he does was brought about by that need to protect himself, to find others who would protect him, etc.

Mandy wants to please others. It's kind of as simple as that for her. She doesn't talk about it because she doesn't want to make people feel bad for her, but part of it comes with growing up without a dad and vying for her mother's approval after being born out of wedlock caused so many problems in the family. She's constantly trying to make up for that. And unlike the others, she wouldn't harm anyone else for this goal, but she would harm and walk all over herself. She acts like a doormat to make everyone else happy. And honestly, she is tired of it, but it gets her the result she wants. People are happy with her. She's their favorite little doormat and she'll take that over being no one's favorite opinionated, vocal, overly passionate person.

Lori wants answers. Part of it is her own memory repression- as suggested by DESIST, Lori has almost no memory of what happened in her life prior to being taken in by Emily- which has left her with a lot of questions about her own life, who the people she remembers are, what happened to them, etc. and part of it is just her own curiosity and desire to seek answers and closure for questions. She's pretty open about this because it fuels her interest in true crime and unsolved mysteries and people keep thinking her fucking weird for it, and willing to commit a series of petty crimes such as property damage, theft, trespassing, breaking and entering, etc. for it.

Cody wants to be left the fuck alone. He is pretty vocal about this. He is not willing to do much for it.

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A boy who suffers on a stage alone for an audience that is no longer there. A boy who does not stop no matter what because he needs his puppet strings to stand. A boy whose body is physically heavy with the weight of a haunting he truly believes only he will ever know

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WAIT CAN YOU DO HEADCANONS FOR MY BOY VIRGIL TOO PRETTY PLEASE

Headcanon A:  realistic

He gets really strange food cravings due to being deficient in like, everything. There's a running theme in these cravings which is that they're all really vitamin and mineral rich or protein heavy foods.

Headcanon B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious

He hasn't gone on HRT or gotten any surgery or anything he just naturally doesn't have so much as a single gram of boob tissue and he passes completely well bc of it

Headcanon C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends

He never got any gifts or toys as a kid. None at all. That teddy bear he found at the camp spoke to that longing for some kind of gift toy, and it's why he was so adoring when he first saw it and why he returned to it after everything that happened. It wasn't a gift, but he was clinging to it because he never had anything like that. When he gave it to Elijah, he was trying to give away his last longing for a normal life.

Headcanon D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own.

I still like trans girl Virgil even though he's canonically transmasc. I think he would keep the name, or maybe go for Victoria, even though it doesn't have any poetic roots. I just think it's rlly funny to think of trans girl Virgil like a "going on estrogen would've fixed her" kinda deal

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TFW you almost died in a bus crash because your full face mask caused you to get overwhelmed by the heat and the robot who came to your aid is insisting that you remove your mask (merely existing the way you look is an unforgivable sin)

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🍕🎹🌂❤️ for the first oc you can think of

You get two of them (Amaya and Virgil)

🍕- What is their favorite food? Amaya is a fan of chocolate, mochi, and ice cream- things that are sweet, but don't taste A Lot. Virgil will eat anything you give him and tell him he can/should eat. Edibility is next to irrelevant. That being said he likes foods that are super super high in vitamins and minerals and stuff

🎹 - Do they have any hobbies? Amaya reads a lot and writes records of things. She also has a Reddit account. Idk where that one came from but she feels like a Reddit lurker. Virgil likes to sing and dance. He's a people pleaser who loves to make a show of himself for attention, but he does genuinely enjoy singing, dancing, and painting, and after giving up his performance as his only reason to be worth anything, he continues to do those for himself. He also plays solitaire a lot. It's the only card game he knows. He's not very good at any others.

🌂 - What genre do they belong in? They're definitely both horror/thriller type characters. They're very fit for Danganronpa, since they're originally DR OCs but I'm moving them around since Amaya fit into another narrative I was writing less so than my fangan and if I put Virgil in my fangan I'd have to kill him. They're fit for a specific tone and theme that I'm trying to capture in Spiral (and failing). I've been thinking about putting Virgil in Freaks but I think Freaks is like. I mean Freaks is 100% self indulgent it's just abt a bunch of kids finding their home in a weird haunted house. I mean it fits Virgil but I feel like it's. too kind for him??? Virgil's cruelty is justified by the brutality of the world until it isn't anymore and he has to give up trying to survive and survive as a performer at his own and everyone's expense.

❤️ - What is one of your OC’s best memories? Amaya's best memory is probably meeting Sayren, her kinda-girlfriend. Virgil's best memory is. difficult. I don't know if he really has any that would be considered "best" because 90% of his life he's been in a horrible mental and emotional spiral and the thing that snapped him out of that was a killing game. I'd probably say choosing his own name- Virgil Leitzel Wagnon.

speaking of which Amaya and Virgil were created for the same RP where I played them both at the same time and it feels SO weird trying to separate them. Even tho I wanna do more with them both aside from just class 42 it's. That's their people!! That's them!! yk

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(Old -> new)

Redrew & redesigned Virgil bc I miss him sm. My funny guy I will find more to do with you <3

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Little versions of my RP OCs! (Bonus 4-ish year old Amaya and Virgil)

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Character for @dr-hopesreprisal!

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goodmorning . hunt

Hunt: who or what is your OC hunted by? A person, a feeling, a past mistake? Is your OC able to let their guard down, or are they constantly alert?

Amaya is hunted by herself, in a sense. Her own sense of right and wrong she cannot live up to, her feelings of obligation to those around her, her impossible needs that she could never ask anyone to fulfill- she is very hard on herself about these things. It's always am I good enough to deserve this, am I right, am I wrong, have I made up for the fact that these people cannot control that I am in their lives. She can let her guard down, in a sense, but it is constantly nagging in the back of her mind. The only thing that pleases that need is when it is fulfilled.

Virgil is not the hunted but the hunter. His need for fulfillment sends him hunting after things he cannot reach- fame, perfection, inhumanity. It's always there. To let his guard down would require a total overhaul in the way he sees the world. His view would have to crack entirely.

Rina is hunted by the dead in her family. The people she's expected to never get over, the people she, in all honesty, probably will never get over, but who she utterly insists she is not hung up on because if she says that then what is she if not a mourner? Her guard never goes down. Ever.

Antonio is hunted by his past mistakes. The things he doesn't understand that he's ashamed of, that he did because he was a fucked up kid who had lost his mom and with her the ability to care about anything ever again. His guard goes down when he doesn't feel at risk thanks to those mistakes (such as at risk of them coming out), but he will go on full alert as soon as he deems it needed.

Tara is hunted by their father. Not in a literal sense, but a figurative one. They grew up constantly under his thumb, being told that he would find them if they ever left, and now that that comes with an implicit and I will kill you because his father was planning to kill him, his paranoia has hiked up to a thousand.

Mandy is hunted by desire. The longing to find someone who will give her total approval, someone who she feels should give her total approval. She can let this go from time to time, but it's pervasive. Her guard is never really down. It's an illusion to pretend that she's normal, pretend that she doesn't have issues, to make her look desirable and worth giving total approval.

Lori is physically being hunted.

Cody is hunted by a memory he can't let go of. It's around every corner, in every sharp object he passes, everything heavy that could hurt someone, every ceiling fan that could drop and crush a person, every fire that could immolate them, every eye that turns to look at him, every paranoid thought his Prozac hardly keeps at bay, and every stupid, dangerous move Lori makes that could get her killed because Cody would not be able to live another day if he lost her. He isn't vocal about this, but the reminders are so pervasive and in every part of his life that he hasn't let his guard down in damn near ten years.

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Who's the cast of your story "Freaks" ?

The cast isn't fully fleshed out yet, but the most planned out characters so far include Ashika Ray, Lottie Spektor, Winnipeg Carter, Tara Fei, Virgil Wagnon, and the titular Freaks- malicious spirits attached to each character who prey on their traumas and weaknesses. There is one such Freak for each character.

Content warning for various forms of abuse, mental health issues, mention of human trafficking, and child abandonment under the cut. Nothing is in-detail except mental health stuff.

Also for people in the RP, this does spoil the main parts of Tara's backstory. You can read if you want to, it won't diminish her character or anything, just know that there's still no reason for anyone else's characters to know anything about it until Tara herself actually lets on about it to them. I mean she hasn't even told her BFFs lmao

Libitina "Lottie" Spektor (she/her) is the protagonist of the story. She was removed from the custody of her mother at the age of two due to accusations of trafficking, which were true, and lived in foster care until she was fifteen. Through her youth, she experienced major behavioral issues, and when she was fifteen, she was moved to a group home for teens (15-19) with severe physical and mental health issues under the precedent that it was likely she had a personality disorder. What she actually has is more likely just severe PTSD, which, despite her claims that she's fine and she's not like the other kids at the home, does start to really rear its head as soon as she's there. She's also extremely wary of the home, having something of a sixth sense for hauntings and spirits and basically clocking immediately that the place is haunted. The Freak attached to her is Lola, a feminine ghost with a thick figure whose presence is denoted by the clicking of her tongue. Her face is akin to that of a snake. One of the ways Lola torments Lottie specifically aside from just generally messing with her is grabbing and pinching her wrists. This drives Lottie insane, just because of how wary of touch she is all around. She represents Lottie's fear of not having bodily autonomy or control of her life.

Ashika Ray (she/her) kind of serves as Lottie's foil. Where Lottie is overly mature and mean, Ashika is childish to the point of not being mature enough to care for herself and extremely kind to everyone around her. She lived with her single father until she was four, when he suddenly died in a tragic accident, and she's never really mentally grown up from that time. That's the main reason she's in the group home. She calls one of the caretakers "Auntie" and is overly affectionate and naive, which Lottie uses to mess with her at the beginning, but even someone as jaded and cold as Lottie feels bad about messing with Ashika when she's so pure-hearted and gentle. No matter how anyone treats her, she always tries to be good to them and be their friend. The Freak attached to her is Deva, an imp-like ghost with no discernible gender. Unable to get into her head and cause her to spiral, Deva instead torments Ashika by messing with her things and causing her terrible luck. They represent her sorrow about the unfortunate but unstoppable circumstances that brought her here.

Winnipeg "Winnie" Carter (they/xey/he) lived with their grandpa most of their life. They inherited a lot of health issues from their mother plus some, which made their parents unable to care for them since it was already a lot to take care of their mother, so they were put in the care of their grandfather Alexander so he could "give them the life they deserved" when their parents couldn't. They spent most of their youth in the Winnipeg General Hospital undergoing surgery and treatment, but eventually came to the US to get a specific doctor to operate. After this, they were never healthy enough to return to Canada, so they and their grandpa settled in the US, but Alexander was getting too old to care for them, so they were moved into the group home to help them with their day to day life. They're bitter and moody, but very creative, and they have a very soft spot for Ashika. They love to talk to and play with her, and having someone keep them company like that helps them normalize the idea of needing this kind of care. They remain close with their grandpa and are still in contact with their parents. The Freak attached to him is Bones, a skeletally thin contortionist with an exposed heart and no teeth, whose joints pop and crack when she walks. She represents Winnie's fear of not having a life ahead of him that isn't defined by physical pain and diminished by the shame associated with it.

Tara Fei (she/they/it/dae; but possibly a trans guy who hasn't realized it yet) was raised in a Catholic cult in Saratov, Russia. Her Father was the leader of the cult, and they believed Tara to be essentially the next Mother Mary- the one who would bring the second coming of Jesus. They were very extreme about this belief, and Tara spent most of her life not even being touched because they believed it would dirty her and ruin her purpose. She was isolated from the other children, brainwashed by her Father, who was treated like a god by the cult, and forced to pray and be as pure and modest as she could. When she was fourteen, she ran away and made it to an airport where she got onto a flight to Lhasa, Tibet, where she lived for two months until someone called the cops on her and she was recognized as the missing child from Saratov who was believed to have been taken out of the country. She did manage to get through to the police and some people willing to help her about her situation, though, and she ended up moved to the US to escape her family, where she was given the name Tara Fei. Due to her extreme paranoia, PTSD and psychosis, she was moved into the group home as well. She's usually soft-spoken and gentle, though she has her moments of screaming and yelling and even attacking others when she's afraid, and she has a fascination with religion, spirituality and the occult. She loves to read. The Freak attached to her is Mary, a goat-legged figure wrapped in cloth and often seen praying, whose presence worsens Tara's psychosis. It represents Tara's fear that the cult was right and that she's going to die for violating their rules about her purity.

Virgil Wagnon (he/him) is the son of two French-American immigrants. When he was two years old and still couldn't walk, his parents abandoned him, believing he was never going to be able to do anything for himself, and Virgil deeply internalized this. He had no idea why his parents left, so he came to assume it was his fault for being so boring that they simply forgot about him or, when he was older, so boring that they could not love him. He desperately tries to gain the attention of others and the approval of an audience, covering up everything that makes him human (and by proxy, boring) with masks and fancy prose and self destructive performances. He's stoic, poetic, and polite, but willing to abandon any and all semblances of his personality to perform and make a show of himself, and he can be very cutthroat about it, trying to match the tone of the world around him, which has been, suffice it to say, cruel. He longs for attention and approval, and prides himself on making others smile and laugh. The Freak attached to him is Alice, a three-faced male figure with an appearance sort of like the Mad Hatter and a presence that is composed and theatrical. He just kind of generally harasses and torments Virgil.

The Freaks are less like traditional ghosts of the dead and are more malicious, protective over the house they're settled in, and taking various forms to drive the kids out by any means possible from simply tormenting them until they can't take staying anymore to killing them outright. Since the kids have no other choice but to stay here, though, their attempts aren't quite thwarted, but are lived through. Each ghost attaches to a child, taking the form of their worst traumas, deepest fears, and most painful sorrows, knowing they would rather do anything but confront those struggles, to try to force them out of the house. Though Lottie is the only one who can see and commune with them, all of the others are aware the ghosts are there, at least on a subconscious level. The only one aside from Lottie who wholeheartedly believes it is Tara, but even being skeptical, the others are influenced by the spirits' presences.

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Oh this reminds me that two of my RP OCs are canonically plural and I was gonna design their alters and didn't but I do have ideas for them. and also that one of the main Nursery characters is kind of a part of a plural system

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🟠 🟢 🎱 For the first oc that you can think of that is NOT Amaya Izumi :)

AW MAN :(

Orange- What is a trait your OC hides about themself from others? Do they refuse to acknowledge it or begrudgingly accept it?

Virgil hides his face from others. He refuses to acknowledge that he's hiding it at all, or that he really even has one. He has a bit of facial dysmorphia because he thinks his face (and he has a pretty face, but it's not super notable) makes him like, disgustingly, unlovably boring and uselessly human. Of course, the people around him know he has a face, and they know he's a human, but that level of disconnect shields both him and others from it.

Green- What is considered a weakness in your OC that is actually a strength? What is a strength in your character that can be twisted into a weakness?

Virgil's emotional disconnect and lack of empathy. You would think it's a strength in a killing game, but it just means he can be driven to do horrible things without realizing how awful they are until it's too late to turn back.

8 Ball- What situation was your OC lucky to escape from or get out of? What or who helped them unexpectedly?

Virgil has made this mistake in both killing games I've written him in. He tries to set up a complex murder, framing someone else to ensure the class votes wrong and he gets out alive at their expense, but someone intervenes because they want to save the person he kills and ends up a blackened themself. (For example, in Hope's Reprisal, Amaya triggered Sayren's bomb collar so she'd protect everyone else in death, but since Sayren wasn't dead yet, that killed her and Amaya was the blackened, and in DR Stagefright he tricks someone else into thinking they're the blackened and that person gets thrown down the stairs during investigation.)

In this way, it's always the people he hurt who help him most- those who take the fall for him give him the chance to realize how cruel he is, and finally break that emotional disconnect that lets him act so jaded. If not for those people, A, he'd be dead, B, he'd be incapable of ever redeeming himself because it is so unbelievably painful to face the kind of shit that he's disconnected himself from (dysmorphia, low self esteem, suicidality, parental abandonment, people pleasing tendencies, a desperation to be worthy, OCD, PTSD, the consequences of his actions, the fact that he was the one doing those things, his identity, trying to integrate it all into who he is, moving past his trauma he doesn't acknowledge he has, etc.)

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✏ for any/multiple of your OCs ^-^

Amaya Izumi:

This one really reminds me of Amaya just bc of how much like… Amaya doesn’t hate herself but she just feels a sense of responsibility for everyone and at the same time believes no one wants her around. Amaya is highly emotional, and always seeks the “right” way out. She fears that when things go wrong, it’s because she failed to protect others.

She also feels often like she’s perceived as or acts like a child: stupid, weak, stuck inside her mind- because of her very big heart and her very simple but very dedicated sense of justice. She always feels like people think she’s miles behind them in understanding things, even though she’s pretty smart. While Amaya wasn’t intended to have trauma, she does exhibit textbook ptsd symptoms stemming from the age of four or five. Due to situations where she is confronted with helplessness and death often causing her to flash back to one very traumatic moment in her early childhood, she feels stuck and weak.

Virgil Wagnon:

Virgil destroys things a lot. Not literally, but he burns bridges, ruins opportunities, and harms others for his own goals: as a renowned performer, he must keep his audience entertained at any cost.

He struggles intensely when faced with the realization that his audience does not truly love him because he’s made himself fully expendable in their eyes and nothing but an item. He longs for approval and acceptance, due to how much he was deprived of that through his… total lack of an upbringing.

Despite wanting to not be human, he is aware that he is human, and that he longs for the adoration of humans- more than that, as time goes on, he becomes aware that he longs to truly be wanted.

Both of them are from a danganronpa killing game rp I was a part of recently. To spare you from any more dangan-ing, I’ll stop there, I don’t have many for my non danganronpa ocs lol