#ok shut up cianna.

[stuckinapril]

literally distracting myself w the thought of decluttering / rearranging my bookcase when i should be studying. bad cianna

[bo0zey]

y’all i used to own 32 MCR band tees/sweatshirts/tank tops and now idk where tf Any of them went in the last 8yrs n i rlly need 2 go to hot topic like asap but i also will be spending the next 2 weeks studying my fuckjgng ass off for the NCLEX n i don’t have a job n i need money to go to hot topic like Rigt after i take my nclex but i still won’t have a job by then so im literally 🧍🧍🧍useless but like🥱🥱what’s new🙄😒

[bo0zey]

ok so i literally have like at least 12 super depressing horrible gut-wrenching soul-crushing backstories for ALLLLLLLL of my characters in the 3 major books i’ve been wanting to publish for like >10yrs now....n i literally stare straight-faced at my screen the entire time i’m writing these angsty-ass backstories....

....but now tell me why i’m working on a certain someone’s character death n im like sick to my mf stomach like it’s literally churning n my throat keeps gettin choked up and now my eyes are starting to prickle w tears like ?????WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME LIKE WHY AM *I*, THE LITERAL AUTHOR, SUFFERING EMOTIONAL TURMOIL???????? I’M LITERARLLY CHOOSING TO DO THIS IT’S DEADASS *MY* STORY I GET TO DECIDE WHO STAYS N GOES WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSLEFKJKWFNDF

[bo0zey]

sometimes i see an old pic of frank iero that looks so good i have to quickly scroll past it bc literally just a 0.03 sec glance immediately gives me heart palpitations

[bo0zey]

update: my cat sensed my negative neurotic impending mental breakdown energy and laid directly beside me so close i can smell his stinky cat breath whenever he yawns so in conclusion i’m fine again lol :D

[bo0zey]

if i were flat stanley’s mother i would give him a paper shredder for christmas. and when he asks what it is i will tell him it’s his new bedroom. i will direct his attention towards the “stanley-friendly door” made specifically for 2D demons i mean superfluous paper cutouts i mean unique individuals like him. then i would tuck him into the automatic shredder and after the deed is done i will collect his scraps and use it as the base for my new 3D paper mache son, Notflat Hanley

[bo0zey]

ok guys i literally ate a cookie 4 green beans n 2 ritz onion pita chips n i can already feel the life reverberating inside me…anyways i’m keep eating pray for me yall that i can make thru tonight n tomorrow 😰😰

[bo0zey]

jeff bezos more like jeff *BOZOS (*ha ha ha see the joke is funny bc bezos is phoentic to bozos and bozo was a famous clown and jeff bazos is a stupid selfish money hungr bastard. at school he Bozos bulleise everyone makes everything abt himself however no one at his school actually likes them theyre jsut afraid hes gonna like take their school luncch money away as usual and make them do push ups with him sitting on their back or something idk)

[bo0zey]

my humor isn’t for the “commonfolk” (girls that are like the other girls)…nor can it be understood or explained by the so-called..”mentally competent”……….my target humor audience is actually for braindead ugly rat looking stinky freaks of nature that have very little money & make bad decisions with the very little money they DO have and so they must suffer further consequences of their actions by having 6 pieces of toast and butter for 3 days in a row…..readily available meals are a thing of the past as they must labor and toil over their work relentlessly tearing off the moldy pieces from their singular household loaf of bread to obtain the necessary aforementioned sustenance for optimal peak health and survival

[bo0zey]

FLAT STANLEY NEVER ASKED TO BE LIKE TJAT HE HAD A BULLETIN BOARD FALL ON HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT

THE BULLETIN BOARD DIDNT JUST MUTILATE HIS BODY IT WAS THE BEGINNING OF ALL THE CHAOS TO COME. it was never an ACCIDENT—the event had been flat stanley’s VILLAIN ORIGIN STORY.

“he didn’t ask to be like that” “a bulletin board FELL on him” UMMM???? oh really???? did he, a BIASED source, tell u that himself????? how quickly u jump to defend that manipulative flat fkcjnf 2D POS. ur feeding into the image of innocence he’s trying to manipulate society into believing he is—ur FALLING for his OBVIOUS ATTEMPTS to manipulate others into believe that he is just “innocent”….ill tell u what REALLY happened bc i spoke to his brother (WHO THAT BEADY EYED 2D FUCK TRIED TO FRAME FOR ATTEMPTED MURDER BTW) and he told me that stanley pulled him aside earlier that morning n held a CHEESE GRATER to his OWN BROTHERS FACE and said “if u don’t cause that bulletin board to fall on me at 2200 tonight i’m going to enter ur room at 2203 and grate ur face all the way down into ur eyeballs” SO OBVIOSULY his kid brother was being THREATENED by this manipulative attention seeking sociopathic crushed cockroach looking 2D mf. the brother had no choice but to partake in Stanleyeus’s plot to SELF MUTILATE in an attempt to get PPL LIKE U, ANON, to fall for his impending villainous schemes that are approaching quickly most likely in the year 2027. POINT IS HE ISNT AS INNOCENT AS U THINK HE IS A FRAUD A SHAM A SOCIOPATHIC MANIPULATIVR DEMONIC SPINELESS WEAK USELESSNESS. he exists solely to create chaos throughout the universe by pinning us normal regular 3DIMENSIONAL beings against one another when really we should all be banding against HIM !!!!!!!! ​FLAT STNALRY IS THE DEVIL disguised as a helpless piece of laminated paper, this was a smart power move on satans behalf bc he thinks “why would humans suspect him he’s so feeble,” AS IF HE ISNT AUTOMATICALLY SUSPICIOUS AF IT IS, BEING A USELESS UGLY PIECE OF WALL ART WITH LEGS . he is the burden of his family home and he is the reason his kid brother tucks himself to sleep at night with a bottle of cheap whiskey bc his mother won’t even look at him for what “he did” to that 2D fhck and also no jobs will hire him a convicted criminal of attempted mruder. flat stanley ruins lives bc it’s his ULTIMSTE GOAL IN THIS EARH THAT IS WHY HE MUST BE SENTENCED TO DEATH AND EXECUTED VIA ALL 5 EXECUTION DTYLES TO ENSURE HIS DEMONIC HELLFORM DISGRACE TO GOD BODY NEVER RETURNS

[bo0zey]

wat if i start@live posting every single 1 of my intrusive thoughts . what then. wat will u even do in that kind of situation..will u b scared n tattle on me to the local authorities? or will u smile rejoice laugh n clap along, fruitfully displaying to me ur unwavering dogmatic support to my brain that has been declared by the catholic church’s pope himself society’s true and only god

[bo0zey]

ok this is like pt2 of that longass recent post so just ignore this bc this parts even STUPIDERR

anyways imma try to work on the rough draft after showering but i know i won’t have a enough time to finish it before clinical n ik she’s gonna call me out and wtf am i gonna say?????? i hate using my mental health as an excuse bc i feel like no one cares or believes me or thinks i’m just lazy and or crazy or being manipulative but like i swear i’m not i just happened to lose control over my frontal lobe at the wrong time of the school week i’m ??????? last time i turned in my annotated bib late too n she like ripped me a new one about it n i’m afraid of disappointing authority figures bc yknow my narcissist dad would only ever acknowledge my existence and express being proud of me when i got good grades like it was all i was worth to him; A’s meant affection and B’s meant “but u could’ve gotten and A so what happened??” n everything else meant NOT GOOD ENOUGH even in high school he hounded me “haha yeah ur #2 of ur class but what abt #1 huh why aren’t u #1?? i saw both ur gpas they’re so close omg they’re like a tenth of a decimal!” n i was like lol ok it was actually like .00 something, AKA a hundredth of a decimal, and still it wasn’t enough if i don’t do what i need to do in school if i don’t get good grades then i would have never meant anything to him i was his trophy daughter only worthy of facebook posts when he felt the need to brag abt me and now that’s all really have to base my self worth upon bc i felt like that’s all he valued in me n now i don’t do nearly as well in college as i did in high school bc i think it’s bc i was traumatized for like 12yrs of schooling with him looming over me and college i could like finally be a human??? lol ok ANYWAYSS sorry for trauma dumping lol so like yeah i already felt stupid n disappointed in myself n then she was making me feel even guiltier/more useless n like i think i’d been awake for >2 days that day n probs on my period so i was probably extra prone to crying n then she had the nerve to look me in the eyes and ask if i was okay bc she saw them watering up as she continued to progressively dig into me and i fuckjgn HATE that question i fuckjing hate being asked it bc i just ?? idk maybe it’s a trigger bc every time someone asks it(typically adult authority figures i know im disappointing but can’t stop self sabotaging) i just lose all control of self regulating my emotions n my eyes start Rlly watering then dripping and she was the absolute last person i’d ever want to cry in front of so i tried so hard to stop i nodded my head and smiled so hard and wide despite the mask covering half my face because i was trying to like get my body to control itself but my eyes just kept running and i wondered how i must’ve looked to her probably insane the way i was fighting a losing battle against a mental break down n i was smiling like a fucking clown to try and make my cheeks reach my eyes so it looked real so she could see it behind the mask and look past my watering eyes and the more tears that fell the harder i made myself smile and laugh all the while THE TEARS WOULD NOT STOP like i probably looked like a fuckjng raging mentally ill maniac to her esp when i pointed at my mask and was like “yes i’m fine i’m smiling underneath the mask i promise heheheh^.^” n giggled and then cried intermittently through the last 2 hours of clinical then silently on the car ride home bc i had to drive my roommate back w me n then as soon as i passed the door threshold i just broke down for literally NO FUCKJGN REASON??????????? like full on waterfall n my roommate turned n glanced at me n was like omg what happened what’s wrong??? MY NEXT 2 LEAST FAVKRJTE QUESTIKNS so obv i went from silent crying choking down sobs to total blubbering sobbing incontrollable inconsolable mess n it was so embarrassing bc i already burdened n traumatized her w my mental breakdown last august sooooo yeah that sucked lol n obviously what i was crying abt sounded so stupid i don’t even know why i would breakdown over something so stupid i’m so weak it’s honestly embarrassing lmfaooooomsbxbd🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[bo0zey]

livestream thooguht: i think i wwill go on amazon dot com for a lttille BUT i just wanna say while i have ur attentions now that i hate u @jeffufcckinyouuglypieceofratbaldpitbullwannabeoldmistahworldwideassbitchasscuntasslsluttasswh0reuglyweirdreptilionfreakboringoldassagingass Bozo.