#okay hold on. was Cas part of their plan? I legit forgot. I mean that was a colossal fail too though.

[museenkuss]

if I was left to my own devices and a pretty brunette with doe eyes and a leather jacket showed up, promised me to take care of me and climbed onto my lap I would've fucked her and drank her blood too. Sam did nothing wrong.

[castiel-kline]

KitKat’s Random Rewatch (part 1)

So I’m rewatching a bunch of SPN episodes with no rhyme or reason to the order. Legit just whatever episode I’m feeling. And I thought why not just infodump my thoughts, because I haven’t seen a bunch of these in a hot minute. So if you’re interested in reading my ramblings, keep a lookout for these posts. 

We’re starting with Byzantium (14x08). It still hurts upon rewatch, trust me. 

My god Jack is too sweet

Is it a rule that all cinnamon rolls must say something heartbreakingly pure before dying? Because Jack saying “please don’t be sad” and “then it’ll be an adventure” go straight to my heart. And break it. Jack, please stop killing me

My god SAM’S FACE IM CRYING

Cas honey don’t leave the room

Oh NO after watching 15x15 knowing that Cas still makes the distinction between Jack dying this time because he missed it and the next makes this hurt so much more

Not to be bitter but why is the camera lingering on only Dean’s face before the title card?

Iconic shot of the three of them sad in the hallway

“Your brother’s in pain” ahhHHH Cas stop

The montage of Sam and Cas mourning while Dean’s calling Mary... oof. Side note, did we ever follow up on this voicemail? Because Dean did not sugarcoat so Mary probably had an attack listening to it

The shot of Cas holding the picture of Kelly while standing over Jack’s body.... IM SOBBING

totally forgot Cas saw Sam leaving JUST GO AFTER YOUR FRIEND CAS DARNIT

I mean I do appreciate that Cas respects Sam’s space, but y’all are grieving co-parents. Just hug and cry, it’s okay

Definitely remember my heart stopping the first time when Dean said “tell me you didn’t make a deal.” Little did I know what was coming aHA

My heart is breaking for Sam ahhHHHHH

I think this is hitting Sam so hard because first of all it’s Jack, but also because he doesn’t have a task to instantly bury himself in. So he has to think about it and confront it and because of that he’s about to snap. I just want to hug him please

OHH CAS HAS TEARS IN HIS EYES STAHP

how are Sam and Dean not dead if they’re drinking enough to get Cas tipsy?

The smiles. Somehow it hurts worse.

If there comes a day that the sight of TFW eating nougat candies to mourn Jack doesn’t make me sob, there is something seriously wrong with me.

Slightly bummed we missed out on the SamCas convo where they decided to call Lily Sunder

Dean is hella hungover and it’s actually kinda funny in this emotionally draining episode. Kudos, Jensen.

Jack’s heaven being the road trip to dodge city. Kill me now.

Jack running from the Empty... the sludge really does look like the s15 title card. I wonder if that’ll come back to haunt us.

KELLYYYYYYYY

Courtney and Alex really slayed this scene didn’t they. I’m crying so much

“I grew up” JACK SWEETIE STOP

Jack and Kelly holding hands... that hug... more mother and son time please I’m begging I love them

I really appreciate the framing of this shot with Sam and Cas on one side and Dean on the other.

See, Dean, you were on board with the soul magic plan eventually so you can’t be mad about it later. Except you were. What’s wrong with this picture?

“Don’t you think Jack should decide that for himself?” YESS CAS LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK

sAm please you’re killing me

Cas is so happy to see Dumah. That’s kind of breaking me.

Naomi, I still kinda hate you for torturing Cas.

“I know him. This is where he’ll be.” CAS KNOWS HIS SON FAM IM CRYINGGGGG

“I’m not going anywhere.” KELLY MA’AM YOU DESERVE THE SUN AND THE STARS AND THE WHOLE UNIVERSE

this is literally my favorite Dadstiel hug HOW DID I FORGET CAS’S LAUGH OF PURE JOY

JACK’S FACE WATCHING CAS AND KELLY HUG

“I failed you.” “You didn’t. Jack- he’s wonderful.” “Yeah.” CAN YALL HEAR ME SOBBING

Cas looks like he’s going to cry from pride in Jack. I can’t do this why did I think rewatching this ep was a good idea?

A moment of appreciation for how Cas lays out the facts of the situation and lets Jack make his own decision.

“He’s our kid!” Sam, I’m dead on the floor now. Thanks.

Lily, ily.

Cas is still so happy to see Dumah I’m so sad. Get Cas angel buddies pleaseeee he still loves them so much

Erica Cerra is TERRIFYING as the Empty go off queen

Cas and Kelly being protective of their son

“Take me, in his stead. Take me.” First time I’m watching this without crying. Personal growth, I guess

Cas is so scared of dying and the Empty and yet he’d go for Jack in a heartbeat. I can’t do this anymore

“Why did you do that?” “Because I made a promise. And because I love you, Jack.” CRYING IN THE CLUB

Again, Cas laying out the situation and waiting for Jack to make his own choice. Bless him.

“I won’t tell them. I promise.” Jack HONEY

Kelly and Jack’s goodbye... like she’s sending him off to school... I can’t DO THIS

FACE SQUISH

Is Jack fluent in Enochian, or did they write out pronunciations for him?

Sam is rubbing Jack’s arm to comfort him I’m SOFT

I do love this Dean and Jack hug. Jack’s lil smile. Bless.

Robbed of a Sam and Jack hug, but they’re still so soft. I can feel the love oozing from Sam so much rn

Awww I’m so glad Lily gets to be with her daughter now

Is Jack wearing Dean’s robe?

CAS’S FACE WATCHING JACK I CAN’T

SAM’S FACE TOO HOLY

IM DECEASED

I love the way the camera just pulled away at the end after they toasted. Happy family.

Anyway 10/10 episode. It hurts but it slaps.