#okay i'm screaming into the void again

[titaniumions]

ok but a r1999 witch hat atelier au would work so well with the foundation (and just the regular arcanists in general) being pointed hat witches and the manus vindictae as brimhats ...

[tardis--dreams]

You know what? I give up on this paper once and for all. I'm not even ashamed anymore

[cursedthing]

.havign lots of thoughts about how npcs are portrayed learning about the nature of their universe in works

[jarognieva]

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Years ago I thought everything that is wrong with me is because of being shy and ugly

During late teens, I found out it's depression and social anxiety.

In adult life it turned out I'm autistic.

But it's still not this I think. Okay I am autistic but I fucking know there's secret additional thing that makes me extra endless looser and that thing is incurable with any treatment and therapy.

Every fucking time I read/listen to some autistic person's experiences there's something that sounds sus to me? Like, how they're able to do and enjoy things, do something good and productive with their life or how they're able to have friends etc. But no, they're not sus. I AM the weird one, even among autistic people! There's always SOMETHING that can't allow me say I could 100% relate! Idk maybe there's no secret additional thing but it's fucking combo of all things I said??? I am cursed forever, I will always rot unable to enjoy life. Just fucking vegetation not life. And I will die as pathetic unloved shit. And even if there will appear some people in my life (again) who convince that they like me and care about me, I'm sure one day they'll found someone cooler than me (again) and destroy my fragile self-esteem and sense of security (again) 👍👍👍

(I shouldn't read and watch things about autism anymore because I won't get to know anything new. It only cases stupid emotional rollercoasters like this lol)

[lynxgirlpaws]

[ruby-static]

HOLY SHIT-

IT’S✨HIM✨

[gabiwnomagic]

Not my brother calling me to tell me to stop denying my vocation

Like uhhh just because I follow the rules of the Church and try my best to apply them to my daily life doesn't mean I should automatically join a convent. I'm probably taking this the complete wrong way but I feel like when ppl tell me I should be a nun it's like they're saying no man would ever want to marry me because I'm so "strict" aka my love for Christ makes me unlovable to any human man

[amaraudermind]

You know I think one of the most disorienting things about our need to put everyone inside of generational boxes to simplify the us vs them mentality

Is the fact that when part of your generation are still children, you're all assumed to be children.

And I know for a fact this isn't a new phenomenon or that I'm the first one to notice. I remember people talking about millennials as lazy teenagers when the overwhelming majority of them were adults already.

And now I see the same thing with people talking about gen z as middle schoolers when there are people in gen z graduating college. Or skipping college and moving forward with their lives. And making real change in their communities and taking charge and wanting to make a difference.

But hey, gen z are all middle schoolers who don't know what they're talking about yet. Right?

[xylocope]

My teacher accidentally made my assignment the class assignment (I did the assignment earlier than everyone because I finished the work early) and now everyone can see and edit my work . What the HELL

[milesnotupshur]

FUCK OUTLAST 2

[sleepingnexttoagrave]

i like being your baby

your kitty

i feel safe with you

but i'm still grieving it all.

bloodied hands confronting their painter,

i doubt it can get more shameful.

the violence of it all terrifies me.

like a puppy who instantly regrets biting their owner,

i want to nuzzle and kiss apologies on your skin.

i'm mourning the safety of submission.

the feeling of belonging and purpose;

i weep over severed intimacy.

it was an honour to be yours.

[judasofsuburbia]

queen charlotte/king george youtube editors........i owe you my life but also you owe me some therapy hours

[tardis--dreams]

24 days left. I shouldn't be excited for this to be over soon but gotta be honest. Mental health wise not my best few months. Kinda glad to go home soon

[carrotpiss]

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[luna13e-blog]

I wake up grabbing the sleeping cat in my chest like a lifeline. Like the rope that keeps me out of falling in the pain that awaits me crawling behind my skin.

These days life is like this: A perpetual look for lifelines to not to drown.

[murder-cookie-dust393]

Shadow Milk Cookie. Chloroform. Yandere. Do what you will with this information.

-🏳️‍🌈👨‍❤️‍👨

I'm gonna put you as the anon listed above since- That's what I assume you mean?

I unintentionally put shitpost aha

Disclaimer: MC is still gender neutral, they are just referred to as queen for chess role purposes.

Tw: Eyestrain for the art that goes along with this piece, chloroform-like magic, kidnapping to a different dimension, implied future murder

You find yourself in a dark void. So black, you can't see anything through the shadows that swirl in your vision. You're not sure what it feels like. Is it threatening? Or is it a sense of peace? You aren't sure. This sense of the unknown makes you anxious.

Suddenly, a big blue eye opens in front of you, the colour glowing within the dimmed surroundings. The shade of blue reminded you of Lapis. A very bright one. But the eye itself, it was terrifying. You nearly wanted to break into pieces right then and there.

"Oh, my queen! You're finally here!" A voice eagerly chirps, a slightly maniacal tone to it. It seemed ecstatic to see you, too much so. You couldn't form an answer, still processing your odd environment.

"I've missed you~ It's been ages since I've seen your face! You don't look any different- oh, maybe you're just a little prettier, you silly thing!" The voice giggled as the eye blinked. The eye squinted upwards as if it was smiling. But wait, why did it act like it's seen you before? You don't know who this entity is. Not even what it is. Is it a cookie? A beast? Confusion swelled within you as the seconds passed.

"My sweet...What is that face?" The voice slowly faded away, as your world suddenly blackened once more.

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"MC, are you okay?" You wake up to the face of Strawberry. She seems concerned, her big brown eyes down-turned. How cute. "You were shaking in your sleep."

"Um yeah, I'm okay. I just had a weird dream." You respond, still lying on the grass where you and the group are camped. You clutch onto your blanket a little tighter.

"Like a nightmare?" She tilts her head to the side.

"Not exactly. I can't put it to words..." You mumble off, trying to recall the eye that spoke to you.

"Oh okay." She glanced at the blue and violet sky, commenting, "It's almost sunrise. Do you wanna prepare jellies with me? I'm sure the others will wake up soon."

You nod and sit up before flailing your blanket to the side.

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You and your friends are going through the forests of Beast Yeast, cautious of all the creatures and evil beings lurking by. That is until your group stumbles upon a random chessboard on a glass table. In the middle of the fucking path, in the middle of fucking Beast Yeast. Instead of black and white, the board is in different shades of blue.

"What in tarnation is this?" Wizard leans closer, staring at it intensely. Fidgeting with his fake beard, or in other words, his scarf.

Chili Pepper butted in, "The fuck you mean bro, this is obviously a dumb chessboard-"

"LANGUAGE!" Gingerbrave suddenly turned out to stare at Chili Pepper uncannily, before smiling again. "I'm sure it's something dangerous! Let's not touch it."

"Guys,"

"Or it could be a chessboard and table someone decided to randomly leave here."

"Shush- I'm always right." Gingerbrave did an imaginary hair toss.

"Guys..."

Wizard raised his hand, just like a nerd, "No? I am, thank you. By the almighty power of magic I-"

"You're an ice cream. Also, you're the one who's screaming for help half the time." Chili Pepper chuckled, poking at Wizard.

Strawberry took a breath and sharply, albeit quickly spoke, "Guys!"

The whole group turned to look at her, which made her flush with embarrassment. She pointed at the chessboard. "The pieces are moving on their own." When the gang looked back at the gameboard, they were met with a surprising sight.

The chess pieces moved by their own accord. Which revealed that the darker blue side was winning compared to the lighter blue. It was a competitive fight, with both sides making quick moves. It was mesmerizing, you aren't sure why.

You reached out your hand and touched one of the pieces in curiosity. Only to feel a sudden freezing cold gust fly at you. Your surroundings become dark, just like your dream as the yelps of your friends sound out around you. A sinister chuckle joins along, as your body is thrown into a blackened world once more.

"Honey! Honey, honey, honey, my honey."

You stand before a jester cookie, covered in eyes. He grins, his clothes like the blues of the chessboard. He swiftly goes over to you, cradling you in his arms. You can't move, overcome with a freezing cold that leaves you immobile.

"I've waited much too long on your reincarnation. We could have had a wonderful marriage by now if it weren't for that bastard Elder Faerie." He spoke softer than before but had a spit of venom for the name Elder Faerie. He leans closer, uncomfortably so. He makes a minuscule hum before pecking your mouth.

"I'll just keep you here for a bit until I have everything ready." Out of nowhere, a shadow comes for you, binding you in it. You start to feel drowsy. "We'll be so happy once more, I promise." Your vision starts to swirl into darkness, to the point you can't make him out anymore.

You fall asleep, unable to fight off the dreadful binds.

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"My Queen~! Wake up! I have everything ready for you." You're nudged awake, as the binds come off you. You find yourself on a throne: cold and metal. As look forward, you are shocked to see a glowing chessboard just like the one you saw on the path. But also freaked out to see Strawberry and Gingerbrave tied up in the same binds, floating in the air.

"Wha- What is this?" You stammer, overwhelmed with all that has happened in the last few moments. Was this a joke? A jester terrorizing you and your friends, what a lovely day.

"Why, it is the moment you get to see your idiots crumble right before you by the hands of your rightful husband, me: Shadow Milk Cookie!" He comes over to you, putting a crown on your head. It was plain, just a metal crown with no jewels or anything else.

"And you're the queen! The most powerful one on the board!" He giggles, patting your hand. You tense at his touch, wanting to get away from this glorified position you were in. But time and time again, you can't move away from your spot. It's as if you were hardened glue stuck to a label that no one can seem to pry off.

"I don't know what reincarnation you talked about before, but whatever it is, stop it! My friends have done nothing! I don't even know who you are!" You plead, wanting his weird reincarnation thing to stop. You felt guilty for thinking of touching a moving chess piece in Beast Yeast. Gingerbrave was right: everything is dangerous.

"Honey..." Shadow Milk frowned, holding your face in his hands. He looked disappointed rather than enraged. "I know your memories are somewhat faded, but those cookies are distracting you. Distracting you from me, your beloved." He lightly bumps his face against yours, staring into your eyes.

"What do they have to do anything with your dead lover?" You ask, a little too harshly, but needing to get the message across.

He gasps. "They aren't dead! They're right before me!" He puts his jester hat on his head, going over to Gingerbrave and Strawberry. He glares at them briefly with his dual-chromed eyes before returning to you.

"Just let me. Just let me kill them." He hisses with a grin. His eyes scare you, the way they're wide open with insanity. "I need some desperate alone time with you and also get our marriage decided once more." Shadows started to succumb to the world, except for the light from the board.

"No! Don't you dare!" You shake your head, unwilling to let him get away with this. Your poor friends. Just what kind of madness did you pull them into?

"My Queen! When will you let me kill them? They are insignificant to our love!" He exclaims, reaching a hand out to you.

Oh, what a devoted lover isn't he? Waiting for eons for you only for you to be so disgusted with him.

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This was really fun to write. Now, I’m not quite caught up on the lore yet. I just read his profile and said fuck yeah so…mhm.

I will say, I didn’t go exactly chloroform, but the same aspect of it with his magic.

I used honey cuz I was like “Old. But also insane. Equals honey.”

Alright I’m gonna go do homework now because I’ve neglected other work (APRIL AND MAY IS HELL FOR MEEE)

- Celina