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baekhvuns · 1 year

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ok so hear me out...

This week has been...ASTOUNDING!

First of all we had exo's cb which i was surprised to see because ok i was hoping for it but not that damn early 😭😭😭BUT my ears have been blessed. What am i saying? Does exo ever disappoint? NOO or maybe it's just that i don't like crticizing bcz if i am in love with a grp i would go down the gates of hell.

AND

i watched MORE MOVIES!! YAY!! starting the week off with devdas, bro....i wont say i loved it or hated it. I was somewhere in the middle but it's srk so what cn i say?? THE COSTUMESS?? THE SET DESIGNS?? THE JEWELLERY?? omggg and the actresses?? Dude i have never seen an indian actress who isn't close to being a literal goddess, I think i do know about the first love interest. She's..OH YES SHE WAS IN PINK PANTHER! i just remembered it- and the songs and dialouges "LOVE IS THE SHADOW OF THE SOUL!!" 😭 indian movies are like musicals.

but some scenes were abrupt i mean how does tht candle not extuingishhh?? tht was kind of physics defying but hey they're trying to show the power of love. AND ONE MORE THING THE WAY THE FIRST LOVE INTEREST REMEMBERS THE AMT OF DAYS THEY'VE BEEN APART- PEAK OBSESSESION. However, ik this movie will hold a place in my heart. Srk was so emo in this-

then i watched shershah...it was based on a true story?....i cried, i wailed, i sobbed, my heart hurt, my chest ached and...it helped me see the movie from a broader perspective and not just the life of the mc. Like for soldiers, this is how their life is yk? and their families...as much as they're proud its equally heart-wrenching for them. AND THE MAIN LEADS GOT MARRIED?? at least we got them as a couple, hope they stay happy forever in along healthy relationship.

i also watched bajirao mastani and....what was tht movies?? OH aligarh one? so many different genres combined in a week. It was a rollercoaster for my emotions AND ATEEZ DIDNT MAKE IT ANY BETTER?? SEONGHWA RAPPER??? MINGI COWBOY??? SAN UNDERGROUND FIGHTER??? OH LORD-

the song has it's perks ok? it's not bad and its addicitve but at first i did think the ending was a bit messy, even the intro like i didnt even know when the song started, hwa gv me an attack BUT it was experimental ig idk? i hope we have another mv for either outlaw or this world bcz i cant live with the fact tht SUCH AMAZING SONGS WERE LEFT AND K-HOT CHILLI PEPPER GOT A MV??

the mv was dynamic tho. In concl. i liked it , didn't love it. It was def, not vocal heavy but more focused on the hiphop and rap element which is fine but...oh to hv the old ateez back. I would ascend if they released something like utopia or aurora again.

but yesss this has been my week in the entertainment section of life.(❁´◡`❁) and waiting for your works miss baeksyyy. Really dont be nervous. Idc if you take even 2 or more years to release it as long ik you're here and cmon i mean it's BAEKHVUNS WORKS ILL READ IT GODDAMIT EVEN IF U THINK ITS NOT GOOD BCZ U WROTE IT OFC U WOULD THINK ITS NOT GOOD but...its. going. to. be. my. holy. grail.

hello!!!

no bc that exo pre release had my ears thanking me to listen to it 😭😭 cannot wait for the comeback bc u know they will always deliver amazing albums !!!! no bc i would 100% go to hell for exo & shinee

AAAAAA U DID !!!!! AND DEVDAS??? 😩😩😩😩 he served such a disney prince vibe in it AND THE ACTRESSES ????? LORD HAVE MERCY THEY REALLY ATE GODDESSES A MISS UNIVERSE (yES THE PINK PANTHER LADY she’s so god damn stunning omg i cry every time i see her,, miss femme fatale) AND A DANCE LEGEND?? omg the dresses, the jewelry the emotion !!! they really are like musicals this one esp bc it was homage to shakespearean play!! i also do not know if u noticed this but

yeah shershaah, i also cried sobbed screamed and then doubled bc it was a true story 😭😭😭😭😭 the last scene where the music drops and the flashbacks happen and it’s his final rites and the actress runs in—

YESS THEY GOT MARRIED RECENTLY !!!!! and they did a version of a song from that movie but made it happier! ur right, in war no one wins,,, what got me was the soldier who hadn’t held his daughter since she was born and he was so excited to- and 😭😭 he 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

that bajirao mastani movie (the lead actors are actually married too fbwndhwj they met on a previous film by the same director who’s also the director of devdas) YEAAAAAAH cheating trope but so poetically done >>> YEAH AND ALIGARH BEING BASED ON A TRUE STORY SCREAMED CRIED HOW ARE PPL SO VILE

ATEEZ. MINGI RAPPER, SEONGHWA RAPPER??? SAN???? HONGJOONGS COCKY ASS ???? 😩😩 the song does have its perks,,,, when hongjoong says slow it down make it bouncy- that part especially! i think the only song i rly liked the was the world and outlaw,,, it also felt like the last albums’s dupe im sorry 😭😭😭 i just really wish ateez do r&b’s, pop’s edm’s, dance music… my wish is to have them get someone who chooses sm artists bsides like imagine ateez w songs like exo’s oasis,, rv’s i just, shinee’s body rhythm, or taemin’s heaven! or even nct’s magic carpet ride???? 😭😭😭 RIGHT I WOULD ACTUALLY BUY 15 ALBUMS IF THEY BRING SONGS LIKE TREASURE WHERE THEY HAD THEIR VOCALS AND ONE DREAM AND UTOPIA OUT LIKE THAT WAS THE PINNACLE OF ATZ 🤚🏻🤚🏻

the vocal yeaaaahh,,, it’s the reason i loved the exo song bc when i heard the vocals w nothing of auto tune or any sound editing,,, wow that was a breath of fresh air for me personally,,, raw vocals and a dream is what i wish kpop groups do like amaze us with your vocals GIVE US A MID SONG ACAPELLA??? oUu exo pls come back fast they need to show how it’s done

i hope ur week has been fun!!!! im so very nervous to post it like i have the teaser ready w all the tag list done and i just don’t have the courage anymore 😭😭😭 bUT I WILL POST IT this coming week somehow I AM HERE MY BRAIN WONT STOP WORKING UNTIL I LET ALL MY FICS OUT SO U DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABT THAT PART but thank u so much for sticking around really you’re so kind for those words <3333 thank u thank u so much 😭😭

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anotherworldofoni · 4 years

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#2019recapedinwords

Emmm...so much to say. So i guess i'll start from the first day of 2019.

Tbh, that day was so hard for me. Really hard, i could not resist. So here we go.

It was really cold, 17 degrees i remember (from the courtesy of my 2nd acc instagram story). He. The one that i really loves (at that time), the one that got a special part of my heart (also at that time) texted me a "long long message". He said sth that boom, breaks my heart. A heartbreak-fact.

I got really sick at that time, all i want to do was crying, crying, & A LOT of tears. I tried hard to stay calm, cause at that time i was with my family, celebrating the new year's that just arrived. But pity me, i can't hide what i was felt at that new year's eve. I cried.

Since that day, all that i've to do is pretending to be OK, i figured out what's really happened, i convinced myself that everything WILL BE OKAY. I BELIEVE.

As time passed by, many more time that bring us (me & him) to a lil bit fighting, blaming ourselves, blaming me, blaming him, misunderstanding did occur too, didn't know we ACTUALLY not meant to be together. That time, we thought that we always have each other's back but actually NOT REALLY. We fight, we separated.

It was through July until August.

We miss each other, sometimes. But i know this is not right. We know we're not for each other, so we took the different path for ourselves.

I still being me. I still a (little bit mess) med-student. I do my pre-clinical days at the campus with my friends, the loves one only. I got them by my side, thanks to them whose NOT LEAVING me alone with my kind of situations (felt so lonely & just lost the ones that know me the most since day 1 in the med-school). So sad but true, i've been crying a lot since those stupid days. We knew, we were letting go of something special, something we'll never have again. & that's okay. I'm grateful for that.😇

Lots of things happened actually, i almost finished my pre-clinical stuffs of my med school, ready to start my new journey of clinical things; being a co-assistant. Tbh, i'm so excited!! (Even though i am not done yet to choose my team for this co-ass thing; & it's sucks cause it's really hard to find the right person, most of them is already have their own team & the saddest part is: one of my good friend bobby is already hv team, even though i really wish i could be a team with him😭). But no worries, i know God is still working on His will. God has already set up, who can stop it?

And this is the best part. My very special part.

I guess it starts from October through the end of the year, December 2019.

I met (again) with this man. Someone i really adore the most when i was in my first year of college. Someone who makes me curious about his everyday-life & it makes me do this: stalking his instagram account with my 2nd account HAHAHAH😂.

I can't believe something magical is about to happen. It all starts with one click. Around month-August 2019, i decided to follow him through my main account of instagram (not the 2nd acc at this time heheh). & tadaa, since that day we became close, i guess?

And this is the magical things:

(omg i really can't believe this thing is happen until NOW😂, sometimes i questioning myself; is it REAL THING?)

Day 23 of December 2019, he asked me to be his girlfriend. 🙂 wait, what?

"Is it real?" "Oh, are you joking?" "This can't be true!" "Omg, what!?? Am i dreaming right now?" & there were many more questions i asked myself & him at that time. This is super beyond my ability. OH MY GOD.

I was so "frozen" at that time that i could answer his question about being his girlfriend, pardon me😂 i felt so stupid.

I lost myself & suddenly i can't use my brain to think about what i would say, so i stay quiet at that time😂 once again, pardon my stupidity😂. But thank God, a few moments later, i can use my brain again yeay. I said to him that i need time to think; again. (Cause i am too shocked at that time & need more time to think i guess).

Four days later after the "shocked situation", i finally (haah) answer his question. I wrote it all down on a paper, perfectly, i wrap it in a red envelope & the final touch: i spray my favorite perfume on that, HUAHA!✨

My answer? Of course i said YES!😁

Day 27 of December 2019. What a day. :,) im so happy & i wish this remain still, & i pray to God, be thankful for His kindness, i am really blessed to have this kind of "warm" situation, i really can't imagine what is look like to have someone special that means a lot to me, someone i adore that much, becoming my boyfriend! >.< (omg the excitement of a few days ago remain still, until NOW!😆😆)

And i have to say, on this day, today, the last day of 2019, that i forgive you. I forgive your cruelty in the first day you gave me that situation (from the very first second of 2019 actually!).

Cause the day that i believe that God is still counting on me, that everything will be OK turns out really really OK & even much more OK than i could ever imagine. Once again, my God is really something. He is doing GREAT THINGS for my life. He's not done yet for me. I BELIEVE, HE PREPARED THE BEST FOR MY FUTURE!🌈✨❤️

I put this sentences of Joel Osteen:

"People may walk away, life may not turn out the way you had thought, but God has something better in front of you."

So here i start over!

I know God is always in control, so CHEERS for the new year, 2020!

I welcome this new year with spirit, joyful & i am ready for my new adventures ahead!

"Don’t bring bitterness into the new year. You can’t embrace the new things God has in store as long as you’re holding onto the old."

So here i am, closing 2019 & i kiss it Goodbye!✨👋🏽

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