#one could argue under threat of death by mbjs hands too but im not above hcing that he couldve worked out 20 different methods to prevent i

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my favorite thing abt sqh is how much he just..lies. not even out of any malice or at times even necessitated discretion. he promises u everything, reliably delivers it—half bcs you'll have his head otherwise, half bcs he's an unwilling people's pleaser(..and terrified for his life)—and yet still. there's a genuine complicit sort of understanding within him, that all he says, he means half heartedly. everything in his life is so precarious, either physically, or in mental house of cards, that to give a word, a statement, a sentiment, with an internal genuineness would mean to put on stakes feelings that he has full faith in himself to never deliver on. its a constant form of lying that comes from self doubt, a house where nobody is there to listen to u in the first place to account u for it, a stage where everything is a demand and urs is a performance you think will cost u ur life if u fumble it once. the only promise he had ever intended to fulfill faithfully was to his king, and it was bcs he'd written it so. there's original goods sqh who'd betray his king for ambitions and purposes for his own gain and then there's our author god airplane, perfectly possessing the demeanour of the most snivelling, sycophantic-appearing man alive, never having one thought to betray his king, who, apart from being his favorite creation slash wet dream ofc, was also the keeper of the only role in sqh's life whom he offered himself to willingly (by not killing mbj) and then worked that position never intending to be anything else