#one is a gay twink vampire femboy

[nondescriptrock]

Mission Impossible: Vampire Edition

[princess-dirt]

Long Rant, please ignore... or don't

Growing up, my mom would tell me how handsome I was, how I'd have to be careful with girls because of how many I'd have to deal with. She told me this as early as elementary school.

Of course, she couldn't have been more wrong. I grew up with undiagnosed adhd and likely autism. I had social anxiety and horrible self-image issues. I never cared how I looked, but hated how I looked. I was socially awkward and could barely talk to girls. That's to say very few girls ever approached me.

I was thinking about this, and only now have I really connected the dots. The patriarchy and heteromormativity of the world fucking sucks. Like I grew up and every good thing about my appearance that my mom would say never materialized. No wonder I suffer so bad from self-image issues. I had my mom pushing it down my throat that I should have a girlfriend, but also to be careful of girls, but also that they'd be all over me, but also that I have to make the first move since I was a guy.

I think the worst part about all of this is that when I was in high school, the lack of any romantic relationship really fucked with me mentally. I already had a pretty shit childhood, so it was frosting on the cake. It got so bad I fell down the alt-right pipeline and was a few months away from becoming an incel.

But I watched MLP. This show was the first time I was ever really taught empathy, and it changed my life. Fast forward senior year, and I've been experimenting with how I look. I have alt and queer friends, I'm learning about myself.

I spill my heart out to my mom about everything and how trapped and hopeless I felt about relationships. Like 20 minutes she listened to me. I was crying and desperate for any bit of advice from my parent.

"So are you gay?" My mom asks sounding almost annoyed.

Which leads to me begging her to listen to me and to take what I am saying seriously.

"Well, how do you think I feel?" She says now sounding angry.

This same conversation happens a half dozen more times. Each time I become more desperate for any hint my mom cares at all.

"You just need to approach them and be nice."

"You should try harder."

"Are you calling me a bad mother?"

"I didn't raise you this way!"

Now, both of my parents are brainrotted by Fox News. My dad is mentally ill while being the most toxic man ever, never being emotionally available for me ever. My mom still thinks I just need to try harder and that girls will just throw themselves at me. Her state of delusion is horrifying tbh.

It sucks because they will both die never having known their son. They'll die never knowing I use he/they, never knowing I'm pansexual, never knowing I crossdress, never knowing I cosplay, never knowing me, the pansexual nuero divergent femboy. And I don't feel bad over it.

I know my story about this kind of shit is way more common that I'd like. I've seen tik toks with very similar events I've mentioned with 100s of 1000s of likes and comments.

To think a generational gap could have such destructive consequences. My only solace for this is that I was able to overcome their horrible parenting.

It seems to me that as each day passes, the only way I'll remember my parents when they are long since dead is the mental scars they've left. I hate it, but I love my parents. They tried their best, but their best failed me and my 3 brothers horribly.

Anyways, back to watching Vampire Dormitory. It's a gay ass anime about some twink and a vampire.

Edit: finished episode one, the Twink was girl. I feel so betrayed.

[crownedemon]

Hey, call me Chime. I’m a 27 year old gay man, it or he pronouns. Pretty vanilla all things considered, mostly into softer/lighter stuff. Real vampire, otherkin (incubus among other things). Polyam. This is a sideblog, so I like and follow from my main, ask if you want. I’m chronically ill and might talk about that sometimes. If you don’t have your age in your bio and/or you’re a minor I’ll block you. If you think you know me irl don’t scroll past this line, go home. Self-indulgent personal fantasies are tagged as #chimes bullshit, all of my own posts regardless of content are tagged #the incubus speaks. Asks are open, feel free to say words at me, horny or otherwise. I mostly just reblog shit I like, occasionally write shit, might post pics once in a blue moon. Generally into softer stuff, with some exceptions. If you want to know if I like a specific thing feel free to ask. Kinks+Turn Ons: -cnc -vampires; probably some slight pred/prey thing going on there -biting/marking, bonus points if it happens without a lot of pain -praise -gender+identity affirmation -breeding -soft bdsm -light denial -bondage, restraints, etc. -overstim -cockwarming -fuck if i know man Terms I Like: -twink -femboy -pussy -prince -demon, imp, incubus, vampire, etc. -”good boy” etc. -masc compliments Terms I Don’t Like: -cunt, cboy, etc. -fem compliments -girl, sis, etc. even jokingly -puppy (Instant turn-off) Turn-Offs+Limits: -pr*gnancy -w*tersports, sc*t, etc. -v*re -p*tplay -painplay -choking -humiliation -public sex -the word d*ddy, sorry i just like. Can’t. -dd/lg shit, ageplay -food-related kinks -gags, collars (things around my throat or in my mouth in general = Panic) DNI: -t*rfs/tr*nsmeds -chasers -p*dos/M*PS, whatever you people call yourselves rn -z**philes -inc*st -detr*ns/forced fem blogs -D*LG shit -alt-r*ght fucks -under 18/no age in bio -"men dni”/wlw-exclusive blogs