#or i could q it for once a day and milk it for content hmmm

[dizzy-dazzled]

finally,, after 3 years i have returned,,,,,which means i have three years worth of unposted art.

yall ready for an art spam?

[nekowriteshaikyuu]

Afraid

even if you’re afraid in falling in love again, i’ll wait till you’re ready.

pairing : kageyama x reader

a/n : so uhh,,,the next few weeks(let’s just be safe and say the next month) i have tests after tests, and some of them are graded TmT. So this mean i’ll have to take some time off writing because- as much as i say f school and that it sucks, i still have to at least ace it so i’m trouble free TmT. So,,yeah. But do send in some requests and i’ll (hopefully) make drafts of them when im free and soon publish it.

but for now, enjoy more milk boi content:)  (i hope i dont f this up like my previous one hngg)

yall know the drill: apologies if it doesn’t match the characterrrr. okay enjoy:)

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you look absolutely stunning. your smooth, silky hair, your heartwarming smile, your toned body and perfect glossy eyes, every little detail about you just makes kageyama fall into a deeper hole. Ever since you moved in to karasuno, you had people drolling over you. Including the hot-tempered setter.

Honestly speaking, you could have gotten a boyfriend by now after the popular boy in the school hit you up. But to his surprise, you turned him down. Every boy who tried to ask you out or confess their feelings for you, you constantly turn them down. Not one of them did you accept. This brought kageyama to the thought that if he were to shoot his shot, it’s very clear he wouldn’t even have a chance.

But just seeing you everytime during practice, talking to yachi about your school work and other stuff, he just can’t thinking of you. He’d shoot glances at you from time to time, making sure he’s not being suspicious at the same time.

Hinata actually noticed this and took this as an advantage to tease the setter.

“hmmm? Is kageyama seeing someone ??” He cooed. Kageyama would have grabbed his hair and yank him to the wall but he stopped himself to not make a scene. after you left the gym, he was finally able to breathe normally. Your presence always tense him up, hoping he won’t embarrass himself infront of you.

Practice ended and everyone was changing when kageyama sighed heavily which caught everyone’s attention.

“aw, is someone upset that he can’t win a person’s heart?” tsukki said along with yamaguchi giggling afterwards. Kageyama glances his way before picking up his bag. Before he could even head out the changing room, Daichi stopped him by putting his hand on kageyama’s shoulder.

“you know, if it really bothers you, you should just go for it. Even if she were to turn you down, at least get that feeling off your chest.” Sugawara nods is agreement along with ennoshita. Kageyama couldn’y do anything but sigh, then nodding afterwards.

“alright, i’ll do it. today.”

“eh?! uhh- i mean take your time and find the right moment kagey-”

“thank you, daichi. I’ll be off now.” Kageyama bowed before leaving the captain standing still, facing the door that was shut closed.

“don’t worry, daichi, i’m sure he means well.” suga tried to comfort his captain who is dreaded with fear for his teammate.

“y/n !” you heared someone calling you from behind. You turned to see kageyama running towards you. You stopped your tracks as you slowly waited for him to get closer.

“kageyama ! finished practice ?” he nodded as he tried to catch his breathe. After a while, he stood up straight, clearing his throat before speaking.

“let me walk you home.” you could feel your heart throbbing. But you shook your head, declining the offer.

“no it’s okay, i’m fine. well, i’ll see you-”

“please, it’s late and very dangerous.” He pleaded. You sighed before allowing and you both then began walking back to your house. The walk was silent, with an awkward tension and a small gap between the both you. You both barely spoke to each other, just occasional ‘hello’ and ‘how’s your day?’, so to walk home with him is something you weren’t prepared for.

You both reached the playground near your house and you stopped for a second. Kageyama noticed and he stopped his tracks, walking back to check if you’re okay.

“y/n, is something wron-”

“i’m so sorry kageyama. but i don’t like you” your sudden of words really shattered him. He wasn’t ready yet. He wanted a few more moments before accepting the fact. But the truth has been told, and he soon have to accept it.

“it’s okay, im not forcing yo-” his words were cut when he noticed tears rolling down your cheeks. You tried your best to hold into the tears but after feeling his sudden touch, rubbing your shoulder, you couldn’t help it. You bawled your eyes out and kageyama was freaking out internally. He didn’t what to do. So he just guided you to a bench, sat you down, and waited patiently as you let loose of this tight feeling.

you’ve never really told anyone that you’ve always been afraid of falling in love ever since your previous relationships. To date someone and fall in love with them so deeply, only to realise they don’t feel the same way anymore after some time. Everyone you loved, left you. not one of your lovers ever stayed for long. This resulted you into losing hope, feeling unwanted or just used. So to constantly get love letters or being confessed under a sakura tree, it really upsets you that one day any one of these boys will leave you if they ever get tired of you. Which is something you never want to experience, ever again.

Kageyama sat down beside you and patiently waited as you eased up. You slowly catch your breath, sniffing and wiping the excess tears. After a while, you’ve slowly calmed down from the sudden outburst. 

“i guess i shouldn’t really keep it to myself” you smiled to the ground and kageyama looked at you with concern.

“take your time, i’m always hear to listen” he reassured. God, you miss this feeling. The feeling of someone taking their time to just sit down with you and listen to your thoughts. You let out a heavy sigh, before looking at him with puffed up eyes.

“i’ve been into a few relationships. Unfortunately, all of them didn’t turn out well. I felt used, unwanted. Because of this, i’ve always thought that every boy who i’m going to date, will eventually leave me. That is why, i constantly turn them down, just for the sake that i won’t go through the same thing over and over again.” you admit. You were expecting kageyama to tell you to just ‘go for it’ or ‘don’t be scared. you won’t know if it will work out this time’, just like every boy said to you. But all he did was looked at you, staring deep into your eyes, as in he was guilty to make you speak up about something personal.

“i understand.” he cut the silence. He smiled slightly as he look at you. His smile, just something about his smile made your heart skipped a beat. Before it could go any further, you sprung up, grabbing your bag before turning back to kageyama, flashing the same smile which is now known to kageyama that it’s fake. 

“well, it’s late. i have to go now. i’ll see you tomorrow !” you waved before walking away. Kageyama took a few moments to recollect his thoughts, before grabbing his bag and sprinting back to you again. no, he can’t let you lose hope. He wants to be the one to change your perspective of love. He wants to show you that he generally cared. and most certainly, he wants to let you know, that in any circumstances, he would never, ever, leave you.

You felt someone caught your wrist before pulling you closer towards them. You spun before looking directly at kageyama, who’s giving off an expression that you’ve never seen before.

“ I don’t care how long will it take for you to slowly open up again. Days, weeks, months, even years.But I want to let you know, that i’m always here. I’m never leaving you alone. Whatever it takes, i’ll trade anything, absolutely anything, to see you happy once more. So,,even if you’re still afraid of falling in love again, i’ll always be here. waiting.” The way kageyama spoke didn’t feel like a lie. It felt as if he really spoke from the bottom of his heart. he slowly loosen the grip around your wrist, bowing politely and walking back home.

you slowly watch him walk away, clenching your heart. Did he really meant that ? Was he really stating the truth? whatever it is, you felt that kageyama would actually keep his promise. 

Maybe, he is right. You shouldn’t lose hope. Not all of the boys are the same, because someone made you think otherwise. Which was none other than Kageyama Tobio.

a/n : OKAY!! Due to personal reasons, i will now dig my grave ;-; but yeaah hope this is okay. Wrote this on the spot when i had a sudden thought about love. Technically i do feel like love is really,,,a jigsaw puzzle. In order to work things out, communication is key. But i’m afraid a few of the relatonships i have observed didn’t work out well because they lack in that aspect. but this is just my personal opinion (please don’t attack me). Anyways yesshh uhmm i’ll be taking a break for now, but i’ll still be active (reading other people’s haikyuu hc huhuhu) and stuff. Also once again, feel free to send in request or just random questions (i love doing Q&A lmao) and i’ll answer them :3 alright, see yalls in a few weeks time ;)

[tamakisuwu]

— make a wish. | tamaki amajiki.

Tamaki Amajiki x Gender Neutral! Reader.

Summary : you were supposed to invite Tamaki over but that changed when you and Tamaki walk together after school.

Warnings : none !!

Content : fluff, fluff, fluff uwu, short-ish one shot

taglist : @kingtamakimurder , @kbakugouwu , @shoutogepi , @katsukisprincess , @bleach-your-panties !! 💘

notes : hAppY hAppY biRthDay to tAmaKiiIi !! its been a few months since i watched bnha season 4 and the moment i watched it tamaki caught my interest immediately cause he’s just so precious like my heart can’t take it 🥺. i was so interested in him that i made my first story about him which was all about jealousy in january !! so happy birtday to this baby, i love him and ya’ll so so much ❤❤❤ happy readings and enjoy !!!

Sunlight hits your bed, yellow and orange setting in your bed-- you groaned loudly as it hits your eyes, softly opening them and blinking them, adjusting them to the freshly exposed sunlight. Turning over to your side, you picked up your phone that was once charging and unlocked it, your eyes immediately setting them on the date.

March 4, 2020. You gasped, it was your best friend’s birthday! your best friend meaning Tamaki-- basically sprinting yourself out of bed, you ran towards your shower, quickly getting ready for the day while you thought of what you could do for the shy, cute, birthday boy.

As you were getting ready for the day, an idea popped up in your head ; a small light bulb appearing on top of your head-- it wasn’t the best idea but it was decent, to say the least. Walking out of your dorm, you walked towards the living room-7 immediately seeing Mirio who, in fact, was eating breakfast. “Morning Mirio!” You shouted, catching the attention of the blonde male while you walked towards the cabinets, opening them and getting a cereal for yourself.

“Hey y/n! how was your sleep? I bet you’re looking for a specific birthday boy.” Mirio said, wiggling his eyebrows while you rolled your eyes at his response, sitting in front of him before putting your cereals and milk together in one bowl. It was true that, in fact, you had the biggest crush on the shy male for awhile now, especially since he’s been your best friend since your first year at UA.

Sighing softly, you shook your head to remove those thoughts out of your head-- grabbing your spoon and shoving it to the bowl of cereals, mixing the milk and the cereals together. “My sleep was fine but actually, yes I am looking for that specific someone! I was planning to invite him to my room and celebrate if he wasn’t busy.” You said, smiling happily as you dragged the spoonful of cereal towards your mouth.

Mirio smiled back at you, feeling happiness bubble up inside him as you explained your plans for yours and his best friend’s birthday. “I think he’s available today but I’m not sure, his parents are out I think so.. take your chance!” Mirio says, smiling his signature smile that made million’s of people smile. You smiled back and nodded in response before going into a very peaceful silence and started to finish your meals.

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Walking over to school with your best friend, Mirio, you glanced at him. “Hey.. I didn’t see Tamaki earlier in the dorms, did you see him when you woke up?” You asked, your eyes showing that one emotion ; curiosity. “Mhm, I did, he did say that he’ll go a bit earlier cause he has some errands to do with Fat Gum.” Mirio says, chuckling slightly as he remembered how Tamaki was running around in a rush.

Finally, arriving at school, you adjusted your bag that was on your shoulder-- walking more slower when you realized Tamaki might not even be in class or school at all today so how the hell were you supposed to ask him? Mirio seems to have noticed your slight change of mood due to him putting his big hands on your shoulder, smiling his heroic smile, like always. “Don’t worry, you’ll be able to ask Tamaki, maybe after school or something? I know Fat Gum wouldn’t keep Tamaki stuck at work on his special day.”

Smiling at this, you nodded, Mirio smiled at your response before letting go and walking over to his class, his bag slung over his shoulder nicely. “See you later or tomorrow y/n and have fun with Tamaki tonight!” Mirio shouted, winking while you blushed. You then realized that Mirio practically screamed that out loud-- making everyone look at you, whispers heard while you blushed even more than before, running over to your classroom, embarrassed as ever.

“I’m so gonna kill you later on Mirio..” You muttered out, grumpily walking over to your desk and setting your slightly heavy bag down. Sitting down, you propped your elbows up, already going into a sleepy mode as you stared at the empty bored that was in front of you. “U-um.. y-y/n..?” A voice muttered out behind you-- your body stiffened as you recognized that voice.

Turning around slowly, your chair moving slightly as slight chattering was heard in the background but you didn’t pay any mind to it, you only payed a mind to him. The guy that was supposed to be with Fat Gum, the guy who was supposed to be working right now. “T-tamaki! I-I thought you were gonna be working with Fat Gum today..” You exclaimed, not expecting that you would be facing your best friend right now-- you haven’t even made a speech on how you should invite him or a script!

“O-oh.. i-it turns o-out F-fat G-gum just g-gave me a-a discount c-card for m-my f-favorite restaurant as a.. b-birthday g-gift..” Tamaki stuttered out, his voice going incredibly low once he said the word birthday gift. Your mouth formed an ‘o’ shape in response before you regained your composure. “U-um Tamaki, I wanna ask if--” You were about to ask him the question before the door slammed open revealing Nejire who was happily walking towards Tamaki.

Nejire reached out her arm, slinging it over Tamaki’s shoulder while you watched, chuckling as you saw Tamaki’s reaction. “Happy Birthday Tamakiiiii!!~” Nejire screamed out, making almost everyone in the classroom look over at you guys while Tamaki’s face went bright red. “N-nejire.. n-not so l-loud!” Tamaki shouted out, stuttering in the process while he covered his face with his hands. “Hmmm, sorry, didn’t mean to!~ so what’s your plan for today? got any speciallll plans with you knoww~” Nejire said, nudging Tamaki in the stomach when she specifically said someone.

Tilting your head in curiousity, you looked over at Tamaki, who was visibly shaking, his ears bright red from embarrassment. “W-well you s-see I-I wanna--” Before Tamaki could even finish his sentence, the door flew open once more. Expecting to see Mirio, you turned around which was followed by everyone in the classroom who was met face to face with your teacher. “We will now begin our new training! now put on your outfits and lets go!” Your teacher says, watching as everyone roamed around the classroom, getting their costumes.

Dressing yourself up in your costume, you sighed. Today was gonna be a long day for sure.

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Groaning loudly, you smiled happily as you realized that school was now over, you stretched your back, immediately hearing your bones cracking. Sighing loudly, you groaned once more, now realizing that you haven’t even asked Tamaki the question yet. You slowly gave up, ‘I mean.. Tamaki must’ve left school already so there’s no point..’ You thought, slowly getting your bag and slinging it over your shoulder.

Turning around your heel and walking out of your now empty classroom, you sighed sadly-- ‘I guess next year, I can try if ever..’ You thought, glancing around your surroundings which was the corridor ; doors were still open while a few students were walking to the dorms-- you frowned, kicking into invisible air before walking away, now walking towards the school entrance.

Step, step, step..

That was all that was heard as you walked towards the dorms, still gloomy due to the fact that you wouldn’t even get to spend the birthday of Tamaki all alone. ‘I wonder what he’s doing now? is he with his friends and--’ before you could even finish your train of thought, a loud, stuttering voice that you knew all too well, yelled out to you while footsteps were heard from behind you.

“y-y/n! w-wait!” Your eyes widened, turning around quickly-- you were met with a sight that you could never, ever forget and that was Tamaki, running over to you, sweat dripping, cheeks flushed, and with him panting. He always looked so... gorgeous and that wasn’t fair. At all. Finally, Tamaki caught up to you-- well he would have anyways, I mean he was in the top three so you wouldn’t even have a chance to beat him in speed nor strength.

Chuckling slightly at this scene, you ruffled Tamaki’s indigo hair before turning around and walking away, making sure that Tamaki is following you as you follow the path. “Whatcha want Tama? I thought you were busy today?” You asked, softly swaying your hands back and forth, slightly brushing over Tamaki’s skin making him blush to which, you didn’t seem to notice. “W-well.. I-I.. I have a q-question for y-you..” Tamaki stutters out, visibly shaking as he feels the nervousness build up.

You smiled happily at him, now realizing that now was probably your best chance at asking him. It’s worth a shot anyways. “Oh! well I also have a question for you too Tama!” You said, giggling once you saw Tamaki’s face become even more red. You sighed happily, wishing that this moment could last forever but then stopped as you realized that you haven’t said that word yet. “O-oh.. t-then you c-can go f-first..” Tamaki says, nervously fiddling with his fingers as he looks at you.

Rolling your eyes in response-- which he doesn’t see since you’re in front of him, you looked around, making sure that you and Tamaki were secluded before turning around quickly and grabbing onto Tamaki’s shoulders like how Mirio does. “Tamaki! if we both have a question for each other then we should both say together okay?” You said, grinning cheekily at him. Letting go of his shoulders, you waited for his response, the both of you now standing still. “O-okay.. l-let’s count o-on t-three..” Tamaki said, his whole face exploding into a shade of red while you nodded in response.

“One..”

“Two..”

“Three!”

“Make a wish!”

“I-I wish for y-you to b-be m-mine!”

Staring at each other in shock, silence was filled in the air, the wind flowing along making your hair as well as Tamaki’s hair fly smoothly while other people’s footsteps were heard, cars passing by, and people muttering, it was all cliche but.. you liked it for some reason.

Being the first one to break the silence, you laughed, laugh after laugh coming out of your mouth while Tamaki stared at you in shock-- were you rejecting him? were you saying no? are you making fun of him for his stu-- before Tamaki could finish that thought, he felt a pair of arms wrap around him tightly, her face burying itself deep in his chest. “It’s so irony how we both said it at the same time and how its basically a question to an answer.” You said, grinning widely as you saw Tamaki’s confused gaze on you.

Deciding that you should be the one to make your move, you looked up at him, smiling still. “Happy Birthday Tama, I don’t have the best gift but I can always buy you next time but I hope this makes up for it.” You said, finally saying the words that you’ve always wanted to say before slightly tip toeing to meet his height and capturing his lips onto yours into a soft but sweet peck.

Parting away slowly, you gazed at Tamaki lovingly, your hand going up to rub his cheek while his hands nervously went around your waist-- his hands visibly shaking-- well.. who wouldn’t? its in public but there weren’t many people around anyways. “And for your information, your wish has been granted!” You said, immediately cuddling yourself into his chest while Tamaki stayed still as you listened to his rapid heart beat.

“y-y/n.. c-can we do t-this at the d-dorms p-please?” Tamaki said, pulling away from you softly while you nodded, grabbing his wrist and dragging him away to go to the dorms. “Of course we can since I love you so much!” You said, making sure to say the 3 lettered word softly and lovingly as you wanted to express your feelings, you wanted to say it and you did. Tamaki’s face went beet red once again, looking down to avoid your loving gaze before muttering out softly but loud enough for you to hear. “I love you too y/n..”

Who knew everything would start out with one simple phrase that was called ; ‘make a wish’ ?

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ending notes : waaa im really happy with how this turned out and i still wanna say happy birthday to this cute ass baby boy like if he was real-- bitch, im gonna cuddle his ass all day while giving him endless food like he’s too precious and now its his special day ? what 🥺. this is a bit more special than any other birthday special due to tamaki being my ultimate bean also the next story will be a new character for my blog which is tomura uwu but anyways i hope you enjoyed still !! requests are open so feel free to request !! 💗💗