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theevilicecreamsoda · 2 years

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One day I’ll be able to be free and I won’t be as lonely. I can make my living space what I want it to look like. I can have my alone time. I don’t have to worry about other people’s parents making me anxious and scared. I can actually decide what I want to do and how I look and at least a bit more of what I want my life to be

#been having many many negative experiences and tbh? i dont think i was the same person i was before…#i dont think ill be able to actually… enjoy talking with people without being on edge #or worrying and obessing over if they could be lying to me #idk… im scared of people… that’s why i try to stay as flat as i can #im scared of people and when im romantically close to someone i just want to disappear #i just want something to keep me company like the moss sticking to the trees…#i want company like a ray of light shining through a window on an early summer day #idk if that makes sense but i just want a light love like mist in the air #i just… i dont want this… i dont my friends parents to decide what they do #i want them to stop judging me i just want them to stop #i know i did wrong but this is unfair… i try my best but it feels like any mistake i make just… destroys everythinf #ive been judged every second of my life by my friends parents because im too different or too intense or just too needy #im just tired of it… i dont want this #sodarambles

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