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LOOKING TO THE FUTURE | Georgianna Leib

September 6th, 2017: Lucas & Taney’s Wedding

It was easy for anyone to see that Gia was a wedding type of woman. She put her focus into bridal design while studying fashion, took on as many brides as she could when her design season opened up, and -- while it would be bashfully admitted -- she spent many, many hours into the night on Pinterest just looking at ideas. Some were for herself, some were just things she liked, but wedding fever was something that hit Gia hard and stuck around. She wasn’t entirely sure if it was the idea of weddings and the pure magic that was behind it, or if it had something to do with the fact that getting married was a dream of hers for quite a long time, but something was there and it was making her itch. Every wedding she attended, every dress she designed that made a bride tear up made the itch worse, and for the longest time that itch was something that drove her completely insane. It only did so because for the longest time she felt as though those rollercoaster of emotions when something as simple as a dress or the right invitations fell into place was something far away from her. As much as Gia hated to think about it, the wedding bells stopped ringing so loud for her when she came to the conclusion that perhaps marriage wasn’t in the cards for her.

After the “Thaddeus Incident”, as she referred to it once upon a time, the idea of marriage slipped far from Gia’s hands. The embarrassment was the first thing that hit after that moment, those bells stilling for the time being due to the fact that she had put herself out there and bared far too much of herself only to be shot down. That entire situation did a number on her ego as well as her ideas of weddings and marriage. It all kind of paused for a short while, while she dealt with the sudden shift in what she knew with Thaddeus, from dealing with the broken relationship she wasn’t prepared for to the fact that what she thought her future was going to be wasn’t going to be that at all. In the moment when she decided to propose Gia had everything planned out, and even though the nerves had set in she was still excited for what was to come. Except it didn’t. Nothing was coming when such an opaque wall of “NO” was what she was met with upon the question, and that certainly did a number on her entire life plan.

Looking back on that she still felt the slight sliver of embarrassment that would forever be etched into her mind, but it was for entirely different reasons. At the time Gia was embarrassed due to the fact that the man she was in love with didn’t feel the same way at the same level, but now her embarrassment took on another form. It took on the form of the fact that she now knew she was young and stupid, and that she had went out on that limb simply because she wanted the wedding and the life that would come with it. She did feel for Thaddeus, she couldn’t deny that, but upon reflection it was glaringly obvious that the way she felt wasn’t anywhere close to how she should have felt if she were ready to marry the man. There were things they hadn’t done, things they weren’t ready for that she just jumped over and ignored in her blinding want of a married life.

A few years of self-reflection and discovery in who she was and what she really wanted in her life was what made the bells in her mind start ringing again. When Gia settled down in Los Angeles of all places, taking on a teaching position instead of a full-time designing gig, that was when the sound started echoing once more. At first she couldn’t place it, ignoring it, but the sound became familiar and much louder because Gia found herself at a good place in her life. She had a secure job that she enjoyed going to and doing, she had a nice home, and mentally she matured and felt as though she had a stable footing underneath herself. She became ready in those years to be a supportive partner for someone, to be able to give enough of herself to another person while still keeping some for herself so that what she could be was strong and secure in whatever relationship came her way. She was older than most women who got married, that was for sure, but it just meant that the silly, little things that were worrisome in a young relationship were things she could step over easily. She had her own goals, and she was sure that whoever it was that became that special someone to her would as well, and in knowing what she and they wanted in life meant that they could support and push each other instead of sitting and trying to still figure it out.

And then, out of the blue, it happened. It happened in a way she would have never imagined, and not because the meeting and revelation of romantic feelings was strange in any way, but it was the circumstances that were a tad bit odd looking at the grand scheme of things. The dates were wonderful and absolutely normal, the relationship, albeit new and still rather shiny, was blossoming into something so good, but the fact that she had found all of this in Thaddeus’ brother of all people was -- ... Well, it was interesting. Of course it was something she thought about early on when she agreed to the first date, but Thaddeus was a part of her life that didn’t define her anymore. Sure, Gia could say that what had happened defined her early on and helped her grow from that point, but now? Now that was just something in the past for both her and Thaddeus, so why should it be something that stopped her from pursuing something that could be better?

Yes, in a way the relationship between her and Thane was fresh, but considering the fact that their lives had started and settled meant that it was still mature. Like herself, Thane was somewhere in his life where his career was thriving, and as a person he knew who he was and where he wanted to end up. That level of maturity in a relationship skipped the awkward steps of “where will we be in five years?” because that five years was now. It was now and she and Thane were there, ready to be supportive and to enter a relationship as adults. So, due to that blessing, things were just a little easier than Gia could have ever imagined. It was easy to be with Thane despite his schedule keeping him from Los Angeles for some time, easy to talk to him and be that special person for him. However, Gia had a feeling that it was less about the level of maturity entering the relationship that made it so easy, and more about Thane as a person. He was a kind man, gentle and sweet, and with the charming aura that surrounded him Gia deduced that it was easy to have feelings for a man like Thane Watson because he was absolutely incredible.

Having these feelings for Thane was easy when it all started, less easy but still so when he went away to London, and it was easy now during his visit to Los Angeles while she was next to him at Lucas and Taney’s wedding. Gia was swept up in the warmth that he was exuding, dizzied by the cologne he was wearing in the best way possible, and just knowing that she was beside him as his partner made her heart hammer in her chest when she took a moment to think about it. On that special day for her friends, she often did have moments to think -- when his hands brushed hers when they moved, when he spoke, when he turned to look at her briefly among the craziness of the unity and smiled. It was the little moments she was relishing in, and if she could be so enamored by the smallest of things she couldn’t even begin to wonder what it was going to be like when things began to get bigger.

Oh yes, the bells were ringing.

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