#paithoughts

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Idk why I get so nervous to post on my spam account, like the people I have on added my spam are the chillest people I know and I still be overthinking about shit like that😭

I should try and stop this mindset of thinking cus l at the end of the day my spam is to show my memories n stuff and if I’m cringe oh well 😓

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Ramble #1

(not online diary related)

For the past couple of years I’ve experienced super intense joint pain and I didn’t think anything of it in the beginning, months passed and I began to slightly worry. I searched up my symptoms (which I should’ve know was a red flag) and it began linking “bone cancer” I know that isn’t the case so I just continued to ignored it. A year after I told my mother and she convinced me to go to the doctors, the doctor said that it was because of vitamin D deficiency, I started taking fish oil supplements but it still didn’t help me. I remembered a while ago when I started my asthma medication ( I use one Albuterol inhaler, one Qvar inhaler and I take one Montelukast 10mg table each day) I read that the montelukast tablets affect something bone related and just in case I searched it up and it states that.

“Yes, joint pain is a possible side effect of montelukast, but it's not clear how often it occurs or if it's actually caused by the drug. Joint pain has been reported after the drug was released, but it wasn't reported in studies of people taking montelukast.”

So like I don’t know whether to stop taking my medication or not…my pains have started to intensify and it leads to intense nausea.

Idk what to do :(

Edit: bro the side effects of Montelukast are freaking scary 😨

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why do people worry sooo much about what’s in peoples pants… watching the internet tear a LITERAL female apart by claiming she’s trans is so fucking disgusting…like sorry she beat ur fave.

She deserves a big fucking apology and I hope she wins it’ll be a good slap in all those stupid ass transphobes faces

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At the end of the day, I’m just a silly person with an insane obsession with a volatile, unpredictable, and deeply disturbed antagonist with a chaotic personality, often exhibiting violent outbursts and a twisted sense of morality.

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i feel so bad holy moly, i haven’t written anything in this since like forevevrvrvevevevevrrrr

i will finish up my sypnosis next week

very exciting week this week ^_^

good news coming soon

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The pain in my legs is getting worse by the freaking days…I wish I could just cut them off and stop this pain😭

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Manifestation: In My Defense….

Manifestation has become a popular topic in recent years, especially through social media and self-help groups. At its best, it can be a powerful tool for channeling energy and maintaining a positive mindset. When people take the time to visualize their goals, say affirmations, or write down their intentions, it often helps them stay motivated and strong. This mindset leads to real change, not because the universe “gives” it to them, but because they become stronger and clearer about what they want. It can reduce anxiety, increase self-confidence, and help people believe in themselves when they need to.

But the prospects are not entirely ditsy. There is a downside, especially when manifestation is misinterpreted as a shortcut to success. Relying on thoughts or affirmations alone, without action, can lead to frustration. Some fall into the trap of thinking that they are worthless simply because they don’t show themselves strong enough, which can severely affect their self-confidence. Worse yet, the practice has become commercialized. Influencers and teachers often prey on vulnerable people by selling courses or products that promise unrealistic results, turning personal growth into a money game.

This is where the gray area, the middle ground, comes into play. Manifestation is neither good nor bad in itself. It depends on how it is used and what people expect from it. For some, it is associated with spiritual or cultural beliefs that give it a deeper meaning. For others, it is more of a mental tool for staying focused. The key is balance. It should not replace real work, planning, or responsibility, but it can be part of the process. Like everything else, it is best if it is grounded in reality, not fantasy.

-pai 🐠

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i honestly tried to deal with her and support her as a friend but there’s only so much a person can take.

i kept it civil and i kept it polite, she had to be rude and all respect was off the table, i hope she learned her lesson.

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such a good documentary, i will be watching the second one and writing about it ^_^

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i hate the way metformin makes me nauseous, and my doctor upped it from 500 MG to fucking 1000!

LIKE LADY?????

anyways, just bs rant 💔

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if we don’t get fishing in GTA VI i’m honestly gonna crash out

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Also yes, I am an avid petty crime supporter

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My mom is genuinely a bitch I’m not even joking…

First she gets mad at me for thinking I didn’t invite my brother to go w my friend trick or treating (which I don’t have to)

And now she’s mad that I didn’t charge HER computer? And now wants to ruin my night?

ITS NOT MY FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR CHARGING HER SHIT

I’m genuinely getting fed up with her dumb ass shit

Bitch fr

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Another personal rant

Sleeping in a car full of stuff is NOT for the weak, having to brush my teeth in a random diner is also super duper embarrassing.

Being frustrated is also my right like how you gonna ask me how I’m feeling and then I tell you how I’m feeling but then you start making it about yourself???? (Mom)

Like am I not entitled to feel anything other than content?

I hate life sm right now holy fuck

I just gotta thug it out ☹️

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ATTENTION CALIFORNIAN VOTERS🗣️‼️📢

Please make sure you do your OWN research before voting on any propositions, these props do have effects on the people and their communities

A good website for research in this matter is CALMATTERS

Please make sure you vote for what’s best for you and your community….

- a fellow Californian ^_^

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“No solution is prefect. New problems always pop up, real progress is learning to handle those new problems better.”

Why the freak am I so poetic when I don’t fucking try?😭😭😭

Ignore my rushed handwriting this is due tomorrow and I’ve been slacking it off for the past week😓