#people want you to be social bc god forbid you arent

[naturally-dazed]

where's the erase bpd from brain button i need it

[vaguely-yandere]

okay so fat/chubby darling and playboy yan get together, people think that just bc darling is fat/chubby that they could steal playboy yan from them. like since a lot of ppl has fucked them/ want to fuck them or caught feelings, darling would get some nasty ass stares. (so stupid how this happens irl like arent fat ppl lovable lmao?)

instead of shying away darling would either glare at them ir cling to yan more imo

YEEESSSSSSS people who find it IMPOSSIBLE to believe that fat ppl exist and are loveable !!!!!! ppl who say shit like "well, if YOU can bag THAT, then there's hope for me after all!!" and the second darling complains about it or anything or god forbid playboy overhears, playboy is smashing an unopened champagne bottle over SOMEONES head and they don't care whos!!!!

and playboy yan who worships fat darling, covering them in jewelry and fine clothes, constantly posting them on social media, showing them off everywhere, loving their curves, their roles, their chubby cheeks, their double chin, the fat hanging from their arms, their cellulite, all of it drives playboy yan insane <3 and god, if your weight fluctuates a lot, playboy is just gonna like you even more because they means they have an excuse to update your wardrobe everytime you gain or lose weight!

and playboy yans favorite thing is showing you off at parties, eyes practically forming hearts when you wear the outfit and jewelry they bought you and eat the lil finger foods with your manicured hands and if anyone makes any negative or passive aggressive comment, playboy will throw a fit. yelling, throwing things, etc etc, blah blah, playboy is a bit of a brat!

speaking of, i love imagining darling in a silk dress with a big fluffy boa with playboy kneeling by their side, head resting on their hip, a beautiful and expensive collar around their throat with a leash resting right in darlings hand <3 so cute! darling, despite playboys whining, probably wouldn't do this at a party out of embarrassment but the collar would probably stay, maybe just as a more subtle piece of jewelry and if darlings dominance is threatened? if their relationship with playboy is questioned? darling will just call for their lil piggie bank to come over and with a bat of their eyelashes and a tiny pout, playboy hands over their wallet and tells them to get whatever they want <3

i can also see playboy calling places ahead of time and demanding good chairs. none of those tiny little ones (and god fucking forbid the creaky fragile ones (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠) ) and dw, you won't have a "special" chair that draws attention to you, everyone will get a nice comfortable chair that doesn't creak, doesn't dig into your hips or sides and is just nice <3

and i just KNOW playboy would have a thing for hand feeding you. even if you don't eat much, it's so so hard to say no to that face when they hold up a macaroon to your lips and look like they just need you to eat it and gently kiss their thumb afterwards <3 and they'll INSIST on you sitting either on their jacket or in their lap wherever you go, refusing to let your beautiful butt (even if you don't have one) touch a surface anyone else has touched and if you sit in their lap, theyll spend the entire time hugging you, holding you close, gently kissing your neck and shoulders and god, it's so hard not to feel gorgeous and wanted when they act like that <333

and a fat darling who is so confident in their relationship and who they are and in their body that they don't feel bad when ppl stare or make comments, they just turn to their yandere, give them a kiss mid convo with some other uber rich and important person and grins when playboy loses their train of thought mid sentence and just sighs with pleasure as they look at darling, handing over their credit card with a "i don't care how much money you spend as long as you keep kissing me like that" and it wasn't anything special, just a peck and just <3333 it's so nice feeling loved so much

[antiheaven]

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that about the job. I was asking because I have some mental health issues and I got the job as a cashier but I don't have any experience, the person in charge told me to do not worry bc they will teach me, but i'm not worry about that, i'm worry bc i'm insecure and i'm not good at interacting with people... sorry if this bother you, but would you have any advice? It will really help.

you arent bothering me at all!! ! i just dont have anything insightful on this topic seeing as i am still doing rather terribly with it as well. but hey, lets see what i got.

i think its pretty different based on what type of business youre working at, like i was at a line resturaunt so i had to ring up peoples orders as it came down the line & i pretty much prayed for death by spontaneous combustion the entire time. i fumbled & messed up a lot, especially during rush times, & would overcharge or undercharge & my drawer was constantly too short or too over & for a while there i thought i was going to give my manager a heart attack. you will really get to know your boss pretty quickly if you mess up the money more times than not.i was not good with the people either, & besides the drawer in the beginning that was my only problem. i dont really know if i can give any sound advice there, honestly. i didnt know how to interact with any of the customers in a “pro-social” way,  so i made really dumb comments when i would make a mistake with them. often by telling them i was a mistake, or that god left me unfinished, & i told them that i never asked to be born a lot too. & to hell with making eye contact or anything like that, & god forbid i actually ask if they wanted a drink or sides like i was supposed to. so uh, my best tip i can hand out is pay attention when they train you.... to the register when they teach you that & then watch very carefully to how they are with the customers. & then just mimic it,,,. it works if you stick with it. also, i made it a point not to use my work as a place to try & make friends. if the friendship goes south it can really fuck with you & your job & its just not worth it. not to say you have to be completely withdrawn but just like, dont shit where you eat, yanno? its best to show up, do what you’re supposed to do, & leave. if you enjoy it? thats great!! thats really great. but if you dont, dont beat yourself up about it. you can always get another job but your mental health always comes first. always push yourself, but not to the edge. & if you feel like you messed up with people at work & start ruminating on it all night (big problem for me) just tell yourself that it wont matter in 30 years. best advice for any small weird social anxiety ruminating thought, seriously. sometimes its really comforting to think about just how small of a role you play in passerby lives. like, will that man think about how you fucked up his change in 30 years? no, he probably will not even remember being where he was at that moment. its a nice idea, sometimes. being forgettable.i hope this works for you because i am 110% whipping this out of my ass since i am struggling w this too. but hey, you arent alone. i feel like if i try to go on anymore it will just sound like rambling so , ,,, .