#personally i think of biana as the one who's always clinging to sophie but i'm open to it being the other way around

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au where the black swan never had to abandon alluveterre, and sophie and biana keep sleeping in the same bed so much it becomes routine and they gradually get more cuddly as time goes by. and then they get more affectionate and emotionally intimate with each other too. and then they’re at the classic sapphic ‘are we dating or just really good friends?’ stage for a stupidly long time 

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I'm Nobody, who are you?

stars guys i really wanted to have a thing done for this because ;-; its my tiana prompt

but life decided to fricking kill me

so here

enjoy this

whatever tf it is

Just the basic plot to some sort of fic i'll never write in all its entirety, ig ;-;

Tam Song is a love at first sight kind of guy. He sees Biana, and it's over for him. He's a fool, he's never not been a fool, and it's so odd, in his head, how his cheeks burn and his mind starts screaming.

Biana isn't the type to fall in love instantly. She'll love, instantly, because she's a person who thinks that you can love everyone, if you try, and she wants to show everyone that Vackers can be kind, not just beautiful.

But the thing is, Tam figures Biana out pretty quickly. She's the invisible child, and he gets it. Stars, does he get it. His parent's eyes always slipped past him and his sister, like they were one person, interchangeable, purposeless. So he sees a girl who fights to be seen and his mind instantly thinks, She's just like me.

And it's kind of dumb, he knows, but Biana doesn't care. She smiles at him brighter, and he makes a choice to hang out with her, to overcome the nerves that blister in his chest, to fight for the both of them, to love as much as he can.

They start dating in secret.

Of course they do, because neither of them want the consequences of dating out in the open.

Biana's parents would throw a fit, she whispers, one night, as they walk around Lothlorien, the forest city, hand in hand, hoping no one will recognize them. Tam answers that his dad would never let it go, make him break up with Biana on principle.

So they don't tell anyone. Why would they? They're happy, content, and fine as they are.

They sneak off to different places, but no one in their group is the wiser. After all, Sophie's sure that Tam's got a massive crush on Biana, but is too embarrassed to act on it.

Keefe knows they're dating. You can't lie to an empath, and he's insanely good at picking up cues.

And it's good. There's a safety in it, a gentleness.

They're kids, you know, so it's not super serious. They're taking it super seriously, though, as all teenagers do, with their most important relationships.

Biana lies, constantly, to her family, keeping people in the dark.

Tam tells Linh the truth. Someone needs to know, and Linh smiles, softly. She tells him they make a good pair.

The years pass by, war wages on, and they stay together. Through scars, through kidnappings. They hold each other's hands when they get the chance, in battle, and pretend like it doesn't destroy them to have to let go.

The first time they kiss is when Biana pulls Tam's hood back from his face and holds his face until she's sure he's alive, and as soon as he wakes up, she kisses him like there's no tomorrow.

Tam holds her like he's scared to let go.

"Don't do that to me," she wept, pulling back, "Don't you ever die on me, Tam!"

"I'm sorry," he answers, softly. "Didn't mean to scare you."

She kisses him again, and it's all a blur, on the burning battlefield.

"Uhm," said a voice, from behind them, "You two ready to get out of here?"

Shocked, the two turn and see the entire crew staring at them.

And there's a sort of terror that settles in their bones. Because behind their grinning and laughing friends, dusted with smoke and kissed with blood that didn't belong to them, Alden's behind them, and Quan is somewhere, and it's going to be so hard to explain this, and it's never going to be the same as it was.

They get up, quietly, holding hands, tight as they possibly can, their grips so tight they shake.

And they go home.

They let go at the last possible moment, clinging to the hope that they won't have to say goodbye.

Alden sets his hand on his daughter's shoulder, and they leave, first.

He gives her a talking to about matches, one that echoes in her head, richochets through her mind, about how she can never ever be someone other than what he wants her to be, and when she sits on her bed, her hands shaking, she wonders if she'll ever be free of who she is.

Tam hails her, later, and laughing, a little hysterically, tells her that his dad was actually super excited about the two of them together, because maybe it meant that he'd be going places, and doing something legit with his life.

And it's just a bit much. Everything's a bit much. Biana cries, and Tam asks if she's okay.

"My dad reacted exactly how I'd expected," she whispers, into the imparter. "There's no way this can end well."

Tam is quiet, on the other end. After a long moment, he asks, "Do you want to... break up?"

If you listened, quietly, you might have been able to hear Biana's heart shattering.

"I mean," Tam says, "If you can't date me, and you don't want to like," his voice shakes, a tiny bit, "deal with it, and you want to break up, that's..." he trails off, painfully, "I don't mind."

"You don't mind?" Biana's voice is a whisper.

Tam is probably crying. But Biana isn't sure. "If it's for the best," he says. "If it's for the best, and it's what you want, I'll be... I'll make myself be okay with it."

Biana is quiet, for a long, long, long moment.

Tam waits. He always waits. He never makes her fill the silence, never makes her be more than what she already is. She loves him, she loves everything about him.

It's that stupid, naïve thought, that makes her say, quietly, "I don't want to break up with you."

He exhales, sharp and hot, and his voice is trembling, slightly, when he says, "Really?"

She nods. "Yeah. I want to love you for as long as I can. Maybe forever. I don't know. But I can't stop loving you yet."

"But, your dad---"

"He'll have to deal with it. Since when does he---" she exhaled, sharply. "He doesn't care about me until I do something wrong, anyhow. I'd much rather love you than care about what he thinks about me."

Tam chuckled, a little bit. "Here me out," he said, then. "We keep dating in secret?"

"How?"

"Tell them we broke up. And just. Keep doing what we were doing?"

Biana blinked. "That.... that could work."

Tam snorted. "I'd like to be able to shout that I love you from the tops of the roofs, but if you want to avoid it. I'll sacrifice shouting to the world if it will make you happy."

Biana sighed. "You're too good to me," she said.

"Hey," he said, "I definitely am not. You deserve much more than I can give you."

"But I don't want to be loved by anyone but you," she said, softly.

Tam exhaled, slightly. "I don't know whether to be flattered or concerned."

"Both is good," she said. "And I don't want to date in secret. It's only gonna get worse from here on out."

"So?"

"So," she said, softly, "You're my boyfriend. We're dating. Let the whole world know."

"Okay," Tam said, softly. "Okay," and then he leaned close to the microphone. "I'm dating Biana Vacker," he told her, very seriously.

"That's not very effective," she said, "You haven't---"

"You're my whole world," he said, a stupid grin on his face, and her cheeks lit up.

"You're silly," she said.

He grinned, "Because I love you." He kissed the camera lens, on his phone, and then glanced at his door. "I think that's my father. I've got to go. I love you," he whispered, again.

"I love you," she said, louder than he did. His whole face lit up.

He hung up, and the world was quiet.

Biana went to bed, and stared at her ceiling, knowing that everything would be okay, as long as Tam was on her side.

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My main issue with the Alden-is-abusive thing is why would Biana and Della and especially Fitz have responded to his mind breaking like that if he was abusive. Fitz wouldn’t have gotten so mad over that and he definitely wouldn’t risk his friendship (and possibly more) with Sophie over that if he was abusive. Also they’re CHILDREN the poor kids have been through enough why would you do that to them.

That's a fair point! I will say that when it comes to complicated relationships, there can be conflicting and confusing feelings around the situation and people can and do get mad and upset over the deaths of people who have hurt them; it's not always relief or satisfaction or things like that. We saw that with Keefe later on in Neverseen when he faced the possibility of his mom being dead, but I don't think that's the way Alden's mind-break was written.

The way his family reacted made it clear how much they cared for him, how badly they wanted him back, how much they meant to him. Della spent days at his bedside trying desperately to do the impossible and bring him back, clinging to every piece of him because she loved him so dearly and they meant so much to each other. Fitz was mad at the entire world because he just lost a very significant person in his life, someone who was always there for him and served as a role model. Biana shut down because she didn't know what to do, because there was now this gap in her life where her dad was supposed to be and she wanted him back in it.

Alden was a crucial person in their lives in a positive way, doing what he could to support them and love them, proud of them throughout it all. There was no sense of anything less than that when they lost him. There's no one right way to grieve a person, I just can't find any indication that people were reflecting on him as anything but a staple, wonderful person in their lives.

I'm simply not convinced that Alden is an abusive, horrible person manipulating everyone around him because he's riddled with malicious intentions. Is he perfect? No, but no one is. I think how he was grieved is evidence as to how loved he was, the impact he had on people. I'm curious if we'll ever get more Alden page time and how it's going to be interpreted

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HELLO THIS IS INK I HAVE A QUESTION. in ur opinion who is ur favorite wlw kotlc pairing + also tell me abt them in detail if u have the time!! + poetry/music u associate with them and/or w kam i'm thinking thoughts definitely unrelated to anything at all. also pls these i am not a robot checks like "pls click the x u see" dude i need glasses i cannot see shit

OK FIRSTLY I AM SENDING GODDAMN BLESSINGS RECAPTHACAS ARE A CURSE AND BANE AGAINST GOD I HATE THEM SO MUCH LITERALLY AREN"T ROBOTS MEANT TO PASS THE BECHDEL TEST WHY DO I NEED TO GO THROUGH THIS BULLSHIT

secondly!! uh fuck why would you make me choose between the women i love them all. but also marellinh because red and blue inverted motifs and clashing yet somehow clinging to each other. also linhella as one who's also been shunned since birth and hence taught to be wary and with way more similarities than expected and biana who is recently been shunned and realising that the both of them have a lot more common and yeah and also. solinh as in the both of them not fitting in at all but somehow learning to fit in with each other and making a goddamn home out of nothing

anyway can you tell i do not think the song twins are straight

but also!! poetry!! i'll keep this brief because i really do not have a lot for the wamen but a lot for kam so i'll restrict myself to one per each

ok firstly linhella and uhh i. associate them with both being afraid and somehow learning to love each other yet also growing together and uhhhh yes.

-Vladimir Nabokov, from Letters to Vera tr. by Olga Voronina & Brian Boyd

ok now marellinh. ok one of my favourite authors and DFGHJK help i literally love them so, much. but also something about the both of them coming back to each other and yeah. yeah. and something about fitting in with each other

- To the Desert by Benjamin Alire Sáenz.

and now. kam the penultimate of this L so i cannot restrict myself so here is three because they. just. them ok them

via. but also this quote represents so much of what kam is to me because yknow. there is so many multitudes in them that they deserve everything. and also because the pining yknow the pining.

via . ok listen personally to me both of them are super touchstarved so this and also!! the idea of kam always searching out for each other despite everything that. yeah.

- Honey Girl

ok listen this one is kinda sad but also. i feel like this represents the both of them so well because tam can not be accepted by the world and maybe keefe wasn't accepted by sophie or something but. god anyway them