#please god let me see the US empire collapse in my lifetime

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Broken Trust~ Part 12

A/N: Oh my god look who’s back lol....let it be known I wrote this at 4 am and I’m so tired so sorry for an errors lol. Paring: Bang Chan x reader; Mark Tuan x reader(arranged marriage)

Genre: Mafia au, angst, little bit of everything honestly

Warnings: Cursing, mafia life shizzle...this part gets a little steamy but there isn’t any smut cause I’m a child of god 😌

MASTERLIST

“Please tell me you’re messing with us,” Jisoo said with a look of disgust on her face.

“Truth hurts sometimes,” you said with a shrug as you pushed Jennie a little so you had room to sit down.

“Don’t touch me you heathen,” Jennie hisses out, mirroring Jisoo’s disgusted face.

“You idiot what were you thinking? How do you think Chan is gonna react when he finds out?” Jisoo scolded.

“You cannot tell him!” You said as your eyes grew wide.

“Why can’t you tell him? It’s not like he has any right to feel any type of way,” Seulgi said with a shrug.

“But still, Marks our enemy,” Jennie said with an eye roll.

“I don’t see how we came to that conclusion,” Irene stated with an icy glare.

“What do you mean “how we came to that conclusion”?? Stray Kids told us-“ Jisoo started only to be cut off.

“Exactly! You got your information from Stray Kids! The eight assholes who faked their own deaths and are trying to bring down the JYP empire. How stupid are you to actually believe a word they say! And you y/n, I can’t believe you kissed him. Since when are the two of you close enough where kissing is apart of your relationship,” she rants, her face growing red in anger.

You start thinking back to what Chan had told you in the club. About Irene being in love with Mark. You didn’t want to believe him but it lowkey made sense.

“Irene why are you so quick to blindly follow JYP? You aren’t even apart of their mafia,” Jisoo questioned as she shook her head.

“It’s because she’s in love with him,” you state with a sigh.

“She’s in love with Mr. Jinyoung? Nasty,” Seulgi said as she shuttered at the thought.

“What? No sorry I meant Mark.”

“I’m not in love with Mark. And even if I was it’s none of your business y/n.”

“It’s none of my business? Are you serious right now?”

“Wait Irene do you actually love him? Is that why you don’t believe Stray Kids?” Jennie questioned.

“I am not in love with Mark! I just think he’s more trust worthy then those lying scum bags who are trying to ruin everything that we’ve built!”

“Lying scum bags? Irene stop being delusional! They aren’t the ones who are lying and you know it. They aren’t threatening SM at all so how are they ruining anything that we’ve built?”

You couldn’t believe the words coming out of her mouth.

“I’m not having this conversation, I have more important matters to attend to. Jennie, Jisoo, it was good seeing you. I wish I could say the same for you y/n.”

And with that, Irene was gone with a conflicted Seulgi trailing after her.

“We gotta leave and we gotta leave now,” you say as you begin packing some belongings.

“What why?” Jennie asked as she observed you as you frantically shoved shit in your bag.

“Because Irene is so snitching to Mark and I ain’t trying to die. I’m too young and hot for that.”

“Fair point, are you gonna go back go to the stray kids base?” Jennie asked as she stood up, stretching her limbs.

“Yeah, but if anyone asks we’re having a sleepover. I think it’s time we take plan awaken to the next step. I’m starting to feel anxious, too many people know about the plan and it’s just a matter of time before the full truth comes to light. JB is already suspicious and Mark is having doubts. I lied to him earlier but I’m not sure how much longer he’ll believe me.”

After quickly packing your things, Jisoo, Jennie, and you quickly make your way downstairs only to be stopped by Jaebum.

“Going somewhere?” He questioned with an eye brow raised as he took a bite out of the red apple he was eating.

“Yeah I’m gonna go over to the girls for a little,” you state.

“For how long?”

“Ummm I don’t know, a day or two. Maybe longer, I haven’t really been able to have a lot of girl time with them,” you lie with a little laugh.

“Does Mark know?”

“Does he need to know?”

“I don’t know, you tell me.”

“Do you ever stop with the questions,” Jisoo sassed.

“Well I just want to make sure our little y/n here is safe,” he said with a fake smile.

“She will be now if you’ll excuse us,” Jennie said while pushing you out the door, throwing JB a glare.

Once in the KIA, you give Chan a call. He answers almost immediately.

“Is something wrong? Are you hurt?”

“I’m okay but I’m on my way over. I think it’s time we move forward with the plan. I think you were right about Irene having feelings for Mark and I’m worried she might tell him.”

“What made you think that? Did something happen.”

“Ummm well.....”

You lowkey began to panic, not knowing if you should tell Chan about the kiss.

“Y/n?”

“Hum yeah?”

“Babygirl what happened? You have me a little worried.”

“Listen we’ll talk when I get there okay?”

“Okay. Be careful, I’ll inform the boys you’re on your way.”

“Okay, see you soon.”

And with that, the call was over. It didn’t take too long for you to get to their base. Or maybe you were so wrapped up in your thoughts that the drive seemed short. Once you arrived, you quickly entered their mansion and were bombarded with questions for the 8 man children that stood in front of you.

“Will you all calm down,” you laughed out at you shooed them all away.

“Okay okay but tell us what’s going on,” Jisung urged as he looked at you with wide eyes.

With slight hesitation, you glance at Jennie and Jisoo who both gave you a nod and a slight smile. Encouraging you to continue.

With a sigh you explain the entire cafe situation and how Mark told you his suspicions. You continued on with how he drove you to the secluded place and how you told him some truth and some lies. You paused slightly as you thought about the kiss.

“What is it? What happened next?” Felix questioned as he leaned forward.

“Well....ummm the thing is....he might have maybe idk ᵏⁱˢˢᵉᵈ ᵐᵉ but I can’t be too sure.”

The room fell silent.

“I’m sorry but he might have kissed you but you can’t be too sure? Are you fucking kidding me?” Chan scoffed as his face twisted in anger.

“That’s disgusting y/n,” Minho stated while looking appalled.

There are more answers of agreement but you rolled your eyes and continued.

“Anyway, when I came home and told Irene, Seulgi, Jisoo, and Jennie, Irene got really pissed and basically said that we were dumb for trusting you. She seemed more worried about Mark and JYP then she was about any of us.”

“Oh she’s so gonna snitch,” Hyunjin commented with a shake of his head.

“Also, as we were leaving Jaebum kept asking us a lot of questions,” Jisoo pipped in.

“Fucking Jaebum all up in our business,” Changbin stated with an eye roll.

“Well it’s a good thing you came here y/n. As for now, we won’t do anything. We can talk more about it tomorrow. There’s a lot I need to think about before we move forward,” Chan said as he clenched his fist, looking pissed off.

“Hey are you guys gonna stay too?” Seungmin asked as he looked at Jisoo and Jennie.

“We’ll probably stay for a bit but not for the entire night,” Jennie said.

Soon the room broke off into a bunch of little conversations. You currently were talking to Seungmin and jeongin about life in general when you glanced over to look at Chan who stood to the side of the room with an unreadable look on his face. Excusing yourself from the conversation, you made your way over to him.

“Hey are you alright?” You ask softly as you place your hand on his shoulder.

Chan glances down at your hand before a small sigh left his lips.

“Come on, let’s talk,” he stated as he softly grabbed your hand and lead you out of the room.

After a couple of twist and turns, you make it into what you presume to be Chan’s room. Letting go of your hand Chan begins to pace the room as you take a seat on his bed.

“Chan?” You call out softly, a little worried.

Nothing.

“Chan,” you call out with a little more power.

Suddenly Chan stops and approaches you quickly. In the flash of an eye Chan is cupping your checks with his lips on yours. It only took you a moment to get over the initial moment of shock before you begin to kiss him back. Your hands gripping his broad shoulders. After a few seconds, he pushes you back onto the bed slightly while moving his hands on to your arms, raising them above your head. Your lungs felt like they were going to collapse any second as your heart rate increased. The kiss was fiery and filled with need. You practically could feel the jealousy and anger radiating off of Chan. You couldn’t believe you forgot how good it felt to have his lips and hands on you. Yet it was over just as quickly as it had started. Panting as he pulled away, Chan quickly stood up.

“I’m sorry I.....” he trailed off while avoiding your eyes.

“What? You have no reason to be sorry,” you chuckle lightly as you try to catch your breath.

“I really don’t know what came over me, it was just the idea of Marks hands and lips on your body....it makes me so mad to think about,” he said while shaking his head.

“Y/n, I need to know that you don’t love him. I need to know that if there ever came a time where you had to pick between the two of us, there wouldn’t be any hesitation and you would pick me.”

“Chan,” you sigh out as you stand up and make your way towards him.

“No one forced me to fall in love with you, no one forced me to say yes when you asked me to marry you. With Mark, it’s a totally different story. I would be lying if I said that a part of me didn’t care for him because I do but not in the same way that I care for you. It doesn’t matter how long we’ve been apart, it hasn’t changed how I feel about you. No amount of time apart could make me stop loving you and I want no, I need you to know that.”

Chan gives you a cute little smile as he pulls you into a hug. The two of you stay in each other’s arms for what feels like a lifetime.

“I’m sorry for leaving you,” Chan says all of a sudden as he pulls aways and strokes your check lightly.

“It’s okay, you did what you had to do,” you tell him with a small smile.

“Still, I should have trusted you and I didn’t. I regret that so much and I just want you to know that.”

“Honestly I probably wouldn’t have trusted me if I was you, I don’t blame you,” you tell him sincerely.

Chan pulls you in for another kiss, this one being softer and filled with all the love that Chan felt for you. Your moment is cut short as you hear a loud bang come from downstairs.

“I swear to god if it’s Jisung and Hyunjin fighting I’m going to end both of them,” Chan growls out as he pulls away from you causing you to laugh.

For the first time since Chan had left, you felt as if you were whole. You felt as though you were finally home. Because that’s what Chan was for you, he was your home. And you would be damned if you let someone take that away from you again. JYP had another thing coming to him if he thought that you all would go down without a fight.

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Part 13

MASTERLIST

[wintcrdvst]

𝐃𝐘𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐂 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 ! under the cut you will find a masterlist of 213 quotes that can be used for otps, brotps and possibly even notps. these were gathered from various sources such as songs and pinterest for personal use, but i figured i might as well share. give a like or reblog if this was useful to you, and enjoy !!

her lips are like the galaxy’s edge

i’d probably still adore you with your hands around my neck

surrounded by the what if’s and the maybe’s

we’ll be the last ones standing

all that’s left is you and me

you are the light at the end of the road

you are my favorite what if

every single moment will be faded into you

still remember a time when you felt like home

i see the love i have and it is all for you

the only heaven i’ll be sent to is when i’m alone with you

i found god‚ i found him in a lover

he’s off to pay his crimes and he’s got no time for mine

oh baby girl you know we’re gonna be legends

you know the two of us are just young gods

i’m a king and you’re a queen and we will stumble through heaven

if you wanna go to heaven you should fuck me tonight

if i am the waves then you must be the moon

temperatures rising‚ i don’t want to feel

been wondering if your heart’s still open and if so i wanna know what time it shuts

open up next to you and my secrets become your truth

i only love it when you touch me‚ not feel me

tell me that you love me even if it’s fake

whatever our souls are made of‚ his and mine are the same

every moment with you sounds like welcome home

you say my name and it comes out like a dark confession

my love for you is the only thing i’m sure of

the devil kissed my neck and it felt like heaven

it’s our paradise and it’s our warzone

this is what happens when a tornado meets a volcano

i’m running in circles watching you call someone else’s name

all i want is the taste that your lips allow

your eyes hold everything my soul thirsts for

every bit of love that i possess within me, all of it, is just for you

of all the things my hands have held the best by far is you

no other word makes my mouth as tender as your name

my heart is so full of you i can hardly call it my own

my soul will find yours

in a room full of art i’d still stare at you

they know you walk like you’re a god‚ they can’t believe i made you weak

i would kill to be the cold tracing your body and shaking your bones

i was a king under your control

perhaps the monsters needed to look out for each other every now and then

he knows me‚ every inch of my tar black soul

souls don’t speak‚ yet ours spoke fluently

you are the only place that feels like home

bite my neck and call me angel

we were fire and water‚ love laced with sin

my demons are in love with yours

you were like death and i was like war‚ and where we collided‚ darling‚ i loved you

i have looked at you in millions of ways and i have loved you in each

you gave me peace in a lifetime of war

if you’re gonna be the death of me that’s how i wanna go

my love‚ you are worth it all

she chased away my demons with the stars in her eyes

his hands on my flesh‚ so gentle yet commanding‚ make me want to sin

there’s a light in the crack that’s separating your thighs

swear to god i’m a sinner in a church burnin’ up for you

we fight every night for something‚ when the sun sets we’re both the same

i gave you everything and it’s a beautiful crime

made it through the maze to find my one in a million

maybe i’ll hold my breath and jump right in

i want to reconcile the violence in your heart

i want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

you may be a sinner but your innocence is mine

she took my heart‚ i think she took my soul

fucked around and got attached to you

you were sent to me from the skies above

give me love and all your hate

i’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife

i dare you to let me be your one and only

you have my heart inside of your hand

with the same damn hunger to be touched‚ to be loved‚ to feel anything at all

please don’t forget me and all the things we did

we sin as devils do‚ we love as angels do

hell is just another place i’ll go to keep you warm

how does it feel with my teeth in your heart

do you know what it means to have death know your name

when i see you‚ it feels like coming home

i want to build you an empire that forgets to collapse

i crave you; even in the darkness‚ even in blood

i loved you long before i had the guts to let you know

i always feel at home with her‚ no matter how far away from home we are

death sits in the seat next to me; we make a lovely couple

with his educated eyes and his head between my thighs

i fell in love with the subject of sin

you come in waves

when hell freezes over

i’ll let you drag me through hell if it means you’ll hold my hand

until the end of the world

i know your heart

you and i and no one else

anytime you need a friend i’m gonna be by your side

how wonderful life is with you in the world

i could be yours

i know you used to love me in every way

i loved and i loved and i lost you and it hurts like hell

i wish you were a ship that was guided by the touch of my lips

the two of us went up in smoke

yours are the sweetest eyes i’ve ever seen

let me love the lonely out of you

falling seems so easy

no matter where you go you know you’re not alone

i’ll always be by your side

your eyes are where i’m lost in

i wanna get lost with you

i loved you then and i love you now

haunted by the ghost of you

if you don’t mind me saying so i love you

as long as you say you’re mine

take away all my sin‚ give me a sweet prayer on my lips

i will follow you into the dark

you’re a king and i’m a lionheart

as the world comes to an end i’ll be here to hold your hand

i find shelter in your arms

put your lips close to mine as long as they don’t touch

i swear i thought i dreamed her

maybe i just wanna be yours

the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day

i want you to want me again

never knew loving could hurt this good

you’re driving me wild

i can be the subject of your dreams

i had fallen in love with you before i knew

like the dawn you broke the dark

when we go crashing down we come back every time

like gods at the dawning of the world

i would know him in death‚ at the end of the world

he is half of my soul like the poets say

i wanna ruin our friendship‚ we should be lovers instead

i don’t wanna be your friend‚ i wanna kiss your neck

your eyes will lead me straight back home

friends shouldn’t kiss me like you do

remember my love for you won’t fade

for your eyes only i will show my heart

just say you won’t let go

i tasted the divine and she left my lips dripping with love

even when the world is against us i’ll keep you warm

my soul will find you each time

thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn’t shake

i’ll be your escape‚ i’ll be your safe place

she was my salvation‚ i was her destruction

we should just kiss like real people do

the world may disapprove but my world is only you

lend me your hand and we’ll conquer them all

wherever there is you i will be there too

close to you i feel i’m at home

if i die may it be of love and if i love may it be you

if your body was a book i’d read a thousand chapters

i want to love in you and get lost in you only

i want to hide you in my heart and not open it after that

we return to each other in waves

let him be soft and let him be mine

i didn’t know that i was starving until i tasted you

i was with you before we were even born

he was her warmth‚ she was his peace

what a lovely way to burn

if i told you about the darkness inside of me would you still look at me like i’m the sun

kiss me with adventure until i forget my name

as the dust settles around us

maybe we started this fire

touch me only when nobody knows

your love is my poison

i wanna taste the way that you bleed

you are the devil in me

wherever you go you can always come home

you’d be like heaven to touch

you changed everything

you feed this fire and walk away

lately i’ve been craving more

i’ve been cold since you left

make me feel like i am breathing

i’ll fucking digest you one kiss at a time

you wish i was yours and i hope that you’re mine

i met her at church but she could be satan

with one kiss you inspired a fire of devotion

i am the blank page before you

i am the fine idea you crave

don’t know why‚ just know i want you

don’t care why‚ just know i love you

to say that we’re in love is dangerous

i will follow you anywhere

i’d kiss you if it wouldn’t kill me

this isn’t love but it’s more than infatuation

i’m at your will‚ can’t you see what you do to me

if this could kill‚ you can read me my eulogy

three puzzle pieces fit together perfectly

my heart found a home in yours

you make me feel like i am home again

enter a king and a queen

he set fire to the world around him but never let a flame touch her

too busy being yours to fall for somebody new

if love is anything tangible‚ it is his mouth

in the middle of my chaos‚ there was you

all we do is think about the feelings that we hide

he tastes like every dark thought i’ve ever had

heaven is a place on earth with you

i can feel you running through my veins

following my heart will always lead me to you

a sea of rum couldn’t intoxicate me as much as a drop of you

i found the devil‚ i found him in a lover

i hadn’t tasted love until i tasted you

no place like home‚ no place like her

i was made for loving you

there is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin

if we can’t find heaven i’ll walk through hell with you

i’m drowning in these memories

i found love where it wasn’t supposed to be

fire and ice‚ they go hand in hand

in all chaos there is calculation

two thirds of my soul

us against the world

two heartbeats under me

[theotter99]

Uncovering Fables

Intermission 1.1

[Scrolls are an important way to keep our history and the events we go through in our minds. Our past is important and it gives lessons to learn so we can improve our future and not repeat the same mistakes. But sadly, we may not get the entire past. Does this mean we don’t learn from it or should we take the fact that something is missing as a lesson in itself?

The scrolls before our young adventurers is covered in blood and a green substance. At first the handwritten Japanese symbols on it is neat but as the story we are now reading continues the handwriting becomes more shaken and panicked.

This is the story of an unhumble and disobedient servant.] 

I accomplished something grand for my people today. 

It almost feels unreal that my research has been funded by our great emperor. Since childhood, my parents have pushed me study and cherish knowledge. I have obeyed their wishes and I continued in school even when my selfish mind wanted me to stop. Thankfully, I did not as I remembered that I must continue the legacy of our wonderful bloodline. It is full of great scholars that I can never live up to but hopefully just a small part of what I do for them will be remembered.

Still, it has taken several years of classes and dedication to my empire to accomplish just the funding of the research but the great emperor himself approved of it. Thinking back to my meeting with him, my heart was racing and as my knees landed onto the ground to bow to him, his presence overwhelmed me. His words felt like soft honey and the peaceful tweeting of birds. His wisdom overtook my senses and I wanted nothing more but to please him. 

I presented the idea of how we should do more study on the waters that surround our great island. If our people are to become more powerful and stronger then we should take advantage of what has been given to us. 

But then I almost felt our world freeze when the emperor stared at me after I explained this. He asked about the life and beauty of nature surrounding us and what I planned to do with it. Did I plan on upsetting the gods that have generously gave us the plants and animals? Did I plan to anger the spirits of this world by disrupting their home and destroying their lives? If I did that, then all I was asking for was the world attacking me and my people.

The denial on his face was clear and I quickly promised to him and to my ancestors that I would not harm any creatures or their homes as I did this research. By some miracle, this pleased him. He agreed to let me travel with a group of samurais who were traveling to a nearby island to do some business that I was unaware of.

I thanked the emperor as I kissed his feet. He has given an opportunity of a life time and I will not let him or our people down. I am grateful for this chance and I promise that our people will grow because of this.

Thank you, my great emperor.

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Soon enough, I gave the news to my wife. A wide smile spread across her face and she hugged me, thanking the great emperor for this happy day. I embraced my love and whispered to her how greatest will continue in our family. To celebrate this great day, we had a giant feast and went to see a play afterwards. The play warned us about the selfish demons inside us and how they can bring the collapse to a great city. I can’t help but praise my ancestors that they have taught me to be better then the selfish man in the play.

We then walked along the edge of the lake near our home. I glanced over at my wife and the smile on her face brightened our great day even more. I will make her and my people even greater soon. She will have a good life.

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Today we embark on the journey to the small island where I will be conducting my research. We will be traveling for a few days on a ship that is smaller than the usual ones. This way the journey will be faster. As I step up onto the deck this morning, I examined the beauty of the sails the careful craftsmanship of the boat. Soon, we started sailing and I walked to the front, placing my hand on the railing and feeling the breeze blow through my hair. Looking down at the crashing waves below, a small smile spread across my face.

I hid this from the crew members that worked on deck behind me and I did my best to keep a serious face as I pretended to take a water sample.

Looking out into the waters, I felt something touch my shoulder as a soft hum could be heard in my ears. I softly sang along with the song without noticing what I was doing until it was too late. The song sounded familiar. Almost like a melody that would help a child fall to sleep after the scares of a storm. 

My heart filled with joy as I quickly looked around, expecting someone to be standing by me— someone that I haven’t seen in years.

The word, “Mom?...” quietly slipped out of my mouth.

Nothing like this has ever occurred during my lifetime and nothing else like this occurred in the hours that followed but I have still been thinking about it all day. As I sit in my cabin on the ship, I am alone. I am thinking about this and I can’t help but wonder if this is a sign. Maybe someone is trying to tell me that I am doing good. That this is what I am meant to do to build our empire. 

Why else would my ancestors come to me in this way? Why else would they send me a guardian in my own mother? My spirits lift as I know that I will successes in making my people grander. No one can stop me with the discovers that I shall make.

I…

 It is strange to write ‘I’ like that. Everything that one does is for their country. One cannot afford to be selfish but… A spirit is following me on my journey. Does that mean that I am somehow special? That my research is important that my ancestors themselves come to protect me? Whatever I was going to accomplish must be great. I shall be great and maybe even the emperor himself will bow down at my feet.

I’m currently smiling at this thought but I need to stop. This will only lead to selfishness and personal pleasures. I need to remove these thoughts for my head and remember that I am here to help my people. Not myself. 

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We had arrived at the island. It is small with a beautiful forest in the center of the land mass and sandy beaches run along the edges of the land. One side of the island raises above over the ocean and its rocky cliffs can be clearly seen from where our ship docked in the distance. 

I was one of the last people to leave the ship and get onto the island using our small canoe for they seemed to be more important. The trip to the island was nothing special but once we walked towards base, I couldn’t help but be in awe of what I saw. In the middle of the island was a hidden entrance to an underground cave that has been made years ago. 

First, we entered a huge and long hallway and I spin around to get a better view of the area. The long tunnel held many doors that lead to rooms for cooking, worshipping and other necessities that the people here needed. Other doors lead to dorms for the people to sleep in and when I asked where my room was, I was told that is was the furthest away from where the important work being held. I was taken aback by the selfish nature of my guide. We were all here for a reason— To improve our people. Why would he think so little of me?

In fact, why did no one see that I was here for a reason? Were they all too busy with their own work? If that was the case, there wasn’t a lot to do on the ship so why did they not speak to me there? These questions still linger in my head.

I was led out of the living quarters where we entered a large cave where nothing has been built and nothing has been disturbed. Leftwards to the door that we walked out of was two other hallways— the middle was where the samurais would train and make plans. I was strictly told that I was not allowed in there. Instead we strolled through the third door and we walked down a long hallway. And soon enough, I found my lab.

There was a few tables and a mat in the corner. And that was it. It was fairly empty and if I didn’t bring my own supplies then I would have been worried for how I would do my work?

I turned to my guide and was about to thank him but he was already gone, probably to the living quarters. I softly sighed and looked around my lab and knew that this is where I was going to live for the next few months.

I was going to be alone so I better get to work. 

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I was right with being alone. I have done most of my work alone as I sit in this lab and every few days, people will only check up on me. Sadly, I only think this is too see if I wasn’t dead. The emperor himself has funded my project so why am I not treated as important as the others here?

That doesn’t matter right now. I need to stop asking these questions and go back to my studies.

I have been doing studies on the ocean for a few weeks now but I haven’t encountered anything special. If I am going to do anything with what the emperor has given me, I need to leave this empty island, which I will do soon. I have finally convinced one of the people here to let me use the tug boat and ride out further into the sea. I have packed a meal and plan to be out all day. I will write if anything of interest is found. 

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I come back with delightful news even if a strong wave almost sunk the boat. The further I went out into the waters the rougher they became as I heard a roar in the distance. If anyone had came with me, they would have told me to sail back to the island, that I was invading on the foreign spirits’ land and that I was angering them.

I almost decided to head back when the boat almost flipped over.

But I couldn’t go back now. I couldn’t when I soon saw the soothing waters in the distance and soon, I made it there. I breathed out and took in my surroundings of the sea. That was when something poked out of the water in the distance. Was that a tail? I needed to know so I continued sailing forward.

And what I saw next amazed me. I couldn’t get a clear look but I could see something beautiful in the waters below. The fishes below had their own community of colors structures and rocks. They lived in unison and none of them seemed to be in danger. It was peaceful and nice.

I think I have discovered something great and I need to look further into this.

But how? There is no equipment for me to get into the waters to swim or a way for me to get a closer look at the beautiful city.

There is also the promise that I have made to my emperor. I would not harm or disrupt any nature and animals. This frustrates me because I am so close to finding something breathtaking for our people yet so far from getting it. I will find a way to get there. I already have a few ideas and I will test them tomorrow. 

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Failure.

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Negative. 

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Another Failure. 

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[This goes on for a dozen more times. The handwriting becomes shakier and tear stains can be seen on the strolls as the words of disappointment continue]

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I have done something terrible. I have accidently broken my oath to the emperor and now I am staring at a broken piece of a colorful rock on my table. I have broken a piece of the fishes’ home and I am expecting something to hurt or punish me but nothing is. The wait is killing me more than anything.

My heart is racing as I pick up the stone and examine the smoothness of it. What have I done? How can I face my emperor now that I have broken the oath? How many spirits would be after us now that I have done this? Is everyone in danger now? Will every death and injury that the others encounter from now on be my fault? I didn’t see why not. 

What was I supposed to do now? How do I make this up to my emperor, my ancestors and to the gods? Do I sacrifice myself in order to save the others? Would my blood satisfy them?

Just the thought makes my skin go pale but I would do anything for my people, right? But why would I consider that as one of my first options when I could attempt to return the stone? Right? That was always something that I could do…

Realizing this, I need to sit down and consider all my options. I need to think through this clearly. There must be more that I can do other than the worse. I shall return at night with a clear head. 

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After my pervious fears of what nature was going to do to us, I still decided to fish to think. Everyone around me sticks to the cave during this time of day so it was better to find a place where I could be alone to think. I made my way onto the surface and at the edge of the cliffs, sat underneath a tree. This was where I casted my line to catch my dinner for the evening.

This is where I considered all of my options.

Drawing a shaky breath, I looked at into the horizon and thought that I should try to return the stone back to where it came from. Maybe then, the spirits will take pity on me. They may forget everything that I have done to them. I hoped.

As I continued watching the horizon, I noticed the tail poking out of the water again. Was I not crazy the first time I thought I say a creature like this? I hugged my fishing pull tightly as I watched this animal swimming through the waters and something tugged at my soul. I had a feeling that no one had ever a creature like that before. If only I can see it closer up but why would the gods bless me with such a sight when they are already angry with me.

Suddenly, a pull could be felt on my fishing line and I quickly tightened my grasp on it. Holding my breath and trying my best not to fall off the cliff, soon enough, I pulled the fishing line in and the biggest fish I have ever caught was on the line. I was going to eat well tonight.

But this didn’t make sense.

If the gods were mad at me then why would they give me such a pleasant meal for tonight? Why would they give me the energy like this when they could have sent a tiny fish near my way? Or even no fish at all.

Was this another sign?

As the wind blew around me, I heard the soft hums of a childhood song again and I breathed in. This was a sign. Did I really not angry the gods at all? Was I safe? 

A small smile spread across my face as I slowly became relieved. The gods weren’t mad at me. In fact, I must be doing something right if they gave me this. And if that was the case, did they want me to go into the waters and disturbed the land after all?

And there was that tail again, appearing in the water beyond. Why did it keep appearing? Was this another sign too or was I just think too deeply? No, I couldn’t be. And even if I was, I couldn’t ask anyone else here what they thought. They always ignored me, and didn’t believe that I was supposed to be here with them.

Well, I’ll show them. After all, I have my ancestors behind me and guiding me to my destiny. I am going to show them who is really important here. The gods have given me a sign to show just how important I really am and soon they won’t have a choice but to know that I am the important one here.

 I glanced back into the sea and watched the creature swim peacefully in the waters.

And the first thing I was going to do was get that creature.  

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God & His Priests & His Kings V2: Chapter 8 - A FFXV OC Fanfic

I’m rewriting this fic almost 3 years after I finished it since new ideas and plot bunnies have hit so here’s hoping I can stick with the series and see it through this time around. Sequel to How Rare & Beautiful.

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Unbroken - Gustavo Santaolalla

The journey from Goryeo to Tenebrae passed by in a haze that I had no trouble falling into. Even upon our arrival, I was lost among the rush of activity.

I vaguely registered Ravus leading me out of the magitek engine, a guiding hand resting against my lower back. We passed a sea of faces, most of which were likely the Manor staff.

My full attention only returned when my eyes landed on a familiar face that I had missed dearly all these years.

Luna was radiant, all in white with her beautiful hair all pinned up and framing her face. It took everything in me not to sprint into her arms and break down into sobs. The Third Princess had never met the Oracle. So, I was forced to pretend that we were simply strangers, who just happened to be sisters by marriage.

"Sister, may I introduce you to my wife, Princess Eun-Byeol. And this is my younger sister, the Oracle, Lunafreya." Ravus introduced us, gesturing vaguely between us both.

"Well met, my lady." I greeted her, dipping into a shallow curtsy.

"A pleasure to meet you, my brother has written to me about you, it's as if I already know you. So please do not stand on ceremony; we are family now after all." Luna assured me, taking my hands into hers.

Ravus cleared his throat loudly, drawing our attention once again.

"I must return to my duties, but I leave you in the capable hands of my sister. Until later." He stated, barely nodding his head before taking off.

Luna merely sighed in a delayed response, turning her gaze back onto me.

"Come. I will show you around your new home." The blonde said, linking arms with me as she guided me into the manor.

Much of it remained unchanged from my memories, but Luna still gave a detailed tour to keep up pretences.

"Ravus wrote to me that we were to prepare private apartments for yourself separate from his own, so that you may have your own space for now. I hope it is to your liking." The blonde said as we entered a rather spacious suite in the family wing of the manor. They were similar to those of Luna's from what my childhood memories recalled.

"Thank you, Lady Lunafreya. I appreciate the thought."

My old friend graced me with a kind, yet pained, smile.

"Just Luna, please. The Manor staff will bring your belongings to your rooms."

I pulled my gaze from her own as I moved further into the suite.

"Thank you again. I would like to rest before dinner if you don't mind." I announced, turning to face the elder woman.

"Of course. You must be tired from the journey. Dinner will be a small affair, held in the family apartments. Someone will be by to collect you beforehand." Luna responded, departing gracefully with a kind smile, leaving me to my silence and exhaustion.

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Dinner was a somber event; no words were exchanged apart from pleasantries between myself and Luna. Ravus remained silent for the most part, barely responding to the slight prodding of his sister.

Luna was the one to escort me back to my rooms following Ravus' early departure, allowing us our privacy for the first time since our arrival.

My rooms were bathed in the moonlight that filtered through the grand windows, removing the need for the lights to be on.

Once the door was closed and Luna had crossed the room to where I stood near a sofa, the last of my resolve crumbled.

I all but collapsed into my friend's arms, both of us clinging to each other as if the other might just disappear if we were to let go for even a moment.

"Oh Soo, I was so frightened when I received word of the attack. I prayed that you had survived and seeing you in my dreams was not enough to abate my fears." The former princess whispered, as if her fears were still at risk of coming true.

"It was so horrible, Luna. Everyone, so many innocents, my family; all gone in just moments." I cried, my face pressing against her shoulder.

"I know, and I am so sorry for your loss. But I know you, and I know your people, you will all rise from the ashes stronger and with greater determination than before."

For a long while the only noise that filled the sitting room was that of my sobs and sniffling as I poured out my grief onto the oracle's shoulder.

"How did you do it? How did you keep going on after your mother died?" I asked, my voice breaking slightly.

There was silence for a time before Luna found her words again.

In a hushed voice, she told me, "It was hard, but she would have wanted me to carry out my duties to the gods and the people of the world. I mourned my mother, but I chose not to let my grief and anger consume me as it has Ravus."

The blonde women slid her hands up my shoulders to cup my cheeks so she could look me in the eyes.

"You will shed your tears this night, and tomorrow you will emerge from these rooms with the dignity and elegance of your title. You will play their game until the time comes for the empire to face justice for their crimes."

I could only nod stiffly, my tears slowly turning silent.

"And what will I do here? What will be my purpose?" I whispered, my gaze dropping down away from hers.

"Whatever you wish it to be. We could be companions; you could travel with me as I heal the people of Tenebrae. You could take on the duties of the head of the house, as is your right as Ravus' wife. Or your can linger in your rooms and allow your grief to rule your life." Luna answered honestly, her hands resting on my shoulders once again.

My gaze slipped back up to her own, as if I could find my answer there.

"Thank you, Luna. You're the first person since the wedding to give me the choice to decide what to do with my life, however limited it may be." I told her in complete honesty, offering a weak smile.

"You don't have to come to a decision right away. No one would disparage you for hiding away for a few days, you only just arrived in Tenebrae." She promised, taking my hands into her own.

I searched her gaze, the blue of her eyes bottomless in their kindness and love. I clutched her hands tightly, choosing to take back some smidgen of control over my life.

"Will you stay with me, just for tonight?" I asked timidly, not wanting to be alone in the large rooms for the night.

"Of course, anything for you, Soo." Luna promised, taking my hands in hers again and leading me towards the bedroom.

There were soft white night dresses in the armoire across from the bed, providing some comfort before we climbed under the covers for the night.

We drifted into dreams facing each other, with my last conscious thought being that Luna truly looked beautiful in the moonlight.

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Luna was gone when I woke the next morning, the sheets next to me having long turned cold.

I sat in bed for a while, contemplating my choices.

I could remain in my rooms for a few days or even the rest of my life if I so wished, according to Luna. Or I could go out and make something of my life within the empire's boundaries.

My choice was simple in the end, I wouldn't let the empire win.

I pushed the covers away from my legs as I made my way over to the armoire, opening it to pull out one of the few hanbok I had chosen to bring with me. The blush pink and pale green silks were one of the last pieces of my life before the world fell apart. And now they were to be my armour outside these rooms.

Dressing and pining up my hair took longer than normal with the lack of handmaids to assist in wrangling my rather large amount of hair, but I managed in the end. My only decoration was the hair pin that I had received from Orion before my wedding.

That night seemed to be almost a lifetime ago.

With my appearance sorted, I straightened my posture and walked out of my rooms for the first time with my head held high.

My wanderings led me into the gardens just outside the family apartments, taking in the beauty of the nature that surrounded me in every direction. Luna had a love of gardening, so this was no doubt her handy work.

I managed to find a small pavilion that gave a large view of the gardens and the sprawling forests of Tenebrae beyond the Manor's grounds.

I sat there for who knows how long before I heard the tell-tale signs that I was no longer alone in my little piece of sanctuary.

A slight shift of my head brought Ravus into my line of sight. I offered him a small nod of acknowledgement before moving my gaze back to the grounds.

He took it as an invitation to join me in my solitude, settling an acceptable distance away from me on the bench.

We remained in silence for a time until Ravus had gathered the courage to speak of what was on his mind.

"Despite the circumstances of our marriage, and the fate of your country, I would like you to know that I intend to abide as much as possible to the agreements of our marriage that were laid out by your council." He began, appearing almost nervous as he spoke.

I could only raise a brow in response as the blonde man continued.

"The empire is likely to leave us be for a short while, but they will begin to press us for an heir. I just wanted to inform you of my stance on the matter. I will not touch you in that manner unless you desire it or ask it of me." The commander concluded, turning his head so that our eyes might meet.

I continued to stare, trying to determine if his words were just that. Only words, empty of the intention to keep their promise. But all I could find was resignation and honesty.

I did not speak for some time, thinking on my words before speaking.

Finally, my gaze reunited with his own mismatched eyes. I took a deep breath through my nose, shifting into my role of princess.

"And when the time does come and the empire is pressing for heirs, we will adjust our current arrangements as needed. But until then you will keep your own bed and I shall keep mine." I replied, remaining firm in my stance on following the stipulations of our marriage well beyond their expiration date.

"Of course. I would never think to touch you against your will, nor any other woman." Ravus assured, giving a solmen nod as he continued to hold my gaze.

"Thank you. You have no idea how much your words have put my mind at ease." I said, the tension I had been holding in my body slowly slipping away as I relaxed.

Ravus only nodded, turning back towards the landscape before us, the silence that fell was one of ease for once.

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