#plus his radiation condition gives its own spice and twist to his behavior

[crueliste]

a big reason for why proton is so over-the-top unhinged and unstable is that he spent years of his life in his own universe being plagued by the horrors of the oncoming apocalypse by ultra beasts. he learned to survive with very inconvenient means on top of already being a high-ranking criminal, the shots of adrenaline both being the thing keeping him alive and something to seek out. essentially, he's an apocalypse survivor, but the horrors stick. after becoming a faller and being whisked into another version of the reality where things didn't go to hell, it takes a lot of relearning for his mind to realize he's not in constant life-threatening danger.