#purging them here so they get out of my headdddd

[hatchet-boy]

I am having recurring visions of demon!dean locking sam in a room in the bunker but cutting a little slit through the door (like a mail slot) and bleeding himself through it so his blood drips down the door on the other side- where sam, desperate for the strength to save his big brother (or maybe just desperate for any part of dean at all..) and willing to do anything, is on his knees licking deans blood off the door. just sam desperately running his tongue along the slit in the door where dean is holding his bleeding wrist against, trying to get it all, chasing the drips down the wall, lapping it up off the floor-

(god there's so much of it is dean ok but god. fuck jesus its good. it taste like every delicious bad thing he's ever had. like azazel or ruby or every other no name demon he's drunk from,, but without the strange foreignness that made her so hard to stomach. Because its his blood too. his brothers blood, their blood, together.)

just sam so desperate and willing to debase himself and relapse into addiction to save his brother

and dean. who wants exactly this. who knows how to corrupt and claim lil sammy so that he will cling to him like a kid again. give him hope that this is what will 'save poor suffering demon dean' (it didnt work the first time and it wont work this time) when really he's playing right into deans hand. lapping up poison. make him dependent on his big bro and his sweet blood, make him as close to a demon as dean can, corrupt him and keep him. (succeed where yellow eyes and ruby and lucifer and a dozen others failed.)

Just. Sam licking Deans blood off the floor.