#reading books & arguing over movies & taking care of the plants bc that’s a beautiful life :)

[carebeardean]

as devastating as the good omens ending was, I keep thinking about how it’s crowley who performs miracles for aziraphale, who picks out the restaurants, who can’t fire the gun. aziraphale has loved crowley from the start, yes, but it’s crowley’s love (I reject god for you, run away with me, you’re the only thing holy about that place) that moves the narrative, because aziraphale is deep down too afraid of making the “wrong choice.” he has to think of himself as always being good, kind, having the higher ground, the right answer. but to borrow an amazing quote from brennan lee mulligan, “to reach a hand down to somebody they have to be beneath you.”

it’s much easier to believe the world exists in black and white, that good people will always win and bad guys always lose, than to realize that none of us truly know we’re making the “right” choices. all we can do is be kind to each other, & love each other for as long as we can. & that’s terrifying! love is terrifying! it’s putting your heart in someone’s hands & hoping they don’t crush it!

but that’s love— a leap of faith. & I can’t wait to see aziraphale step into the dark, & the beauty of not knowing the answers.. or, well, all but one, anyway