#relship: in bed with the enemy

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F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom, I - Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why, Q - A ship you’ve abandoned and why, T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending, about anything at all

F / THE LONGEST YOU’VE BEEN IN A FANDOM answered here!

I / HAS TUMBLR CAUSED YOU TO STOP LIKING ANY FANDOMS hmmm this is a strange answer because i think what the question is really asking is "has fandom caused you to stop liking any fandoms, and if so, which and why." there's one fandom that i stopped liking because i didn't like the fandom (torchwood), but in those days fandom was mostly on livejournal. & there's one fandom where fandom as expressed by tumblr drove me out of being active in it (mcu), but i still like it & would like to go back to it some day.

re:torchwood, it was a fandom that trashed a canon female love interest a lot for a male character who was, in retrospect, pretty plain, though he was canonically sleeping with the hero. (was it love? is jack harkness even capable of loving men who aren't the doctor? who knows.) & i was at an age where that was very attractive because of internalized misogyny reasons, and i got sucked in headfirst. torchwood was probably my first fandom where people engaged with the canon through shipping and nothing else, there was barely any genfic (in my recollection of this particular time) and that was very unusual to me as well. i didn't like the vibe of canon and in fact this was the very first fandom i engaged with without having seen most of the source material, the BNFs were very aloof & also all knew each other & i remember feeling very small and lurker-y, & i was constantly reading genuinely terrible fic in my desire to see gwen get bashed. honestly it's a wonder that i spent so long in it now that i think about it. (in spite of this paragraph, i'm sure torchwood fans are lovely people, and that the fandom has changed a lot since i was in it, around like 2009. it just was not the right fandom for me at that time, & my interpretations of the torchwood characters is forever colored by those interactions.)

re:mcu... look, i lived through the sherlock fandom at the height of the johnlock conspiracy & came away thinking that most accounts of how crazy the fandom were at that time were wildly overblown. the mcu fandom, immediately before and immediately after civil war, was much, much worse.

Q / A SHIP YOU’VE ABANDONED hmm, i don't know if i really... abandon ships? like, even with torchwood, although the whole of canon & fandom has lost its shine for me, i still, like, vaguely ship janto, & another fandom that i abandoned (not because of the fandom but because the canon was. problematique.), if you made me, i would admit i still ship my original otp. i was talking with someone last night, though, about how i've outgrown writing obligatory heterosexual pairings to align with characters' "canon" sexualities. so... i've abandoned, like, the concept of het ships? if i have a ship & they happen to be het it's probably because i found something really compelling about them to offset the hetness (faithshipping!! 😂). another thing that changes more often than what i ship is how i ship it, the character dynamics i like writing and reading.

uh, maybe crowstiel from supernatural. by the time they started interacting again in s10 after cas’s betrayal of dean for crowley in s6, it was clear that the vibe the writers were going for was not "bitter exes" but "bitter exes of the same man who hate each other." (still ship it though!!)

T / ANY HEADCANONS YOU WILL DIE DEFENDING ahhh this is another hard one! (all of these are hard!) because i am a very big proponent of having flexible headcanons. it is important to me that all of my fics take place in visibly different universes! that a character never has the same hobbies twice, or the same made-up sibling names, or the same adaptation of their canon backstory. (i tend to have more like. actual fact hills to die on.) however, these are five immutable facts of the universe:

izayoi aki tops, except with divine, which is another reason that relationship is toxic [yu-gi-oh! 5d's]

merlin literally fucked up his own destiny because he loved arthur too much (i swear i posted about this before? apparently not) [bbc merlin]

magneto has super-complicated feelings about the twins not really being his children. was he a dick to them? super mega yes. is the party line for mutants now that cosplaying your mutant status is like the worst thing you can do, even if unintentiontally? yes. does he still love them & his almost-grandchildren? yes. [616]

steve rogers was born in 1920 at the earliest and my personal preference is 1922 or 1923 even though i know this directly contradicts "canon"; therefore he is the youngest member of the avengers until wanda & pietro (and technically vision) [mcu]

in the good mcu that lives in my head (not something i would want to see in canon unless very thoughtfully done for the reasons discussed here), wanda & pietro are romani and jewish and definitely, 100%, did not "volunteer" for hydra experiments [mcu]

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