#rlly hot with a bloody nose tho…

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What's incel taru's eyesight? Like I cannot see well at all without my glasses and he is putting it on his darling to jerk off?

WONDERFUL QUESTION!! i’m a glasses user myself n i’ve always just imagined his vision as mine but slightly worse (as if that helps you understand at all)!! i’m nearsighted plus i have astigmatism… i don’t know my prescription tho soz so you’ll have to imagine this the way i describe it!!

inceltaru can see relatively perfect for about a foot in front of him but after that it gets very blurry very quickly. if you’re familiar with diopters, he’s around a -3.5 in my head. if he was stirred out of bed with desperate thirst, he could walk to his fridge for a cold mountain dew easily considering he’s familiar with his apartments layout. if he needed to grab a cup of actual water?? he’s putting on the glasses. he won’t be able to successfully get and fill the cup without knocking 10 other cups on the ground or gratuitously overfilling it and making a mess. inceltaru can and will put them on his beloved to jerk off since he’ll be keeping them right below his dick the whole time anyways. he’ll be hunched over and squinting just a tiny bit to get a good look at you but it’s kind of adorable. he’ll fuck you with them on you too!! his nose will be pretty much touching yours the whole time so he can properly engrain the sight in his head without it being blurry…

tldr; he can’t see very well but won’t let that stop his degeneracy!!

[valssecretshit]

🌡🤧😩🌸🕯👃😭✨🤝

BLOODY PAINTER!!!

📝: (bpxpuppeteer??)

anything for u on this fine halloween night

🌡 helen tbh runs cold. he’s very skinny and gets cold soooo so easily. he does get fevers quite often though. he’s shivering, getting hot and cold flashes pretty much every 20 minutes, shuddering every time it happens. and it’s a slow burn too.

🤧 his sneezes sound like “h-hIT-DDSCHU!” he usually sneezes in doubles or triples, and they’re pretty wet tbh lol. not messy, but there’s spray.

😩 again, doubles and triples for this guy. he may have fits of maybe 5 but that’s only if he’s around an allergen. when he’s sick though the fits are surprisingly rare.

🌸 he’s not allergic to flowers at all lol. surprisingly. sorry to say

🕯he is allergic to cats! and bunnies. any animal with fur p much. surprisingly though he’s not allergic to smile dog.

👃 his nose isn’t too sensitive tbh. it’s only sensitive around cats. it does twitch a lot tho. when something makes contact or brushes against it. you technically CAN make him sneeze if you tap his nose a certain way.

😭 oh he def downplays them. tbh he’s pretty careless abt himself when he’s sick so he needs some encouragement to care for himself. he will complain if he needs to eat, take medicine, get up out of bed, shower, do anything rlly. he just wants to sleep. usually he’ll whine just like a bitchy “oh bother.” or “good grief…”

✨ def cats!!! get ur furry friends of any species and put it up against him, that’ll do it. however, rolled up tissue paper should do the trick. wont take very long to make him sneeze the first time but he def will not sneeze more than 3 times. you wont get much out of him.

🤝 again, he doesn’t care to take care of himself when he’s sick. since his main symptom when sick is usually painful headaches and really bad vomiting, he’s malnourished and severely anemic. he’s empty of energy at all. people fussing over him is the last thing he wants on that day, he just wants to sleep and be alone. there have been a few times where he literally did not want to care for himself so bad that he literally was literally throwing up blood, and even then he didn’t want anybody caring for him. puppeteer had to FORCE feed him soup and water and it was just a bad week for them both. pup got vomit on his nice white clothes and helen got knocked in the teeth with the metal spoon. 0-10 would not recommend.

📝 tbh!!!! i think pup will try and make bathing fun for him while he’s sick. just the idea of him carrying helen and humming on their way to the bathroom, putting on some candles THIS IS NOT SEXUAL BTW. helen may be embarrassed as all fuck. but pup will literally order his fave food, have it on the side of the tub for him to eat while he just soaks in the warm water. he pours cold water on him slowly when he has hot flashes and lets him soak in the bath water when he has cold flashes. helen ultimately after so much disapproval and fussing about bathing just gives in and actually relaxes in the tub. he feels pretty bad afterwards. cus he fussed over nothing. but he’s ultimately pretty clingy to pup for a good hours after the bath. since he has no energy to cloth and dry himself off, pup helps dress him and dry his hair and put him back to bed, in baggy clothing that is NOT vomit soaked lol.

[kart0]

meds update plus rant: day 10

I knooow, I knowww no one cares and this is a blog just for me but I'm sorry I skipped day 7 ! I got so overwhelmed and cried a lot and I just forgot to do it, I was rlly tired

anyways, honestly I can't remember at all what happened...

I did have a pretty bad mental breakdown, because I had to do a writing for uni and it took me 6 hours to finally do it. I was sitting in my desk my notebook opened in front of me and my iPad with the article opened and I just. I just couldn't. and it's hard to explain when someone asks "well what have you been doing in these 6 hours you were procrastinating ?" because. I literally did not do anything. I was definitely stressed and paranoid tho. I kept opening twitter and closing it bc I had one thing in mind and it was "do the writing. do the writing." and it kept going on repeat and... sigh... if I at least used these hours to relax or have fun, just, no, I didn't and I didn't do anything. I don't know why, it is always so frustrating. but I was able to eventually and it took me only 20 minutes to do so.

everything was going alright. I submitted my writing ( at 3am ), then went to uni, took 2 exams which were in pairs so it went fairly well. I was really, really happy with myself cuz even tho it took me 6 hours to do it I actually did everything I had to do.

and then I had another writing to do. and it started well ! for 2 minutes

and then I procrastinated for 7 hours. at 11pm I was already sobbing because I was so frustrated with myself. it's so easy ! just do it ! just start it ! you have to do it then just do it it's that fucking obvious ! and at 1am my dad entered my room ( originally to scold me for being awake at that hour ) and he saw my red nose and puffy eyes and asked me why I was crying, and I said because I had to do this project. and he then said "do it then" and left the room and I started crying again. I really hate myself. and then, at 3am I realised i wouldn't be able to do this work, and also I had to study for the exam I'd have on that day. so I went to sleep. and I felt so incredibly defeated. I lost. I always lose in the end, no matter how much I'm working hard, or how good things are going, bc the previous day I had managed to do it, and then it all fell apart.

of course i struggled with the exam and I failed my test. and when I got back home I just laid in bed and I felt really...weird. like. definitely bad but I felt really. idk, but it was bad. I couldn't do anything, I couldn't cry, I wasn't able to focus on social media at least to distract myself, I couldn't sleep. I also had not eaten anything basically all day which definitely did not help at all and I think in fact it made things worse

but then now is day 10. and I am done with my exams. I went to a bday party ( that was on a bar ) and I had a bloody Mary for the first time. it was good. caught up with some old friends. I'm really proud of myself for staying alive, taking my meds and not forgetting a single day, even if I might not be able to take every time at the same hour oof. but I feel proud I think.

I definitely need to checkout on a adhd/add specialist, my current therapist is more focused on depression and grieving haha. there are some days like today that I really feel hopeful for my future. and I feel like I really want to improve. but it's rather rare, most of the time I want to die and feel like I'm condemned to live miserably forever

as for side effects, I don't remember if I said it but sometimes my hands shake pretty bad and my body feels weird and hot and I can't focus, but it usually lasts 10 minutes and then I'm alright. this only happened 3 times that I remember. I also lost basically all my appetite which... is definitely bad because uhm I have an eating disorder and body image issues so I'm like, torn. I'm happy that I'm not eating but I don't like that I'm celebrating this thoughts I don't want them to win yet at the same time I'm thinking how much weight I'm going to lose and unfortunately it excites me. I'm trying to eat properly. I also became really tired on the last two days, like really really tired and sleepy all day but when I go to sleep I suddenly get anxious and it'll take me longer to sleep. for now I think that's all.

I hope things get better for me. this update was long, and I apologize. I will try to keep up with the schedule I made. goodnight :•]

[skzfairies]

— YURI MOMENTS THAT DONT FEEL REAL.

tag list: @shinyddeonghwa @ateezjuliet

— SHOWING HER BUTT TO EXPLAIN WHY ITS ONE BUTT, TWO BUTT CHEEKS.

okay so that live was very chaotic.. and even tho the members prevented anyone from showing their butt on making gestures w their hands, yuri was too quick for anyone to pull her down 😭

shes a runner shes a track star 🎶

ANYWAYS she was sitting in the back, so she quickly like backed away from the table, and the members were too busy arguing to even notice her rip

but she stood up quickly and turned around and went “one CHEEK, TWO CHEEK, ONE BUTT.” she deadass pointed to each of her buttcheeks and then circled around her whole butt 😭

the boys were like 😳😳YURI SIT DOWN

she just rolled her eyes and sat back down, some can hear her say “i’m too hot for this” or “idiots”, but it’s too quiet to rlly hear her 😭😭

— SHE’S REALLY INTERESTED IN GIRLS, APPARENTLY

hongjoong and yuri were doing a vlive and hongjoong was reading comments while yuri was drawing on her hand, we don’t know what she was drawing but do we want to know is the question 😀

hongjoong and yuri were doing a vlive and hongjoong was reading comments while yuri was drawing on her hand, we don’t know what she was drawing but do we want to know is the question 😀

hongjoong read the question, “is there anything you ‘re really interested in lately?” hongjoong gave his answer and looked over to yuri and she was.... still not listening

so hongjoong was like .... YURI and he repeated the question and she was just like “girls”, it was a while until yuri realized what she just said ... and hongjoong was trying his hardest not to laugh 😭😭 she slowly looked up and looked at the camera then hongjoong like 😳😳 and then 🤭

“i meant it interested in girl groups, i really like red velvet recently...yeah...didn’t complete my sentence. i don’t speak korean very well... sorry.”

yuri is still pulling the “i don’t speak korean” card even though SHE HAS BEEN LIVING IN KOREA FOR 5 YEARS NOW 😭😭😭 bestie we know the truth

— “PLEASE SHOW YOUR FEET.”

she read that comment aloud in english... and she looked up in the camera in a disgusted face but was like 😕 quickly after cuz she’s an idol yk 😭

she looked at the camera for awhile, and then she looked at the ceiling for awhile, literally complementing her life rn, she sat there for like, three whole minutes

she was like .... did i really move almost 6,000 miles away from my home just to be asked to show her feet to the camera ???

she quickly moved on from the subject and never addressed it again 😭

— “I MET THE LOVE OF MY LIFE THE OTHER DAY.”

ateez was doing a vlive together and everyone was sharing their tmi, and it was finally yuri’s turn so she was like 😏😏

“i met the love of my life the other day” she said, looking at the camera and back to reading the comments, ignoring the looks of suprise the boys were giving her, she was hiding her laugh behind her sweater paw hand until hongjoong was like “you need to explain more than that!”

she had to laugh for awhile until she was like “i met blaise’s cats the other day, and both of them are literally my soulmates. i don’t think i’ll ever meet someone who will ever make me as happy as them. besides atiny of course.” yuri chuckled, smirking when all of the boys rolled her eyes

“cant believe we were replaced by cats...” mingi grumbled.

— YURI COMPLIMENTING HERSELF WHEN NO ONE WOULD

ANOTHER group vlive

yuri is so chill in her solo lives but when she’s with her members... she says a lot of stuff that never will be real to me 😭

all of them were just reading comments and yuri said “i look so hot today and it’s literally a crime that none of you are complimenting me. atiny, ateez, your status from being my favorite person is being revoked.”

THE BOYS LITERALLY IGNORED HER until jongho was like “it’s a crime that we have to see your ugly face everyday”

AND MINGI JOINED IN ON THE YURI SLANDER 😭😭😭 THE BETRAYAL

“yeah, and you’re so annoying too. how do you think we feel?”

“shut up, without me, you wouldn’t know how to crack an egg without getting the shells every where.” yuri huffed, causing mingi to scream in denial, while san just whistled ... because it was true

yuri took matters in her own hands and walked up to the camera and showed off her beautiful outfit and then she posed for atiny to take screenshots for awhile, before sitting back down and acting like nothing happened

she even pretended to not hear wooyoung say “atiny please save us, shes like this everyday. i don’t know how much of her ego i can handle.” but she for sure tackled him when they got home

— FACE PLANTING IN THE MIDDLE OF VLIVE

so yuri was walking into a vlive that seonghwa and hongjoong were doing (she always interrupts them, only to be called the problem child 😳)

so she was skipping into the view waving and smiling when she missed her step and she went BOOM right onto the floor on her face 😀

you could hear a loud smack to the ground and seonghwa panically turned around to make sure she was okay, only to find her laughing hysterically

she ended up getting a bloody nose and she didn’t even realize until she stood up and looked in the camera

“um...i’ll be right back guys.” she left and you can hear her yell in the hall “THAT WAS SO EMBARSSING OH MY GOD I CANT ANYMORE.” i’m english and both hongjoong and seonghwa had to hold in their laughter 😭😭

she came back and was like “atiny, i’m okay! i think i about scared seonghwa and hongjoong out of their skin though.” she laughed and stayed with them a little longer, until she finally ditched them once mingi was done doing something

she was like “peace out losers💪”