#robooty lifestyle

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another wonderful day of yaif

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the way i get up up to date with shit going on is by going on incognito on youtube to listen to my yandere gf asmr and then seeing the thumbnails that are hot trending videos on the homepage before i search up my lady to lull me into dreamland

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downloaded the eiji (pronounced ig. like instagram) kiri-whatshisname again 😏 so i can see my best friend's stories... been making a few banger posts maiself tho

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i go on novel updates i find something that fucking sucks i read 300 chapters of it and i quit before the ending that i read the entire thing for (it ends at chapter 304) then repeat. sisyphus grindset

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MY MOMS CHICKEN PARMASEAN WAS SO FUCKING GOOOOOODDD OUYTGWISIS (sorry no pic of the food .. ate that shit up!)

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guys i made a egg sandwich because legoshi eats one in beastars right but that shit had the devil in it like i made it and ate 3/4 of it and i liked it even it tasted great but oh my god within 15 minutes it made me nauseous it gave me a tension headache it made me feverish i literally was woozy and wobbling and hitting the wall stumbling to my bed to lay down and i had to take a nap and when i woke up i took two tylenols and i felt okay enough to do my tasks and shit but goddamn i still have a light tension headache i took another tylenol like that egg sandwich genuinely is demonic i dont know what caused it to be so vile it literally wreaked havoc on my poor little temple body

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my big beautiful his favorite collection ٩( ᐛ )و today i begin my reread of the series once again (ignore germany body pillow being used to prop up the books)

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fr every girl ive met whos had a boyfriend while im their friend has confided in me that they wish they could get their boyfriend pregnent to trap him forever. this is a pattern they keep telling me this shit unprovoked while were like watching a movie or something

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so guys i have this terrible terrible habit of playing mein music in the car with the windows down (acquired from shea chan from real life) and i dont give a fuck tho like i will have my asdf movie songs playing at the stop light or schoolhouse rock or fanservice anime openings blasting and im like lol whateva. but recently i was playing le spice girls and i fetl SHAME. SHAME. HOT, THICK, STEAMY, AND A LITTLE BIT SALTY SHAME CRAWLED DOWN MY ORGANS I WAS LIKE BRUH MOMENT and i even pulled my windows up a little and everyone ive told this to though has been like wtf and said my asdfmovie 12 song blasting is 1000x more aids than listening to spice girls (normal) so i would like u all to take a moment and vote for le country

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had the most autism filled experience recently cuz i was sitting at a bench during lunch texting mein bro wif blank face right and on the other side of the bench was a friend group goofing around and yknow when you're with your friends and you make jokes about the environment and people around you? well that day i was wearing my black rainboots and had my red backpack and one of them went "i hate people with black rainboots and red backpacks" in a joking manner but my automatic reaction was to immediately look up from my phone and stare him directly in the eyes and also widen my eyes as large as i could because i like to do that when i look at people sometimes and i also didnt even tilt my head all the way up so i was someone slightly looking up at him and i still had my neutral stone face expression and he went "a- uhm- i was joking 😅" AND I ONLY THEN DID I REALIZE THAT WAS NOT A NORMAL WAY TO REACT TO SOMEONE SO I WAS LIKE AHHAHA ITS OKAY! and waved my hands and went back to mein phone and then 2 min later the guy left. straight up i do not know why i did that

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dinner ^_^

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tried doing the hourly comics day thing but it didnt work out so i drew this and forgor about it until now

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Robooty Reviews: Oni To Tengoku (8.9/10) ROBOOTY PERSONAL FAVORITE

(in my heart its a 10/10)

Atsurou Aoki is an english teacher who has some mad fuckin self esteem issues. hes our beautiful pathetic man protag and he ends up tangled up in a relationship of sorts with the school nurse, Manabu Tengoku. Its a dry premise and honestly the first volume requires you to sludge through a lot of average yaoi evil shit but please please please im begging you endure okay. i have been an oni to tengoku-er since 2019 and ive been following the development of the sequel (oni to tengoku sai) and the (now third) sequel (oni to tengoku kyuu) of this series and GOD. ILL BE REAL IM A MANIAC AND PROBABLY GOT A LOT MORE OUT OF THIS SERIES THAN THE AUTHOR INTENDED AT ALL BUT IDGAF PLEASE READ IT PERHAPS YOU CAN EXPERIENCE THE SAME ENLIGHTENING AS ME. READ MORE HAS SPOILERS BE WARNED (PART 1 CUZ OF TUMBLR IMAGE LIMIT)

this will be a little different than usual because i have a whole lot to say about aoki and tengoku. Really, a lot of this will be just talking about how and why i like their relationship so if you end up liking this you should most definately read the full manga to experience it for yourself

Despite all the fuckin bullshit of the first volume, the manga is really fucking good at interweving in its core themes and setting up the psychological basis of Aoki. Aoki was abused by his mother as a child, but i think the depiction of abuse is really realistic because even though she whittles down his self esteem and makes him feel worthless she hugs him afterwards and still is motherly towards him, this aoki doesnt hate his mother and fully cut her off per say but she is a demon to him. its pretty realistic imo where parents can do awful things but they buy you a donut and then its like ermm well.. they bought me a donut and do this in my best interest so its okay. Aoki is fucked in the head though. because he doesnt feel like he can be loved deep down and his entire career path is something he chose only because it was expected of him by his family (and his entire life is grasping at straws in an attempt to not disappoint people)

he wants more than anything to just not be an embarassment and be "worthy" of being loved. I like how this is depicted because again it feels more realistic in that he isnt outwardly a freak about it or anything he doesnt have breakdowns in public or anything thats enough to warrent himself to feel like he needs to get help. but he definately does need help of some sort because his way of thinking and the constant guilt and shame he feels is just something thats normal to him now. hes just tired and a bit worn down, but its not like anything is exceptionally bad, since humans are surprisingly adaptable and hes just lived with feeling like hes an embarassment who disappoints people his entire life so its norm.

Tengoku obviously doesnt mean it in the way aoki is taking is. but its things like this that make the themes feel well interwoven to me. Aoki doesnt look tengoku in the eye and say "i have mommy issues and feel like being an embarassment is the reason i cant be loved" but he still shows it in a way that we the audience can see he means, since we can put together aoki's lifestyle and viewpoint from his inner dialogues and flashbacks to his mother's abuse. Aoki wants more than anything else to be a good boy because only good boys can be loved. and unfortunately for aoki san this kind of means he has developed a praise kink and good boy fetish which tengoku just naturally leans towards so erm haha tengoku just pushing those buttons all willy nilly!

Tengoku isnt an idiot though, as he pursues aoki he can definately connect the dots and all that shit for how aoki ticks. This isnt exactly hard to do anyways, since aoki passively talks about himself to tengoku during non crazy scenes and its not like hes an enigma or anything because again, he thinks that the way he lives is completely normal for a guy like him. Tengoku likes aoki and chases him and aoki isnt exactly a willing participant. Tengoku likes aoki because hes a fun plaything and interesting and pure hearted and everything tengoku is not and aoki begins to form an affection for tengoku because he itches the mental illness brain damage spot by pursuing and wanting him consistently and not getting bored.

These panels are true brain damage pages because it hits upon how all aoki wants is for someone to look at him directly and still want him. His greatest wish (that he doesnt even believe could come true at the bottom of his heart) is to have someone that could see him for who he is and despite all his flaws. despite how hes useless, despite how hes not good at anything (to him), despite how hes bad at relationships, despite how he cant talk with other people, and despite what an embarassment he is, still love and want him. Seriously, I must recommend you to read this for yourself. Theres the yaoi bullshit sludge but every chapter has bits and pieces of Aoki's mindset that is an insanely good representation and depiction of how that kind of mentality and acceptance is like.

Volume 2 is where things really pick up. Yaoi sludge has been toned down to make way for FUCKING SWAG!!!! the set up for aoki's mentality is done now were onto getting into the way tengoku and aoki's personalities actually interact with eachother. Along with dipping into tengokus crazy bitch syndrome

Over this volume, were shown that actually aoki and tengoku are a good match for eachother. At least, tengoku provides something special for aoki in that he doesnt know from personal experience the feeling of needing to earn love, but because of that he bounces off well with aoki because he shows basic interest in going "well your feelings and thoughts do matter though. youre a person too". this isnt explicitly said, but its little things liks this that end up making aoki fall in love with him. Aoki falling in love with tengoku is also interesting because this is his first time actively liking someone else because its what he wants, not because its what the other person expects. Despite how terrible their relationship was at first, it set a ground where Aoki was able to create a strong connection with someone without the initial fear of disappointing them since he even didnt like tengoku at first. Honestly with the way Aoki is I think that is why hes able to love tengoku out of his volition, since he already has shown his shameful parts to him and tengoku still wants him-- in fact tengoku is the only person who has seen Aoki's shame and refused to let him go, this lets Aoki take a breather and think about what HE desires for once instead of how to keep someone with him or do whats good for the other person/not shameful.

Also a new teacher is introduced who actually is one of the many guys Tengoku had play-boyed before who became a teacher just so he could try to win tengokus love lol. but he serves as a plot device for that yaoi jealousy arc WOOOHOOOO! I love the jealousy chapter a lot though because BOTH CHARACTERS experience jealousy in their own way. I'm not sure if what Aoki experiences can be classified under jealousy or not, but ill just say it is because thats easier. The chapter is wonderfully done though because see Tengoku has always been the one who chases Aoki but also the one who reminds him that he doesnt fall in love this is just a sex playboy thing. Aoki is the one who has fallen in love and does show this by treating Tengoku specially, but Tengoku obviously doesnt reciprocate this since the way he acts at least is more like Aoki is his favorite of a bunch of toys rather than his one and only like how Aoki sees him. Aoki feels bitterness over this because he wishes he could be loved by Tengoku since Tengoku is somewhat wishy washy and gives Aoki just enough to keep hope but also smushes that hope by refusing a drop more. (this is done though bc this is fucking yaoi ofc tengoku loves aoki to bits and pieces back but tengoku is just scared of liking aoki too much and showing it too much but hold on we havent gotten to tengokus insanity yet jeeeesus christ!). Also im kind of at the tumblr 10 image limit but I think showing these next three pages are really important so ermm me when i post this and then add a reblog or two with MORE BULLSHIT. I'll properly tag the versions with my reblogs