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junkie-virus · 2 years

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oh also went to dentist & its not the bestest lol but at lwast my fear isnt as bad (no pain !!!! im not used 2 that !!!!! very painful past experiences as a child) (i was shaking & on the verge of tears but this is irrelevant) but also i cant eat sweets anymore :( (at least for three weeks)

#ro rambles #my dental hygiene isnt the best for many reasons ramging from personal 2 neurodivergent but im trying #scare tactics have nevef rlly worked for me bc its like. i know these things & theyll just make me freeze & beat myself up when i cant or #dont do it lol #i want . to take care of myself. i am reminding myself i deserve ot #very hard bc its always framed as this rich ppl or privileged ppl thing #& REAL poor ppl/working class ppl just tough it put bc we dont have a choice #i dont want struggling or toughing it out as a part of my identity i thinm #i try so hard to be ‘low maintenance’ & that just means straight up neglecting myself & saying nothing when asked #plus just the amount of shame i feel & othwrs spread arpumd it #I WANNA BE BETTER. I WILL BE BETTER. I LOVE MYSWLF. I WILL CONTINUE LIVING & GROWING & I WILL BE HAPPY #I WILL BE BETTER. & I LOVE MYSELF.#okay this is getting very weepy now i think thats all. um wish me luck #goodbye

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