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only two days after her return to the city she took a break from, seoah is already working into the night for her latest drama project — the identity of her co-star not yet revealed to the lover she only just reunited with two weeks ago. she tries her best to keep all movements as quiet as possible, a smile brightening her tired features once she spots the familiar silhouette in her living room. with light steps, she drops her bag to the coffee table and bends over to press a kiss on his forehead, only for her to mentally slap herself when she accidentally wakes him. “hey there.” she whispers, her tone apologetic before it turns playful. “you should be in bed — or is my sofa that comfortable?”
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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐒 / PAK SEOAH — VERSE III.
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟏 : 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄
NAME: pak seoah.
EYE COLOUR: dark brown.
HAIR STYLE /COLOUR: dark brown, almost black. usually in soft wavy curls with wispy bangs.
HEIGHT: 164cm.
CLOTHING STYLE: usually light colours, white matched with pastel or something floral. most often seen in a lacy, silky blouse/top with a mini skirt or dresses.
BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: her smile! i mean, just look at this baby.
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟐 : 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄
FEARS: being unloved and/or abandoned. not amounting to anything at all. to have hurt others unintentionally.
GUILTY PLEASURE: eating a carton of ice cream on her days off while binge-watching cheesy romantic comedies, strawberry is her favourite. drinking a little too much sometimes. writing songs about things and people she should have gotten over, then having to sing them over a long period of time, hence forever reliving the heartache :^)
BIGGEST PET PEEVE: people who are unnecessarily malicious for no reason ( e.g. rude to service workers ), those who outsource their foul mood onto others that do not deserve it
AMBITIONS FOR THE FUTURE: to continue making music. she just loves to write and sing, to provide a safe space and connect with those who listen, awards are only the cherry on top ( though she worries a lot about albums flopping, she just loves her job a lot )
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟑 : 𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒
FIRST THOUGHTS WAKING UP: “can i sleep for another five minutes?”
WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT MOST: lyrics and melodies. lost friends and loves. her next trip to somewhere no one recognises her. her last performance and ways to improve her artistry.
WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT BEFORE BED: pretty words and pretty tunes. things to work on the next day. ghosts from the past. things and learnings she just wrote down in her journal. people she’s wronged and those who have wronged her.
WHAT THEY THINK THEIR BEST QUALITY IS: her empathy.
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟒 : 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓’𝐒 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 ?
SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: single.
TO BE LOVED OR RESPECTED: loved.
BEAUTY OR BRAINS: brains.
DOGS OR CATS: cats! she adores both, but her schedule makes it impossible to tend to pets, especially dogs that require so much attention.
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟓 : 𝐃𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘
… LIE: often. it is a survival skill particularly for someone in the entertainment industry. it is never done with malice, mostly white lies to protect either herself or other people’s feelings. most of the time, she tries to be as authentic as she can be.
BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES: back then, not really, right now, most of the time. every night before sleep, she writes down things that warm her heart or make it ache in her journal. during harder times, she likes the revisit the kind words from her friends to remind herself of what she’s really doing it for.
BELIEVE IN LOVE: yes. still a hopeless romantic at heart despite how much it hurts.
WANT SOMEONE: yes, she is a creature of want. falls in love easily with the things around her. the first snow, the fresh smell of roses from the market, the kindness of strangers. falls in love hard and deep, does not know how to detach easily, often lets it consume her. she’d rather feel too much than not at all.
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟔 : 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 …
BEEN ON STAGE: yes, it is her job to share her sweetest smiles and deepest wounds on stage. her line of work is an oxymoron in itself, having to be both vulnerable on stage yet tough enough off it to not crumble from criticisms.
DONE DRUGS: no. gets offered often enough, turns it down with a polite smile every time. the thought of potentially losing control over her own actions is rather terrifying.
CHANGED WHO THEY WERE TO FIT IN: in her younger years, yes, especially when she found it hard to fit in with the other trainees in the beginning, fortunately she found her crowd soon enough. later in her career, not really, since she has grown more confident in who she is and what she has to offer to the world.
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟕 : 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐒
FAVOURITE COLOUR: the rosé of sunsets.
FAVOURITE ANIMAL: nightingales. small, seemingly fragile things with strong voices.
FAVOURITE BOOK: lately it’s vegetarian by han kang.
FAVOURITE GAME: n/a.
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟖 : 𝐀𝐆𝐄
DAY THEIR NEXT BIRTHDAY WILL BE: 11 november, 2021.
HOW OLD WILL THEY BE: 24.
𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑 𝟎𝟎𝟗 : 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄
I LOVE: wholeheartedly.
I FEEL: everything.
I HIDE : only what i must.
I MISS: feeling at ease.
I WISH: to be understood.
𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 / @phantombs ( thank you ❤️ )
𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆 / @synthes @noctevita @bckdoors @cvvalier @chaosgrieves @celestiialmechanics @spoiledsovls @solisocasum @indeath @theyrisen
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continued from here, @protcsts
“don’t tell me what to do, baby.” she’s missed this. how effortless things are between them, no trying required. it is one of the many perks of being in love with a best friend, someone who knows her thoroughly on every possible level. no words need to be spoken when they know everything by heart. she can recall how apprehensive she was about love and intimacy when she first met him, too wounded to allow herself to be so vulnerable again. it was him who made her change her mind. it was him who made her feel safe enough to drop all her defences and surrender again. surrender to love. surrender to every breathtaking thing it brings. it is almost embarrassing, to be so overcome by emotions in a moment of passion, but sex with him has never been just that. there is so much affection to every touch, every push and pull between them. she cannot resist her smile when he flips them around only to hold her close. closer, closer — she would melt into him if she could, be carried in his heart whenever he goes. the following words only make it worse, each whisper fraught with so much devotion — she is hopeless, hopelessly in love with him. pink lips find the corner of his mouth, hand on his cheek that burns as brightly as hers. “stop trying to make me cry.” she protests and means none of it — she loves him just like this, honest and bare for her. every part that they have hidden from the rest of the world is laid bare in front of each other without fear, not even a flicker. she loses herself to the tender kisses, only for her to stumble when the quickened rhythm sends another surge of bliss through her. “fuck, yes.” she shifts slightly away from him only to catch her breath, steadying herself with her hands gripping his shoulders. it strikes her again how ravishing he looks, falling apart with her. his sun-kissed skin glistening with sweat, cheeks awash with the colour of roses and eyes darkened with so much more than lust. so beautifully gone, irrevocably hers. “you’re going to be the death of me.”
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from here, accepting / @protcsts
i thought i could give you a better life. instead, i’m the reason it’s gotten worse… i’m so sorry. “if you say that one more time, i’m actually going to be mad at you.” it is tragic how things could change over night — one night they were on the top of the world, like they could not thank their lucky stars enough for how things happened according to plan, only for their dreams to dash on another. it is getting harder and harder to be here for him while keeping up with the increasing number of schedules, but she’d choose him over her scarce hours of sleep anytime. he’d do the same for her, wouldn’t he? no questions asked. “you’re not making anything worse, so stop apologising. please.” you don’t know how much you make my life better just by existing. why does he assume that he should be discarded when things get hard? she may not be able to control whatever wicked schemes the management is planning under wraps, but she is nothing like them. she’s still the same seoah she’s always been, the same seoah who stayed awake with him til 3 a.m. to ease his heavy thoughts, just as he has done for her a million times over. she holds his hand with her own, as if afraid he’d slip away anytime. he is already slipping away. if she could take all this pain away from him, she would do it in a heartbeat regardless of the cost. she hates this too. hates how she can’t make it better for him. hates watching him suffer without knowing anything else she could do besides being here. “just focus on yourself, okay? don’t worry about me.” she’ll be fine. she’ll be strong enough for both of them. “just let me be here for you. i want to.”
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from here, accepting / @neokitsched
please don’t look at me like that… “stop looking at you like what?” like she’s looking at a kicked puppy — but that is exactly how she looks at him. like she’s watching someone writhe in pain, despite the disguises he clings to so readily. it is strange how a man who easily towers over her can look so small here when they’re finally alone. eunki might be a wonderful actor — a marvellous one, even — but she has learnt to read him well after the years of steady friendship and he is not fooling her. she’s already made her manager clear the space first, so it should be safe for the time being, but one can never be too careful in their position. people love talking about the likes of them a little too much, the shining stars and their made-up dalliances. their names passed around as post-dinner entertainment in whispers and giggles. as if they’re only caricatures from their imagination, instead of real people with breakable bones. as if they’re less human than them, as if the toxicity is something they should tolerate in peace just because of their chosen career. it would not be the first time the pair of friends are rumoured to be dating and god knows eunki does not need more hungry eyes on him now. with another glance shot over her shoulders, she shuts the door close before her gaze returns to him. it is warm and full of concern — you don’t have to lie to me. “a hug?” her gaze briefly wanders to the bottle of wine on the coffee table, already laid out for their convenience. “ — or a drink? you look like you could use a bit of both.”
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mun related, accepting.
◈ — share some headcanons that you have for a muse of your choosing
— pak seoah, verse iii.
drinks coffee daily but only the sweetest types only since she hates bitterness, only drinks black when she is absolutely exhausted but still has things to do. it gives her jitters and she doesn’t like it.
been writing songs since she’s 12, about stories she’s read in books and movies and on tv shows. sang them like she went through the heartbreak before she even had a proper first kiss :^)
usually the Mom friend who takes care of everyone and makes sure they’re well-fed and listened to. she’s the type who invites newcomers to join the conversation and ask for their opinions so they won’t feel awkward or left out.
loves flowers, used to garden a lot growing up and finds it soothing to watch seedlings grow into something pretty. would love to have a greenhouse or a nice garden in the future. dream proposal spot? a flower field, take notes c:
her most dominant love language is touch. she does it mindlessly. a hand over her lover’s when they gush about their day. head on their lap when she reads. fingers grazing when they walk together. soft kisses on cheeks, knuckles, everywhere. warm hugs when she greets her friends.
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